When i woke up i was in the house and there were lights everywhere, i could hear distant sirens and then I looked up and my vision got clearer and there was someone standin over me.
"Can you hear me,".
I felt like i was swimmin, i slowly turned my head and i saw Ryans dad lyin on his back covered in blood. I started cryin and then i heard someone say, "shes alive,".
I dont remember what happened next, i jus remember bare lights and me swimmin and then bein lifted up and me not bein able to move my head.
All i could hear were faint voices and like i felt that i was half asleep.
I just remember a tear rollin down my left eye.
Then i remember bein in a bed and then fallin asleep.
"Deena," I woke up.
There was a doctor standin next to me, "Deena how do you feel."
My entire body was in pain.
"Deena, my name is Dr.Cox, I operated on you yesterday,"
"Operated?".
"You were shot Deena- we were able to remove the bullet but-"
I started cryin, "I was shot?".
"Deena, the police want to talk you, did you see who shot you," he asked.
I cried and just cried, "what about-"
"The man in the house was also shot- he's in a stable condition- Deena did u see who shot u,"
I cried.
"No," i said.
"Deena someone's here to see you," he said.
I cried.
The Dr left the room.
Rochelle walked in and sat next to the bed.
I looked at her and cried, she stroked my face with the back of her hand, i couldnt even say anyfin.
"Dr Cox told u what happened to you yeah?", she asked.
I cried.
"Deena who did this," she asked.
"I dont know," i sobbed, "i didnt see anythin,"
My legs were in a cast.
"Why are my legs in a cast," i asked.
She looked and said, "Deena- they dont know if ull walk again."
I turned my head and started sobbin.
I just cried, she kept sayin "its gonna be ok, its gonna be ok,"
"They might need to perform an operation on you-" she said, "and you might lose a lot of blood and so they've found someone with your blood type just in case you need blood."
"Get out," i said. I couldnt feel anythin in my legs. They were jus numb.
"Why are u even here," i screamd, "u hate me!".
"I dont hate u Deena- im here to help u," she said.
"I dontneed ur help- I just need ryan," i said cryin, i sobbed so hard.
"Deena," she said, "You might not walk again and you need to understand that no matter what happens to you you need to be strong,you need to carry on tough ok,"
"Get out!", i screamed.
"NO!", she shouted back, "im not leavin u here like this."
I looked at her and started cryin, i felt empty and lost.
"Deena, the feds are gonna come in here and talk 2 u about protection," she said.
"protection," i said tryin my best not to cry when i realized that i felt absolutely nothin in my leg.
"Whoever tried to shoot u might try again," she said.
"Who- who shot me Rochelle?", i wept, she hugged me and i wept so hard i felt like my insides were gonna fall out of my eyes, uno them hard cries like where ur whole body shakes.
"Deena, im gonna go see Dr.Cox about gettin in contact with your nan ok, ill be righ back," she said.
Then she left.
And when i was alone, for the first time in my life I prayed and i prayed that If God would give me another chance, I would change and do better and that i would- i started cryin as i closed my eyes to finish my prayer, then someone came in and closed the door.
I looked up.
They locked the door and looked at me, we were look at each other.
And then i knew it, "You did dis, you shot me, how did u get out! how did u get here, how the fuck did u get out."
They looked fumin. Then they pulled out a strap.
"Im doin this for Ryan."
"Please no," i cried.
"Scream and ill shoot straight away," they said.
"Why would u do dis," i cried, "why would u shoot me."
They didnt say anythin and then held the gun up and said, "I saw our mum today for the first time,"
And then I knew it.
"No no," i said, "nah nah it aint- it aint u- it cant be u- u cant be-"
"That's right Deena, the baby in the picture was me."
"YOU FUCKIN BASTARD!", I screamed.
Then he aimed at me and pulled the trigger.
"That's Olefumi to you."
http://andhernamewassaisha.blogspot.com/2010/09/chapter-1-part-one.html
Thursday 27 May 2010
DEENA SKET FINALE (68 PART 2, 69)
68 PART 2
He pulled the trigger.
I screamed as Sorcha hit the ground. Damon laughed.
"Its empty u bosh, where's my money," he said.
Sorcha got up cryin.
"Deena leave," he said, "before man decides to take u back with me."
I looked at Sorcha and kissed my teeth and then suttin hit me, how did she know about the business with my sister. I made my way to leave the room but as i did Damon grabbed me by my waist and said, "wait,"
He kissed my neck.
"Aint you goin Ryans funeral?", he askd me.
I shook my head.
"You know he was a gay bosh yeah?", he said, "he used to get lined up by old white breddas in soho for 2 bags a week,"
I looked at Sorcha, she looked away from me.
"You didnt know?", Damon laughed, "why u fink he set up Diane, she wanted a piece of that dough and he werent givin her none so she started runnin her mouf,"
I looked up at him, "please let me go," i said.
"Sorcha wheres my money," he asked her.
She pointed to bag, "you were gonna run wiv it," he laufed.
He picked up the bag and said, "alright girls ill be on my-" then he looked at my tits and licked them, "you know what," he said, "i dont feel like goin."
I looked at Sorcha, "Us three are gonna fuck, and if anyones got a problem wiv it man might just have to take out my real stap and delegate a few bullets in your pussies."
"Please no," i said.
"Sorcha come ere,"he said.
He was sexy, but my body was still numb, my pussy had stopped hurtin but i was still upset about everythin. Sorcha walked toward us.
"Lips her,"
I looked at him and said, "no please,"
I was so shocked about what i had just found out about Ryan that my whole mind was a mess.
"Lips her,"
Sorcha slowly grabbed my face and kissed me.
At first if felt weird but then my pussy got wet and then i started rollin my tongue around her mouth as we rubbed tits togehter, i was jus doin dis so Damon would leave me alone, the second i had the oppurtunity i was gonna duss.
"lets go the room," damon said.
I looked at Sorcha, she was cryin, she had nuthin, no money, no passport, no ticket to france, no adam. The three of us went up into the room.
As we walked in, i noticed the key to Sorcha's room on the floor, i slyly acted like i had to scratch my foot, i put the key in my jeans pocket.
he lay on sorchas bed.
"ur both gonna suck my dick,"
He pulled off his jeans, took off his ed hardy tshirt and pulled down his boxers. His dick was harder than a day in Wiley's career. Sorcha looked at me as if to say play along so I did, we both took off ourclothes , my tits were still in pain as me and sorcha leaned over the dick and started lips with the dick in between our mouths.
We were both lipsin the dick, my mouth was over the dick and sorchas tongue was runnin up and down the dick as damon squeezed both our asses.
I was so horny, it felt bare wrong, i sucked the dick so hard, he was playin with my pussy, it felt kind of nice to have soft hands there, i was tryin to block out the image of all the tings i had seen, what happened to me at that party, the whole shit with smurkz and then ryan and then icey, all of it.
Damons eys were closed and then he'd open them for a bit like he couldnt believe it was really happenin, Sorcha licked my lips and pulled the dick out of my mouth, she sucked it for a bit and then held it to my lips, i sucked it whilst she was holdin it in her hand.
The dick tasted so clean, i didnt wanna stop suckin it, i was getting lightheaded as i sucked it, my pussy started gettin so moist then it made that sound whenever my thighs rubbed together, Sorcha started bashin him off into my mouth. I sucked the top, licked the tip and then slowly deepthroated it, his body tightened up and he clenched his fists.
"AAAAAAAH," he camein my mouth.
Sticky.
When i opened my mouth his cum ran down my lips, Sorcha leaned over and kissed me sucking the cum out of my mouth, lickin it off my lips.
Then as she did it, I said, "you lot wait here, lemme go take a piss and ill be right back."
Sorcha tried to come with me but damon said, "nah i dont trust u sorcha- ull try and run ,"
I put on my clothes and left the room, i shut the door behind me an dkissed my teeth, I locked those fuckers in.
I heard Damon bangin at the door tellin me to unlock it, I ran to the toilet, flushed the key and left the house.
I didnt even know what i was gonna do, where i was gonna go and then somethin hit me, I needed to find out who my sister was, I needed to go back to the Church to see the Priest.
I walked to the church and when I got there, I couldnt believe it. They were havin a funeral.
Ryans funeral.
Chapter 69
I couldnt believe it, people were leavin and goin into the cars, I saw Sorcha's mum and she walked up to me and hugged me, "Oh deena, you're too late, he's already been cremated."
I looked at her, "cremated?". And then something hit me, Diane and Ryans baby had no parents, Diane and Ryan were dead. I started cryin a bit.
She started cryin and got into acar and then I saw Paula with her mum, she looked at me and turned away. Then i saw the Priest, i had to talk to him, i walked into the empty chair to follow him, i followed him down the stairs which led to the church hall but then i lost him, there was bare mess, i think everyone was on their way to ryans parents house, i was crying and then i saw two people rush into the toilets.
I walked into the toilets, it was a proper big church, the toilets were like the ones in school.
I walked into the toilet to see who it was, there were two people in the cubicle and i recognised one of the voices. I went into the cubicle next to it and pressed my ear to the other cubicle. It was two people- fuckin.
Then i knew who one of the people was, it was Ryans dad.
He was bangin someone, and then he said suttin, "What did the Bible Basherwant to talk to you about, is it about what you know about Deena,"
And just as the person was gonna reply, i think ryans dad phone rang and then i heard him the cubicle and rush out of the toilets and then the prson he was with left too.
Who was he with? And what did that person know about me.
I walked out of the toilets to see what i could see and then all i saw was the Priest walkin into the hall dryin his eyes.
I walke dto him.
He looked at me
"Deena,"
"I need to know somethin,"i said.
"Deena this isn the place, ive just had to conduct a funeral for a young lad,".
"Its about the picture u gave me," i said, "how do u knw the baby was a girl?".
"Because it was wearin pink and the name of course."
OMFG. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT BEFORE- If i just asked him for the name that he christend, it would help me find out who my sister was.
"Well, it was an African name, it sounded feminine," the priest said. "ive forgotten what it was,"
"Dont u keep it in record," i asked.
"Deena," he said, "you need to let this go, you dont need all this pressure and upsetness, ve just had to cremate a boy who was stabbed by a thug with no morals, lifes too short to worry about silly things."
"ITS NOT SILLY!," i screamed, "I need to KNOW who my sister is."
"The best person you can speak to is your mother," he said, "she'll have your answers."
He looked at me like he felt sorry for me, I told him to suck out and then I left.
I was so upset, I just started cryin because I realized how fucked up shit was. Ryan.
There were pictures of him all around the church from when he was little, in his uniform, playin football and that.
I left the church and then i saw Ryans dad in the car park withhis head on the wheel cryn.
I knocked on the car window, he looked up at me and rolled down the windows.
"Can i get in," i said.
he didnt say anythin and he opened the car door for me.
I got in and looked at him, he looked an older Ryan and a bit like Sorcha.
"Im sorry," i said, "about ryan."
He started bawlin, "I fucked up with him, i really fucked up,"
I rested my hand on his knee, "lets go somewhere private," i said.
He looked at me and put the key in the ignition and drove out of the car park.
We were headin to East
"Why did u have the funeral in south london," i asked.
"My aunt Shirley's friend Ethel arranges the flowers for the Church and so she helped arrange it," he said cryin.
I didnt even know why i was in his car but i felt safe with him, he was proper big, like he looked like griminal if he was 35 and was on weights.
We got to some house.
"Wheres everyone else," i asked.
"My aunt Shirleys in Brixton, they wont care about where i am- everyones thinkin the same thing,".
"what," i asked.
"that its my fault he's dead," he said, "that if i had been there for him as his dad he wouldnt have gotten into this mess."
I felt so guilty, i wanted to tell him what I knew but i need suttin from him and i knew how i was gonna get it.
We walked into the house.
It was so big, but it was dirty.
He was in a black suit.
"You wanna drink?", he asked.
I shook my head, he walked into the kitchen and came out with what looked like Rum.
"You're a nice girl Deena- what were u doin with a boy like ryan," he asked sippin his glass.
"I loved him," i said.
He sniggered, "Youts talkin about love."
I didnt say anythin and then he said, "im sorry- listen take a seat."
I sat down, i couldnt believe this was sorchas uncle, paulas dad, ryans dad, michelles uncle, the man rochelle grew up believin was her uncle. He was big, his shirt was off now, he was startin to remind me of natalies dad.
"I know your mum," he said sippin his rum.
"You do?", i asked.
He smiled and said, "your mum was my first,".
I froze.
"Your mum could suck dick like her life depended on it- i know tings about ur mum that u dont,"
I wanted to cry but i said, "where did u meet her,"
"Party- 1988, we were both 14, i didnt even know who she was and i fucked the shit out of her in your grandmothers bed,".
He was drunk but i could tell he wasnt lyin, "you know how i found out ryan was fuckin with u?", he asked, "Sorcha, she knew i used to fuck wit ur mudda, i tell sorcha everythin."
He was soundin like he was five, "this house- is where i came when i left ryans mum, i used to fuck so much pussy on this couch, whilst ryan was bein the man of the house lookin after his mum and sister and here i was, fuckin pussy like my life depended on it," he started cryin and then he said, "ryan my boy."
"The police dont care about who killed him cos he was in trouble with them himself apparently, so they just see it as black on black i dont see it like that- i see him as my son," he was screamin and cryin now.
"You know somethin about me," i said.
He looked at me and froze, "i heard you tell someone today that- the person knows somethin about me and you do too."
"Come ere," he said.
I looked at him for a bit and got up slowly, i walked over to him.
He touched my tit with the back of his hand, "be nice to me," he slurred, "and ill tell you what your mum told me."
I kissed him, he tasted of ryan.
I kissed his neck. ryan.
the hands. ryan.
the chest. ryan.
the dick. ryan.
I cried as he flipped me on my back and pulled off my clothes, in my head it was ryan, i held onto him so tight, i felt his dick against my pussy, his tongue against my neck. Ryan.
It was Ryan fuckin my wet cunt, it was ryans dick slidin in and out of me lickin my neck. It was Ryans who hench body was on top of mine givin me the bang, his thick dick strokin every inch of my throbbin pussy, every inch of it in me, "Ryan."
I scratched his back and blew in his hear, he fucked me even harder. Ryan, ryan all over again on top of me, dick in my pussy, tongue in my mouth.
"AAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAAAA RYAN!".
I trembled and came.
I cried out with my hands wrapped around Ryans neck and then he spoke, and it wasnt Ryan, it was his dad and i started cryin again.
His dad got off of me and fell on his back, we were on the floor lyin next to each other pantin.
"You're not your mums first born," he slurred.
"Who is it," i asked.
"I dont know," he said.
"You do," i cried, "please tell me, i know who killed Ryan, tell me and il tell you."
He slowly got up and said, "YOU WHAT."
I jumped up and said, "i know who killed ryan, tell me who my-" He punched me.
All i remember from that time is somethin being smashed across my face and me blackin out. A fist in my jaw and then my hair bein pulled out and somethin fallin out of my mouth.
He pulled the trigger.
I screamed as Sorcha hit the ground. Damon laughed.
"Its empty u bosh, where's my money," he said.
Sorcha got up cryin.
"Deena leave," he said, "before man decides to take u back with me."
I looked at Sorcha and kissed my teeth and then suttin hit me, how did she know about the business with my sister. I made my way to leave the room but as i did Damon grabbed me by my waist and said, "wait,"
He kissed my neck.
"Aint you goin Ryans funeral?", he askd me.
I shook my head.
"You know he was a gay bosh yeah?", he said, "he used to get lined up by old white breddas in soho for 2 bags a week,"
I looked at Sorcha, she looked away from me.
"You didnt know?", Damon laughed, "why u fink he set up Diane, she wanted a piece of that dough and he werent givin her none so she started runnin her mouf,"
I looked up at him, "please let me go," i said.
"Sorcha wheres my money," he asked her.
She pointed to bag, "you were gonna run wiv it," he laufed.
He picked up the bag and said, "alright girls ill be on my-" then he looked at my tits and licked them, "you know what," he said, "i dont feel like goin."
I looked at Sorcha, "Us three are gonna fuck, and if anyones got a problem wiv it man might just have to take out my real stap and delegate a few bullets in your pussies."
"Please no," i said.
"Sorcha come ere,"he said.
He was sexy, but my body was still numb, my pussy had stopped hurtin but i was still upset about everythin. Sorcha walked toward us.
"Lips her,"
I looked at him and said, "no please,"
I was so shocked about what i had just found out about Ryan that my whole mind was a mess.
"Lips her,"
Sorcha slowly grabbed my face and kissed me.
At first if felt weird but then my pussy got wet and then i started rollin my tongue around her mouth as we rubbed tits togehter, i was jus doin dis so Damon would leave me alone, the second i had the oppurtunity i was gonna duss.
"lets go the room," damon said.
I looked at Sorcha, she was cryin, she had nuthin, no money, no passport, no ticket to france, no adam. The three of us went up into the room.
As we walked in, i noticed the key to Sorcha's room on the floor, i slyly acted like i had to scratch my foot, i put the key in my jeans pocket.
he lay on sorchas bed.
"ur both gonna suck my dick,"
He pulled off his jeans, took off his ed hardy tshirt and pulled down his boxers. His dick was harder than a day in Wiley's career. Sorcha looked at me as if to say play along so I did, we both took off ourclothes , my tits were still in pain as me and sorcha leaned over the dick and started lips with the dick in between our mouths.
We were both lipsin the dick, my mouth was over the dick and sorchas tongue was runnin up and down the dick as damon squeezed both our asses.
I was so horny, it felt bare wrong, i sucked the dick so hard, he was playin with my pussy, it felt kind of nice to have soft hands there, i was tryin to block out the image of all the tings i had seen, what happened to me at that party, the whole shit with smurkz and then ryan and then icey, all of it.
Damons eys were closed and then he'd open them for a bit like he couldnt believe it was really happenin, Sorcha licked my lips and pulled the dick out of my mouth, she sucked it for a bit and then held it to my lips, i sucked it whilst she was holdin it in her hand.
The dick tasted so clean, i didnt wanna stop suckin it, i was getting lightheaded as i sucked it, my pussy started gettin so moist then it made that sound whenever my thighs rubbed together, Sorcha started bashin him off into my mouth. I sucked the top, licked the tip and then slowly deepthroated it, his body tightened up and he clenched his fists.
"AAAAAAAH," he camein my mouth.
Sticky.
When i opened my mouth his cum ran down my lips, Sorcha leaned over and kissed me sucking the cum out of my mouth, lickin it off my lips.
Then as she did it, I said, "you lot wait here, lemme go take a piss and ill be right back."
Sorcha tried to come with me but damon said, "nah i dont trust u sorcha- ull try and run ,"
I put on my clothes and left the room, i shut the door behind me an dkissed my teeth, I locked those fuckers in.
I heard Damon bangin at the door tellin me to unlock it, I ran to the toilet, flushed the key and left the house.
I didnt even know what i was gonna do, where i was gonna go and then somethin hit me, I needed to find out who my sister was, I needed to go back to the Church to see the Priest.
I walked to the church and when I got there, I couldnt believe it. They were havin a funeral.
Ryans funeral.
Chapter 69
I couldnt believe it, people were leavin and goin into the cars, I saw Sorcha's mum and she walked up to me and hugged me, "Oh deena, you're too late, he's already been cremated."
I looked at her, "cremated?". And then something hit me, Diane and Ryans baby had no parents, Diane and Ryan were dead. I started cryin a bit.
She started cryin and got into acar and then I saw Paula with her mum, she looked at me and turned away. Then i saw the Priest, i had to talk to him, i walked into the empty chair to follow him, i followed him down the stairs which led to the church hall but then i lost him, there was bare mess, i think everyone was on their way to ryans parents house, i was crying and then i saw two people rush into the toilets.
I walked into the toilets, it was a proper big church, the toilets were like the ones in school.
I walked into the toilet to see who it was, there were two people in the cubicle and i recognised one of the voices. I went into the cubicle next to it and pressed my ear to the other cubicle. It was two people- fuckin.
Then i knew who one of the people was, it was Ryans dad.
He was bangin someone, and then he said suttin, "What did the Bible Basherwant to talk to you about, is it about what you know about Deena,"
And just as the person was gonna reply, i think ryans dad phone rang and then i heard him the cubicle and rush out of the toilets and then the prson he was with left too.
Who was he with? And what did that person know about me.
I walked out of the toilets to see what i could see and then all i saw was the Priest walkin into the hall dryin his eyes.
I walke dto him.
He looked at me
"Deena,"
"I need to know somethin,"i said.
"Deena this isn the place, ive just had to conduct a funeral for a young lad,".
"Its about the picture u gave me," i said, "how do u knw the baby was a girl?".
"Because it was wearin pink and the name of course."
OMFG. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT BEFORE- If i just asked him for the name that he christend, it would help me find out who my sister was.
"Well, it was an African name, it sounded feminine," the priest said. "ive forgotten what it was,"
"Dont u keep it in record," i asked.
"Deena," he said, "you need to let this go, you dont need all this pressure and upsetness, ve just had to cremate a boy who was stabbed by a thug with no morals, lifes too short to worry about silly things."
"ITS NOT SILLY!," i screamed, "I need to KNOW who my sister is."
"The best person you can speak to is your mother," he said, "she'll have your answers."
He looked at me like he felt sorry for me, I told him to suck out and then I left.
I was so upset, I just started cryin because I realized how fucked up shit was. Ryan.
There were pictures of him all around the church from when he was little, in his uniform, playin football and that.
I left the church and then i saw Ryans dad in the car park withhis head on the wheel cryn.
I knocked on the car window, he looked up at me and rolled down the windows.
"Can i get in," i said.
he didnt say anythin and he opened the car door for me.
I got in and looked at him, he looked an older Ryan and a bit like Sorcha.
"Im sorry," i said, "about ryan."
He started bawlin, "I fucked up with him, i really fucked up,"
I rested my hand on his knee, "lets go somewhere private," i said.
He looked at me and put the key in the ignition and drove out of the car park.
We were headin to East
"Why did u have the funeral in south london," i asked.
"My aunt Shirley's friend Ethel arranges the flowers for the Church and so she helped arrange it," he said cryin.
I didnt even know why i was in his car but i felt safe with him, he was proper big, like he looked like griminal if he was 35 and was on weights.
We got to some house.
"Wheres everyone else," i asked.
"My aunt Shirleys in Brixton, they wont care about where i am- everyones thinkin the same thing,".
"what," i asked.
"that its my fault he's dead," he said, "that if i had been there for him as his dad he wouldnt have gotten into this mess."
I felt so guilty, i wanted to tell him what I knew but i need suttin from him and i knew how i was gonna get it.
We walked into the house.
It was so big, but it was dirty.
He was in a black suit.
"You wanna drink?", he asked.
I shook my head, he walked into the kitchen and came out with what looked like Rum.
"You're a nice girl Deena- what were u doin with a boy like ryan," he asked sippin his glass.
"I loved him," i said.
He sniggered, "Youts talkin about love."
I didnt say anythin and then he said, "im sorry- listen take a seat."
I sat down, i couldnt believe this was sorchas uncle, paulas dad, ryans dad, michelles uncle, the man rochelle grew up believin was her uncle. He was big, his shirt was off now, he was startin to remind me of natalies dad.
"I know your mum," he said sippin his rum.
"You do?", i asked.
He smiled and said, "your mum was my first,".
I froze.
"Your mum could suck dick like her life depended on it- i know tings about ur mum that u dont,"
I wanted to cry but i said, "where did u meet her,"
"Party- 1988, we were both 14, i didnt even know who she was and i fucked the shit out of her in your grandmothers bed,".
He was drunk but i could tell he wasnt lyin, "you know how i found out ryan was fuckin with u?", he asked, "Sorcha, she knew i used to fuck wit ur mudda, i tell sorcha everythin."
He was soundin like he was five, "this house- is where i came when i left ryans mum, i used to fuck so much pussy on this couch, whilst ryan was bein the man of the house lookin after his mum and sister and here i was, fuckin pussy like my life depended on it," he started cryin and then he said, "ryan my boy."
"The police dont care about who killed him cos he was in trouble with them himself apparently, so they just see it as black on black i dont see it like that- i see him as my son," he was screamin and cryin now.
"You know somethin about me," i said.
He looked at me and froze, "i heard you tell someone today that- the person knows somethin about me and you do too."
"Come ere," he said.
I looked at him for a bit and got up slowly, i walked over to him.
He touched my tit with the back of his hand, "be nice to me," he slurred, "and ill tell you what your mum told me."
I kissed him, he tasted of ryan.
I kissed his neck. ryan.
the hands. ryan.
the chest. ryan.
the dick. ryan.
I cried as he flipped me on my back and pulled off my clothes, in my head it was ryan, i held onto him so tight, i felt his dick against my pussy, his tongue against my neck. Ryan.
It was Ryan fuckin my wet cunt, it was ryans dick slidin in and out of me lickin my neck. It was Ryans who hench body was on top of mine givin me the bang, his thick dick strokin every inch of my throbbin pussy, every inch of it in me, "Ryan."
I scratched his back and blew in his hear, he fucked me even harder. Ryan, ryan all over again on top of me, dick in my pussy, tongue in my mouth.
"AAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAAAA RYAN!".
I trembled and came.
I cried out with my hands wrapped around Ryans neck and then he spoke, and it wasnt Ryan, it was his dad and i started cryin again.
His dad got off of me and fell on his back, we were on the floor lyin next to each other pantin.
"You're not your mums first born," he slurred.
"Who is it," i asked.
"I dont know," he said.
"You do," i cried, "please tell me, i know who killed Ryan, tell me and il tell you."
He slowly got up and said, "YOU WHAT."
I jumped up and said, "i know who killed ryan, tell me who my-" He punched me.
All i remember from that time is somethin being smashed across my face and me blackin out. A fist in my jaw and then my hair bein pulled out and somethin fallin out of my mouth.
CHAPTER 68 part 1.
"Your sister is...."
"Who,who!".
"My pussy!", she smacked around the head, i screamed as she tried to tear the euro ticket from my hand.
My head was throbbin, i backhanded her.
She fell on the chair.
I held the ticket high, "why the fuck do you need to jack my id to leave the country,"
She looked at me, "Deena please gimme the ticket."
I stepped back, "nah nah," i said, "u tore that picture knowin how much it means to me,"
"Please Deena, i need to leave,"
Then she looked at me and said, "what happpend 2 u when u left me here,"
I kissed my teeth, "shut up,"
"Deena please- I need to leave,"
"With Adam?", i asked
She looked away.
"He loves me innit," she said.
"U set ur owncousin to get shanked and then u try run away on his funeral,"
"SHUT UP!", she said, "You are the dumbest bosh Ive ever met in my life, Ryan tried to kill me, he tried to kill Diane, he almost killed you, he snitched on Fumez, he fucked u up multiple times and ur still dangling on his sack, eediat eediat!".
"Why would Ryan wanna kill you and Diane, diane's his baby mum, she was his youts mum."
"Two words, Ryan is a bosh!". she said.
"What r u talkin about?".
"You know what you are Deena- you're one of them girls who couldn't take a hint even if it took a shit on your headpiece, Ryan used to do some tings tht he didnt want anyone to know about- some tings he could get killed for and Diane found out and toldsomeone and I told someone else, then ryan found out- I dont know how he did it- but he must have known me an diane were gonna so shot at that house cos i know he arranged for both of us to be killed, he set up the mum of his son to be killed and now there's a boy who'll forget his mums voice because of Ryan, he aint no hero Deena, he isn't Gandhi or Marvin X, he aint no civil rights leader, he was a prick, a pussyhole pansexual prick, dats why i dont give a shit deena and u shldnt either."
"You're lyin, ryan wouldnt do that,"
"COUNT YOUR FUCKIN BLESSINS DEENA! If Ryan was still alive, he'd be beating u up everyday, he never loved u, noones ever loved u, ur dad dont want u, ur mum didnt want u, ur nans a tief, ur own uncle fucked u and the only guy who ever treated you good is in love with me, how do you feel babes, how do you feel?".
I started cryin.
"You know what," she laufed, "if u fixed up again like you used to you could easily be a light skin Lola Monroe, now you look like a tramp."
She slapped me, "and you're a pussy too,"
She took the ticket from my hand, i just cried, "now leave my yard," she said.
I went to leave and then turned to her and said, "Just one thing before I go,"
"What"
I took her fake passport t and Adams passport from out of my hand and tore out every single page. She screamed.
"how are u gonna travel without a passport?".
I threw the pages down to the floor.
She started cryin, "u bitch!"
She tried to pick up the pages as she cried,
"Too bad," i said, "now ur stuck, u see how annoying it is when someone keeps blockin your progress- u see what its like when someone keeps tryna hold u back,thats all u ever did to me, so now ill do it to you, your stuck."
She started having a panic attack. "Deena i need to leave now- I cant stay- please, help me."
"Look at you," i said, "you'd set up your own mum if it paid the rent,"
She ran to the curtains and closed them.
"They're gonna get me," she cried.
"Who's gonna get u,"
"Deena please help me- I'm pregnant with Adams baby."
I looked at her and kissed my teeth, i wanted to cry.
"Wow!", i said, "i wonder how that happened."
"Deena- i need to get out the endz now, if i don't they're gonna get me."
"Whos gonna get u,".
Then all of a sudden I heard the backdoor get kicked in.
I screamed.
They walked into the room, Sorcha sobbed.
"Oh shit, Deena, we didnt know you'd be here?"
"Please leave me alone,"Sorcha cried.
"U try boops us out 2 bags and fink we're lettin u get away with it."
Then Damon pulled out his strap and pulled the trigger.
"Who,who!".
"My pussy!", she smacked around the head, i screamed as she tried to tear the euro ticket from my hand.
My head was throbbin, i backhanded her.
She fell on the chair.
I held the ticket high, "why the fuck do you need to jack my id to leave the country,"
She looked at me, "Deena please gimme the ticket."
I stepped back, "nah nah," i said, "u tore that picture knowin how much it means to me,"
"Please Deena, i need to leave,"
Then she looked at me and said, "what happpend 2 u when u left me here,"
I kissed my teeth, "shut up,"
"Deena please- I need to leave,"
"With Adam?", i asked
She looked away.
"He loves me innit," she said.
"U set ur owncousin to get shanked and then u try run away on his funeral,"
"SHUT UP!", she said, "You are the dumbest bosh Ive ever met in my life, Ryan tried to kill me, he tried to kill Diane, he almost killed you, he snitched on Fumez, he fucked u up multiple times and ur still dangling on his sack, eediat eediat!".
"Why would Ryan wanna kill you and Diane, diane's his baby mum, she was his youts mum."
"Two words, Ryan is a bosh!". she said.
"What r u talkin about?".
"You know what you are Deena- you're one of them girls who couldn't take a hint even if it took a shit on your headpiece, Ryan used to do some tings tht he didnt want anyone to know about- some tings he could get killed for and Diane found out and toldsomeone and I told someone else, then ryan found out- I dont know how he did it- but he must have known me an diane were gonna so shot at that house cos i know he arranged for both of us to be killed, he set up the mum of his son to be killed and now there's a boy who'll forget his mums voice because of Ryan, he aint no hero Deena, he isn't Gandhi or Marvin X, he aint no civil rights leader, he was a prick, a pussyhole pansexual prick, dats why i dont give a shit deena and u shldnt either."
"You're lyin, ryan wouldnt do that,"
"COUNT YOUR FUCKIN BLESSINS DEENA! If Ryan was still alive, he'd be beating u up everyday, he never loved u, noones ever loved u, ur dad dont want u, ur mum didnt want u, ur nans a tief, ur own uncle fucked u and the only guy who ever treated you good is in love with me, how do you feel babes, how do you feel?".
I started cryin.
"You know what," she laufed, "if u fixed up again like you used to you could easily be a light skin Lola Monroe, now you look like a tramp."
She slapped me, "and you're a pussy too,"
She took the ticket from my hand, i just cried, "now leave my yard," she said.
I went to leave and then turned to her and said, "Just one thing before I go,"
"What"
I took her fake passport t and Adams passport from out of my hand and tore out every single page. She screamed.
"how are u gonna travel without a passport?".
I threw the pages down to the floor.
She started cryin, "u bitch!"
She tried to pick up the pages as she cried,
"Too bad," i said, "now ur stuck, u see how annoying it is when someone keeps blockin your progress- u see what its like when someone keeps tryna hold u back,thats all u ever did to me, so now ill do it to you, your stuck."
She started having a panic attack. "Deena i need to leave now- I cant stay- please, help me."
"Look at you," i said, "you'd set up your own mum if it paid the rent,"
She ran to the curtains and closed them.
"They're gonna get me," she cried.
"Who's gonna get u,"
"Deena please help me- I'm pregnant with Adams baby."
I looked at her and kissed my teeth, i wanted to cry.
"Wow!", i said, "i wonder how that happened."
"Deena- i need to get out the endz now, if i don't they're gonna get me."
"Whos gonna get u,".
Then all of a sudden I heard the backdoor get kicked in.
I screamed.
They walked into the room, Sorcha sobbed.
"Oh shit, Deena, we didnt know you'd be here?"
"Please leave me alone,"Sorcha cried.
"U try boops us out 2 bags and fink we're lettin u get away with it."
Then Damon pulled out his strap and pulled the trigger.
Wednesday 26 May 2010
CHAPTER 66/67
"I dont care," i said.
I tore both of the tickets. I tore up his ticket.
He screamed and ran to me, he slapped me.
I kickd him in the balls, grabbed a lamp and smashed it over his head. He fell on the floor and I ran out with his passport, sorchas fake passport and sorcha's eurostar ticket and forty pounds that was lyin on the desk.
I ran out of the house. These times it was 12.30, it was raining so hard, i looked so rank, my pussy was still sore but the rest of my body was beginning to feel better.
I ran into some shop and begged them to let me call use their phone to call a cab, i was cryin. They let me use their phone and i used one of the local cab services.
I waited for the cab and just as i got in, i saw adam runnin towards me, i jumped in, shut the door and told the driver to take me back to my house, I needed to see my mum.
As the cab left Adams street, i saw him runnin behind it runnin towards me cryin in the rain. I knew that was the last time i was gonna see him.
The cab driver said, "rough night?".
I nodded, then he looked at the passports and ticket in my hand, the money was in my pocket, "You goin abroad?", he asked.
"Yeah," i said, "Yeah I am,"
The car stopped outside my house and the cab fare came to 60, but i speeched the driver to allow me, so he accepted 40.
I knocked on the door.
"Grandma?."
She pulled me in and hugged me so tight. She looked at me and cried, "Deena what happend to you,"
"You're back?", i cried huggin her.
"Come to the front room," she said.
When i walked in there, it was fucked up, everythin was smashed. i started cryin, "what happened?", i asked.
"Your mother," she said, "I- came back and she did this, Deena I..."
She looked at me, "Deena, there's something you need to know, and I want to tell you dis in a way that will help you to understand because if you see your mother and she tells you- she'll say it out of spite."
We sat on the sofa.
"When she was about 16,your mum got pregnant with Ethel's son, and we never told Ethel or her son that it was his baby and erm, she had it and gave birth to it, and we christened it and we- your mother she was goin on wild, different man everyday in her room, everyday calls from the school about her fighting with other girls, she started doin things- and expectin me to look after her baby, the 3 month baby and I told her that i couldnt look after her yout for her and that if she didn't sort herself out, i would give it up for adoption, she moved out with the baby, moved in with some Jamaican boy and i didnt see her for a month, when i found her address come to find out the boy lef her and she was squattin in the place, no lights, no electricity, no nothin and when i looked at the baby i saw cuts on its arms, she had tried to kill it and so i did- what i thought was best and i took that baby to Barbados to give to Mable's mother to look after, then she died a year after i gave the baby to her, when i went to back home for the funeral and to bring the baby back because your mother had sorted herself out, Mable's stupid father tell me give the baby awayto a friend, i was so hurt, i never cried so much and i told your mother when i got back to London that her baby was dead, then a year later she had you and you made everytin alright, two years later I tell Ethel about everytin and the bitch tells me she knows who has the baby, she knows who raised it, she tells me that she'll tellme if i give her money, so i lied to you- about the mortgage, it was the only way, come to find Ethel was lyin like a dog- she didnt know shit, all the while your mothers been thinkin her baby died many years ago, then last week I came back from Barbados when your mother told me that Mable called and told her the truth- that her baby was alive and that her father had just given it away," then my nan started cryin, "then she did all dis."
CHAPTER 67
The tv was smashed up, everyfin was fucked up.
I just looked at her, "was it a boy or a girl?", i asked.
"Boy," my nan said, "a baby boy,"
I got up slowly, "where are u goin," she asked cryin.
"To shower,".
I walked up the stairs and took off the dirty clothes and got in the shower and sobbed, why was she lyin to me- the baby in the picture was a girl, it was wearin a pink dress, ithad long eye lashes, curly hair, it was a girl, it looked a dark skin me.
I got out of the shower and walked into my room, i put on high waisted jeans, a blue and white striped vest top, i tucked the top into the jeans and put on blue airforces.
i brushed my hair back and put it in a high ponytail.
I put the passports in a clutch bag along with sorcha's ticket and put on a blazer to hide the bruises on my arm.
I walked down the stairs and walked into the front room, "grandma- tell me the truth," i said, "was the baby a boy or girl?",
"it was a boy," she said, "why do u ask, deena why ur face so swell up, someone beat u?."
"Nan, if im not back in the hour, please dont bother ever calling or talking to me again, you and my mum are both dutty stinkin liars,"
Then i left.
I cried, i wiped my tears as i knocked on Sorcha's front door,
She answered it.
She tried to slam the door in my face, i kicked it back and walked into her house, i locked the door behind me. there were two suitcases lyin in the corridor. I looked on the floor, there was a leaflet, for Ryans funeral, it was today, at 3.
"HELLO!", i called to see if anyone else was home, when nobody replied, I looked at her and said, "wheres the picture i left here."
She gave me a blank stare.
She walked into the front room and picked up the picture, "you mean this?", she asked.
"Give it to me," i said.
She lifted it up and tore it into two and threw it on the floor.
I didnt scream, i didnt cry, i wanted to though.
"You're running away on the day of Ryan's funeral," i asked, "what a bitch."
She looked shocked, "how the fuck do you-"
Then i pulled out her Eurostar ticket.
I could tell she wanted to scream.
"Dont do it please- dont tear it," she said.
"Why not," i asked tryin not to cry about the picture she tore.
"Iknow who your sister is," she said, "Its...."
I tore both of the tickets. I tore up his ticket.
He screamed and ran to me, he slapped me.
I kickd him in the balls, grabbed a lamp and smashed it over his head. He fell on the floor and I ran out with his passport, sorchas fake passport and sorcha's eurostar ticket and forty pounds that was lyin on the desk.
I ran out of the house. These times it was 12.30, it was raining so hard, i looked so rank, my pussy was still sore but the rest of my body was beginning to feel better.
I ran into some shop and begged them to let me call use their phone to call a cab, i was cryin. They let me use their phone and i used one of the local cab services.
I waited for the cab and just as i got in, i saw adam runnin towards me, i jumped in, shut the door and told the driver to take me back to my house, I needed to see my mum.
As the cab left Adams street, i saw him runnin behind it runnin towards me cryin in the rain. I knew that was the last time i was gonna see him.
The cab driver said, "rough night?".
I nodded, then he looked at the passports and ticket in my hand, the money was in my pocket, "You goin abroad?", he asked.
"Yeah," i said, "Yeah I am,"
The car stopped outside my house and the cab fare came to 60, but i speeched the driver to allow me, so he accepted 40.
I knocked on the door.
"Grandma?."
She pulled me in and hugged me so tight. She looked at me and cried, "Deena what happend to you,"
"You're back?", i cried huggin her.
"Come to the front room," she said.
When i walked in there, it was fucked up, everythin was smashed. i started cryin, "what happened?", i asked.
"Your mother," she said, "I- came back and she did this, Deena I..."
She looked at me, "Deena, there's something you need to know, and I want to tell you dis in a way that will help you to understand because if you see your mother and she tells you- she'll say it out of spite."
We sat on the sofa.
"When she was about 16,your mum got pregnant with Ethel's son, and we never told Ethel or her son that it was his baby and erm, she had it and gave birth to it, and we christened it and we- your mother she was goin on wild, different man everyday in her room, everyday calls from the school about her fighting with other girls, she started doin things- and expectin me to look after her baby, the 3 month baby and I told her that i couldnt look after her yout for her and that if she didn't sort herself out, i would give it up for adoption, she moved out with the baby, moved in with some Jamaican boy and i didnt see her for a month, when i found her address come to find out the boy lef her and she was squattin in the place, no lights, no electricity, no nothin and when i looked at the baby i saw cuts on its arms, she had tried to kill it and so i did- what i thought was best and i took that baby to Barbados to give to Mable's mother to look after, then she died a year after i gave the baby to her, when i went to back home for the funeral and to bring the baby back because your mother had sorted herself out, Mable's stupid father tell me give the baby awayto a friend, i was so hurt, i never cried so much and i told your mother when i got back to London that her baby was dead, then a year later she had you and you made everytin alright, two years later I tell Ethel about everytin and the bitch tells me she knows who has the baby, she knows who raised it, she tells me that she'll tellme if i give her money, so i lied to you- about the mortgage, it was the only way, come to find Ethel was lyin like a dog- she didnt know shit, all the while your mothers been thinkin her baby died many years ago, then last week I came back from Barbados when your mother told me that Mable called and told her the truth- that her baby was alive and that her father had just given it away," then my nan started cryin, "then she did all dis."
CHAPTER 67
The tv was smashed up, everyfin was fucked up.
I just looked at her, "was it a boy or a girl?", i asked.
"Boy," my nan said, "a baby boy,"
I got up slowly, "where are u goin," she asked cryin.
"To shower,".
I walked up the stairs and took off the dirty clothes and got in the shower and sobbed, why was she lyin to me- the baby in the picture was a girl, it was wearin a pink dress, ithad long eye lashes, curly hair, it was a girl, it looked a dark skin me.
I got out of the shower and walked into my room, i put on high waisted jeans, a blue and white striped vest top, i tucked the top into the jeans and put on blue airforces.
i brushed my hair back and put it in a high ponytail.
I put the passports in a clutch bag along with sorcha's ticket and put on a blazer to hide the bruises on my arm.
I walked down the stairs and walked into the front room, "grandma- tell me the truth," i said, "was the baby a boy or girl?",
"it was a boy," she said, "why do u ask, deena why ur face so swell up, someone beat u?."
"Nan, if im not back in the hour, please dont bother ever calling or talking to me again, you and my mum are both dutty stinkin liars,"
Then i left.
I cried, i wiped my tears as i knocked on Sorcha's front door,
She answered it.
She tried to slam the door in my face, i kicked it back and walked into her house, i locked the door behind me. there were two suitcases lyin in the corridor. I looked on the floor, there was a leaflet, for Ryans funeral, it was today, at 3.
"HELLO!", i called to see if anyone else was home, when nobody replied, I looked at her and said, "wheres the picture i left here."
She gave me a blank stare.
She walked into the front room and picked up the picture, "you mean this?", she asked.
"Give it to me," i said.
She lifted it up and tore it into two and threw it on the floor.
I didnt scream, i didnt cry, i wanted to though.
"You're running away on the day of Ryan's funeral," i asked, "what a bitch."
She looked shocked, "how the fuck do you-"
Then i pulled out her Eurostar ticket.
I could tell she wanted to scream.
"Dont do it please- dont tear it," she said.
"Why not," i asked tryin not to cry about the picture she tore.
"Iknow who your sister is," she said, "Its...."
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 64 and 65
I looked up at Adam.
he fell on his back next to me, my pussy hurt so much, i didnt say anythin,
"why did u hurt me,"
"what"
"why did u hit me?".
"i told u i was sorry,"
"then why did u do it again,"
"i only did it once," he said getting up.
I got up slowly and looked at him.
He couldnt look at my face, even though the bruises werent that obvious from eveything that had happened the night before, the swellin was there. "Ive got HIV," I said.
He stared at me and slowly shook his head.
"And you just fucked me bareback," i said.
His eyes started to water up.
"You're lying,"
"Where did you ask the cab to pick me up from- a hospital, why do u think i was there,".
He said, "you're chattin shit."
"Ive got HIV," i said. "I bet you wished you used a rubber now"
He went to punch me but then stopped, "you're lyin, show me the results."
I pointed at my pussy, "this is the result,"
He screamed and grabbed hold of my neck, "what good is fuckin me up gonna do- im fucked up as it its," i said.
"you're chattin shit," he said walking backwards awayfrom me.
Then i noticed something, there were two suitcases underneath the window.
There was a passport and two airline tickets on the desk next to me
"You're tryna run away," i said, "before the feds start to ask you questions about ryan,"
He went to come near me but i picked the passport up, "ill tear out every single page if u come any closer,"
I picked up the airline tickets and realized they weren't airline tickets, they were Eurostar.
I opened them.
There was one for Adam and one for..
Me.
CHAPTER 65
I picked up the second passport I looked closely at the pic, it had my name on the picture. But Sorchas face.
"What the FUCK IS THIS,!" I screamed.
He gave me a blank stare like say I had just told him Roll Deep that if you took the chorus out of Roll Deep's new song, the song would slip down the charts faster than you can say "Channel Aka".
"You and that bitch," i said, "you're running away- together, tryin to use my identity."
He went to come close to me but i said, "come any closer and ill tear that shit up,"
he backed away.
"You wanna try and get away from what uve done, from killing my man,".
"IT WAS SMURKZ."
"Oh i aint worried about Smurkz," i said, "he was nabbed this morning, drug raid."
Adam looked horrified, "so is sorcha on her way den," i asked.
He didnt say anythin.
"If u dont answer me, ill tear it up," i said.
"ur chattin shit about the hiv," he said.
"maybe i am, either way im not lettin u duss from what uve done, and that bosh too, is she on her way,"
"shes meeting me at st pancras in two hours," he said.
"So she's gonna leave her maj to go france wiv u, why u scared," i said.
"cos i cant go pen for what me sorcha and smurkz did,"
"and now you know smurkz will snitch cos ive just told u the feds have got him, so now these tickets mean more than what they did five minutes ago and that bosh is tryin to use my name to get out of the country yeah?," i said.
"Please Deena, let me go," he said startin to cry, "u hated ryan yourself."
"SHUT UP,"
"He fucked u up, sorcha told me how he didnt even care when u got raped by jesse and faisani, how he's the reason you had a miscarriage and ur angry at someone for duppying him after all he did to you," Adam shouted.
"He loved me,"
"There's tings u dont know about him, Deena, tings that he did."
"Like what, how would you know, you - you only saw him once,"
"There's shit that he did that you dont know about, that Sorcha doesnt even know about,"
"Tell me then you fassy- tell me what you know!".
"HE KILLED DIANE!".
he fell on his back next to me, my pussy hurt so much, i didnt say anythin,
"why did u hurt me,"
"what"
"why did u hit me?".
"i told u i was sorry,"
"then why did u do it again,"
"i only did it once," he said getting up.
I got up slowly and looked at him.
He couldnt look at my face, even though the bruises werent that obvious from eveything that had happened the night before, the swellin was there. "Ive got HIV," I said.
He stared at me and slowly shook his head.
"And you just fucked me bareback," i said.
His eyes started to water up.
"You're lying,"
"Where did you ask the cab to pick me up from- a hospital, why do u think i was there,".
He said, "you're chattin shit."
"Ive got HIV," i said. "I bet you wished you used a rubber now"
He went to punch me but then stopped, "you're lyin, show me the results."
I pointed at my pussy, "this is the result,"
He screamed and grabbed hold of my neck, "what good is fuckin me up gonna do- im fucked up as it its," i said.
"you're chattin shit," he said walking backwards awayfrom me.
Then i noticed something, there were two suitcases underneath the window.
There was a passport and two airline tickets on the desk next to me
"You're tryna run away," i said, "before the feds start to ask you questions about ryan,"
He went to come near me but i picked the passport up, "ill tear out every single page if u come any closer,"
I picked up the airline tickets and realized they weren't airline tickets, they were Eurostar.
I opened them.
There was one for Adam and one for..
Me.
CHAPTER 65
I picked up the second passport I looked closely at the pic, it had my name on the picture. But Sorchas face.
"What the FUCK IS THIS,!" I screamed.
He gave me a blank stare like say I had just told him Roll Deep that if you took the chorus out of Roll Deep's new song, the song would slip down the charts faster than you can say "Channel Aka".
"You and that bitch," i said, "you're running away- together, tryin to use my identity."
He went to come close to me but i said, "come any closer and ill tear that shit up,"
he backed away.
"You wanna try and get away from what uve done, from killing my man,".
"IT WAS SMURKZ."
"Oh i aint worried about Smurkz," i said, "he was nabbed this morning, drug raid."
Adam looked horrified, "so is sorcha on her way den," i asked.
He didnt say anythin.
"If u dont answer me, ill tear it up," i said.
"ur chattin shit about the hiv," he said.
"maybe i am, either way im not lettin u duss from what uve done, and that bosh too, is she on her way,"
"shes meeting me at st pancras in two hours," he said.
"So she's gonna leave her maj to go france wiv u, why u scared," i said.
"cos i cant go pen for what me sorcha and smurkz did,"
"and now you know smurkz will snitch cos ive just told u the feds have got him, so now these tickets mean more than what they did five minutes ago and that bosh is tryin to use my name to get out of the country yeah?," i said.
"Please Deena, let me go," he said startin to cry, "u hated ryan yourself."
"SHUT UP,"
"He fucked u up, sorcha told me how he didnt even care when u got raped by jesse and faisani, how he's the reason you had a miscarriage and ur angry at someone for duppying him after all he did to you," Adam shouted.
"He loved me,"
"There's tings u dont know about him, Deena, tings that he did."
"Like what, how would you know, you - you only saw him once,"
"There's shit that he did that you dont know about, that Sorcha doesnt even know about,"
"Tell me then you fassy- tell me what you know!".
"HE KILLED DIANE!".
Monday 24 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 63
"Your father's wife," she said, "I know exactly who you are,"
This was too much, I just started cryin thinkin about ryan.
"look at you, as much of a whore as your mother," she said.
I looked up at her and said, "please, ill go to another doctor."
She walked to the door and lockd it.
"You think you can ruin my family," she said, "you think my husband loves you more than me."
"Why are you angry at me for what YOUR husband did with my mum," i said.
She went to slap me but i grabbed her hand, "if your husband loved you he wouldnt have cheated," i said, "fuckin hypocrite." I was ill, i was sick but i was so angry, like i was drawin my stregnth from how pissed off and hurt i was.
"Look at you," she said, "you're worse than those tramps and you have the audacity to share the same gene pool as my family,"
"And what family is that?", i asked, "dont mek me tell u about yourself zainab, faisani is a sick pervert, your husband is unfaithful yet you fink ur shit doesnt stink, keep on believin being a loyal wife will make him love u, my mum wasnt the first woman he cheated on u with and she sure as fuck isnt the last, look at you- big ass doctor tryin to come for a girl like me when ive come to you for help, i didnt even know who u were, but now im seein ur face i can understand why he went fuckin elsewhere,".
She slapped me, the pain in my face hurt so much, "It's your husband you should slap, not me."
"get out,"
"im going to get tested," i said, "and ur goin to make sure I do- cos i you dont, ill make a scene right here and now, how would your friends down at the mosque feel if they knew that your husband who claims to be a devout muslim had an affair with a black woman and has a child with her,".
She looked at me and then left the room.
I just cried.
You know that feeling when everythin feels like whats the point. All i could think about was the last time I saw Ryan, when we had that fight cos of adam, how everyfin just got fucked up.
I swear, for the first time I missed Natalie so much, like i wish i could call her up and tell her everyfin. Noone else knew about dis, but two years ago i got jacked by some girls in East, i got proper fucked up by them because I must have given one of dem a dirty look and as soon as i told Natalie, she took me out to Tinsel Town and we spent the whole day, watchin dvds, doin homework and for the first time in my life i had been happy.
You know that feelin when u stop in the middle of a moment and just smile, thats how it was with Natalie, and like she was the first person that i proper liked, that i could trust, she used to call me up to tell me if we had any homework when i missed school and when.. Pearl walked back in.
"Deena, you ready for your test?", she said.
I nodded.
When she finished with all the STI tests she looked at me and said, "Deena- no matter what the test results say, you have to go on livin ur life, " she looked at me and said, "I'm HIV positive Deena."
I looked up at her and was so shockd.
"Ive been HIV positive for 25 years," she said. She looked bare healthy tho, like u would never think.
"How did u get it i asked?".
She made that hmmp sound black woman make when somethins sad.
"My boyfriend," she said, "Leroy, he was my baby father and everytime i wanted to talk about marriage he would say no no- theres no need- no need- and me like a fool i kept fuckin him, we had a flat together in Elephant and Castle, and uno he was a looker, smooth talker, uno he was so attractive that i let so many tings slide, like how everyweek girls would call the housephone lookin for him, how he would spend all day bunnin and when he wasnt bunnin he wasnt doin anytin productive- and i was still fuckin him, and i thought he would never cheat on me, because i thought wehave a baby together, and hes livin with me and uno he calls me his wife- so he wouldnt cheat, i didnt fink i needed to use a condom because of course im tinkin im the only one, and the problem with men is that they're good liars, when they tell u theyre not fuckin about with other bitches you believe them because YOU WANT to believe it you know, anyway, ill never forget it, it was carnival- 1985 and it was the Monday one and I was wit my sister and a girl walked up to me, i was dancin, imagin me dressed like sometin out of a salt and pepper video, and i was dancin next to a float and a girl, tall coolie girl walks up to me and tells me that my man- my Leroy gave her sister HIV, and i ignored her because in my head Leroy would never cheat and so uno what i did,"
I looked at her. She continued.
"I went back home and didnt tell my sister what the girl said to me, i just went home and saw him,he was with his friends bunnin in the balcony and that nite when we were alone i told him i wanted to fuck with him a condom from then on, LIKE A FOOL- i was too afraid to confront him about it, and after a few fucks he convinced me to stop makin him wearin the rubber and i let him continue to fuck me bareback, a year later i got pregnant and the doctors tell me that me and the baby hiv positive." A tear ran down her eye.
"Imagine this Deena, young girl like me, no more than 23 years old, been in this country no longer than 5 years with a baby in my house and a baby with hiv in my stomach, i aborted the baby and i took my son and i left Leroy, luckily for me they spotted it early, they gave me the medications and ive been takin them everyday for all these years, come to find out last year that Leroy has a son the same age as my son and a daughter who was born the same month as my yout was due, he died last year, went to his funeral and i cried like a baby," she started laughin, but the laugh was sad.
I hugged her.
"Im gonna go now," i said.
"We can text u ur results," she said. I gave her my number as i held back my tears.
"Where are u going to go," she asked.
"There's someone i need to see," i said.
I left the room and walked out of the hospital, i was wearin jesses clothes and trainers. I knew what i was gonna do, i walked back into the hospital and asked to borrow the phone to make a quick call, i made the call and the person told me to wait outside the hospital for a cab to take me to where they wanted to meet me.
The cab came and i got in.
I cried as i sat in the back, then i wiped my tears.
"where's this goin," i asked.
"The man who called said to take u to an address in Northolt love," the cabbie said.
I nodded, the person i was gonna meet knew how risky it would be for me to be in South, I was gonna do this for Ryan.
The cab stopped outside some house and i saw him waiting there.
He walked to the cab and paid the man and looked at me as i got out of the cab.
He stared at me, "Deena what happpend to you."
"Let's just go inside innit," i said.
We walked into the house, "whose house is this," i asked.
"My dads, i knew u wouldnt wanna meet at my house or in south cos-".
I looked at him, "Deena im sorry," he said.
"Ryans dead you know," i told him.
My heart sank as i said it.
"Is there somewhere i can shower," i asked him.
He nodded and started cryin, "Deena im sorry,".
I kissed him, "its ok," i said, "im happy."
He led me to the shower,"whose clothes are those," he asked.
"Someones," i said.
As i was naked, he looked at my pussy.
He gasped,
"what happened," he askd.
I didnt say anythin and got into the dirty shower, i knew i was gonna leave it dirtier than when i got in, all i wanted is to feel water on my body.
He was watchin me shower and cryin, "when did ryan die?", he asked.
"Yesterday," i said, "lost too much blood,"
I got out of the shower and stood in front of him naked.
He looked at my face and body, "what happend to you deena."
"Men did," i said.
Then i grabbed his dick gently and kissed his neck.
"Fuck me," i whispered in his ear, "chop my backs down,"
He started bawlin, "Ryan, i didnt meet for dis to happen- i didnt know."
"Its ok," i said kissing his face, "just put ur dick in me."
He was gettin hard, he led me to one of the rooms and gently put me on the bed, i just lay there and spread my legs.
He went to put on a dom, "No," i said, "it feels better when i can feel it all."
He tore off his clothes as he was cryin and got on top of me. He put his dick in me.
I cried and started bleedin.
I screamed, it was bleedin so much, it was sore, the throbbin in my head was insane, like i'd been shot in the head.
He wiped my pussy with the dirty duvet, and said, "youve been raped."
I shook my head, "no," i said, "please go on."
"Deena u just bled ," he said.
"it wont happen again, please," i said, "do it again."
He put it in slowly, this time i didnt bleed but the pain was still there, i wanted to scream but then he would pull out and then i would have failed.
"All the way inside," i said gently.He cried as he fucked me.
"Tell me you love me," i said.
"I love you deena,".
"I love you too Adam- I love you too."
This was too much, I just started cryin thinkin about ryan.
"look at you, as much of a whore as your mother," she said.
I looked up at her and said, "please, ill go to another doctor."
She walked to the door and lockd it.
"You think you can ruin my family," she said, "you think my husband loves you more than me."
"Why are you angry at me for what YOUR husband did with my mum," i said.
She went to slap me but i grabbed her hand, "if your husband loved you he wouldnt have cheated," i said, "fuckin hypocrite." I was ill, i was sick but i was so angry, like i was drawin my stregnth from how pissed off and hurt i was.
"Look at you," she said, "you're worse than those tramps and you have the audacity to share the same gene pool as my family,"
"And what family is that?", i asked, "dont mek me tell u about yourself zainab, faisani is a sick pervert, your husband is unfaithful yet you fink ur shit doesnt stink, keep on believin being a loyal wife will make him love u, my mum wasnt the first woman he cheated on u with and she sure as fuck isnt the last, look at you- big ass doctor tryin to come for a girl like me when ive come to you for help, i didnt even know who u were, but now im seein ur face i can understand why he went fuckin elsewhere,".
She slapped me, the pain in my face hurt so much, "It's your husband you should slap, not me."
"get out,"
"im going to get tested," i said, "and ur goin to make sure I do- cos i you dont, ill make a scene right here and now, how would your friends down at the mosque feel if they knew that your husband who claims to be a devout muslim had an affair with a black woman and has a child with her,".
She looked at me and then left the room.
I just cried.
You know that feeling when everythin feels like whats the point. All i could think about was the last time I saw Ryan, when we had that fight cos of adam, how everyfin just got fucked up.
I swear, for the first time I missed Natalie so much, like i wish i could call her up and tell her everyfin. Noone else knew about dis, but two years ago i got jacked by some girls in East, i got proper fucked up by them because I must have given one of dem a dirty look and as soon as i told Natalie, she took me out to Tinsel Town and we spent the whole day, watchin dvds, doin homework and for the first time in my life i had been happy.
You know that feelin when u stop in the middle of a moment and just smile, thats how it was with Natalie, and like she was the first person that i proper liked, that i could trust, she used to call me up to tell me if we had any homework when i missed school and when.. Pearl walked back in.
"Deena, you ready for your test?", she said.
I nodded.
When she finished with all the STI tests she looked at me and said, "Deena- no matter what the test results say, you have to go on livin ur life, " she looked at me and said, "I'm HIV positive Deena."
I looked up at her and was so shockd.
"Ive been HIV positive for 25 years," she said. She looked bare healthy tho, like u would never think.
"How did u get it i asked?".
She made that hmmp sound black woman make when somethins sad.
"My boyfriend," she said, "Leroy, he was my baby father and everytime i wanted to talk about marriage he would say no no- theres no need- no need- and me like a fool i kept fuckin him, we had a flat together in Elephant and Castle, and uno he was a looker, smooth talker, uno he was so attractive that i let so many tings slide, like how everyweek girls would call the housephone lookin for him, how he would spend all day bunnin and when he wasnt bunnin he wasnt doin anytin productive- and i was still fuckin him, and i thought he would never cheat on me, because i thought wehave a baby together, and hes livin with me and uno he calls me his wife- so he wouldnt cheat, i didnt fink i needed to use a condom because of course im tinkin im the only one, and the problem with men is that they're good liars, when they tell u theyre not fuckin about with other bitches you believe them because YOU WANT to believe it you know, anyway, ill never forget it, it was carnival- 1985 and it was the Monday one and I was wit my sister and a girl walked up to me, i was dancin, imagin me dressed like sometin out of a salt and pepper video, and i was dancin next to a float and a girl, tall coolie girl walks up to me and tells me that my man- my Leroy gave her sister HIV, and i ignored her because in my head Leroy would never cheat and so uno what i did,"
I looked at her. She continued.
"I went back home and didnt tell my sister what the girl said to me, i just went home and saw him,he was with his friends bunnin in the balcony and that nite when we were alone i told him i wanted to fuck with him a condom from then on, LIKE A FOOL- i was too afraid to confront him about it, and after a few fucks he convinced me to stop makin him wearin the rubber and i let him continue to fuck me bareback, a year later i got pregnant and the doctors tell me that me and the baby hiv positive." A tear ran down her eye.
"Imagine this Deena, young girl like me, no more than 23 years old, been in this country no longer than 5 years with a baby in my house and a baby with hiv in my stomach, i aborted the baby and i took my son and i left Leroy, luckily for me they spotted it early, they gave me the medications and ive been takin them everyday for all these years, come to find out last year that Leroy has a son the same age as my son and a daughter who was born the same month as my yout was due, he died last year, went to his funeral and i cried like a baby," she started laughin, but the laugh was sad.
I hugged her.
"Im gonna go now," i said.
"We can text u ur results," she said. I gave her my number as i held back my tears.
"Where are u going to go," she asked.
"There's someone i need to see," i said.
I left the room and walked out of the hospital, i was wearin jesses clothes and trainers. I knew what i was gonna do, i walked back into the hospital and asked to borrow the phone to make a quick call, i made the call and the person told me to wait outside the hospital for a cab to take me to where they wanted to meet me.
The cab came and i got in.
I cried as i sat in the back, then i wiped my tears.
"where's this goin," i asked.
"The man who called said to take u to an address in Northolt love," the cabbie said.
I nodded, the person i was gonna meet knew how risky it would be for me to be in South, I was gonna do this for Ryan.
The cab stopped outside some house and i saw him waiting there.
He walked to the cab and paid the man and looked at me as i got out of the cab.
He stared at me, "Deena what happpend to you."
"Let's just go inside innit," i said.
We walked into the house, "whose house is this," i asked.
"My dads, i knew u wouldnt wanna meet at my house or in south cos-".
I looked at him, "Deena im sorry," he said.
"Ryans dead you know," i told him.
My heart sank as i said it.
"Is there somewhere i can shower," i asked him.
He nodded and started cryin, "Deena im sorry,".
I kissed him, "its ok," i said, "im happy."
He led me to the shower,"whose clothes are those," he asked.
"Someones," i said.
As i was naked, he looked at my pussy.
He gasped,
"what happened," he askd.
I didnt say anythin and got into the dirty shower, i knew i was gonna leave it dirtier than when i got in, all i wanted is to feel water on my body.
He was watchin me shower and cryin, "when did ryan die?", he asked.
"Yesterday," i said, "lost too much blood,"
I got out of the shower and stood in front of him naked.
He looked at my face and body, "what happend to you deena."
"Men did," i said.
Then i grabbed his dick gently and kissed his neck.
"Fuck me," i whispered in his ear, "chop my backs down,"
He started bawlin, "Ryan, i didnt meet for dis to happen- i didnt know."
"Its ok," i said kissing his face, "just put ur dick in me."
He was gettin hard, he led me to one of the rooms and gently put me on the bed, i just lay there and spread my legs.
He went to put on a dom, "No," i said, "it feels better when i can feel it all."
He tore off his clothes as he was cryin and got on top of me. He put his dick in me.
I cried and started bleedin.
I screamed, it was bleedin so much, it was sore, the throbbin in my head was insane, like i'd been shot in the head.
He wiped my pussy with the dirty duvet, and said, "youve been raped."
I shook my head, "no," i said, "please go on."
"Deena u just bled ," he said.
"it wont happen again, please," i said, "do it again."
He put it in slowly, this time i didnt bleed but the pain was still there, i wanted to scream but then he would pull out and then i would have failed.
"All the way inside," i said gently.He cried as he fucked me.
"Tell me you love me," i said.
"I love you deena,".
"I love you too Adam- I love you too."
Saturday 22 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 62
BAM.
A car hit some blind man.
I kept on running and ran into the mcdonalds, i ran into the toilets, bare people were lookin at me as i ran in, i pushed open a cubicle door, a fat woman was taking a shit, i closed dat door and pushed open another one, a woman in a burka was fingerin herself, i kicked open the last one and just vomited in the toilet. The same white fluid just poured of me.
I cried, i felt so sick, my stomach was hurtin so much. I started screamin, i couldnt stop vomitin. One of the staff ran tohelp me, "please help me."
I must have passed out because I didnt remember being taken to hospital. I actually just remember lying down on a bed and feeling really light headed like i wasnt there, like i had just woken up from somewhere, i started cryin when i realized where I was, Kings. All i could think of was Ryan.
I was alone in some room, it wasnt a normal ward it was like a gps surgery ting, then some doctor walked in with a notepad. She looked she was about 50.
"Hello Deena," she said.I didnt say anything.
"My name's Dr. Z," she said smilin at me, "how are you feeling"
"My head hurts," i said.
She looked at me for a long time like she realized somethin then said, "Deena, the bruises on your face?".
From Chanels dad, from the yardies, from sorcha, from dee, from smurkz.
"I fell," i said.
She nodded, "Deena, you were brought here because you collapsed in a public place and were regurgitating, we've run some tests, 80% of your upchuck was semen- Deena, have you been raped?".
I turned my head away from her.
"Would you be willing to do a test, just to make sure you're safe from anything, it won't hurt, i can arrange it for you now," she said.
I turned to her,"yes please."
They took me into some room, and there was a nurse, she was a Jamaican woman and she said, "You haven't used any moutwash have you since it happened,".
"No, no," I said, "i wasnt raped- i just, it was a mistake, there were so many of them, i just want to get tested to see if ive caught..."
"I see, I see," she said, "ok let me just inform Dr. Zarinsdast of this, the test will be carried out differently then."
She left the room and I looked around, there was a leaflet about a place called The Havens where women and men who have been raped can go to for free help and advice http://www.thehavens.co.uk/
They had bases in Paddington, White Chapel and Camberwell for anyone, it didnt matter, they help everyone, I took down their number for the Camberwell base, 0203299 1599. I knew i had been raped, i didnt want to be fucked by all them men, but i was scared, my pussy was so sore, i felt sick and hungry.
The nurse came back in and sat down, "Deena, I'm going to need you to explain what happened to you, was it consensual?".
"It was only meant to be one guy" i cried.
"There was more than one?", she said horrified, "how many- did this to you?".
"30," i said, "there were 30 of them,"
She looked at me and said, "You've come to the right place- that IS rape, you did not consent to having all those men sleep with you and so it is rape."
"Some of them didnt penetrate my-vagina," i said, "some only used my mouth."
"Did you consent to it?", she asked.
"I didnt say anythin to stop it though," i said startin to cry.
"It's STILL RAPE, rape counts as the oral, anal, and vaginal penetration of someone without their consent as well as touching someones body without their say so, unless you actively said they could do it, it is rape and it is against the law."
She was so nice and calm, she gently said, "we're going to carry out a rape test, to make sure you're ok, where you wearing those clothes when it happened."
"No no," i said, "this happened last night, I- i got changed," i didnt tell her about smurkz and dee and jesse, and what happened wiv dem cos jesse told me to tell nobody.
"Ok," she said, "I'm going to explain our HIV testing procedure, When a person is infected with HIV, their body responds by producing special proteins that fight infection, these are called antibodies. An HIV antibody test looks for these antibodies in your blood,your saliva or urine, if you agree we will do all three. If antibodies to HIV are detected, it means a person has been infected with HIV. But there are some exceptions because babies born to mothers with the virus keep their mother's antibodies for up to 18 months, which means they may test positive on an HIV antibody test, even if they are actually HIV negative and some people who have taken part in HIV vaccine trials may have HIV antibodies even if they are not infected with the virus itself.
Most people develop detectable HIV antibodies within 6 to 12 weeks of contracting the infection. Sometimes, but only very rarely it can take up to 6 months for antibodies to develop,".
I looked at her and started cryin, you dont knw how shook i was, i started thinkin of all the times i had fucked bareback, or when the dom had split, about all the man i had fucked who had wifeys who were fuckin them bareback, I realized how dese tings spread, everyone finks it can never happen to them.
"We'll test you for every other STIs, the HIV test results will come back in a few weeks but the others will arrive faster, I-" just as she was speaking, the dr came into the room.
"Pearl can you give me a moment to speak with Deena please?".
Pearl gave her one look and left the room and closed the door.
The dr looked at me and said, "I know who you are bitch,"
I was bare confused,
"what," i said.
"I said i know who you are."
"What are u talkin about, who are you?".
"Mrs. Zarindast, your fathers wife,".
A car hit some blind man.
I kept on running and ran into the mcdonalds, i ran into the toilets, bare people were lookin at me as i ran in, i pushed open a cubicle door, a fat woman was taking a shit, i closed dat door and pushed open another one, a woman in a burka was fingerin herself, i kicked open the last one and just vomited in the toilet. The same white fluid just poured of me.
I cried, i felt so sick, my stomach was hurtin so much. I started screamin, i couldnt stop vomitin. One of the staff ran tohelp me, "please help me."
I must have passed out because I didnt remember being taken to hospital. I actually just remember lying down on a bed and feeling really light headed like i wasnt there, like i had just woken up from somewhere, i started cryin when i realized where I was, Kings. All i could think of was Ryan.
I was alone in some room, it wasnt a normal ward it was like a gps surgery ting, then some doctor walked in with a notepad. She looked she was about 50.
"Hello Deena," she said.I didnt say anything.
"My name's Dr. Z," she said smilin at me, "how are you feeling"
"My head hurts," i said.
She looked at me for a long time like she realized somethin then said, "Deena, the bruises on your face?".
From Chanels dad, from the yardies, from sorcha, from dee, from smurkz.
"I fell," i said.
She nodded, "Deena, you were brought here because you collapsed in a public place and were regurgitating, we've run some tests, 80% of your upchuck was semen- Deena, have you been raped?".
I turned my head away from her.
"Would you be willing to do a test, just to make sure you're safe from anything, it won't hurt, i can arrange it for you now," she said.
I turned to her,"yes please."
They took me into some room, and there was a nurse, she was a Jamaican woman and she said, "You haven't used any moutwash have you since it happened,".
"No, no," I said, "i wasnt raped- i just, it was a mistake, there were so many of them, i just want to get tested to see if ive caught..."
"I see, I see," she said, "ok let me just inform Dr. Zarinsdast of this, the test will be carried out differently then."
She left the room and I looked around, there was a leaflet about a place called The Havens where women and men who have been raped can go to for free help and advice http://www.thehavens.co.uk/
They had bases in Paddington, White Chapel and Camberwell for anyone, it didnt matter, they help everyone, I took down their number for the Camberwell base, 0203299 1599. I knew i had been raped, i didnt want to be fucked by all them men, but i was scared, my pussy was so sore, i felt sick and hungry.
The nurse came back in and sat down, "Deena, I'm going to need you to explain what happened to you, was it consensual?".
"It was only meant to be one guy" i cried.
"There was more than one?", she said horrified, "how many- did this to you?".
"30," i said, "there were 30 of them,"
She looked at me and said, "You've come to the right place- that IS rape, you did not consent to having all those men sleep with you and so it is rape."
"Some of them didnt penetrate my-vagina," i said, "some only used my mouth."
"Did you consent to it?", she asked.
"I didnt say anythin to stop it though," i said startin to cry.
"It's STILL RAPE, rape counts as the oral, anal, and vaginal penetration of someone without their consent as well as touching someones body without their say so, unless you actively said they could do it, it is rape and it is against the law."
She was so nice and calm, she gently said, "we're going to carry out a rape test, to make sure you're ok, where you wearing those clothes when it happened."
"No no," i said, "this happened last night, I- i got changed," i didnt tell her about smurkz and dee and jesse, and what happened wiv dem cos jesse told me to tell nobody.
"Ok," she said, "I'm going to explain our HIV testing procedure, When a person is infected with HIV, their body responds by producing special proteins that fight infection, these are called antibodies. An HIV antibody test looks for these antibodies in your blood,your saliva or urine, if you agree we will do all three. If antibodies to HIV are detected, it means a person has been infected with HIV. But there are some exceptions because babies born to mothers with the virus keep their mother's antibodies for up to 18 months, which means they may test positive on an HIV antibody test, even if they are actually HIV negative and some people who have taken part in HIV vaccine trials may have HIV antibodies even if they are not infected with the virus itself.
Most people develop detectable HIV antibodies within 6 to 12 weeks of contracting the infection. Sometimes, but only very rarely it can take up to 6 months for antibodies to develop,".
I looked at her and started cryin, you dont knw how shook i was, i started thinkin of all the times i had fucked bareback, or when the dom had split, about all the man i had fucked who had wifeys who were fuckin them bareback, I realized how dese tings spread, everyone finks it can never happen to them.
"We'll test you for every other STIs, the HIV test results will come back in a few weeks but the others will arrive faster, I-" just as she was speaking, the dr came into the room.
"Pearl can you give me a moment to speak with Deena please?".
Pearl gave her one look and left the room and closed the door.
The dr looked at me and said, "I know who you are bitch,"
I was bare confused,
"what," i said.
"I said i know who you are."
"What are u talkin about, who are you?".
"Mrs. Zarindast, your fathers wife,".
Thursday 20 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 61
i look up and just started cryin. All i could think about was Sorcha and the picture.
Jesse looked at Smurkz and said "wheres the charlie?".
Smurkz said, "upstairs bruv- u didnt see it?".
Then Jesse looked down at me and looked up at Smurkz, "where upstairs?"he asked.
WTF. How did Jesse and Smurkz even know each other.
"Deena aint you surprised to see Jesse here, tru say u used to fuck him," i looked at jesse, and he said, "i met my man at some rave and he told me u fucked him too- and that prick ryan,"
Smurkz kicked me in my right tit and then whipped out his dick, "suck it," he said.
I got up and put it in my mouth and sucked as i cried, he was punchin me as i sucked.
"Oi, whens that bre comin to collect his dro," Dee asked Jesse.
"About ten minutes," Jesse said, "ive weighed it up and shit, and the charlies all there yeah?".
Smurkz nodded, "u can get ur piece once it's all be sold innit, shouldcome to about 3 bags,"
He punched me, Jesse said, "three bags worth of coke here right now,"
Smurkz said, "Im a fuckin hustler,".
Dee laughed and said to me, "Ur boy Ryan fucked bare of us over, he try mug off Smurkz, he banged up Jesse and his boy but now he's in afuckin morgue, he's probably gonna be suckin dick in hell."
Smurkz laughed and said, "sick sick,". Jesse laughed.
"Ur lookin worse for wear Deena," he said.
I felt sick and vomited all over the carpet, bare white stuff came out with it.
Smurkz kicked me in my jaw, "she's vomitin cum!", Frisky screamed, i kept vomitin and vomitin, it was all the food i'd eaten with bare white fluid, Smurkz kicked me and said, "lick it up,".
I cried.
He kicked me in my forehead and said, "LICK IT!".
I cried as i lowered my head to the carpet when Jesse said, "nah nah,just make her clean it up, i wanna draw brain off her still, lemme go get some CIF and a sponge from the bathroom."
Jesse went up stairs and Smurkz gave him a weird look.
Then Jesse came back down and said "Actually Deena- come and get it urself u bosh,". Smurkz looked at jesse and laughed, "sick guy, u heard him deena, go get the fuckin cif to clean up your shit, Lil kim."
jesse pulled me up and slapped my face and said, "wheres ryan now,"
he pulled me up the stairs, i was cryin so hard. he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door.
"Im gonna get u out, ive only got ten minutes," he said, "the feds are comin here for a raid."
He was whisperin, i couldnt stop cryin, "deena, listen- im gonna get u out, but u need to be quick."
"why are u helping me," i cried.
"Man fucked about the last time, this aint right- u dont deserve this, listen, in a bit, im gonna back down by myself and as soon as i get to the last step run down, unlock the door and duss,".
"I have no shoes," i cried, i was sobbing.
"Wait here."
He left the bathroom and i sat on the toilet cryin, why the fuck was he helpin me, the sun was comin out. he walked back in a tracksuit and creps. "put this on,"
he threw them at me, i quickly put them on top of sorcha's pyjamas.
I looked at him, "dont tell anyone u were ever here deena."
"Ur snitchin on them," i said, "ur workin for the feds,"
He didnt say anythin and said, "get ready, wait at the top of the stairs and when im at the bottom step run down and get out of here, dont stop just duss,".
"why are u helpin me," i asked.
He looked at me and said, "deena- if u tell anyone dat i helped you."
"i wont," i said wipin my eyes. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, like i was gonna escape.
"start groanin," he said.
I started actin like i was gettin fucked so they wouldnt get suspicious. Then Jesse went out of the bathroom, i followed him to the top of the stairs and waited till he was at the bottom step, the creps were heavy, they were one size too big but as soon as he was the bottom step, i dussed down the stairs pushin jesse, and unlocked the door.
Smurkz started screamin but i just ran, i ran down the stairs of the estate and ran out onto the main road, there were people goin work, i didnt car ei just ran, and then i saw bare police cars drivin toward the estate.
I just ran as i saw the feds jump out of their whips and run up the estate, i pushed past people, i was jus running so fast, my legs were tired but i didnt care, i had to keep on dussin, i pushed some old lady to the floor and kept on runnin, i had to cross the road, i saw abus that went near my ends, i didnt have no money, so den i realized i had no way of getting back, i felt like i was gonna vomit, i saw a mcdonalds across the road.
I ran into the road.
BAM.
Jesse looked at Smurkz and said "wheres the charlie?".
Smurkz said, "upstairs bruv- u didnt see it?".
Then Jesse looked down at me and looked up at Smurkz, "where upstairs?"he asked.
WTF. How did Jesse and Smurkz even know each other.
"Deena aint you surprised to see Jesse here, tru say u used to fuck him," i looked at jesse, and he said, "i met my man at some rave and he told me u fucked him too- and that prick ryan,"
Smurkz kicked me in my right tit and then whipped out his dick, "suck it," he said.
I got up and put it in my mouth and sucked as i cried, he was punchin me as i sucked.
"Oi, whens that bre comin to collect his dro," Dee asked Jesse.
"About ten minutes," Jesse said, "ive weighed it up and shit, and the charlies all there yeah?".
Smurkz nodded, "u can get ur piece once it's all be sold innit, shouldcome to about 3 bags,"
He punched me, Jesse said, "three bags worth of coke here right now,"
Smurkz said, "Im a fuckin hustler,".
Dee laughed and said to me, "Ur boy Ryan fucked bare of us over, he try mug off Smurkz, he banged up Jesse and his boy but now he's in afuckin morgue, he's probably gonna be suckin dick in hell."
Smurkz laughed and said, "sick sick,". Jesse laughed.
"Ur lookin worse for wear Deena," he said.
I felt sick and vomited all over the carpet, bare white stuff came out with it.
Smurkz kicked me in my jaw, "she's vomitin cum!", Frisky screamed, i kept vomitin and vomitin, it was all the food i'd eaten with bare white fluid, Smurkz kicked me and said, "lick it up,".
I cried.
He kicked me in my forehead and said, "LICK IT!".
I cried as i lowered my head to the carpet when Jesse said, "nah nah,just make her clean it up, i wanna draw brain off her still, lemme go get some CIF and a sponge from the bathroom."
Jesse went up stairs and Smurkz gave him a weird look.
Then Jesse came back down and said "Actually Deena- come and get it urself u bosh,". Smurkz looked at jesse and laughed, "sick guy, u heard him deena, go get the fuckin cif to clean up your shit, Lil kim."
jesse pulled me up and slapped my face and said, "wheres ryan now,"
he pulled me up the stairs, i was cryin so hard. he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door.
"Im gonna get u out, ive only got ten minutes," he said, "the feds are comin here for a raid."
He was whisperin, i couldnt stop cryin, "deena, listen- im gonna get u out, but u need to be quick."
"why are u helping me," i cried.
"Man fucked about the last time, this aint right- u dont deserve this, listen, in a bit, im gonna back down by myself and as soon as i get to the last step run down, unlock the door and duss,".
"I have no shoes," i cried, i was sobbing.
"Wait here."
He left the bathroom and i sat on the toilet cryin, why the fuck was he helpin me, the sun was comin out. he walked back in a tracksuit and creps. "put this on,"
he threw them at me, i quickly put them on top of sorcha's pyjamas.
I looked at him, "dont tell anyone u were ever here deena."
"Ur snitchin on them," i said, "ur workin for the feds,"
He didnt say anythin and said, "get ready, wait at the top of the stairs and when im at the bottom step run down and get out of here, dont stop just duss,".
"why are u helpin me," i asked.
He looked at me and said, "deena- if u tell anyone dat i helped you."
"i wont," i said wipin my eyes. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, like i was gonna escape.
"start groanin," he said.
I started actin like i was gettin fucked so they wouldnt get suspicious. Then Jesse went out of the bathroom, i followed him to the top of the stairs and waited till he was at the bottom step, the creps were heavy, they were one size too big but as soon as he was the bottom step, i dussed down the stairs pushin jesse, and unlocked the door.
Smurkz started screamin but i just ran, i ran down the stairs of the estate and ran out onto the main road, there were people goin work, i didnt car ei just ran, and then i saw bare police cars drivin toward the estate.
I just ran as i saw the feds jump out of their whips and run up the estate, i pushed past people, i was jus running so fast, my legs were tired but i didnt care, i had to keep on dussin, i pushed some old lady to the floor and kept on runnin, i had to cross the road, i saw abus that went near my ends, i didnt have no money, so den i realized i had no way of getting back, i felt like i was gonna vomit, i saw a mcdonalds across the road.
I ran into the road.
BAM.
Tuesday 18 May 2010
DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 59 and 60
CHAPTER 59
"Shit Deena, you fucked Sorcha up too?", he said.
I just started cryin. He was holdin Sorcha's house key.
"You're comin wiv me," he said. He grabbed me by hair, i bit his hand and drew blood, he backhanded me. He kicked me in the face, i grabbed his foot and pulled him down. I went to dial for the police, but he grabbed me by my waist, i fell and my head slammed against the bannister.
Two man ran up in the house and pulled me out of the house. I was kickin and screamin as they pushed me into the black car, the same car i saw earlier, all someone said from their window was "shut up u slag", they must of thought i was jokin around.
They kicked me into the back of the car as Smurkz locked Sorcha's door and ran into the drivers seat of the whip.
I was in the middle of one black guy and Dee who had a big scar on his face and in the passenger seat was one other white bredda and Smurkz was drivin.
Dee slapped me, "long time since i seen you Deena," he punched me.
I started cryin. I couldnt believe this, all this shit in two nights, i wasnt even scared uno, i wasnt even scared, i was jus tired.
"Hows ur man," Smurkz said, "ur boy ryan."
They all started creasin, "Batty boy fi dead," smurkz laufed, "stuck the shank so deep in, the blade broke in his fuckin belly."
I just kept my head down and didnt say nuthin.
"You know what," Dee said, "i dont even fink she's sorry."
Then i looked at Dee and sniggered, "Why are u talkin like Westwood."
His bres started sayin, "ah shes boyin it, shes boyin it."
Dee slapped me and said, "uno what- suck my dick."
He unzipped his jeans and forced my head to his cock, i just put my mouth on it and didnt suck it, he punched my head so i started sucking. His pubes smelled like proper BO, as i sucked, he was writhin and groanin, he was pullin my hair so hard. his boy started touchin my pussy.
The car stopped. We were in some next place, the sun was comin out, "nah nah," Smurkz said, "lets jus go back to your yard Frisky, the suns coming out."
"But i cant," frisky said, "my mums home."
Smurkz kissed his teeth, "alright we'll take her to mine."
They kept on drivin and i thought we were goin to dees house but smurkz must have got a new place cos now we were on the motorway, fuckin pussyhole, he mustve moved cos he was prang after what chanel and her boys did to him and dee.
We on the motorway for ages and then i realized that we were in Surrey Quayes.
The car stopped in front of some any run down estate, Dee pulled me out of the car, imagine this now- i was barefoot in Sorcha's hello kitty pyjamas. they pushed me to some door. Smurz unlocked it and kicked me in. I fell on my face.
They surrounded me, "U look fucked," Smurkz said, "You upset cos ur batty boy man is dead?".
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in my bum, it hurt so much cos his toe nails were long. Dee dragged me by my hair into the livin room. It was so dirty, pizza hut boxes everywhere, rose bottles on the settee, there were condom wrappers everywhere.
"You aint so big now," Dee said, "Where's Chanel now Deena," he screamed. The scar on his face was so deep, it was like a tumour. Smurkz said, "You're the dumbest sket alive, tru say Dee, she's the dumbest bosh on road, real talk Deena on a level, how many man have u fucked,"
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in the face, my head felt like it screamin but i didnt make a sound. Smurkz got vex and pulled off the pyjama bottoms and looked at my pussy.
Dee gasped.
"What the fuck happened to it," he said.
It was hurtin, i could feel blood slowly comin out of it.
Then Smurkz grabbed my neck and spat on my face.
"Beg us to let you go," Smurkz said.
I didnt say anythin, he punched me, "beg me!".
I didnt say anythin.
"She finks someones gonna save her," Dee said, "noones not gonna know where u are, that sket Sorcha will fink u jus left her for dead and dussed."
Smurkz laufed, the two other bres were just watching. Smurkz looked so evil, his eyes looked soulless like someone had taken somethin out of them, as he grabbed my neck and found it hard to breathe, he laughed. He was choking me, i grabbed his forearms for him to let go as i was chokin but he laughed, "u like dis u sket dont lie,".
Dee looked away as i choked, i could feel my face gettin red.
"BEG!", he shouted,
I didnt beg. He kept on chokin me and then he let go, i fell on my back and panted holdin my neck, his hands were so strong i could their imprint on my neck, i gapsed for air desperately as Smurkz took off his chain and clothes.
"No," i said.
"Shut the fuck up," Dee said.
I jumped and tried to run but Smurkz threw a remote control at my head, the pain was so much, i fell to the floor and started cryin.
He grabbed me by my legs back to the livin room, my face had bad carpet burn, he looked down at me and said, "Your boyfriend Ryan is the biggest chich on road, i fuckin set him up, that bredda Adam told him he wanted to link him but i showed up instead," he started creasin, "Blacked out, black balaclava, i ghosted him nice, and uno what he said when he realized he had been shanked."
I looked at Smurkz.
He said, "His last words were, Deena." They all started creasin.
"U even got batty bisexuals finkin of u on their dying day," Dee said.
"What happened to ur pussy," Smurkz asked, "why does it look so sore."
I didnt say anythin and then i looked up and said, "i got fucked by your dad innit."
He kicked me in my stomach. I cried out.
"Ive got a fuckin suprise for you," he said, "just wait innit."
Chapter 60
I was cryin out in so much pain, my stomach was painin me, it was like someoned had shanked me.
"Her pussy looks like she got fucked by Mandingo," Frisky said.
"Who the fucks Mandingo," Smurkz said.
"Aww some pornstar with a hench dick."
"Why u watchin nex mans piece for- are you fuckin fruity bruv," Smurkz asked.
Dee started laughin, "i told u from day u was gay Frisky,"
Frisky looked bare upset when Smurkz said, "ur a fuckin bats man- thats the last time i let u watch man beat ever,".
Then Smurkz turned to me and said, "Oi Frisky, Deena wants to take u to get ur nails done."
Frisky got bare vex and didnt say nuthin.
"You and your fuckin snakey friend Natalie, she finks i dont know how she set the whole ting up so chanel could get me yeah? shes next," then he looked at Dee and said, "we should do to her what chanel did to you man."
"Fuckin scar up your face," Dee said.
"Nah nah," Frisky said, "i wanna fuck her."
They all look suprised, "Ur gay doe," Smurkz said.
"Nah nah i aint," Frisky said, "lemme fuck her."
"Alrite den," Smurkz said, "and if u buss within ten minutes, ill fuckin punch u up."
I screamed as Dee held me down as Frisky stood over and dropped his pants. His dick was lopsided, almost like it sleeping on his left thigh. He lay on top of me,he went to kiss me, i bit his mouth. he fell on his back and kicked me in my knee.
He tried to get on top again but i kept movin, Dee slapped me so i would stop and then when Frisky put it in, i did the dirtiest fing ever.
I farted.
Frisky jumped up. Dee stepped back.
"What the fuck man," Smurkz said, "u takin the piss."
He pulled me up and heabutted me, i burst into tears. I couldnt take this anymore, i wanted to die, mybody felt dead as Smurkz started punchin me up,proper fucking me up.
He grabbed me and threw me across the room.
My head hit the wooden table. i felt a splinter in my tongue.
Then i heard someone walk in, "Oi Smurkz u never told me we had dis bitch here."
I looked up.
"Wagwan Deena."
Jesse.
"Shit Deena, you fucked Sorcha up too?", he said.
I just started cryin. He was holdin Sorcha's house key.
"You're comin wiv me," he said. He grabbed me by hair, i bit his hand and drew blood, he backhanded me. He kicked me in the face, i grabbed his foot and pulled him down. I went to dial for the police, but he grabbed me by my waist, i fell and my head slammed against the bannister.
Two man ran up in the house and pulled me out of the house. I was kickin and screamin as they pushed me into the black car, the same car i saw earlier, all someone said from their window was "shut up u slag", they must of thought i was jokin around.
They kicked me into the back of the car as Smurkz locked Sorcha's door and ran into the drivers seat of the whip.
I was in the middle of one black guy and Dee who had a big scar on his face and in the passenger seat was one other white bredda and Smurkz was drivin.
Dee slapped me, "long time since i seen you Deena," he punched me.
I started cryin. I couldnt believe this, all this shit in two nights, i wasnt even scared uno, i wasnt even scared, i was jus tired.
"Hows ur man," Smurkz said, "ur boy ryan."
They all started creasin, "Batty boy fi dead," smurkz laufed, "stuck the shank so deep in, the blade broke in his fuckin belly."
I just kept my head down and didnt say nuthin.
"You know what," Dee said, "i dont even fink she's sorry."
Then i looked at Dee and sniggered, "Why are u talkin like Westwood."
His bres started sayin, "ah shes boyin it, shes boyin it."
Dee slapped me and said, "uno what- suck my dick."
He unzipped his jeans and forced my head to his cock, i just put my mouth on it and didnt suck it, he punched my head so i started sucking. His pubes smelled like proper BO, as i sucked, he was writhin and groanin, he was pullin my hair so hard. his boy started touchin my pussy.
The car stopped. We were in some next place, the sun was comin out, "nah nah," Smurkz said, "lets jus go back to your yard Frisky, the suns coming out."
"But i cant," frisky said, "my mums home."
Smurkz kissed his teeth, "alright we'll take her to mine."
They kept on drivin and i thought we were goin to dees house but smurkz must have got a new place cos now we were on the motorway, fuckin pussyhole, he mustve moved cos he was prang after what chanel and her boys did to him and dee.
We on the motorway for ages and then i realized that we were in Surrey Quayes.
The car stopped in front of some any run down estate, Dee pulled me out of the car, imagine this now- i was barefoot in Sorcha's hello kitty pyjamas. they pushed me to some door. Smurz unlocked it and kicked me in. I fell on my face.
They surrounded me, "U look fucked," Smurkz said, "You upset cos ur batty boy man is dead?".
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in my bum, it hurt so much cos his toe nails were long. Dee dragged me by my hair into the livin room. It was so dirty, pizza hut boxes everywhere, rose bottles on the settee, there were condom wrappers everywhere.
"You aint so big now," Dee said, "Where's Chanel now Deena," he screamed. The scar on his face was so deep, it was like a tumour. Smurkz said, "You're the dumbest sket alive, tru say Dee, she's the dumbest bosh on road, real talk Deena on a level, how many man have u fucked,"
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in the face, my head felt like it screamin but i didnt make a sound. Smurkz got vex and pulled off the pyjama bottoms and looked at my pussy.
Dee gasped.
"What the fuck happened to it," he said.
It was hurtin, i could feel blood slowly comin out of it.
Then Smurkz grabbed my neck and spat on my face.
"Beg us to let you go," Smurkz said.
I didnt say anythin, he punched me, "beg me!".
I didnt say anythin.
"She finks someones gonna save her," Dee said, "noones not gonna know where u are, that sket Sorcha will fink u jus left her for dead and dussed."
Smurkz laufed, the two other bres were just watching. Smurkz looked so evil, his eyes looked soulless like someone had taken somethin out of them, as he grabbed my neck and found it hard to breathe, he laughed. He was choking me, i grabbed his forearms for him to let go as i was chokin but he laughed, "u like dis u sket dont lie,".
Dee looked away as i choked, i could feel my face gettin red.
"BEG!", he shouted,
I didnt beg. He kept on chokin me and then he let go, i fell on my back and panted holdin my neck, his hands were so strong i could their imprint on my neck, i gapsed for air desperately as Smurkz took off his chain and clothes.
"No," i said.
"Shut the fuck up," Dee said.
I jumped and tried to run but Smurkz threw a remote control at my head, the pain was so much, i fell to the floor and started cryin.
He grabbed me by my legs back to the livin room, my face had bad carpet burn, he looked down at me and said, "Your boyfriend Ryan is the biggest chich on road, i fuckin set him up, that bredda Adam told him he wanted to link him but i showed up instead," he started creasin, "Blacked out, black balaclava, i ghosted him nice, and uno what he said when he realized he had been shanked."
I looked at Smurkz.
He said, "His last words were, Deena." They all started creasin.
"U even got batty bisexuals finkin of u on their dying day," Dee said.
"What happened to ur pussy," Smurkz asked, "why does it look so sore."
I didnt say anythin and then i looked up and said, "i got fucked by your dad innit."
He kicked me in my stomach. I cried out.
"Ive got a fuckin suprise for you," he said, "just wait innit."
Chapter 60
I was cryin out in so much pain, my stomach was painin me, it was like someoned had shanked me.
"Her pussy looks like she got fucked by Mandingo," Frisky said.
"Who the fucks Mandingo," Smurkz said.
"Aww some pornstar with a hench dick."
"Why u watchin nex mans piece for- are you fuckin fruity bruv," Smurkz asked.
Dee started laughin, "i told u from day u was gay Frisky,"
Frisky looked bare upset when Smurkz said, "ur a fuckin bats man- thats the last time i let u watch man beat ever,".
Then Smurkz turned to me and said, "Oi Frisky, Deena wants to take u to get ur nails done."
Frisky got bare vex and didnt say nuthin.
"You and your fuckin snakey friend Natalie, she finks i dont know how she set the whole ting up so chanel could get me yeah? shes next," then he looked at Dee and said, "we should do to her what chanel did to you man."
"Fuckin scar up your face," Dee said.
"Nah nah," Frisky said, "i wanna fuck her."
They all look suprised, "Ur gay doe," Smurkz said.
"Nah nah i aint," Frisky said, "lemme fuck her."
"Alrite den," Smurkz said, "and if u buss within ten minutes, ill fuckin punch u up."
I screamed as Dee held me down as Frisky stood over and dropped his pants. His dick was lopsided, almost like it sleeping on his left thigh. He lay on top of me,he went to kiss me, i bit his mouth. he fell on his back and kicked me in my knee.
He tried to get on top again but i kept movin, Dee slapped me so i would stop and then when Frisky put it in, i did the dirtiest fing ever.
I farted.
Frisky jumped up. Dee stepped back.
"What the fuck man," Smurkz said, "u takin the piss."
He pulled me up and heabutted me, i burst into tears. I couldnt take this anymore, i wanted to die, mybody felt dead as Smurkz started punchin me up,proper fucking me up.
He grabbed me and threw me across the room.
My head hit the wooden table. i felt a splinter in my tongue.
Then i heard someone walk in, "Oi Smurkz u never told me we had dis bitch here."
I looked up.
"Wagwan Deena."
Jesse.
Sunday 16 May 2010
CHAPTER 58 part 2
"I kiled Ryan."
I sat down on the chair and looked up at her. She looked at me. We were looking at each other.
She sat next to me, i punched her. Her face took one dirty spin and then she said, "im sorry."
"You're lying- you wouldnt do it- he's your cousin, what are u talkin about."
"I told u he was gonna die and u didnt listen, i asked for your help," she said, "when i came to you and told you he owed them man money and that i needed your help,"
"He paid them back,"i cried.
"He never paid them back," she said, "he never, he may have told u he did but he didnt, i paid them back, i almost got killed paying dem back, remember the ting wiv diane, i shotted for murda that night and almost got killed for it, i was shottin to make enough money to pay them man back for ryan but when diane said she needed the money for her yout, her and ryans yout, i said she could have the money and i left, thats when she got killed and so i ran to the man who ryan owed and because i was so scared for him, i gave them everythin, i took everythin out of my account to pay them because i loved him, because i didnt want them to hurt him, and then I-" she paused and looked at me.
"I went to Adam," she said.
I looked at her and said, "you bitch- that time i saw you outside his house."
She looked down, "I'd be stayin wiv him, them times nobody knew where i was, i was wiv him and i told him everythin, about the money i took out for ryan, everyfin about diane and he cared, and i thought that-" she started cryin, "i thought that when i saw ryan again he'dbe grateful for what i did and uno what he told me- he said i was dumb to pay dem back because he had the money to do it, and i was so vex because i had nuthin deena, and then i did somethin dumb, you didn't know it, but i've been fuckin adam and he erm- he said he knew someone who wanted to beat up Ryan for sumfin and needed a way to set him up and i was so vex, i said the way to set him up was to convince him that someone sexy wanted to link him, i gave adam his number and dat was dat, i didnt know who the person who wanted to fuck ryan up was, i just knew that adam was gonna set it up and then i hear that ryan's dead, because of me."
"You've been fuckin adam," i said.
She looked at me, "it was him-he set ryan up, it was him."
"You helped him set adam up to be duppied," i said tryin not cry.
"it was cos- i didnt know they we're gonna kill him," she started cryin.
"You dumb slag," i said, "you fuckin slag."
I got up and started cryin, "you and adam."
"Im sorry," she said, "that day you saw me when u was leavin his house i was going back to him id been sleepin dere for the entire time, he loves me, he's even come here before, he fucked me so nice i blacked out, his dick sent my pussy to iraq and back and please believe it was the bomb, he even has a spare key to this very house, he loves me."
I turned to her, "like hell he does," i said, "he's a pussy hole, he- you dumb bitch, you set ryan up to be killed by Smurkz."
She gasped.
"Adam and Smurkz planned this entire ting because they both hate him and u made it possible,"
She screamed and ran up the stairs. I followed her into her room.
"You dumb skank," i screamed, "Smurkz! the same bredda who tried to duppy us, he killed YOUR cousin because of your dumbness, because u were dum enough to let money fuck up your judgment."
"Fuck you Deena!", she said, "dis is your fault, ryan was fine before he met you- if smurkz duppied him its cos of u."
I looked at her and said, "uno what ryan did to him? he told him to suck his dick in front of bare man when he was gettin moved to and smurkz like the batty he is went to do it, and ryan was jokin, dats why smurkz did it, smurkz was gettinhim back and ulet him."
"I didnt know."
"Oh you did," i said, "in dis day and age uno how dese man are, they dont beef wiv fists, they beef with straps and blades, and u put ur own cousin in dat situation because of money."
She tried to push past me, i grabbed her neck and threw her onto the floor.
"You bosh!", i screamed, i went to kick her but the pain in my hand and pussy kicked in. i just started cryin. it was dark outside, about 3.30 in the mornin, it was rainin and the rain against the window was beating so hard.
"Deena, please you cant tell anyone," she started beggin. I slapped her. She slapped me back and punched me in my boat. I fell to the floor as she cried, she leaned against her wardrobe and cried.
"Everythin," she said, "after evertyin he did to you, you're still on his nuts,".
I got up slowly, "he loves me," i said.
She sniggered and wiped her tears, "you really are as dumb as you look," she said, "he was linkin about five other chicks when he wasn't make that hole between your legs bigger, biggest gyallest on road and u think he'd stick wiv u."
"You're lyin."
"Shut up," she said, "i beg u shut up, im his cousin, he tells me everytin."
"You're damn right," i said, "he showed u everytin too, talk about kissing cousins."
"Skets in glass houses shouldnt throw stilletos," she said, "you fucked your own uncle babes, dont ever come wiv the hype about me and ryan cos ill tell u all about yourself wiv ur bowel problems."
I went to slap her, she threw my hand down.
"Don't play wiv me Deena," she said.
I punched her, "u killed him," i said, "its ur fault he's gone."
She looked at meand said, "uno what- I did set him up yeah, but uno what now i think about it i dont regret it- he didnt care about where i was when u lot thought i was dead, he never cared about diane's yout, he didnt care about u when U GOT RAPED by faisani and jesse, oh and ill tell u sumfin- he most certainly didnt care when he killed your yout when he threw that xbox on your gut, he didnt give a stinkin shit, so i dont care about him, and ill go to his funeral, ill rock my black blazer, im sure ull wear a black blazer, black jeggins and black airforces and ill put on sad face, ill cry, ill scream, ill act a fool, but i dont care, im glad he's dead, me na fi give a crap."
I backhanded her.
She kicked me in the stomach.
"You aint Natalie or Chanel y'nah," she said, "u aint a problem for me to handle."
"Handle me den," i screamed, "if you're bad handle me, handle Deena! you never could and you never will, im the only bitch who wanted to ber your friend after u fucked and jacked everyone else and their mandem, your maj looks like that sket who poisoned snow white wiv the apple wiv her wrinkly face, you've been beaten out more times than a church rug and your pussy lips come like parralel lines- they never meet!".
We started scuffin. I headbutted her three times. we rolled down the stairs punchin each other up, we landed at the foot of the stairs, i rolled off her body, my nose was bleedin, i looked at her, she werent movin and her eyes were closed. i shook her body, she wasnt wakin up, i thought to touch her pulse but the time they were teaching where it was i was linkin some Ugandan ting in North, so i didnt know how to check her pulse and then the door unlocked. I looked up.
"Ay my size," Smurkz said, "Long time no see."
I sat down on the chair and looked up at her. She looked at me. We were looking at each other.
She sat next to me, i punched her. Her face took one dirty spin and then she said, "im sorry."
"You're lying- you wouldnt do it- he's your cousin, what are u talkin about."
"I told u he was gonna die and u didnt listen, i asked for your help," she said, "when i came to you and told you he owed them man money and that i needed your help,"
"He paid them back,"i cried.
"He never paid them back," she said, "he never, he may have told u he did but he didnt, i paid them back, i almost got killed paying dem back, remember the ting wiv diane, i shotted for murda that night and almost got killed for it, i was shottin to make enough money to pay them man back for ryan but when diane said she needed the money for her yout, her and ryans yout, i said she could have the money and i left, thats when she got killed and so i ran to the man who ryan owed and because i was so scared for him, i gave them everythin, i took everythin out of my account to pay them because i loved him, because i didnt want them to hurt him, and then I-" she paused and looked at me.
"I went to Adam," she said.
I looked at her and said, "you bitch- that time i saw you outside his house."
She looked down, "I'd be stayin wiv him, them times nobody knew where i was, i was wiv him and i told him everythin, about the money i took out for ryan, everyfin about diane and he cared, and i thought that-" she started cryin, "i thought that when i saw ryan again he'dbe grateful for what i did and uno what he told me- he said i was dumb to pay dem back because he had the money to do it, and i was so vex because i had nuthin deena, and then i did somethin dumb, you didn't know it, but i've been fuckin adam and he erm- he said he knew someone who wanted to beat up Ryan for sumfin and needed a way to set him up and i was so vex, i said the way to set him up was to convince him that someone sexy wanted to link him, i gave adam his number and dat was dat, i didnt know who the person who wanted to fuck ryan up was, i just knew that adam was gonna set it up and then i hear that ryan's dead, because of me."
"You've been fuckin adam," i said.
She looked at me, "it was him-he set ryan up, it was him."
"You helped him set adam up to be duppied," i said tryin not cry.
"it was cos- i didnt know they we're gonna kill him," she started cryin.
"You dumb slag," i said, "you fuckin slag."
I got up and started cryin, "you and adam."
"Im sorry," she said, "that day you saw me when u was leavin his house i was going back to him id been sleepin dere for the entire time, he loves me, he's even come here before, he fucked me so nice i blacked out, his dick sent my pussy to iraq and back and please believe it was the bomb, he even has a spare key to this very house, he loves me."
I turned to her, "like hell he does," i said, "he's a pussy hole, he- you dumb bitch, you set ryan up to be killed by Smurkz."
She gasped.
"Adam and Smurkz planned this entire ting because they both hate him and u made it possible,"
She screamed and ran up the stairs. I followed her into her room.
"You dumb skank," i screamed, "Smurkz! the same bredda who tried to duppy us, he killed YOUR cousin because of your dumbness, because u were dum enough to let money fuck up your judgment."
"Fuck you Deena!", she said, "dis is your fault, ryan was fine before he met you- if smurkz duppied him its cos of u."
I looked at her and said, "uno what ryan did to him? he told him to suck his dick in front of bare man when he was gettin moved to and smurkz like the batty he is went to do it, and ryan was jokin, dats why smurkz did it, smurkz was gettinhim back and ulet him."
"I didnt know."
"Oh you did," i said, "in dis day and age uno how dese man are, they dont beef wiv fists, they beef with straps and blades, and u put ur own cousin in dat situation because of money."
She tried to push past me, i grabbed her neck and threw her onto the floor.
"You bosh!", i screamed, i went to kick her but the pain in my hand and pussy kicked in. i just started cryin. it was dark outside, about 3.30 in the mornin, it was rainin and the rain against the window was beating so hard.
"Deena, please you cant tell anyone," she started beggin. I slapped her. She slapped me back and punched me in my boat. I fell to the floor as she cried, she leaned against her wardrobe and cried.
"Everythin," she said, "after evertyin he did to you, you're still on his nuts,".
I got up slowly, "he loves me," i said.
She sniggered and wiped her tears, "you really are as dumb as you look," she said, "he was linkin about five other chicks when he wasn't make that hole between your legs bigger, biggest gyallest on road and u think he'd stick wiv u."
"You're lyin."
"Shut up," she said, "i beg u shut up, im his cousin, he tells me everytin."
"You're damn right," i said, "he showed u everytin too, talk about kissing cousins."
"Skets in glass houses shouldnt throw stilletos," she said, "you fucked your own uncle babes, dont ever come wiv the hype about me and ryan cos ill tell u all about yourself wiv ur bowel problems."
I went to slap her, she threw my hand down.
"Don't play wiv me Deena," she said.
I punched her, "u killed him," i said, "its ur fault he's gone."
She looked at meand said, "uno what- I did set him up yeah, but uno what now i think about it i dont regret it- he didnt care about where i was when u lot thought i was dead, he never cared about diane's yout, he didnt care about u when U GOT RAPED by faisani and jesse, oh and ill tell u sumfin- he most certainly didnt care when he killed your yout when he threw that xbox on your gut, he didnt give a stinkin shit, so i dont care about him, and ill go to his funeral, ill rock my black blazer, im sure ull wear a black blazer, black jeggins and black airforces and ill put on sad face, ill cry, ill scream, ill act a fool, but i dont care, im glad he's dead, me na fi give a crap."
I backhanded her.
She kicked me in the stomach.
"You aint Natalie or Chanel y'nah," she said, "u aint a problem for me to handle."
"Handle me den," i screamed, "if you're bad handle me, handle Deena! you never could and you never will, im the only bitch who wanted to ber your friend after u fucked and jacked everyone else and their mandem, your maj looks like that sket who poisoned snow white wiv the apple wiv her wrinkly face, you've been beaten out more times than a church rug and your pussy lips come like parralel lines- they never meet!".
We started scuffin. I headbutted her three times. we rolled down the stairs punchin each other up, we landed at the foot of the stairs, i rolled off her body, my nose was bleedin, i looked at her, she werent movin and her eyes were closed. i shook her body, she wasnt wakin up, i thought to touch her pulse but the time they were teaching where it was i was linkin some Ugandan ting in North, so i didnt know how to check her pulse and then the door unlocked. I looked up.
"Ay my size," Smurkz said, "Long time no see."
Saturday 15 May 2010
Chapter 58 part 1.
I didnt say anythin.
"Can i talk to him," i said.
She looked up to me and didnt say anythin.
I went to the phone and said, "whats the hospital number."
"He's dead DEENA!", she screamed.
I looked at her and slowly walked up to her bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the edge of the bath and then i walked out and went down and i said, "babes can i borrow your phone to call him."
She started sobbin. I looked at her and just stood there.
"where's your mum?", i asked.
"at the morgue," she cried.
I didnt cry, i just looked at her.
She looked at me, "why arent you cryin," she said.
I looked at her blankly and said, "can i talk to him."
She got up and walked out of the room cryin. I just sat there, soakin wet. there was blood runnin from between my legs. I got up and walked upstairs, she was in her room crying. i walked into her bathroom, took off my dress and shoes and got in the shower and rinsed my body.
I didnt cry, the picture was downstairs on the sofa.
I got out of the shower and dried myself and wanted to call Ryan. I went into Sorcha's room and opened her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas and put them on.
"Did you not hear what i said," she asked.
I left the room and went down to her kitchen, I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of rum, a glass bottle and when it broke in my hands i started cryin.
I fell to the floor, my hands bleeding, the glass in my skin and just cryin.
Smurkz. Adam. they did it.
I walked to the sink and puled the glass out of my hand and threw it in the sink. I sobbed as i held my hand under cold water. I just cried. I cried so hard, the pain was so much, my head was throbbing and my chest hurt, my chest hurt so bad.
I cried and cried, my hand was freezing, the blood was pouringout and it wouldnt stop, my pussy was hurtin, my neck was hurtin, i felt skinny and then i saw my mums face and then i vomited all in the sink and farted.
I vomited holding my head over thesink, it splattered back in my face, i cried and then fell to the floor, i wiped my mouth and just lay on the floor with my head against one of the legs of Sorcha's kitchen table in a foetal position just cryin and i kept sayin ryans name. I kept sayin his name and then in my head i heard his voice and i touched my belly, our yout together. dead.
I felt dead inside, like my heart had stopped beatin. Everythin suddenly stopped hurtin and then i let out a small laugh when i thought I heard his voice, i heard him say somethin in a different language and i started smilin and in my head i saw me sucking his dick, i saw him eatin my pussy, me sittin on his face, him bussin in my mouth, him punchin me and kickin me in the stomach, him killin my yout. RYAN!
I cried out so hard as all the pain came rushin back, the pain in my pussy was worse, my tits felt sore, i was shiverin, my hands were swollen.
My stomach felt weird. I jumped up and vomited in the sink. everythin came out, there was bare white fluid comin out with the vomit, i just cried and vomited. I rinsed my mouth out with the tap water.
I got up slowly and walked to the living room and picked up the picture and then i looked down at it. this was gettin too much. I thought of my nan, my mum, my dad, everyfin and then i thort of Adam.
Smurkz.
Ryan. Me.
I had so many questions. how did adam and smurkz know each other? I felt sick,i felt like i was dreamin, like i wasnt there, i slapped myself to wake myself up, my face hurt.
I quickly pulled myself together and breathed in cos i had hiccups, i was in sorcha's hello kittypyjamas and they were soakin wet.
I picked up sorcha's phone and dialled Adams mobile number, but she already had it saved.
I closed the living room door.
"Hello."
"Adam," i said.
"Deena?".
"Adam, erm, i need to- i'm in bare shit," i said. i started cryin.
"Deena whats wrong, listen i'm sorry about everyfin."
"Adam how did Smurkz get in contact with you," i said.
There was a long silence and then he put the phone down.
I tried callin him back, but the line kept goin to voicemail and then it didnt ring altogether.
Then the door pushed open. it was Sorcha.
"Deena," she said.
I hugged her so tight.
"I know who killed him Sorcha, i know who shanked Ryan," i said.
Then she slowly let go of me and looked at me.
"It was me Deena- I killed Ryan."
"Can i talk to him," i said.
She looked up to me and didnt say anythin.
I went to the phone and said, "whats the hospital number."
"He's dead DEENA!", she screamed.
I looked at her and slowly walked up to her bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the edge of the bath and then i walked out and went down and i said, "babes can i borrow your phone to call him."
She started sobbin. I looked at her and just stood there.
"where's your mum?", i asked.
"at the morgue," she cried.
I didnt cry, i just looked at her.
She looked at me, "why arent you cryin," she said.
I looked at her blankly and said, "can i talk to him."
She got up and walked out of the room cryin. I just sat there, soakin wet. there was blood runnin from between my legs. I got up and walked upstairs, she was in her room crying. i walked into her bathroom, took off my dress and shoes and got in the shower and rinsed my body.
I didnt cry, the picture was downstairs on the sofa.
I got out of the shower and dried myself and wanted to call Ryan. I went into Sorcha's room and opened her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas and put them on.
"Did you not hear what i said," she asked.
I left the room and went down to her kitchen, I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of rum, a glass bottle and when it broke in my hands i started cryin.
I fell to the floor, my hands bleeding, the glass in my skin and just cryin.
Smurkz. Adam. they did it.
I walked to the sink and puled the glass out of my hand and threw it in the sink. I sobbed as i held my hand under cold water. I just cried. I cried so hard, the pain was so much, my head was throbbing and my chest hurt, my chest hurt so bad.
I cried and cried, my hand was freezing, the blood was pouringout and it wouldnt stop, my pussy was hurtin, my neck was hurtin, i felt skinny and then i saw my mums face and then i vomited all in the sink and farted.
I vomited holding my head over thesink, it splattered back in my face, i cried and then fell to the floor, i wiped my mouth and just lay on the floor with my head against one of the legs of Sorcha's kitchen table in a foetal position just cryin and i kept sayin ryans name. I kept sayin his name and then in my head i heard his voice and i touched my belly, our yout together. dead.
I felt dead inside, like my heart had stopped beatin. Everythin suddenly stopped hurtin and then i let out a small laugh when i thought I heard his voice, i heard him say somethin in a different language and i started smilin and in my head i saw me sucking his dick, i saw him eatin my pussy, me sittin on his face, him bussin in my mouth, him punchin me and kickin me in the stomach, him killin my yout. RYAN!
I cried out so hard as all the pain came rushin back, the pain in my pussy was worse, my tits felt sore, i was shiverin, my hands were swollen.
My stomach felt weird. I jumped up and vomited in the sink. everythin came out, there was bare white fluid comin out with the vomit, i just cried and vomited. I rinsed my mouth out with the tap water.
I got up slowly and walked to the living room and picked up the picture and then i looked down at it. this was gettin too much. I thought of my nan, my mum, my dad, everyfin and then i thort of Adam.
Smurkz.
Ryan. Me.
I had so many questions. how did adam and smurkz know each other? I felt sick,i felt like i was dreamin, like i wasnt there, i slapped myself to wake myself up, my face hurt.
I quickly pulled myself together and breathed in cos i had hiccups, i was in sorcha's hello kittypyjamas and they were soakin wet.
I picked up sorcha's phone and dialled Adams mobile number, but she already had it saved.
I closed the living room door.
"Hello."
"Adam," i said.
"Deena?".
"Adam, erm, i need to- i'm in bare shit," i said. i started cryin.
"Deena whats wrong, listen i'm sorry about everyfin."
"Adam how did Smurkz get in contact with you," i said.
There was a long silence and then he put the phone down.
I tried callin him back, but the line kept goin to voicemail and then it didnt ring altogether.
Then the door pushed open. it was Sorcha.
"Deena," she said.
I hugged her so tight.
"I know who killed him Sorcha, i know who shanked Ryan," i said.
Then she slowly let go of me and looked at me.
"It was me Deena- I killed Ryan."
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 57
"What are u talkin about," i said.
"Your grandma said she was living in Barbados with your aunt Mabel." he said.
"My aunt Mabel lives in Spain!". I was just bare confused.
"The week after I christened your sister, your grandmother stopped coming to church, she said she was ill."
I got up and went to leave. "Im sorry if ive said something wrong," he said.
"You're wrong," i said, "i aint got a sister,"
"Come with me," he said.
I looked at him, he walked behind the alter and down some stairs. I followed him slowly, it led to a house which was next to the church. It was an old house.
"I keep every single picture of christenings here," he said, "in case people need them for anything."
I wiped the tears from my eyes as the pain in my pussykept on hurtin.
Then he gave me a picture and i looked at it. It was bare people in front of the church and in front of them was my mum, she looked bare young next to my nan and my nan was holding a baby girl, a dark skinned baby girl.
"What year was this taken," i said tryin not to cry.
"1990, the baby was just a few months when this was taken," he said. I looked at it and looked back at him, "I didnt know," i said. Then i started cryin, uno them cries when ur shoulders tremble and ur hands shake. I cried and he held me and kept saying its ok, its ok, i had the picture in my hands.
"Your grandmother stopped coming to church a week after this and then a two years later when you were born she came back to have you christened, she came with you for two years then stopped, when i asked about the first baby she just said your aunt was looking after her in Barbados so your mum could go to school,".
I looked at him and felt sick. This was toomuch. My chest was beaten, my pussy was hurtin and I lookd at him and said, "i'm gonna go now,".
"Are you sure," he said, "please feel free to stay here if you have nowhere to go."
"I do," i said wiping my tears.
"Just know that the Church is alwayshere for you and that you never have to be too afraid to talk to God, sometimes it takes for us to hit rock bottom for us to see the light because after rock bottom the only way is up."
I left the house and walked out on the street with the picture in my hand.
It was rainin so hard, i was drenched and i wasnt cryin, I just walked, i walked past Sorcha's house and started to cry. I washolding the picture so tight. My dress was soaking wet, i was limpin in heels, my hair drenched, my make up running down my face. My legs hurtin sobad, my jaws throbbin.
I was cryin so hard, i didnt even know where i was goin. As i was walkin, I noticed a car followin me. I had to be smart, what was i gonna do if this car door opened and someone tried to pull me in.
So i did the smartest thing I could think of, I turned the corner into a side road to see what the car would do. From when the car turned into the same road as me, I knew i was in trouble and so I started screamin. When i mean i screamed so hard if i was pregnant dat baby would have jumped out of my pum quick time. I screamed so hard. People started to look outside of the windows and whoever was in the car got prang and sped off. I ran into Sorcha's house and locked the door.
I switched the living room light on.
Sorcha.
She was sitting down on the sofa in the darkness. She didnt even look at me.
"Ryan," she said.
"Ryans dead."
"Your grandma said she was living in Barbados with your aunt Mabel." he said.
"My aunt Mabel lives in Spain!". I was just bare confused.
"The week after I christened your sister, your grandmother stopped coming to church, she said she was ill."
I got up and went to leave. "Im sorry if ive said something wrong," he said.
"You're wrong," i said, "i aint got a sister,"
"Come with me," he said.
I looked at him, he walked behind the alter and down some stairs. I followed him slowly, it led to a house which was next to the church. It was an old house.
"I keep every single picture of christenings here," he said, "in case people need them for anything."
I wiped the tears from my eyes as the pain in my pussykept on hurtin.
Then he gave me a picture and i looked at it. It was bare people in front of the church and in front of them was my mum, she looked bare young next to my nan and my nan was holding a baby girl, a dark skinned baby girl.
"What year was this taken," i said tryin not to cry.
"1990, the baby was just a few months when this was taken," he said. I looked at it and looked back at him, "I didnt know," i said. Then i started cryin, uno them cries when ur shoulders tremble and ur hands shake. I cried and he held me and kept saying its ok, its ok, i had the picture in my hands.
"Your grandmother stopped coming to church a week after this and then a two years later when you were born she came back to have you christened, she came with you for two years then stopped, when i asked about the first baby she just said your aunt was looking after her in Barbados so your mum could go to school,".
I looked at him and felt sick. This was toomuch. My chest was beaten, my pussy was hurtin and I lookd at him and said, "i'm gonna go now,".
"Are you sure," he said, "please feel free to stay here if you have nowhere to go."
"I do," i said wiping my tears.
"Just know that the Church is alwayshere for you and that you never have to be too afraid to talk to God, sometimes it takes for us to hit rock bottom for us to see the light because after rock bottom the only way is up."
I left the house and walked out on the street with the picture in my hand.
It was rainin so hard, i was drenched and i wasnt cryin, I just walked, i walked past Sorcha's house and started to cry. I washolding the picture so tight. My dress was soaking wet, i was limpin in heels, my hair drenched, my make up running down my face. My legs hurtin sobad, my jaws throbbin.
I was cryin so hard, i didnt even know where i was goin. As i was walkin, I noticed a car followin me. I had to be smart, what was i gonna do if this car door opened and someone tried to pull me in.
So i did the smartest thing I could think of, I turned the corner into a side road to see what the car would do. From when the car turned into the same road as me, I knew i was in trouble and so I started screamin. When i mean i screamed so hard if i was pregnant dat baby would have jumped out of my pum quick time. I screamed so hard. People started to look outside of the windows and whoever was in the car got prang and sped off. I ran into Sorcha's house and locked the door.
I switched the living room light on.
Sorcha.
She was sitting down on the sofa in the darkness. She didnt even look at me.
"Ryan," she said.
"Ryans dead."
Friday 14 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 56
I looked at Paula. She was bleeding. Then i looked at Murda and Damon. My stomach started to hurt.
"Wagwun Deena," Murda laughed. Damon nodded at me.
Paula was cryin. "Virgin no more," Damon said. Icey was standing behind them zippin up his jeans.
Imagine all these man in this small flat, naked man and two chicks. I looked to chanels dad, "please let her go, i'll stay, just dont touch her, ill do anythin, i'll leave the money but please just let her go," i said.
Chanels dad looked at me, "why- you know her?".
"Please," i said, "just let her go home, dont touch her, i'll be here."
"We already beat her out," Murda said, "she might as well get lined up now."
"Take the 3grand," i told Murda, "just leave Paula alone please."
Paula wiped her tears.
"Alright fine," Chanels dad said, "we'll let paula go if you suck my dick right now."
I looked at Paula,"not in front of her though."
"She's seen everytin already," Damon said.
"Alright alright," chanels dad said, "get her dressed and take her home, then you man come back here."
Damon looked vex but he didnt say nuttin. Paula got dressed and left the flat with Murda and Damon.
"Time to suck."
I got on my knees, he whippd out his dick.
I slowly put it in my mouth. He cried out. i licked the tip, i pulled it out of my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out, i smacked his thick dick againstmy tongue and looked up at him. all his boys started gettin hype and horny.
one of them got behind me and started feelin my pussy. i was suckin chanels dads dick so hard.
Then another stood in front of me and whipped out his... is that supposed to be a dick. it looked like one of them mini sausages. i put it in my mouth, i tried to suck it but tru say it got lost in my mouth. i wanted to laugh but this guy was some big hench bre. he buss. thank God. "Put her on the bed, her pussy fi dead."
They picked me up and took me into a room.
"Please wear a condom," i said. they laughed. at this point there were 15 man in the room. chanels dad got on top of me and put it in me, it hurt so much. i felt disgusting.
"you need to relax," he said, he slapped my face, "bring in some ganja."
they brought in.
"smoke it."
i put it to my lips and took a puff, i coughed as he started to finger me. his fingers were so coarse, it was a like getting lined up by monsters. their breath smelt of weed, they had bo but they thought that cheap deodorant would mask the smell.
i was just gettin fucked.that was it, i was lyin there just gettin fucked. just gettin beat out. it didnt feel nice or nuthin. it didnt feel good, it hurt. bareback. gettin lined up. i lost count. tears ran down my left eye whenever someone buss in me. i closed my eyes and remembered gettin raped, i just cried, my neck being held on, my face bein slapped. my tits bein sucked by teeth that felt like they were covered in grit.
at that moment i stopped livin and i killed myself, i stopped feeling anything. i felt like my heart had stopped beatin. i looked up at the man fuckin, he looked down at me and said, "you lis dis dick bitch"
then he punched me and when my head spun to the left and fell on the pillow it stayed there, something was bleedin- i didnt know what as i was getting fucked.
I dont even know how many hours this lasted. i just remember bein in the bed and the lights being off and the door being closed.
After an hour I got up slowly and fell back on the bed, i looked down, my pussy was bleeding. I got up really slowly and tried not to cry, it was almost impossible to walk. I walked into the mainroom, it was empty, i looked and saw a black nike bag. i opened it. it was empty. THEY HAD TAKEN MY MONEY.
I started cryin as i put on my dress. i looked outside of the window, it was stil dark, i looked at the time, it was 2in the mornin. my pussy was stingin and bleeding, my mouth was swollen and some of my tracks had fallen out.
I fixed my dress and walked into the bathroom, it was coveredin piss. I cried and stumbled out. I walked out of the house.
They had jacked my phone, my clutch bag. Everythin. the 2 bills i got from the priest gone,but i looked on the floor and saw my card, i picked it up, i looked at it.
I was so shook to leave but i knew i couldnt stay. I walked out of the flat and stumbled out of the estate down the stairs and walked out of it. I cried.
. As i walked the streets, bare cars beeped me, one guy rolled down his windows and told me to get in. I ignored him and just went looking for a pay phone, I was in hackney. i was cryin so hard. i needed to get back to sorcha's. I walked into a taxi cab place and asked for a cab to sorcha's address. I got in the cab with the driver and told him i needed to take money out for him when we got near sorchas house. We were in the cab and i was in the back, the rain hit the window as i cried. We got Sorcha's bits and i saw a cash machine, i told him id be back and walked to the machine. i took out 30 pounds and as i was going to get back into the cab i saw a church.
I walked to the cab and paid him and told him i would walk home. He drove off and i looked at the church. It was an old one and it was open. I limped into it and when i walked in, i realized how quiet it was, it was lit by candles and all the pews were empty and i sat in the last one, i didnt even know wat i was doin. I just bowed my head and prayed, i didnt even know what i was prayin for- i just prayed and then ilooked up.
"Hello,".
It was a priest. "May i sit next to you," he said. I budged up and he sat next to me.
"Whatever pain you're going through won't last forever," he said. I looked up at him and he gasped.
"DEENA!", he said,.
WTF. How did he know me.
"Yeah?", i said.
"Deena, I havent seen you since you used to come in with your grandma, how are you?".
I looked at him and started to recognise him vaguely.
"Deena, whats wrong," he said.
I looked at him and cried, "everythin, everythings a mess, i have noone."
He looked at me and said, "I knew there was a reason I had the idea to leave the church open today,".
I looked at him, "Do you know your mother came to this very church on a night like this when she was about your age,"he said.
His face started to look more familiar, he was my nans priest, i hadnt been church since i was like three or four.
"Ive done so many bad things," i said, "i feel so sick, i feel dead."
He said, "Why do you think God made tommorow, you have another day to make it right,."
I sobbed and bawled, "I have noone, not my mum, not my nan, not my dad."
"What about your older sister- does she keep in touch?".
I looked at him, "I dont have a sister," i said.
He looked bare confused, "Of course you have a sister Deena, do you keep in touch with her?".
I got up, "i dont have a fuckin sister!," i shouted.
"Deena, you do," he said, "I know that because I christened her - you are not your mums only child."
"Wagwun Deena," Murda laughed. Damon nodded at me.
Paula was cryin. "Virgin no more," Damon said. Icey was standing behind them zippin up his jeans.
Imagine all these man in this small flat, naked man and two chicks. I looked to chanels dad, "please let her go, i'll stay, just dont touch her, ill do anythin, i'll leave the money but please just let her go," i said.
Chanels dad looked at me, "why- you know her?".
"Please," i said, "just let her go home, dont touch her, i'll be here."
"We already beat her out," Murda said, "she might as well get lined up now."
"Take the 3grand," i told Murda, "just leave Paula alone please."
Paula wiped her tears.
"Alright fine," Chanels dad said, "we'll let paula go if you suck my dick right now."
I looked at Paula,"not in front of her though."
"She's seen everytin already," Damon said.
"Alright alright," chanels dad said, "get her dressed and take her home, then you man come back here."
Damon looked vex but he didnt say nuttin. Paula got dressed and left the flat with Murda and Damon.
"Time to suck."
I got on my knees, he whippd out his dick.
I slowly put it in my mouth. He cried out. i licked the tip, i pulled it out of my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out, i smacked his thick dick againstmy tongue and looked up at him. all his boys started gettin hype and horny.
one of them got behind me and started feelin my pussy. i was suckin chanels dads dick so hard.
Then another stood in front of me and whipped out his... is that supposed to be a dick. it looked like one of them mini sausages. i put it in my mouth, i tried to suck it but tru say it got lost in my mouth. i wanted to laugh but this guy was some big hench bre. he buss. thank God. "Put her on the bed, her pussy fi dead."
They picked me up and took me into a room.
"Please wear a condom," i said. they laughed. at this point there were 15 man in the room. chanels dad got on top of me and put it in me, it hurt so much. i felt disgusting.
"you need to relax," he said, he slapped my face, "bring in some ganja."
they brought in.
"smoke it."
i put it to my lips and took a puff, i coughed as he started to finger me. his fingers were so coarse, it was a like getting lined up by monsters. their breath smelt of weed, they had bo but they thought that cheap deodorant would mask the smell.
i was just gettin fucked.that was it, i was lyin there just gettin fucked. just gettin beat out. it didnt feel nice or nuthin. it didnt feel good, it hurt. bareback. gettin lined up. i lost count. tears ran down my left eye whenever someone buss in me. i closed my eyes and remembered gettin raped, i just cried, my neck being held on, my face bein slapped. my tits bein sucked by teeth that felt like they were covered in grit.
at that moment i stopped livin and i killed myself, i stopped feeling anything. i felt like my heart had stopped beatin. i looked up at the man fuckin, he looked down at me and said, "you lis dis dick bitch"
then he punched me and when my head spun to the left and fell on the pillow it stayed there, something was bleedin- i didnt know what as i was getting fucked.
I dont even know how many hours this lasted. i just remember bein in the bed and the lights being off and the door being closed.
After an hour I got up slowly and fell back on the bed, i looked down, my pussy was bleeding. I got up really slowly and tried not to cry, it was almost impossible to walk. I walked into the mainroom, it was empty, i looked and saw a black nike bag. i opened it. it was empty. THEY HAD TAKEN MY MONEY.
I started cryin as i put on my dress. i looked outside of the window, it was stil dark, i looked at the time, it was 2in the mornin. my pussy was stingin and bleeding, my mouth was swollen and some of my tracks had fallen out.
I fixed my dress and walked into the bathroom, it was coveredin piss. I cried and stumbled out. I walked out of the house.
They had jacked my phone, my clutch bag. Everythin. the 2 bills i got from the priest gone,but i looked on the floor and saw my card, i picked it up, i looked at it.
I was so shook to leave but i knew i couldnt stay. I walked out of the flat and stumbled out of the estate down the stairs and walked out of it. I cried.
. As i walked the streets, bare cars beeped me, one guy rolled down his windows and told me to get in. I ignored him and just went looking for a pay phone, I was in hackney. i was cryin so hard. i needed to get back to sorcha's. I walked into a taxi cab place and asked for a cab to sorcha's address. I got in the cab with the driver and told him i needed to take money out for him when we got near sorchas house. We were in the cab and i was in the back, the rain hit the window as i cried. We got Sorcha's bits and i saw a cash machine, i told him id be back and walked to the machine. i took out 30 pounds and as i was going to get back into the cab i saw a church.
I walked to the cab and paid him and told him i would walk home. He drove off and i looked at the church. It was an old one and it was open. I limped into it and when i walked in, i realized how quiet it was, it was lit by candles and all the pews were empty and i sat in the last one, i didnt even know wat i was doin. I just bowed my head and prayed, i didnt even know what i was prayin for- i just prayed and then ilooked up.
"Hello,".
It was a priest. "May i sit next to you," he said. I budged up and he sat next to me.
"Whatever pain you're going through won't last forever," he said. I looked up at him and he gasped.
"DEENA!", he said,.
WTF. How did he know me.
"Yeah?", i said.
"Deena, I havent seen you since you used to come in with your grandma, how are you?".
I looked at him and started to recognise him vaguely.
"Deena, whats wrong," he said.
I looked at him and cried, "everythin, everythings a mess, i have noone."
He looked at me and said, "I knew there was a reason I had the idea to leave the church open today,".
I looked at him, "Do you know your mother came to this very church on a night like this when she was about your age,"he said.
His face started to look more familiar, he was my nans priest, i hadnt been church since i was like three or four.
"Ive done so many bad things," i said, "i feel so sick, i feel dead."
He said, "Why do you think God made tommorow, you have another day to make it right,."
I sobbed and bawled, "I have noone, not my mum, not my nan, not my dad."
"What about your older sister- does she keep in touch?".
I looked at him, "I dont have a sister," i said.
He looked bare confused, "Of course you have a sister Deena, do you keep in touch with her?".
I got up, "i dont have a fuckin sister!," i shouted.
"Deena, you do," he said, "I know that because I christened her - you are not your mums only child."
Thursday 13 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 55
Rochelle froze.
Sean jumped up and covered himself with duvet, i was on the bed naked. "Please get out," she said calmly, "please just leave."
Sean tried to beg her, but she looked at him and said, "you can forget about that money you wanted, get out."
"My clothes," he said.
Rochelle walked over to abig black nike bag and threw it out of her window. "Fetch," she said. He ran out of the room. Then she looked at me, i was naked on the bed. i got up and started to put my clothes on.
"You bitch," she said gently, "After everything."
"Come on Rochelle you know tings go on, any smart sket knows never to leave a sket alone with her man."
She looked at me in horror. "God Bless you Deena," she said as i did my bra.
I looked at her confused, "HELLO! i just fucked ur man."
"You're addicted to fuckin shit up for yourself," she said, "you're so used to negative shit that u create it for yourself, i dont care about him, he was only a bit of fun."
I looked at her and got vex, she wasnt takin me seriously , "Your clothes stank anyway," i said.
She nodded and said, "Thankyou,"
I walked to her face and said, "I know you got fucked by a dog." Why werent she reactin. She looked at me and said calmly, "God bless you."
I went to slap her but she grabbed my hand and said, "hit on a bitch who you know can't fuck u up,".
I pushed past her and ran down the stairs with my bag. I kissed my teeth and walked to the station. I was so vex.
I was so vex as i got on the train, i didnt even know why, it was somethin about the way rochelle reacted, like she didnt care.
I didnt even know why i was vex, i was angry and upset all at the same time. I got off the train and changed to the one that went to Sorcha's and when i got there I called Chanel to tell her i was on this ting tonight.
She told me to walk up to the guy in blue shirt and the timbaland boots and that as soon as she could confirm i had done it, she'd send 300 to my account that same night and the rest in small installments so the bank wouldnt get suspicious.
I walked to Sorchas house. When she opened the door, i dropped my bags and we hugged so hard.
I walked in and we were both cryin.
We sat in the front room, "my mums gone to see him now," she said, "theyve removed part of the knife from him,"
I started cryin, "Sorcha, if i tell u this u cant tell anyone," i said.
She looked at me, she looked so tired, oh shit i forgot all about the madness with diane.
"What is it," she said.
"Murda and Damon have been linkin Paula and they're gonna make her do a 50 man lineup,".
She gasped, "wait, who's Paula," she said.
"Ryans sister," i said.
"likkle Paula," she said. she got up and turned to me, "how do u know dis?".
Oh shit, how could i tell her that i had gone to murda to shot for him after what happened with him, diane and sorcha.
"They kidnapped me," i said, "as revenge for bein with ryan and thats when i saw her, she erm- shes scared Sorcha."
She looked at me, "murda is a prick," she started cryin.
"Do the feds know who might have shanked Ryan," i asked.
"All they know is that he was supposed to meet someone in Camberwell and then one guy in a balaclava walked up to him and stabbed him so hard that the handle fell off and the blade-", she started bawlin, "the blade is still in him."
I wanted to vomit, but i farted.
She looked at me and said, "whats wrong with u- what the fuck is wrong with your fuckin stomach, what do u eat?".
"I dont know," i said, "its a problem."
"Well fuckin sort it out, cos we were talkin about suttin serious and it just killed the whole vibe."
I looked down, "Sorcha- can i stay here," i said.
"Yeah yeah sure," she said. I wanted to tell her so bad that I knew who stabbed Ryan but i didnt want to get in any shit, all i wanted was the grand from Chanel and then i could think about where to move, where to go.
I looked at her and said, "Sorcha, so much shits been goin wiv me, so much nastiness, ive missed u so much."
She hugged me and kissed me on the lips. I went to lips her but she pulled away, "not now deena, i have to take a shit." She went upstairs. When i was sure she was gone, i let out some more farts, it stank of old eggs. I fanned my ass to woft the scent away and sat down. I was so worried about my boo, smurkz was such a prick, shankin Ryan. But i didnt even care, once i had the grand from Chanel, i was leavin, i was gonna move somewhere far, i know it was mad- but i was thinkin of Spain, not with aunt mable cos i know she wanted to fuck me up, but i met some man out there who were on me, i could move in with them, i just had to get away before any more shit kicked off.
Sorcha came back down.
"Babes, im going out tonight," i said.
"where to," she asked.
"To see one of my uncles, ill be back here tommorw," i said.
She nodded, she had been cryin, "im gonna see ryan at the hospital now, erm, i dont when ill be back, why dont u come wiv me," she asked.
"I cant see him like dat, seein him lyin dere would make me go mad for whoever did that to him, i swear if i knew who did," i said.
"You know the worst ting is dat ryan had so many people after him, itd be so hard to find out who it was," she said lookin at me.
She put on her makeup and left wearin a black and white cheque shirt tucked into high waisted true religions and black boots. she looked a mess but she was still nang though. her hair was black again and her make up was on point.
She left her house and gave me a spare key.i went up to her room and slept in her bed. I put my alarm on for 7pm and got up. I showered, took a shit and shaved my pussy and armpit hair. I brushed my hair and put in some clip ins in the back, it was chocolate brown to match my hair color. I only put in about 5 tracks and then curled my entire hair and brushed it to give it loose waves. I beat my face with hot pink nude lipstick, smokey eyed ting, mascara and tinted my eyebrows with my brown pencil and then opened Sorcha's bathroom draw and found dark green contacts. I put them in. I had to look as nang as possible for this guy i was gonna beat tonight, 1 grand.
I wasnt gonna wear a bra but i did put on my hello kitty knickers and this dress http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bodycon-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=837565&cid=8857&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black
And these shoes
http://www.asos.com/Karen-Millen/Karen-Millen-Extravagant-Frill-Satin-Court-Shoe/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1155182&cid=6461&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black%2fMulti
I called a cab to take me to Guvnor Bar and whilst in it, i told Chanel i was on my way there. I was so nervous. I had two doms in my clutch bag and was startin to wonder what this guy was, like who he was.
When i got to the bar, there were so many Affs there. I got out of the cab and every man was watchin me, i saw a few girls givin me dirty looks, but i didnt care, i walked in and looked for the guy. Blue shirt and timbalands.
"Sorry can i buy you a drink."
I looked and saw one bashy look alike. He was holding a cup of Dissarano. "Im good thanks," i said.
I sat at the bar. It was so noisy and crowded, so many man watching me. The guy at the bar asked what i wanted to drink and i asked for some hennessey. He laughed and got it for me and said, "you dont have to pay for that,".
"I dont?", i asked, "why?".
"Because the man over there says u can have anytin u want."
I looked over and some guy in a blue shirt and timbs was nodding at me. I smiled and took my drink and myself over to him.
He looked yardie.
"Deena?", he asked.
"Yeah hi," i said.
He was Jamaican, looked about 40, looked like beenie man and movado put together with long dreads.
He bit his fist in his mouth and said, "u a sexy motherfucker."
I giggled.
"Chanel tell u what i want?", he asked.
"She didnt say exactly, but i have an idea." I giggled, but i was fuckin nervous. He whispered in my ear, "suck my dick nice and ill give u 3 grand on top of the one."
I got wet immediately.
"Lets go," he said.
"Where too?",i asked.
"My flat, got a nice place."
I giggled as we left and got into his car. Mercs.
As he was drivin, he kept lookin at me.
"How old are you," he asked.
"18,"
"You know who I am," he asked.
I suddenly got scared and looked at him, "Im Chanels dad."
I started to feel sick and i didnt know why, "she tells me the man dem love you."
"They do," i said tryin not to sound prang.
"You're not goin to fuck me tonight," he said, "ur goin to fuck some of my friends."
"What."
"Im going to pay u 3 grand to take care of some of my dawgs," he said.
I wanted to cry but i held it in, "how many?". i asked.
"3 grands wort," he said.
This guy looked too young to be Chanels dad, "you look so young to be chanels dad," i said.
"thats because i'm not, my mudda adopted her and when she died, i had to look after her,"he said.
"Chanels adopted," i asked.
"Enough about dat," he said, "how good is ur dick suckin."
We got to a traffic light, "its the best," i said.
"Good," he said, "cos ur gonna suck off 30 yardies."
"I cant do that," i said, "its too much."
Then he pressed a button and the cars door lucked. I gulped.
"Its 3 grand Deena," he said. "Here's what we're going to do, all da money is in a bag in the boot, we can go to your house right now and leave the money there so uno its yours and den we go and do it."
"I cant," i said, "i have nowhere to stay."
"Alright," he said, "then gimme ur account number and ill send in installments."
I nodded. I was so scared.
We got to some estate in and we got out of the car. He put his arms around my waist and squeezed my backoff as we were in the lift. We got to the flat and he knocked on the door.
The door opened. the scent of dro hit me so hard. He kissed my cheek and pushed me in gently. there were about 40 man sittin around the flat just bunnin with one hand in their boxers.
They saw me and started sweatin.
"dis our new bitch," chanels dad said, "courtesy of Chanel."
All the men laughed as Chanels dad slapped me. I fell to the floor.
"Dont worry bitch," he said, "ull get ur tree grand, but for dat much money we got to do whatever we like."
They tore off my dress.
"Please were a condom," i said.
"there arent enough," one of the other yardies laughed.
"only pussy os use de rubber," another one of them said.
i was on the floor naked.
"where she from," another one asked.
"half bajan, half turkish," chanels said.
"iranian," i said.
he kicked my ass, "dont matter, by the time u finished, the only ting that will b inside of u is pure jamaican."
I Got up and kissed chanels dad. he started swallowing my mouth so rougly. then he pushed me to one of his boys who grabbed my pussy bare hard. And then all of a sudden, one door opened.
"AH ITS DE YOUNGER ONE!", Chanels dad said. I looked.
Omfg. She walked out cryin and she was naked.
"Deena, say hello to Paula."
Sean jumped up and covered himself with duvet, i was on the bed naked. "Please get out," she said calmly, "please just leave."
Sean tried to beg her, but she looked at him and said, "you can forget about that money you wanted, get out."
"My clothes," he said.
Rochelle walked over to abig black nike bag and threw it out of her window. "Fetch," she said. He ran out of the room. Then she looked at me, i was naked on the bed. i got up and started to put my clothes on.
"You bitch," she said gently, "After everything."
"Come on Rochelle you know tings go on, any smart sket knows never to leave a sket alone with her man."
She looked at me in horror. "God Bless you Deena," she said as i did my bra.
I looked at her confused, "HELLO! i just fucked ur man."
"You're addicted to fuckin shit up for yourself," she said, "you're so used to negative shit that u create it for yourself, i dont care about him, he was only a bit of fun."
I looked at her and got vex, she wasnt takin me seriously , "Your clothes stank anyway," i said.
She nodded and said, "Thankyou,"
I walked to her face and said, "I know you got fucked by a dog." Why werent she reactin. She looked at me and said calmly, "God bless you."
I went to slap her but she grabbed my hand and said, "hit on a bitch who you know can't fuck u up,".
I pushed past her and ran down the stairs with my bag. I kissed my teeth and walked to the station. I was so vex.
I was so vex as i got on the train, i didnt even know why, it was somethin about the way rochelle reacted, like she didnt care.
I didnt even know why i was vex, i was angry and upset all at the same time. I got off the train and changed to the one that went to Sorcha's and when i got there I called Chanel to tell her i was on this ting tonight.
She told me to walk up to the guy in blue shirt and the timbaland boots and that as soon as she could confirm i had done it, she'd send 300 to my account that same night and the rest in small installments so the bank wouldnt get suspicious.
I walked to Sorchas house. When she opened the door, i dropped my bags and we hugged so hard.
I walked in and we were both cryin.
We sat in the front room, "my mums gone to see him now," she said, "theyve removed part of the knife from him,"
I started cryin, "Sorcha, if i tell u this u cant tell anyone," i said.
She looked at me, she looked so tired, oh shit i forgot all about the madness with diane.
"What is it," she said.
"Murda and Damon have been linkin Paula and they're gonna make her do a 50 man lineup,".
She gasped, "wait, who's Paula," she said.
"Ryans sister," i said.
"likkle Paula," she said. she got up and turned to me, "how do u know dis?".
Oh shit, how could i tell her that i had gone to murda to shot for him after what happened with him, diane and sorcha.
"They kidnapped me," i said, "as revenge for bein with ryan and thats when i saw her, she erm- shes scared Sorcha."
She looked at me, "murda is a prick," she started cryin.
"Do the feds know who might have shanked Ryan," i asked.
"All they know is that he was supposed to meet someone in Camberwell and then one guy in a balaclava walked up to him and stabbed him so hard that the handle fell off and the blade-", she started bawlin, "the blade is still in him."
I wanted to vomit, but i farted.
She looked at me and said, "whats wrong with u- what the fuck is wrong with your fuckin stomach, what do u eat?".
"I dont know," i said, "its a problem."
"Well fuckin sort it out, cos we were talkin about suttin serious and it just killed the whole vibe."
I looked down, "Sorcha- can i stay here," i said.
"Yeah yeah sure," she said. I wanted to tell her so bad that I knew who stabbed Ryan but i didnt want to get in any shit, all i wanted was the grand from Chanel and then i could think about where to move, where to go.
I looked at her and said, "Sorcha, so much shits been goin wiv me, so much nastiness, ive missed u so much."
She hugged me and kissed me on the lips. I went to lips her but she pulled away, "not now deena, i have to take a shit." She went upstairs. When i was sure she was gone, i let out some more farts, it stank of old eggs. I fanned my ass to woft the scent away and sat down. I was so worried about my boo, smurkz was such a prick, shankin Ryan. But i didnt even care, once i had the grand from Chanel, i was leavin, i was gonna move somewhere far, i know it was mad- but i was thinkin of Spain, not with aunt mable cos i know she wanted to fuck me up, but i met some man out there who were on me, i could move in with them, i just had to get away before any more shit kicked off.
Sorcha came back down.
"Babes, im going out tonight," i said.
"where to," she asked.
"To see one of my uncles, ill be back here tommorw," i said.
She nodded, she had been cryin, "im gonna see ryan at the hospital now, erm, i dont when ill be back, why dont u come wiv me," she asked.
"I cant see him like dat, seein him lyin dere would make me go mad for whoever did that to him, i swear if i knew who did," i said.
"You know the worst ting is dat ryan had so many people after him, itd be so hard to find out who it was," she said lookin at me.
She put on her makeup and left wearin a black and white cheque shirt tucked into high waisted true religions and black boots. she looked a mess but she was still nang though. her hair was black again and her make up was on point.
She left her house and gave me a spare key.i went up to her room and slept in her bed. I put my alarm on for 7pm and got up. I showered, took a shit and shaved my pussy and armpit hair. I brushed my hair and put in some clip ins in the back, it was chocolate brown to match my hair color. I only put in about 5 tracks and then curled my entire hair and brushed it to give it loose waves. I beat my face with hot pink nude lipstick, smokey eyed ting, mascara and tinted my eyebrows with my brown pencil and then opened Sorcha's bathroom draw and found dark green contacts. I put them in. I had to look as nang as possible for this guy i was gonna beat tonight, 1 grand.
I wasnt gonna wear a bra but i did put on my hello kitty knickers and this dress http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bodycon-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=837565&cid=8857&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black
And these shoes
http://www.asos.com/Karen-Millen/Karen-Millen-Extravagant-Frill-Satin-Court-Shoe/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1155182&cid=6461&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black%2fMulti
I called a cab to take me to Guvnor Bar and whilst in it, i told Chanel i was on my way there. I was so nervous. I had two doms in my clutch bag and was startin to wonder what this guy was, like who he was.
When i got to the bar, there were so many Affs there. I got out of the cab and every man was watchin me, i saw a few girls givin me dirty looks, but i didnt care, i walked in and looked for the guy. Blue shirt and timbalands.
"Sorry can i buy you a drink."
I looked and saw one bashy look alike. He was holding a cup of Dissarano. "Im good thanks," i said.
I sat at the bar. It was so noisy and crowded, so many man watching me. The guy at the bar asked what i wanted to drink and i asked for some hennessey. He laughed and got it for me and said, "you dont have to pay for that,".
"I dont?", i asked, "why?".
"Because the man over there says u can have anytin u want."
I looked over and some guy in a blue shirt and timbs was nodding at me. I smiled and took my drink and myself over to him.
He looked yardie.
"Deena?", he asked.
"Yeah hi," i said.
He was Jamaican, looked about 40, looked like beenie man and movado put together with long dreads.
He bit his fist in his mouth and said, "u a sexy motherfucker."
I giggled.
"Chanel tell u what i want?", he asked.
"She didnt say exactly, but i have an idea." I giggled, but i was fuckin nervous. He whispered in my ear, "suck my dick nice and ill give u 3 grand on top of the one."
I got wet immediately.
"Lets go," he said.
"Where too?",i asked.
"My flat, got a nice place."
I giggled as we left and got into his car. Mercs.
As he was drivin, he kept lookin at me.
"How old are you," he asked.
"18,"
"You know who I am," he asked.
I suddenly got scared and looked at him, "Im Chanels dad."
I started to feel sick and i didnt know why, "she tells me the man dem love you."
"They do," i said tryin not to sound prang.
"You're not goin to fuck me tonight," he said, "ur goin to fuck some of my friends."
"What."
"Im going to pay u 3 grand to take care of some of my dawgs," he said.
I wanted to cry but i held it in, "how many?". i asked.
"3 grands wort," he said.
This guy looked too young to be Chanels dad, "you look so young to be chanels dad," i said.
"thats because i'm not, my mudda adopted her and when she died, i had to look after her,"he said.
"Chanels adopted," i asked.
"Enough about dat," he said, "how good is ur dick suckin."
We got to a traffic light, "its the best," i said.
"Good," he said, "cos ur gonna suck off 30 yardies."
"I cant do that," i said, "its too much."
Then he pressed a button and the cars door lucked. I gulped.
"Its 3 grand Deena," he said. "Here's what we're going to do, all da money is in a bag in the boot, we can go to your house right now and leave the money there so uno its yours and den we go and do it."
"I cant," i said, "i have nowhere to stay."
"Alright," he said, "then gimme ur account number and ill send in installments."
I nodded. I was so scared.
We got to some estate in and we got out of the car. He put his arms around my waist and squeezed my backoff as we were in the lift. We got to the flat and he knocked on the door.
The door opened. the scent of dro hit me so hard. He kissed my cheek and pushed me in gently. there were about 40 man sittin around the flat just bunnin with one hand in their boxers.
They saw me and started sweatin.
"dis our new bitch," chanels dad said, "courtesy of Chanel."
All the men laughed as Chanels dad slapped me. I fell to the floor.
"Dont worry bitch," he said, "ull get ur tree grand, but for dat much money we got to do whatever we like."
They tore off my dress.
"Please were a condom," i said.
"there arent enough," one of the other yardies laughed.
"only pussy os use de rubber," another one of them said.
i was on the floor naked.
"where she from," another one asked.
"half bajan, half turkish," chanels said.
"iranian," i said.
he kicked my ass, "dont matter, by the time u finished, the only ting that will b inside of u is pure jamaican."
I Got up and kissed chanels dad. he started swallowing my mouth so rougly. then he pushed me to one of his boys who grabbed my pussy bare hard. And then all of a sudden, one door opened.
"AH ITS DE YOUNGER ONE!", Chanels dad said. I looked.
Omfg. She walked out cryin and she was naked.
"Deena, say hello to Paula."
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 54
He gave me a blank stare like say I had told him I was leavin him for Mr. Wong.
"Why the fuck did Ryan call you 25 times on the same day i was with you, the day you banged me up," i said.
"Who's Ryan?", he asked.
OH NO NO NO. Dont try that dumb shit with me. "Dont play dumb," i said, "u asked about him just like ten minutes ago and now u actin like u dont know he is,".
He gave me a blank stare. I kissed my teeth and dialled Ryans number.
It rang.
"Hello Kings College Hospital?". I put the phone down.
"You!", i said, "UR THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM I WAS WITH U- it wasnt sorcha." I jumped up.
He tried to hug me, i pushed him back. "I did it for u, i wanted u to come back to me."
"He BEAT me up," i screamed, "after you BEAT me up, i was beat up twice in the same day because of you, fucked up twice in the same day, do I LOOK LIKE kat stacks pussy!".
He tried to hug me and then he said, "where u goin- ryans gone, u cant go back to him."
Then i froze and walked back and shook my head, "it was u," i whispered, "you got him shanked."
He looked at me, "nah nah it wasnt me, nah nah."
"YOU LIAR!", i screamed. "You mustve set him up, cos ur too much of a pussy to do it yourself."
Then Adam picked up a lamp and threw it to the wall, "HES A FUCKIN BATTY BOY WHO WANTED TO LINK MAN SO YEAH I SET HIM UP- FOR ONE OF YOUR OTHER MAN TO GET HIM!".
I screamed, ryan! my baby. I was goin mad. i couldnt close my eyes, i was so- feeling so many tings. "You prick, ryan would never try and be with you, he's not a bats."
"He's THE ONE who set me up, remember that night i went to go pick up my boys from south wiv you, he paid my boys to set me up to get jacked,"
"Why would he do dat?!".
"Because he knew that would be the way to get u back," he shouted, "he knew ud be shook to be in souf alone and that ud call him, den when u came back to me, he found me on facebook and started chattin shit to me, den he tried move to man, fuckin shirt lifter, he tried move to man like say mans even on dick so i set him up, cos he dont deserve you."
I felt sick. I ran down the stairs and started to put on my clothes.
"It was Smurkz!", Adam shouted, "Smurkz shanked him." Adam ran down the stairs to stop me from going. I punced him, he grabbed my arms, "I dont know what Ryan did to him, but Smurkz wanted him dead, yeah i set him up, but i did it for you." I slapped him and ran out of the bed.
I got to the end of the road cryin. I called Sorcha.
"Im coming to ur yard now," i said.
I caught the bus to the trainstation and was gonna go to Sorcha's straight away but i remembered i had rochelles clothes on and wanted to change back into mine, so i called her to say i was gonna go over to see her. On the train, i just looked at the map, i didnt wanna think about any of this shit. I felt sick, it was all too much, i was- i couldnt breathe, the train was gettin too crowded, i had my suitcase with me. I started breathing slowly, the man next to me asked me if i was ok and i said i was, but i wasnt.
I just closed my eyes. Some guy tried to chirpse me but i ignored him. I inhaled and just waited for my stop. I got to Chalk Farm station and walked to Rochelles house.
I wasnt gonna tell her about anyfin, i was just gonna say that my mum and me were cool again like i did before.
I walked to her house and knocked on the door. The door opened, it was some scruffy looking gunger, "Is Rochelle here please?".
"Yeah yeha upstairs," he said. I smiled at him and walked up and knocked on Rochelle's bedroom door. She opened it, wearing some sexy frenchies. I kissed her on the cheek. "You ok," she said. I nodded.
"Im here to give you your clothes back and to thank u for last night, i dont know what i would have done," i said.
"Its ok," she said, "my doors always open for you anyway, i know how mad tings can get."
"Can i get changed in your bathroom?", i askd.
"Oh my boyfriend is in there, you can get changed in here though,, i'm going now anyway, doing a course at the Open University, if you're gone by the time i get back, ill call u.." I hugged her, She put on a long flowery dress, some bangles and brushed her pocohantas style hair, then left.
When she left i got naked and started cryin, all this mess, my mum, ryan, adam, murda, that woman, icey, paula, all this shit i was involved in. I was naked when the door was pushed open.
"OH SHIT!", I screamed. I covered myself with hands as some man walked in.
Tall cooly ting. He looked about 510, sick shape up, nice hair, big hands, he looked like an athlete.
"Oh shit im sorry, who are you?", he asked as I tried to cover my body.
"Deena, im rochelles friend, didnt she tellyou id be in here, who are you?".
"I'm her boyfriend," he said, "Sean."
I glanced at his body in the towel. I saw his dick getting hard. I dont even know why i did this. I stood in front of him naked. "Rochelles gone to work," i said.
"Has she," he said. He looked about 19, a year older than me.
He closed the door and locked it.
"Rochelle never told me she had a friend called Deena," he said.
"We met recently," i said.
"You're quite boom," he said, "you look like a mixrace Mercedes from hollyoaks or that ting that ray j beat."
I wasted no time. I walkedover to him and licked his lips.
He dropped his towel. WHOAH! Oh my Lexington steele! I started singing Ludacris fantasy in my head.
I grabbed his neck and we started lipsin, i started rubbin up against his dick. He pushed me on the bed and spread open my legs and looked at my pussy.
"Bareback?", i asked.
"Rochelle always makes me use a rubber." he said.
"Rochelle's no fun," i said.
He rubbed his dick against my clit to get me wet and believe me it was workin, i couldnt close my eyes cos of the image i kept seein of the insects eating the womans face, the woman who murda and damon made icey rape.
"You're so sexy," he said. he had a coarse voice, he sounded like wiley, that kind of road cockney voice thing. He slowly put his dick in me. AHHHHH. ITS TOO BIG. PULL IT OUT. He laughed as he shoved it in, i lost my breath. it was tearin me out, it was so big, pleasepull it out.
But then it tickled me, then i shut my mouth and lipsed him. He was grindin in me, kissin my neck, suckin my tits as his dick was beatin me out. it kind of hurt but the feeling of the thickness was to nang for me too complain. He smiled as i groaned and moaned, it was one of dem rough beats, i looked down at the dick, i couldnt believe it was able to fit in me.
Take it take it love me love me. This cock was givin me the business, i think it was the element of suprise that was makin it feel so nice. i spanked him, "is that all uve got u pussy, fuck me like a man."
He got vex and started fuckin me harder, i laughed so loud as he grabbed my neck and started gruntin as his ginomours piece impaled my smoking cunt.
He was so leng! bangin me out, it wasnt as good as adam or smurkz or even ryan for that matter but it-
"Oh Deena i forgot to take your mums adress,".
"ROCHELLE!".
"Why the fuck did Ryan call you 25 times on the same day i was with you, the day you banged me up," i said.
"Who's Ryan?", he asked.
OH NO NO NO. Dont try that dumb shit with me. "Dont play dumb," i said, "u asked about him just like ten minutes ago and now u actin like u dont know he is,".
He gave me a blank stare. I kissed my teeth and dialled Ryans number.
It rang.
"Hello Kings College Hospital?". I put the phone down.
"You!", i said, "UR THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM I WAS WITH U- it wasnt sorcha." I jumped up.
He tried to hug me, i pushed him back. "I did it for u, i wanted u to come back to me."
"He BEAT me up," i screamed, "after you BEAT me up, i was beat up twice in the same day because of you, fucked up twice in the same day, do I LOOK LIKE kat stacks pussy!".
He tried to hug me and then he said, "where u goin- ryans gone, u cant go back to him."
Then i froze and walked back and shook my head, "it was u," i whispered, "you got him shanked."
He looked at me, "nah nah it wasnt me, nah nah."
"YOU LIAR!", i screamed. "You mustve set him up, cos ur too much of a pussy to do it yourself."
Then Adam picked up a lamp and threw it to the wall, "HES A FUCKIN BATTY BOY WHO WANTED TO LINK MAN SO YEAH I SET HIM UP- FOR ONE OF YOUR OTHER MAN TO GET HIM!".
I screamed, ryan! my baby. I was goin mad. i couldnt close my eyes, i was so- feeling so many tings. "You prick, ryan would never try and be with you, he's not a bats."
"He's THE ONE who set me up, remember that night i went to go pick up my boys from south wiv you, he paid my boys to set me up to get jacked,"
"Why would he do dat?!".
"Because he knew that would be the way to get u back," he shouted, "he knew ud be shook to be in souf alone and that ud call him, den when u came back to me, he found me on facebook and started chattin shit to me, den he tried move to man, fuckin shirt lifter, he tried move to man like say mans even on dick so i set him up, cos he dont deserve you."
I felt sick. I ran down the stairs and started to put on my clothes.
"It was Smurkz!", Adam shouted, "Smurkz shanked him." Adam ran down the stairs to stop me from going. I punced him, he grabbed my arms, "I dont know what Ryan did to him, but Smurkz wanted him dead, yeah i set him up, but i did it for you." I slapped him and ran out of the bed.
I got to the end of the road cryin. I called Sorcha.
"Im coming to ur yard now," i said.
I caught the bus to the trainstation and was gonna go to Sorcha's straight away but i remembered i had rochelles clothes on and wanted to change back into mine, so i called her to say i was gonna go over to see her. On the train, i just looked at the map, i didnt wanna think about any of this shit. I felt sick, it was all too much, i was- i couldnt breathe, the train was gettin too crowded, i had my suitcase with me. I started breathing slowly, the man next to me asked me if i was ok and i said i was, but i wasnt.
I just closed my eyes. Some guy tried to chirpse me but i ignored him. I inhaled and just waited for my stop. I got to Chalk Farm station and walked to Rochelles house.
I wasnt gonna tell her about anyfin, i was just gonna say that my mum and me were cool again like i did before.
I walked to her house and knocked on the door. The door opened, it was some scruffy looking gunger, "Is Rochelle here please?".
"Yeah yeha upstairs," he said. I smiled at him and walked up and knocked on Rochelle's bedroom door. She opened it, wearing some sexy frenchies. I kissed her on the cheek. "You ok," she said. I nodded.
"Im here to give you your clothes back and to thank u for last night, i dont know what i would have done," i said.
"Its ok," she said, "my doors always open for you anyway, i know how mad tings can get."
"Can i get changed in your bathroom?", i askd.
"Oh my boyfriend is in there, you can get changed in here though,, i'm going now anyway, doing a course at the Open University, if you're gone by the time i get back, ill call u.." I hugged her, She put on a long flowery dress, some bangles and brushed her pocohantas style hair, then left.
When she left i got naked and started cryin, all this mess, my mum, ryan, adam, murda, that woman, icey, paula, all this shit i was involved in. I was naked when the door was pushed open.
"OH SHIT!", I screamed. I covered myself with hands as some man walked in.
Tall cooly ting. He looked about 510, sick shape up, nice hair, big hands, he looked like an athlete.
"Oh shit im sorry, who are you?", he asked as I tried to cover my body.
"Deena, im rochelles friend, didnt she tellyou id be in here, who are you?".
"I'm her boyfriend," he said, "Sean."
I glanced at his body in the towel. I saw his dick getting hard. I dont even know why i did this. I stood in front of him naked. "Rochelles gone to work," i said.
"Has she," he said. He looked about 19, a year older than me.
He closed the door and locked it.
"Rochelle never told me she had a friend called Deena," he said.
"We met recently," i said.
"You're quite boom," he said, "you look like a mixrace Mercedes from hollyoaks or that ting that ray j beat."
I wasted no time. I walkedover to him and licked his lips.
He dropped his towel. WHOAH! Oh my Lexington steele! I started singing Ludacris fantasy in my head.
I grabbed his neck and we started lipsin, i started rubbin up against his dick. He pushed me on the bed and spread open my legs and looked at my pussy.
"Bareback?", i asked.
"Rochelle always makes me use a rubber." he said.
"Rochelle's no fun," i said.
He rubbed his dick against my clit to get me wet and believe me it was workin, i couldnt close my eyes cos of the image i kept seein of the insects eating the womans face, the woman who murda and damon made icey rape.
"You're so sexy," he said. he had a coarse voice, he sounded like wiley, that kind of road cockney voice thing. He slowly put his dick in me. AHHHHH. ITS TOO BIG. PULL IT OUT. He laughed as he shoved it in, i lost my breath. it was tearin me out, it was so big, pleasepull it out.
But then it tickled me, then i shut my mouth and lipsed him. He was grindin in me, kissin my neck, suckin my tits as his dick was beatin me out. it kind of hurt but the feeling of the thickness was to nang for me too complain. He smiled as i groaned and moaned, it was one of dem rough beats, i looked down at the dick, i couldnt believe it was able to fit in me.
Take it take it love me love me. This cock was givin me the business, i think it was the element of suprise that was makin it feel so nice. i spanked him, "is that all uve got u pussy, fuck me like a man."
He got vex and started fuckin me harder, i laughed so loud as he grabbed my neck and started gruntin as his ginomours piece impaled my smoking cunt.
He was so leng! bangin me out, it wasnt as good as adam or smurkz or even ryan for that matter but it-
"Oh Deena i forgot to take your mums adress,".
"ROCHELLE!".
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