BAM.
A car hit some blind man.
I kept on running and ran into the mcdonalds, i ran into the toilets, bare people were lookin at me as i ran in, i pushed open a cubicle door, a fat woman was taking a shit, i closed dat door and pushed open another one, a woman in a burka was fingerin herself, i kicked open the last one and just vomited in the toilet. The same white fluid just poured of me.
I cried, i felt so sick, my stomach was hurtin so much. I started screamin, i couldnt stop vomitin. One of the staff ran tohelp me, "please help me."
I must have passed out because I didnt remember being taken to hospital. I actually just remember lying down on a bed and feeling really light headed like i wasnt there, like i had just woken up from somewhere, i started cryin when i realized where I was, Kings. All i could think of was Ryan.
I was alone in some room, it wasnt a normal ward it was like a gps surgery ting, then some doctor walked in with a notepad. She looked she was about 50.
"Hello Deena," she said.I didnt say anything.
"My name's Dr. Z," she said smilin at me, "how are you feeling"
"My head hurts," i said.
She looked at me for a long time like she realized somethin then said, "Deena, the bruises on your face?".
From Chanels dad, from the yardies, from sorcha, from dee, from smurkz.
"I fell," i said.
She nodded, "Deena, you were brought here because you collapsed in a public place and were regurgitating, we've run some tests, 80% of your upchuck was semen- Deena, have you been raped?".
I turned my head away from her.
"Would you be willing to do a test, just to make sure you're safe from anything, it won't hurt, i can arrange it for you now," she said.
I turned to her,"yes please."
They took me into some room, and there was a nurse, she was a Jamaican woman and she said, "You haven't used any moutwash have you since it happened,".
"No, no," I said, "i wasnt raped- i just, it was a mistake, there were so many of them, i just want to get tested to see if ive caught..."
"I see, I see," she said, "ok let me just inform Dr. Zarinsdast of this, the test will be carried out differently then."
She left the room and I looked around, there was a leaflet about a place called The Havens where women and men who have been raped can go to for free help and advice http://www.thehavens.co.uk/
They had bases in Paddington, White Chapel and Camberwell for anyone, it didnt matter, they help everyone, I took down their number for the Camberwell base, 0203299 1599. I knew i had been raped, i didnt want to be fucked by all them men, but i was scared, my pussy was so sore, i felt sick and hungry.
The nurse came back in and sat down, "Deena, I'm going to need you to explain what happened to you, was it consensual?".
"It was only meant to be one guy" i cried.
"There was more than one?", she said horrified, "how many- did this to you?".
"30," i said, "there were 30 of them,"
She looked at me and said, "You've come to the right place- that IS rape, you did not consent to having all those men sleep with you and so it is rape."
"Some of them didnt penetrate my-vagina," i said, "some only used my mouth."
"Did you consent to it?", she asked.
"I didnt say anythin to stop it though," i said startin to cry.
"It's STILL RAPE, rape counts as the oral, anal, and vaginal penetration of someone without their consent as well as touching someones body without their say so, unless you actively said they could do it, it is rape and it is against the law."
She was so nice and calm, she gently said, "we're going to carry out a rape test, to make sure you're ok, where you wearing those clothes when it happened."
"No no," i said, "this happened last night, I- i got changed," i didnt tell her about smurkz and dee and jesse, and what happened wiv dem cos jesse told me to tell nobody.
"Ok," she said, "I'm going to explain our HIV testing procedure, When a person is infected with HIV, their body responds by producing special proteins that fight infection, these are called antibodies. An HIV antibody test looks for these antibodies in your blood,your saliva or urine, if you agree we will do all three. If antibodies to HIV are detected, it means a person has been infected with HIV. But there are some exceptions because babies born to mothers with the virus keep their mother's antibodies for up to 18 months, which means they may test positive on an HIV antibody test, even if they are actually HIV negative and some people who have taken part in HIV vaccine trials may have HIV antibodies even if they are not infected with the virus itself.
Most people develop detectable HIV antibodies within 6 to 12 weeks of contracting the infection. Sometimes, but only very rarely it can take up to 6 months for antibodies to develop,".
I looked at her and started cryin, you dont knw how shook i was, i started thinkin of all the times i had fucked bareback, or when the dom had split, about all the man i had fucked who had wifeys who were fuckin them bareback, I realized how dese tings spread, everyone finks it can never happen to them.
"We'll test you for every other STIs, the HIV test results will come back in a few weeks but the others will arrive faster, I-" just as she was speaking, the dr came into the room.
"Pearl can you give me a moment to speak with Deena please?".
Pearl gave her one look and left the room and closed the door.
The dr looked at me and said, "I know who you are bitch,"
I was bare confused,
"what," i said.
"I said i know who you are."
"What are u talkin about, who are you?".
"Mrs. Zarindast, your fathers wife,".
Saturday, 22 May 2010
Thursday, 20 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 61
i look up and just started cryin. All i could think about was Sorcha and the picture.
Jesse looked at Smurkz and said "wheres the charlie?".
Smurkz said, "upstairs bruv- u didnt see it?".
Then Jesse looked down at me and looked up at Smurkz, "where upstairs?"he asked.
WTF. How did Jesse and Smurkz even know each other.
"Deena aint you surprised to see Jesse here, tru say u used to fuck him," i looked at jesse, and he said, "i met my man at some rave and he told me u fucked him too- and that prick ryan,"
Smurkz kicked me in my right tit and then whipped out his dick, "suck it," he said.
I got up and put it in my mouth and sucked as i cried, he was punchin me as i sucked.
"Oi, whens that bre comin to collect his dro," Dee asked Jesse.
"About ten minutes," Jesse said, "ive weighed it up and shit, and the charlies all there yeah?".
Smurkz nodded, "u can get ur piece once it's all be sold innit, shouldcome to about 3 bags,"
He punched me, Jesse said, "three bags worth of coke here right now,"
Smurkz said, "Im a fuckin hustler,".
Dee laughed and said to me, "Ur boy Ryan fucked bare of us over, he try mug off Smurkz, he banged up Jesse and his boy but now he's in afuckin morgue, he's probably gonna be suckin dick in hell."
Smurkz laughed and said, "sick sick,". Jesse laughed.
"Ur lookin worse for wear Deena," he said.
I felt sick and vomited all over the carpet, bare white stuff came out with it.
Smurkz kicked me in my jaw, "she's vomitin cum!", Frisky screamed, i kept vomitin and vomitin, it was all the food i'd eaten with bare white fluid, Smurkz kicked me and said, "lick it up,".
I cried.
He kicked me in my forehead and said, "LICK IT!".
I cried as i lowered my head to the carpet when Jesse said, "nah nah,just make her clean it up, i wanna draw brain off her still, lemme go get some CIF and a sponge from the bathroom."
Jesse went up stairs and Smurkz gave him a weird look.
Then Jesse came back down and said "Actually Deena- come and get it urself u bosh,". Smurkz looked at jesse and laughed, "sick guy, u heard him deena, go get the fuckin cif to clean up your shit, Lil kim."
jesse pulled me up and slapped my face and said, "wheres ryan now,"
he pulled me up the stairs, i was cryin so hard. he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door.
"Im gonna get u out, ive only got ten minutes," he said, "the feds are comin here for a raid."
He was whisperin, i couldnt stop cryin, "deena, listen- im gonna get u out, but u need to be quick."
"why are u helping me," i cried.
"Man fucked about the last time, this aint right- u dont deserve this, listen, in a bit, im gonna back down by myself and as soon as i get to the last step run down, unlock the door and duss,".
"I have no shoes," i cried, i was sobbing.
"Wait here."
He left the bathroom and i sat on the toilet cryin, why the fuck was he helpin me, the sun was comin out. he walked back in a tracksuit and creps. "put this on,"
he threw them at me, i quickly put them on top of sorcha's pyjamas.
I looked at him, "dont tell anyone u were ever here deena."
"Ur snitchin on them," i said, "ur workin for the feds,"
He didnt say anythin and said, "get ready, wait at the top of the stairs and when im at the bottom step run down and get out of here, dont stop just duss,".
"why are u helpin me," i asked.
He looked at me and said, "deena- if u tell anyone dat i helped you."
"i wont," i said wipin my eyes. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, like i was gonna escape.
"start groanin," he said.
I started actin like i was gettin fucked so they wouldnt get suspicious. Then Jesse went out of the bathroom, i followed him to the top of the stairs and waited till he was at the bottom step, the creps were heavy, they were one size too big but as soon as he was the bottom step, i dussed down the stairs pushin jesse, and unlocked the door.
Smurkz started screamin but i just ran, i ran down the stairs of the estate and ran out onto the main road, there were people goin work, i didnt car ei just ran, and then i saw bare police cars drivin toward the estate.
I just ran as i saw the feds jump out of their whips and run up the estate, i pushed past people, i was jus running so fast, my legs were tired but i didnt care, i had to keep on dussin, i pushed some old lady to the floor and kept on runnin, i had to cross the road, i saw abus that went near my ends, i didnt have no money, so den i realized i had no way of getting back, i felt like i was gonna vomit, i saw a mcdonalds across the road.
I ran into the road.
BAM.
Jesse looked at Smurkz and said "wheres the charlie?".
Smurkz said, "upstairs bruv- u didnt see it?".
Then Jesse looked down at me and looked up at Smurkz, "where upstairs?"he asked.
WTF. How did Jesse and Smurkz even know each other.
"Deena aint you surprised to see Jesse here, tru say u used to fuck him," i looked at jesse, and he said, "i met my man at some rave and he told me u fucked him too- and that prick ryan,"
Smurkz kicked me in my right tit and then whipped out his dick, "suck it," he said.
I got up and put it in my mouth and sucked as i cried, he was punchin me as i sucked.
"Oi, whens that bre comin to collect his dro," Dee asked Jesse.
"About ten minutes," Jesse said, "ive weighed it up and shit, and the charlies all there yeah?".
Smurkz nodded, "u can get ur piece once it's all be sold innit, shouldcome to about 3 bags,"
He punched me, Jesse said, "three bags worth of coke here right now,"
Smurkz said, "Im a fuckin hustler,".
Dee laughed and said to me, "Ur boy Ryan fucked bare of us over, he try mug off Smurkz, he banged up Jesse and his boy but now he's in afuckin morgue, he's probably gonna be suckin dick in hell."
Smurkz laughed and said, "sick sick,". Jesse laughed.
"Ur lookin worse for wear Deena," he said.
I felt sick and vomited all over the carpet, bare white stuff came out with it.
Smurkz kicked me in my jaw, "she's vomitin cum!", Frisky screamed, i kept vomitin and vomitin, it was all the food i'd eaten with bare white fluid, Smurkz kicked me and said, "lick it up,".
I cried.
He kicked me in my forehead and said, "LICK IT!".
I cried as i lowered my head to the carpet when Jesse said, "nah nah,just make her clean it up, i wanna draw brain off her still, lemme go get some CIF and a sponge from the bathroom."
Jesse went up stairs and Smurkz gave him a weird look.
Then Jesse came back down and said "Actually Deena- come and get it urself u bosh,". Smurkz looked at jesse and laughed, "sick guy, u heard him deena, go get the fuckin cif to clean up your shit, Lil kim."
jesse pulled me up and slapped my face and said, "wheres ryan now,"
he pulled me up the stairs, i was cryin so hard. he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door.
"Im gonna get u out, ive only got ten minutes," he said, "the feds are comin here for a raid."
He was whisperin, i couldnt stop cryin, "deena, listen- im gonna get u out, but u need to be quick."
"why are u helping me," i cried.
"Man fucked about the last time, this aint right- u dont deserve this, listen, in a bit, im gonna back down by myself and as soon as i get to the last step run down, unlock the door and duss,".
"I have no shoes," i cried, i was sobbing.
"Wait here."
He left the bathroom and i sat on the toilet cryin, why the fuck was he helpin me, the sun was comin out. he walked back in a tracksuit and creps. "put this on,"
he threw them at me, i quickly put them on top of sorcha's pyjamas.
I looked at him, "dont tell anyone u were ever here deena."
"Ur snitchin on them," i said, "ur workin for the feds,"
He didnt say anythin and said, "get ready, wait at the top of the stairs and when im at the bottom step run down and get out of here, dont stop just duss,".
"why are u helpin me," i asked.
He looked at me and said, "deena- if u tell anyone dat i helped you."
"i wont," i said wipin my eyes. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, like i was gonna escape.
"start groanin," he said.
I started actin like i was gettin fucked so they wouldnt get suspicious. Then Jesse went out of the bathroom, i followed him to the top of the stairs and waited till he was at the bottom step, the creps were heavy, they were one size too big but as soon as he was the bottom step, i dussed down the stairs pushin jesse, and unlocked the door.
Smurkz started screamin but i just ran, i ran down the stairs of the estate and ran out onto the main road, there were people goin work, i didnt car ei just ran, and then i saw bare police cars drivin toward the estate.
I just ran as i saw the feds jump out of their whips and run up the estate, i pushed past people, i was jus running so fast, my legs were tired but i didnt care, i had to keep on dussin, i pushed some old lady to the floor and kept on runnin, i had to cross the road, i saw abus that went near my ends, i didnt have no money, so den i realized i had no way of getting back, i felt like i was gonna vomit, i saw a mcdonalds across the road.
I ran into the road.
BAM.
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 59 and 60
CHAPTER 59
"Shit Deena, you fucked Sorcha up too?", he said.
I just started cryin. He was holdin Sorcha's house key.
"You're comin wiv me," he said. He grabbed me by hair, i bit his hand and drew blood, he backhanded me. He kicked me in the face, i grabbed his foot and pulled him down. I went to dial for the police, but he grabbed me by my waist, i fell and my head slammed against the bannister.
Two man ran up in the house and pulled me out of the house. I was kickin and screamin as they pushed me into the black car, the same car i saw earlier, all someone said from their window was "shut up u slag", they must of thought i was jokin around.
They kicked me into the back of the car as Smurkz locked Sorcha's door and ran into the drivers seat of the whip.
I was in the middle of one black guy and Dee who had a big scar on his face and in the passenger seat was one other white bredda and Smurkz was drivin.
Dee slapped me, "long time since i seen you Deena," he punched me.
I started cryin. I couldnt believe this, all this shit in two nights, i wasnt even scared uno, i wasnt even scared, i was jus tired.
"Hows ur man," Smurkz said, "ur boy ryan."
They all started creasin, "Batty boy fi dead," smurkz laufed, "stuck the shank so deep in, the blade broke in his fuckin belly."
I just kept my head down and didnt say nuthin.
"You know what," Dee said, "i dont even fink she's sorry."
Then i looked at Dee and sniggered, "Why are u talkin like Westwood."
His bres started sayin, "ah shes boyin it, shes boyin it."
Dee slapped me and said, "uno what- suck my dick."
He unzipped his jeans and forced my head to his cock, i just put my mouth on it and didnt suck it, he punched my head so i started sucking. His pubes smelled like proper BO, as i sucked, he was writhin and groanin, he was pullin my hair so hard. his boy started touchin my pussy.
The car stopped. We were in some next place, the sun was comin out, "nah nah," Smurkz said, "lets jus go back to your yard Frisky, the suns coming out."
"But i cant," frisky said, "my mums home."
Smurkz kissed his teeth, "alright we'll take her to mine."
They kept on drivin and i thought we were goin to dees house but smurkz must have got a new place cos now we were on the motorway, fuckin pussyhole, he mustve moved cos he was prang after what chanel and her boys did to him and dee.
We on the motorway for ages and then i realized that we were in Surrey Quayes.
The car stopped in front of some any run down estate, Dee pulled me out of the car, imagine this now- i was barefoot in Sorcha's hello kitty pyjamas. they pushed me to some door. Smurz unlocked it and kicked me in. I fell on my face.
They surrounded me, "U look fucked," Smurkz said, "You upset cos ur batty boy man is dead?".
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in my bum, it hurt so much cos his toe nails were long. Dee dragged me by my hair into the livin room. It was so dirty, pizza hut boxes everywhere, rose bottles on the settee, there were condom wrappers everywhere.
"You aint so big now," Dee said, "Where's Chanel now Deena," he screamed. The scar on his face was so deep, it was like a tumour. Smurkz said, "You're the dumbest sket alive, tru say Dee, she's the dumbest bosh on road, real talk Deena on a level, how many man have u fucked,"
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in the face, my head felt like it screamin but i didnt make a sound. Smurkz got vex and pulled off the pyjama bottoms and looked at my pussy.
Dee gasped.
"What the fuck happened to it," he said.
It was hurtin, i could feel blood slowly comin out of it.
Then Smurkz grabbed my neck and spat on my face.
"Beg us to let you go," Smurkz said.
I didnt say anythin, he punched me, "beg me!".
I didnt say anythin.
"She finks someones gonna save her," Dee said, "noones not gonna know where u are, that sket Sorcha will fink u jus left her for dead and dussed."
Smurkz laufed, the two other bres were just watching. Smurkz looked so evil, his eyes looked soulless like someone had taken somethin out of them, as he grabbed my neck and found it hard to breathe, he laughed. He was choking me, i grabbed his forearms for him to let go as i was chokin but he laughed, "u like dis u sket dont lie,".
Dee looked away as i choked, i could feel my face gettin red.
"BEG!", he shouted,
I didnt beg. He kept on chokin me and then he let go, i fell on my back and panted holdin my neck, his hands were so strong i could their imprint on my neck, i gapsed for air desperately as Smurkz took off his chain and clothes.
"No," i said.
"Shut the fuck up," Dee said.
I jumped and tried to run but Smurkz threw a remote control at my head, the pain was so much, i fell to the floor and started cryin.
He grabbed me by my legs back to the livin room, my face had bad carpet burn, he looked down at me and said, "Your boyfriend Ryan is the biggest chich on road, i fuckin set him up, that bredda Adam told him he wanted to link him but i showed up instead," he started creasin, "Blacked out, black balaclava, i ghosted him nice, and uno what he said when he realized he had been shanked."
I looked at Smurkz.
He said, "His last words were, Deena." They all started creasin.
"U even got batty bisexuals finkin of u on their dying day," Dee said.
"What happened to ur pussy," Smurkz asked, "why does it look so sore."
I didnt say anythin and then i looked up and said, "i got fucked by your dad innit."
He kicked me in my stomach. I cried out.
"Ive got a fuckin suprise for you," he said, "just wait innit."
Chapter 60
I was cryin out in so much pain, my stomach was painin me, it was like someoned had shanked me.
"Her pussy looks like she got fucked by Mandingo," Frisky said.
"Who the fucks Mandingo," Smurkz said.
"Aww some pornstar with a hench dick."
"Why u watchin nex mans piece for- are you fuckin fruity bruv," Smurkz asked.
Dee started laughin, "i told u from day u was gay Frisky,"
Frisky looked bare upset when Smurkz said, "ur a fuckin bats man- thats the last time i let u watch man beat ever,".
Then Smurkz turned to me and said, "Oi Frisky, Deena wants to take u to get ur nails done."
Frisky got bare vex and didnt say nuthin.
"You and your fuckin snakey friend Natalie, she finks i dont know how she set the whole ting up so chanel could get me yeah? shes next," then he looked at Dee and said, "we should do to her what chanel did to you man."
"Fuckin scar up your face," Dee said.
"Nah nah," Frisky said, "i wanna fuck her."
They all look suprised, "Ur gay doe," Smurkz said.
"Nah nah i aint," Frisky said, "lemme fuck her."
"Alrite den," Smurkz said, "and if u buss within ten minutes, ill fuckin punch u up."
I screamed as Dee held me down as Frisky stood over and dropped his pants. His dick was lopsided, almost like it sleeping on his left thigh. He lay on top of me,he went to kiss me, i bit his mouth. he fell on his back and kicked me in my knee.
He tried to get on top again but i kept movin, Dee slapped me so i would stop and then when Frisky put it in, i did the dirtiest fing ever.
I farted.
Frisky jumped up. Dee stepped back.
"What the fuck man," Smurkz said, "u takin the piss."
He pulled me up and heabutted me, i burst into tears. I couldnt take this anymore, i wanted to die, mybody felt dead as Smurkz started punchin me up,proper fucking me up.
He grabbed me and threw me across the room.
My head hit the wooden table. i felt a splinter in my tongue.
Then i heard someone walk in, "Oi Smurkz u never told me we had dis bitch here."
I looked up.
"Wagwan Deena."
Jesse.
"Shit Deena, you fucked Sorcha up too?", he said.
I just started cryin. He was holdin Sorcha's house key.
"You're comin wiv me," he said. He grabbed me by hair, i bit his hand and drew blood, he backhanded me. He kicked me in the face, i grabbed his foot and pulled him down. I went to dial for the police, but he grabbed me by my waist, i fell and my head slammed against the bannister.
Two man ran up in the house and pulled me out of the house. I was kickin and screamin as they pushed me into the black car, the same car i saw earlier, all someone said from their window was "shut up u slag", they must of thought i was jokin around.
They kicked me into the back of the car as Smurkz locked Sorcha's door and ran into the drivers seat of the whip.
I was in the middle of one black guy and Dee who had a big scar on his face and in the passenger seat was one other white bredda and Smurkz was drivin.
Dee slapped me, "long time since i seen you Deena," he punched me.
I started cryin. I couldnt believe this, all this shit in two nights, i wasnt even scared uno, i wasnt even scared, i was jus tired.
"Hows ur man," Smurkz said, "ur boy ryan."
They all started creasin, "Batty boy fi dead," smurkz laufed, "stuck the shank so deep in, the blade broke in his fuckin belly."
I just kept my head down and didnt say nuthin.
"You know what," Dee said, "i dont even fink she's sorry."
Then i looked at Dee and sniggered, "Why are u talkin like Westwood."
His bres started sayin, "ah shes boyin it, shes boyin it."
Dee slapped me and said, "uno what- suck my dick."
He unzipped his jeans and forced my head to his cock, i just put my mouth on it and didnt suck it, he punched my head so i started sucking. His pubes smelled like proper BO, as i sucked, he was writhin and groanin, he was pullin my hair so hard. his boy started touchin my pussy.
The car stopped. We were in some next place, the sun was comin out, "nah nah," Smurkz said, "lets jus go back to your yard Frisky, the suns coming out."
"But i cant," frisky said, "my mums home."
Smurkz kissed his teeth, "alright we'll take her to mine."
They kept on drivin and i thought we were goin to dees house but smurkz must have got a new place cos now we were on the motorway, fuckin pussyhole, he mustve moved cos he was prang after what chanel and her boys did to him and dee.
We on the motorway for ages and then i realized that we were in Surrey Quayes.
The car stopped in front of some any run down estate, Dee pulled me out of the car, imagine this now- i was barefoot in Sorcha's hello kitty pyjamas. they pushed me to some door. Smurz unlocked it and kicked me in. I fell on my face.
They surrounded me, "U look fucked," Smurkz said, "You upset cos ur batty boy man is dead?".
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in my bum, it hurt so much cos his toe nails were long. Dee dragged me by my hair into the livin room. It was so dirty, pizza hut boxes everywhere, rose bottles on the settee, there were condom wrappers everywhere.
"You aint so big now," Dee said, "Where's Chanel now Deena," he screamed. The scar on his face was so deep, it was like a tumour. Smurkz said, "You're the dumbest sket alive, tru say Dee, she's the dumbest bosh on road, real talk Deena on a level, how many man have u fucked,"
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in the face, my head felt like it screamin but i didnt make a sound. Smurkz got vex and pulled off the pyjama bottoms and looked at my pussy.
Dee gasped.
"What the fuck happened to it," he said.
It was hurtin, i could feel blood slowly comin out of it.
Then Smurkz grabbed my neck and spat on my face.
"Beg us to let you go," Smurkz said.
I didnt say anythin, he punched me, "beg me!".
I didnt say anythin.
"She finks someones gonna save her," Dee said, "noones not gonna know where u are, that sket Sorcha will fink u jus left her for dead and dussed."
Smurkz laufed, the two other bres were just watching. Smurkz looked so evil, his eyes looked soulless like someone had taken somethin out of them, as he grabbed my neck and found it hard to breathe, he laughed. He was choking me, i grabbed his forearms for him to let go as i was chokin but he laughed, "u like dis u sket dont lie,".
Dee looked away as i choked, i could feel my face gettin red.
"BEG!", he shouted,
I didnt beg. He kept on chokin me and then he let go, i fell on my back and panted holdin my neck, his hands were so strong i could their imprint on my neck, i gapsed for air desperately as Smurkz took off his chain and clothes.
"No," i said.
"Shut the fuck up," Dee said.
I jumped and tried to run but Smurkz threw a remote control at my head, the pain was so much, i fell to the floor and started cryin.
He grabbed me by my legs back to the livin room, my face had bad carpet burn, he looked down at me and said, "Your boyfriend Ryan is the biggest chich on road, i fuckin set him up, that bredda Adam told him he wanted to link him but i showed up instead," he started creasin, "Blacked out, black balaclava, i ghosted him nice, and uno what he said when he realized he had been shanked."
I looked at Smurkz.
He said, "His last words were, Deena." They all started creasin.
"U even got batty bisexuals finkin of u on their dying day," Dee said.
"What happened to ur pussy," Smurkz asked, "why does it look so sore."
I didnt say anythin and then i looked up and said, "i got fucked by your dad innit."
He kicked me in my stomach. I cried out.
"Ive got a fuckin suprise for you," he said, "just wait innit."
Chapter 60
I was cryin out in so much pain, my stomach was painin me, it was like someoned had shanked me.
"Her pussy looks like she got fucked by Mandingo," Frisky said.
"Who the fucks Mandingo," Smurkz said.
"Aww some pornstar with a hench dick."
"Why u watchin nex mans piece for- are you fuckin fruity bruv," Smurkz asked.
Dee started laughin, "i told u from day u was gay Frisky,"
Frisky looked bare upset when Smurkz said, "ur a fuckin bats man- thats the last time i let u watch man beat ever,".
Then Smurkz turned to me and said, "Oi Frisky, Deena wants to take u to get ur nails done."
Frisky got bare vex and didnt say nuthin.
"You and your fuckin snakey friend Natalie, she finks i dont know how she set the whole ting up so chanel could get me yeah? shes next," then he looked at Dee and said, "we should do to her what chanel did to you man."
"Fuckin scar up your face," Dee said.
"Nah nah," Frisky said, "i wanna fuck her."
They all look suprised, "Ur gay doe," Smurkz said.
"Nah nah i aint," Frisky said, "lemme fuck her."
"Alrite den," Smurkz said, "and if u buss within ten minutes, ill fuckin punch u up."
I screamed as Dee held me down as Frisky stood over and dropped his pants. His dick was lopsided, almost like it sleeping on his left thigh. He lay on top of me,he went to kiss me, i bit his mouth. he fell on his back and kicked me in my knee.
He tried to get on top again but i kept movin, Dee slapped me so i would stop and then when Frisky put it in, i did the dirtiest fing ever.
I farted.
Frisky jumped up. Dee stepped back.
"What the fuck man," Smurkz said, "u takin the piss."
He pulled me up and heabutted me, i burst into tears. I couldnt take this anymore, i wanted to die, mybody felt dead as Smurkz started punchin me up,proper fucking me up.
He grabbed me and threw me across the room.
My head hit the wooden table. i felt a splinter in my tongue.
Then i heard someone walk in, "Oi Smurkz u never told me we had dis bitch here."
I looked up.
"Wagwan Deena."
Jesse.
Sunday, 16 May 2010
CHAPTER 58 part 2
"I kiled Ryan."
I sat down on the chair and looked up at her. She looked at me. We were looking at each other.
She sat next to me, i punched her. Her face took one dirty spin and then she said, "im sorry."
"You're lying- you wouldnt do it- he's your cousin, what are u talkin about."
"I told u he was gonna die and u didnt listen, i asked for your help," she said, "when i came to you and told you he owed them man money and that i needed your help,"
"He paid them back,"i cried.
"He never paid them back," she said, "he never, he may have told u he did but he didnt, i paid them back, i almost got killed paying dem back, remember the ting wiv diane, i shotted for murda that night and almost got killed for it, i was shottin to make enough money to pay them man back for ryan but when diane said she needed the money for her yout, her and ryans yout, i said she could have the money and i left, thats when she got killed and so i ran to the man who ryan owed and because i was so scared for him, i gave them everythin, i took everythin out of my account to pay them because i loved him, because i didnt want them to hurt him, and then I-" she paused and looked at me.
"I went to Adam," she said.
I looked at her and said, "you bitch- that time i saw you outside his house."
She looked down, "I'd be stayin wiv him, them times nobody knew where i was, i was wiv him and i told him everythin, about the money i took out for ryan, everyfin about diane and he cared, and i thought that-" she started cryin, "i thought that when i saw ryan again he'dbe grateful for what i did and uno what he told me- he said i was dumb to pay dem back because he had the money to do it, and i was so vex because i had nuthin deena, and then i did somethin dumb, you didn't know it, but i've been fuckin adam and he erm- he said he knew someone who wanted to beat up Ryan for sumfin and needed a way to set him up and i was so vex, i said the way to set him up was to convince him that someone sexy wanted to link him, i gave adam his number and dat was dat, i didnt know who the person who wanted to fuck ryan up was, i just knew that adam was gonna set it up and then i hear that ryan's dead, because of me."
"You've been fuckin adam," i said.
She looked at me, "it was him-he set ryan up, it was him."
"You helped him set adam up to be duppied," i said tryin not cry.
"it was cos- i didnt know they we're gonna kill him," she started cryin.
"You dumb slag," i said, "you fuckin slag."
I got up and started cryin, "you and adam."
"Im sorry," she said, "that day you saw me when u was leavin his house i was going back to him id been sleepin dere for the entire time, he loves me, he's even come here before, he fucked me so nice i blacked out, his dick sent my pussy to iraq and back and please believe it was the bomb, he even has a spare key to this very house, he loves me."
I turned to her, "like hell he does," i said, "he's a pussy hole, he- you dumb bitch, you set ryan up to be killed by Smurkz."
She gasped.
"Adam and Smurkz planned this entire ting because they both hate him and u made it possible,"
She screamed and ran up the stairs. I followed her into her room.
"You dumb skank," i screamed, "Smurkz! the same bredda who tried to duppy us, he killed YOUR cousin because of your dumbness, because u were dum enough to let money fuck up your judgment."
"Fuck you Deena!", she said, "dis is your fault, ryan was fine before he met you- if smurkz duppied him its cos of u."
I looked at her and said, "uno what ryan did to him? he told him to suck his dick in front of bare man when he was gettin moved to and smurkz like the batty he is went to do it, and ryan was jokin, dats why smurkz did it, smurkz was gettinhim back and ulet him."
"I didnt know."
"Oh you did," i said, "in dis day and age uno how dese man are, they dont beef wiv fists, they beef with straps and blades, and u put ur own cousin in dat situation because of money."
She tried to push past me, i grabbed her neck and threw her onto the floor.
"You bosh!", i screamed, i went to kick her but the pain in my hand and pussy kicked in. i just started cryin. it was dark outside, about 3.30 in the mornin, it was rainin and the rain against the window was beating so hard.
"Deena, please you cant tell anyone," she started beggin. I slapped her. She slapped me back and punched me in my boat. I fell to the floor as she cried, she leaned against her wardrobe and cried.
"Everythin," she said, "after evertyin he did to you, you're still on his nuts,".
I got up slowly, "he loves me," i said.
She sniggered and wiped her tears, "you really are as dumb as you look," she said, "he was linkin about five other chicks when he wasn't make that hole between your legs bigger, biggest gyallest on road and u think he'd stick wiv u."
"You're lyin."
"Shut up," she said, "i beg u shut up, im his cousin, he tells me everytin."
"You're damn right," i said, "he showed u everytin too, talk about kissing cousins."
"Skets in glass houses shouldnt throw stilletos," she said, "you fucked your own uncle babes, dont ever come wiv the hype about me and ryan cos ill tell u all about yourself wiv ur bowel problems."
I went to slap her, she threw my hand down.
"Don't play wiv me Deena," she said.
I punched her, "u killed him," i said, "its ur fault he's gone."
She looked at meand said, "uno what- I did set him up yeah, but uno what now i think about it i dont regret it- he didnt care about where i was when u lot thought i was dead, he never cared about diane's yout, he didnt care about u when U GOT RAPED by faisani and jesse, oh and ill tell u sumfin- he most certainly didnt care when he killed your yout when he threw that xbox on your gut, he didnt give a stinkin shit, so i dont care about him, and ill go to his funeral, ill rock my black blazer, im sure ull wear a black blazer, black jeggins and black airforces and ill put on sad face, ill cry, ill scream, ill act a fool, but i dont care, im glad he's dead, me na fi give a crap."
I backhanded her.
She kicked me in the stomach.
"You aint Natalie or Chanel y'nah," she said, "u aint a problem for me to handle."
"Handle me den," i screamed, "if you're bad handle me, handle Deena! you never could and you never will, im the only bitch who wanted to ber your friend after u fucked and jacked everyone else and their mandem, your maj looks like that sket who poisoned snow white wiv the apple wiv her wrinkly face, you've been beaten out more times than a church rug and your pussy lips come like parralel lines- they never meet!".
We started scuffin. I headbutted her three times. we rolled down the stairs punchin each other up, we landed at the foot of the stairs, i rolled off her body, my nose was bleedin, i looked at her, she werent movin and her eyes were closed. i shook her body, she wasnt wakin up, i thought to touch her pulse but the time they were teaching where it was i was linkin some Ugandan ting in North, so i didnt know how to check her pulse and then the door unlocked. I looked up.
"Ay my size," Smurkz said, "Long time no see."
I sat down on the chair and looked up at her. She looked at me. We were looking at each other.
She sat next to me, i punched her. Her face took one dirty spin and then she said, "im sorry."
"You're lying- you wouldnt do it- he's your cousin, what are u talkin about."
"I told u he was gonna die and u didnt listen, i asked for your help," she said, "when i came to you and told you he owed them man money and that i needed your help,"
"He paid them back,"i cried.
"He never paid them back," she said, "he never, he may have told u he did but he didnt, i paid them back, i almost got killed paying dem back, remember the ting wiv diane, i shotted for murda that night and almost got killed for it, i was shottin to make enough money to pay them man back for ryan but when diane said she needed the money for her yout, her and ryans yout, i said she could have the money and i left, thats when she got killed and so i ran to the man who ryan owed and because i was so scared for him, i gave them everythin, i took everythin out of my account to pay them because i loved him, because i didnt want them to hurt him, and then I-" she paused and looked at me.
"I went to Adam," she said.
I looked at her and said, "you bitch- that time i saw you outside his house."
She looked down, "I'd be stayin wiv him, them times nobody knew where i was, i was wiv him and i told him everythin, about the money i took out for ryan, everyfin about diane and he cared, and i thought that-" she started cryin, "i thought that when i saw ryan again he'dbe grateful for what i did and uno what he told me- he said i was dumb to pay dem back because he had the money to do it, and i was so vex because i had nuthin deena, and then i did somethin dumb, you didn't know it, but i've been fuckin adam and he erm- he said he knew someone who wanted to beat up Ryan for sumfin and needed a way to set him up and i was so vex, i said the way to set him up was to convince him that someone sexy wanted to link him, i gave adam his number and dat was dat, i didnt know who the person who wanted to fuck ryan up was, i just knew that adam was gonna set it up and then i hear that ryan's dead, because of me."
"You've been fuckin adam," i said.
She looked at me, "it was him-he set ryan up, it was him."
"You helped him set adam up to be duppied," i said tryin not cry.
"it was cos- i didnt know they we're gonna kill him," she started cryin.
"You dumb slag," i said, "you fuckin slag."
I got up and started cryin, "you and adam."
"Im sorry," she said, "that day you saw me when u was leavin his house i was going back to him id been sleepin dere for the entire time, he loves me, he's even come here before, he fucked me so nice i blacked out, his dick sent my pussy to iraq and back and please believe it was the bomb, he even has a spare key to this very house, he loves me."
I turned to her, "like hell he does," i said, "he's a pussy hole, he- you dumb bitch, you set ryan up to be killed by Smurkz."
She gasped.
"Adam and Smurkz planned this entire ting because they both hate him and u made it possible,"
She screamed and ran up the stairs. I followed her into her room.
"You dumb skank," i screamed, "Smurkz! the same bredda who tried to duppy us, he killed YOUR cousin because of your dumbness, because u were dum enough to let money fuck up your judgment."
"Fuck you Deena!", she said, "dis is your fault, ryan was fine before he met you- if smurkz duppied him its cos of u."
I looked at her and said, "uno what ryan did to him? he told him to suck his dick in front of bare man when he was gettin moved to and smurkz like the batty he is went to do it, and ryan was jokin, dats why smurkz did it, smurkz was gettinhim back and ulet him."
"I didnt know."
"Oh you did," i said, "in dis day and age uno how dese man are, they dont beef wiv fists, they beef with straps and blades, and u put ur own cousin in dat situation because of money."
She tried to push past me, i grabbed her neck and threw her onto the floor.
"You bosh!", i screamed, i went to kick her but the pain in my hand and pussy kicked in. i just started cryin. it was dark outside, about 3.30 in the mornin, it was rainin and the rain against the window was beating so hard.
"Deena, please you cant tell anyone," she started beggin. I slapped her. She slapped me back and punched me in my boat. I fell to the floor as she cried, she leaned against her wardrobe and cried.
"Everythin," she said, "after evertyin he did to you, you're still on his nuts,".
I got up slowly, "he loves me," i said.
She sniggered and wiped her tears, "you really are as dumb as you look," she said, "he was linkin about five other chicks when he wasn't make that hole between your legs bigger, biggest gyallest on road and u think he'd stick wiv u."
"You're lyin."
"Shut up," she said, "i beg u shut up, im his cousin, he tells me everytin."
"You're damn right," i said, "he showed u everytin too, talk about kissing cousins."
"Skets in glass houses shouldnt throw stilletos," she said, "you fucked your own uncle babes, dont ever come wiv the hype about me and ryan cos ill tell u all about yourself wiv ur bowel problems."
I went to slap her, she threw my hand down.
"Don't play wiv me Deena," she said.
I punched her, "u killed him," i said, "its ur fault he's gone."
She looked at meand said, "uno what- I did set him up yeah, but uno what now i think about it i dont regret it- he didnt care about where i was when u lot thought i was dead, he never cared about diane's yout, he didnt care about u when U GOT RAPED by faisani and jesse, oh and ill tell u sumfin- he most certainly didnt care when he killed your yout when he threw that xbox on your gut, he didnt give a stinkin shit, so i dont care about him, and ill go to his funeral, ill rock my black blazer, im sure ull wear a black blazer, black jeggins and black airforces and ill put on sad face, ill cry, ill scream, ill act a fool, but i dont care, im glad he's dead, me na fi give a crap."
I backhanded her.
She kicked me in the stomach.
"You aint Natalie or Chanel y'nah," she said, "u aint a problem for me to handle."
"Handle me den," i screamed, "if you're bad handle me, handle Deena! you never could and you never will, im the only bitch who wanted to ber your friend after u fucked and jacked everyone else and their mandem, your maj looks like that sket who poisoned snow white wiv the apple wiv her wrinkly face, you've been beaten out more times than a church rug and your pussy lips come like parralel lines- they never meet!".
We started scuffin. I headbutted her three times. we rolled down the stairs punchin each other up, we landed at the foot of the stairs, i rolled off her body, my nose was bleedin, i looked at her, she werent movin and her eyes were closed. i shook her body, she wasnt wakin up, i thought to touch her pulse but the time they were teaching where it was i was linkin some Ugandan ting in North, so i didnt know how to check her pulse and then the door unlocked. I looked up.
"Ay my size," Smurkz said, "Long time no see."
Saturday, 15 May 2010
Chapter 58 part 1.
I didnt say anythin.
"Can i talk to him," i said.
She looked up to me and didnt say anythin.
I went to the phone and said, "whats the hospital number."
"He's dead DEENA!", she screamed.
I looked at her and slowly walked up to her bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the edge of the bath and then i walked out and went down and i said, "babes can i borrow your phone to call him."
She started sobbin. I looked at her and just stood there.
"where's your mum?", i asked.
"at the morgue," she cried.
I didnt cry, i just looked at her.
She looked at me, "why arent you cryin," she said.
I looked at her blankly and said, "can i talk to him."
She got up and walked out of the room cryin. I just sat there, soakin wet. there was blood runnin from between my legs. I got up and walked upstairs, she was in her room crying. i walked into her bathroom, took off my dress and shoes and got in the shower and rinsed my body.
I didnt cry, the picture was downstairs on the sofa.
I got out of the shower and dried myself and wanted to call Ryan. I went into Sorcha's room and opened her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas and put them on.
"Did you not hear what i said," she asked.
I left the room and went down to her kitchen, I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of rum, a glass bottle and when it broke in my hands i started cryin.
I fell to the floor, my hands bleeding, the glass in my skin and just cryin.
Smurkz. Adam. they did it.
I walked to the sink and puled the glass out of my hand and threw it in the sink. I sobbed as i held my hand under cold water. I just cried. I cried so hard, the pain was so much, my head was throbbing and my chest hurt, my chest hurt so bad.
I cried and cried, my hand was freezing, the blood was pouringout and it wouldnt stop, my pussy was hurtin, my neck was hurtin, i felt skinny and then i saw my mums face and then i vomited all in the sink and farted.
I vomited holding my head over thesink, it splattered back in my face, i cried and then fell to the floor, i wiped my mouth and just lay on the floor with my head against one of the legs of Sorcha's kitchen table in a foetal position just cryin and i kept sayin ryans name. I kept sayin his name and then in my head i heard his voice and i touched my belly, our yout together. dead.
I felt dead inside, like my heart had stopped beatin. Everythin suddenly stopped hurtin and then i let out a small laugh when i thought I heard his voice, i heard him say somethin in a different language and i started smilin and in my head i saw me sucking his dick, i saw him eatin my pussy, me sittin on his face, him bussin in my mouth, him punchin me and kickin me in the stomach, him killin my yout. RYAN!
I cried out so hard as all the pain came rushin back, the pain in my pussy was worse, my tits felt sore, i was shiverin, my hands were swollen.
My stomach felt weird. I jumped up and vomited in the sink. everythin came out, there was bare white fluid comin out with the vomit, i just cried and vomited. I rinsed my mouth out with the tap water.
I got up slowly and walked to the living room and picked up the picture and then i looked down at it. this was gettin too much. I thought of my nan, my mum, my dad, everyfin and then i thort of Adam.
Smurkz.
Ryan. Me.
I had so many questions. how did adam and smurkz know each other? I felt sick,i felt like i was dreamin, like i wasnt there, i slapped myself to wake myself up, my face hurt.
I quickly pulled myself together and breathed in cos i had hiccups, i was in sorcha's hello kittypyjamas and they were soakin wet.
I picked up sorcha's phone and dialled Adams mobile number, but she already had it saved.
I closed the living room door.
"Hello."
"Adam," i said.
"Deena?".
"Adam, erm, i need to- i'm in bare shit," i said. i started cryin.
"Deena whats wrong, listen i'm sorry about everyfin."
"Adam how did Smurkz get in contact with you," i said.
There was a long silence and then he put the phone down.
I tried callin him back, but the line kept goin to voicemail and then it didnt ring altogether.
Then the door pushed open. it was Sorcha.
"Deena," she said.
I hugged her so tight.
"I know who killed him Sorcha, i know who shanked Ryan," i said.
Then she slowly let go of me and looked at me.
"It was me Deena- I killed Ryan."
"Can i talk to him," i said.
She looked up to me and didnt say anythin.
I went to the phone and said, "whats the hospital number."
"He's dead DEENA!", she screamed.
I looked at her and slowly walked up to her bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the edge of the bath and then i walked out and went down and i said, "babes can i borrow your phone to call him."
She started sobbin. I looked at her and just stood there.
"where's your mum?", i asked.
"at the morgue," she cried.
I didnt cry, i just looked at her.
She looked at me, "why arent you cryin," she said.
I looked at her blankly and said, "can i talk to him."
She got up and walked out of the room cryin. I just sat there, soakin wet. there was blood runnin from between my legs. I got up and walked upstairs, she was in her room crying. i walked into her bathroom, took off my dress and shoes and got in the shower and rinsed my body.
I didnt cry, the picture was downstairs on the sofa.
I got out of the shower and dried myself and wanted to call Ryan. I went into Sorcha's room and opened her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas and put them on.
"Did you not hear what i said," she asked.
I left the room and went down to her kitchen, I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of rum, a glass bottle and when it broke in my hands i started cryin.
I fell to the floor, my hands bleeding, the glass in my skin and just cryin.
Smurkz. Adam. they did it.
I walked to the sink and puled the glass out of my hand and threw it in the sink. I sobbed as i held my hand under cold water. I just cried. I cried so hard, the pain was so much, my head was throbbing and my chest hurt, my chest hurt so bad.
I cried and cried, my hand was freezing, the blood was pouringout and it wouldnt stop, my pussy was hurtin, my neck was hurtin, i felt skinny and then i saw my mums face and then i vomited all in the sink and farted.
I vomited holding my head over thesink, it splattered back in my face, i cried and then fell to the floor, i wiped my mouth and just lay on the floor with my head against one of the legs of Sorcha's kitchen table in a foetal position just cryin and i kept sayin ryans name. I kept sayin his name and then in my head i heard his voice and i touched my belly, our yout together. dead.
I felt dead inside, like my heart had stopped beatin. Everythin suddenly stopped hurtin and then i let out a small laugh when i thought I heard his voice, i heard him say somethin in a different language and i started smilin and in my head i saw me sucking his dick, i saw him eatin my pussy, me sittin on his face, him bussin in my mouth, him punchin me and kickin me in the stomach, him killin my yout. RYAN!
I cried out so hard as all the pain came rushin back, the pain in my pussy was worse, my tits felt sore, i was shiverin, my hands were swollen.
My stomach felt weird. I jumped up and vomited in the sink. everythin came out, there was bare white fluid comin out with the vomit, i just cried and vomited. I rinsed my mouth out with the tap water.
I got up slowly and walked to the living room and picked up the picture and then i looked down at it. this was gettin too much. I thought of my nan, my mum, my dad, everyfin and then i thort of Adam.
Smurkz.
Ryan. Me.
I had so many questions. how did adam and smurkz know each other? I felt sick,i felt like i was dreamin, like i wasnt there, i slapped myself to wake myself up, my face hurt.
I quickly pulled myself together and breathed in cos i had hiccups, i was in sorcha's hello kittypyjamas and they were soakin wet.
I picked up sorcha's phone and dialled Adams mobile number, but she already had it saved.
I closed the living room door.
"Hello."
"Adam," i said.
"Deena?".
"Adam, erm, i need to- i'm in bare shit," i said. i started cryin.
"Deena whats wrong, listen i'm sorry about everyfin."
"Adam how did Smurkz get in contact with you," i said.
There was a long silence and then he put the phone down.
I tried callin him back, but the line kept goin to voicemail and then it didnt ring altogether.
Then the door pushed open. it was Sorcha.
"Deena," she said.
I hugged her so tight.
"I know who killed him Sorcha, i know who shanked Ryan," i said.
Then she slowly let go of me and looked at me.
"It was me Deena- I killed Ryan."
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 57
"What are u talkin about," i said.
"Your grandma said she was living in Barbados with your aunt Mabel." he said.
"My aunt Mabel lives in Spain!". I was just bare confused.
"The week after I christened your sister, your grandmother stopped coming to church, she said she was ill."
I got up and went to leave. "Im sorry if ive said something wrong," he said.
"You're wrong," i said, "i aint got a sister,"
"Come with me," he said.
I looked at him, he walked behind the alter and down some stairs. I followed him slowly, it led to a house which was next to the church. It was an old house.
"I keep every single picture of christenings here," he said, "in case people need them for anything."
I wiped the tears from my eyes as the pain in my pussykept on hurtin.
Then he gave me a picture and i looked at it. It was bare people in front of the church and in front of them was my mum, she looked bare young next to my nan and my nan was holding a baby girl, a dark skinned baby girl.
"What year was this taken," i said tryin not to cry.
"1990, the baby was just a few months when this was taken," he said. I looked at it and looked back at him, "I didnt know," i said. Then i started cryin, uno them cries when ur shoulders tremble and ur hands shake. I cried and he held me and kept saying its ok, its ok, i had the picture in my hands.
"Your grandmother stopped coming to church a week after this and then a two years later when you were born she came back to have you christened, she came with you for two years then stopped, when i asked about the first baby she just said your aunt was looking after her in Barbados so your mum could go to school,".
I looked at him and felt sick. This was toomuch. My chest was beaten, my pussy was hurtin and I lookd at him and said, "i'm gonna go now,".
"Are you sure," he said, "please feel free to stay here if you have nowhere to go."
"I do," i said wiping my tears.
"Just know that the Church is alwayshere for you and that you never have to be too afraid to talk to God, sometimes it takes for us to hit rock bottom for us to see the light because after rock bottom the only way is up."
I left the house and walked out on the street with the picture in my hand.
It was rainin so hard, i was drenched and i wasnt cryin, I just walked, i walked past Sorcha's house and started to cry. I washolding the picture so tight. My dress was soaking wet, i was limpin in heels, my hair drenched, my make up running down my face. My legs hurtin sobad, my jaws throbbin.
I was cryin so hard, i didnt even know where i was goin. As i was walkin, I noticed a car followin me. I had to be smart, what was i gonna do if this car door opened and someone tried to pull me in.
So i did the smartest thing I could think of, I turned the corner into a side road to see what the car would do. From when the car turned into the same road as me, I knew i was in trouble and so I started screamin. When i mean i screamed so hard if i was pregnant dat baby would have jumped out of my pum quick time. I screamed so hard. People started to look outside of the windows and whoever was in the car got prang and sped off. I ran into Sorcha's house and locked the door.
I switched the living room light on.
Sorcha.
She was sitting down on the sofa in the darkness. She didnt even look at me.
"Ryan," she said.
"Ryans dead."
"Your grandma said she was living in Barbados with your aunt Mabel." he said.
"My aunt Mabel lives in Spain!". I was just bare confused.
"The week after I christened your sister, your grandmother stopped coming to church, she said she was ill."
I got up and went to leave. "Im sorry if ive said something wrong," he said.
"You're wrong," i said, "i aint got a sister,"
"Come with me," he said.
I looked at him, he walked behind the alter and down some stairs. I followed him slowly, it led to a house which was next to the church. It was an old house.
"I keep every single picture of christenings here," he said, "in case people need them for anything."
I wiped the tears from my eyes as the pain in my pussykept on hurtin.
Then he gave me a picture and i looked at it. It was bare people in front of the church and in front of them was my mum, she looked bare young next to my nan and my nan was holding a baby girl, a dark skinned baby girl.
"What year was this taken," i said tryin not to cry.
"1990, the baby was just a few months when this was taken," he said. I looked at it and looked back at him, "I didnt know," i said. Then i started cryin, uno them cries when ur shoulders tremble and ur hands shake. I cried and he held me and kept saying its ok, its ok, i had the picture in my hands.
"Your grandmother stopped coming to church a week after this and then a two years later when you were born she came back to have you christened, she came with you for two years then stopped, when i asked about the first baby she just said your aunt was looking after her in Barbados so your mum could go to school,".
I looked at him and felt sick. This was toomuch. My chest was beaten, my pussy was hurtin and I lookd at him and said, "i'm gonna go now,".
"Are you sure," he said, "please feel free to stay here if you have nowhere to go."
"I do," i said wiping my tears.
"Just know that the Church is alwayshere for you and that you never have to be too afraid to talk to God, sometimes it takes for us to hit rock bottom for us to see the light because after rock bottom the only way is up."
I left the house and walked out on the street with the picture in my hand.
It was rainin so hard, i was drenched and i wasnt cryin, I just walked, i walked past Sorcha's house and started to cry. I washolding the picture so tight. My dress was soaking wet, i was limpin in heels, my hair drenched, my make up running down my face. My legs hurtin sobad, my jaws throbbin.
I was cryin so hard, i didnt even know where i was goin. As i was walkin, I noticed a car followin me. I had to be smart, what was i gonna do if this car door opened and someone tried to pull me in.
So i did the smartest thing I could think of, I turned the corner into a side road to see what the car would do. From when the car turned into the same road as me, I knew i was in trouble and so I started screamin. When i mean i screamed so hard if i was pregnant dat baby would have jumped out of my pum quick time. I screamed so hard. People started to look outside of the windows and whoever was in the car got prang and sped off. I ran into Sorcha's house and locked the door.
I switched the living room light on.
Sorcha.
She was sitting down on the sofa in the darkness. She didnt even look at me.
"Ryan," she said.
"Ryans dead."
Friday, 14 May 2010
DEENA SKET CHAPTER 56
I looked at Paula. She was bleeding. Then i looked at Murda and Damon. My stomach started to hurt.
"Wagwun Deena," Murda laughed. Damon nodded at me.
Paula was cryin. "Virgin no more," Damon said. Icey was standing behind them zippin up his jeans.
Imagine all these man in this small flat, naked man and two chicks. I looked to chanels dad, "please let her go, i'll stay, just dont touch her, ill do anythin, i'll leave the money but please just let her go," i said.
Chanels dad looked at me, "why- you know her?".
"Please," i said, "just let her go home, dont touch her, i'll be here."
"We already beat her out," Murda said, "she might as well get lined up now."
"Take the 3grand," i told Murda, "just leave Paula alone please."
Paula wiped her tears.
"Alright fine," Chanels dad said, "we'll let paula go if you suck my dick right now."
I looked at Paula,"not in front of her though."
"She's seen everytin already," Damon said.
"Alright alright," chanels dad said, "get her dressed and take her home, then you man come back here."
Damon looked vex but he didnt say nuttin. Paula got dressed and left the flat with Murda and Damon.
"Time to suck."
I got on my knees, he whippd out his dick.
I slowly put it in my mouth. He cried out. i licked the tip, i pulled it out of my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out, i smacked his thick dick againstmy tongue and looked up at him. all his boys started gettin hype and horny.
one of them got behind me and started feelin my pussy. i was suckin chanels dads dick so hard.
Then another stood in front of me and whipped out his... is that supposed to be a dick. it looked like one of them mini sausages. i put it in my mouth, i tried to suck it but tru say it got lost in my mouth. i wanted to laugh but this guy was some big hench bre. he buss. thank God. "Put her on the bed, her pussy fi dead."
They picked me up and took me into a room.
"Please wear a condom," i said. they laughed. at this point there were 15 man in the room. chanels dad got on top of me and put it in me, it hurt so much. i felt disgusting.
"you need to relax," he said, he slapped my face, "bring in some ganja."
they brought in.
"smoke it."
i put it to my lips and took a puff, i coughed as he started to finger me. his fingers were so coarse, it was a like getting lined up by monsters. their breath smelt of weed, they had bo but they thought that cheap deodorant would mask the smell.
i was just gettin fucked.that was it, i was lyin there just gettin fucked. just gettin beat out. it didnt feel nice or nuthin. it didnt feel good, it hurt. bareback. gettin lined up. i lost count. tears ran down my left eye whenever someone buss in me. i closed my eyes and remembered gettin raped, i just cried, my neck being held on, my face bein slapped. my tits bein sucked by teeth that felt like they were covered in grit.
at that moment i stopped livin and i killed myself, i stopped feeling anything. i felt like my heart had stopped beatin. i looked up at the man fuckin, he looked down at me and said, "you lis dis dick bitch"
then he punched me and when my head spun to the left and fell on the pillow it stayed there, something was bleedin- i didnt know what as i was getting fucked.
I dont even know how many hours this lasted. i just remember bein in the bed and the lights being off and the door being closed.
After an hour I got up slowly and fell back on the bed, i looked down, my pussy was bleeding. I got up really slowly and tried not to cry, it was almost impossible to walk. I walked into the mainroom, it was empty, i looked and saw a black nike bag. i opened it. it was empty. THEY HAD TAKEN MY MONEY.
I started cryin as i put on my dress. i looked outside of the window, it was stil dark, i looked at the time, it was 2in the mornin. my pussy was stingin and bleeding, my mouth was swollen and some of my tracks had fallen out.
I fixed my dress and walked into the bathroom, it was coveredin piss. I cried and stumbled out. I walked out of the house.
They had jacked my phone, my clutch bag. Everythin. the 2 bills i got from the priest gone,but i looked on the floor and saw my card, i picked it up, i looked at it.
I was so shook to leave but i knew i couldnt stay. I walked out of the flat and stumbled out of the estate down the stairs and walked out of it. I cried.
. As i walked the streets, bare cars beeped me, one guy rolled down his windows and told me to get in. I ignored him and just went looking for a pay phone, I was in hackney. i was cryin so hard. i needed to get back to sorcha's. I walked into a taxi cab place and asked for a cab to sorcha's address. I got in the cab with the driver and told him i needed to take money out for him when we got near sorchas house. We were in the cab and i was in the back, the rain hit the window as i cried. We got Sorcha's bits and i saw a cash machine, i told him id be back and walked to the machine. i took out 30 pounds and as i was going to get back into the cab i saw a church.
I walked to the cab and paid him and told him i would walk home. He drove off and i looked at the church. It was an old one and it was open. I limped into it and when i walked in, i realized how quiet it was, it was lit by candles and all the pews were empty and i sat in the last one, i didnt even know wat i was doin. I just bowed my head and prayed, i didnt even know what i was prayin for- i just prayed and then ilooked up.
"Hello,".
It was a priest. "May i sit next to you," he said. I budged up and he sat next to me.
"Whatever pain you're going through won't last forever," he said. I looked up at him and he gasped.
"DEENA!", he said,.
WTF. How did he know me.
"Yeah?", i said.
"Deena, I havent seen you since you used to come in with your grandma, how are you?".
I looked at him and started to recognise him vaguely.
"Deena, whats wrong," he said.
I looked at him and cried, "everythin, everythings a mess, i have noone."
He looked at me and said, "I knew there was a reason I had the idea to leave the church open today,".
I looked at him, "Do you know your mother came to this very church on a night like this when she was about your age,"he said.
His face started to look more familiar, he was my nans priest, i hadnt been church since i was like three or four.
"Ive done so many bad things," i said, "i feel so sick, i feel dead."
He said, "Why do you think God made tommorow, you have another day to make it right,."
I sobbed and bawled, "I have noone, not my mum, not my nan, not my dad."
"What about your older sister- does she keep in touch?".
I looked at him, "I dont have a sister," i said.
He looked bare confused, "Of course you have a sister Deena, do you keep in touch with her?".
I got up, "i dont have a fuckin sister!," i shouted.
"Deena, you do," he said, "I know that because I christened her - you are not your mums only child."
"Wagwun Deena," Murda laughed. Damon nodded at me.
Paula was cryin. "Virgin no more," Damon said. Icey was standing behind them zippin up his jeans.
Imagine all these man in this small flat, naked man and two chicks. I looked to chanels dad, "please let her go, i'll stay, just dont touch her, ill do anythin, i'll leave the money but please just let her go," i said.
Chanels dad looked at me, "why- you know her?".
"Please," i said, "just let her go home, dont touch her, i'll be here."
"We already beat her out," Murda said, "she might as well get lined up now."
"Take the 3grand," i told Murda, "just leave Paula alone please."
Paula wiped her tears.
"Alright fine," Chanels dad said, "we'll let paula go if you suck my dick right now."
I looked at Paula,"not in front of her though."
"She's seen everytin already," Damon said.
"Alright alright," chanels dad said, "get her dressed and take her home, then you man come back here."
Damon looked vex but he didnt say nuttin. Paula got dressed and left the flat with Murda and Damon.
"Time to suck."
I got on my knees, he whippd out his dick.
I slowly put it in my mouth. He cried out. i licked the tip, i pulled it out of my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out, i smacked his thick dick againstmy tongue and looked up at him. all his boys started gettin hype and horny.
one of them got behind me and started feelin my pussy. i was suckin chanels dads dick so hard.
Then another stood in front of me and whipped out his... is that supposed to be a dick. it looked like one of them mini sausages. i put it in my mouth, i tried to suck it but tru say it got lost in my mouth. i wanted to laugh but this guy was some big hench bre. he buss. thank God. "Put her on the bed, her pussy fi dead."
They picked me up and took me into a room.
"Please wear a condom," i said. they laughed. at this point there were 15 man in the room. chanels dad got on top of me and put it in me, it hurt so much. i felt disgusting.
"you need to relax," he said, he slapped my face, "bring in some ganja."
they brought in.
"smoke it."
i put it to my lips and took a puff, i coughed as he started to finger me. his fingers were so coarse, it was a like getting lined up by monsters. their breath smelt of weed, they had bo but they thought that cheap deodorant would mask the smell.
i was just gettin fucked.that was it, i was lyin there just gettin fucked. just gettin beat out. it didnt feel nice or nuthin. it didnt feel good, it hurt. bareback. gettin lined up. i lost count. tears ran down my left eye whenever someone buss in me. i closed my eyes and remembered gettin raped, i just cried, my neck being held on, my face bein slapped. my tits bein sucked by teeth that felt like they were covered in grit.
at that moment i stopped livin and i killed myself, i stopped feeling anything. i felt like my heart had stopped beatin. i looked up at the man fuckin, he looked down at me and said, "you lis dis dick bitch"
then he punched me and when my head spun to the left and fell on the pillow it stayed there, something was bleedin- i didnt know what as i was getting fucked.
I dont even know how many hours this lasted. i just remember bein in the bed and the lights being off and the door being closed.
After an hour I got up slowly and fell back on the bed, i looked down, my pussy was bleeding. I got up really slowly and tried not to cry, it was almost impossible to walk. I walked into the mainroom, it was empty, i looked and saw a black nike bag. i opened it. it was empty. THEY HAD TAKEN MY MONEY.
I started cryin as i put on my dress. i looked outside of the window, it was stil dark, i looked at the time, it was 2in the mornin. my pussy was stingin and bleeding, my mouth was swollen and some of my tracks had fallen out.
I fixed my dress and walked into the bathroom, it was coveredin piss. I cried and stumbled out. I walked out of the house.
They had jacked my phone, my clutch bag. Everythin. the 2 bills i got from the priest gone,but i looked on the floor and saw my card, i picked it up, i looked at it.
I was so shook to leave but i knew i couldnt stay. I walked out of the flat and stumbled out of the estate down the stairs and walked out of it. I cried.
. As i walked the streets, bare cars beeped me, one guy rolled down his windows and told me to get in. I ignored him and just went looking for a pay phone, I was in hackney. i was cryin so hard. i needed to get back to sorcha's. I walked into a taxi cab place and asked for a cab to sorcha's address. I got in the cab with the driver and told him i needed to take money out for him when we got near sorchas house. We were in the cab and i was in the back, the rain hit the window as i cried. We got Sorcha's bits and i saw a cash machine, i told him id be back and walked to the machine. i took out 30 pounds and as i was going to get back into the cab i saw a church.
I walked to the cab and paid him and told him i would walk home. He drove off and i looked at the church. It was an old one and it was open. I limped into it and when i walked in, i realized how quiet it was, it was lit by candles and all the pews were empty and i sat in the last one, i didnt even know wat i was doin. I just bowed my head and prayed, i didnt even know what i was prayin for- i just prayed and then ilooked up.
"Hello,".
It was a priest. "May i sit next to you," he said. I budged up and he sat next to me.
"Whatever pain you're going through won't last forever," he said. I looked up at him and he gasped.
"DEENA!", he said,.
WTF. How did he know me.
"Yeah?", i said.
"Deena, I havent seen you since you used to come in with your grandma, how are you?".
I looked at him and started to recognise him vaguely.
"Deena, whats wrong," he said.
I looked at him and cried, "everythin, everythings a mess, i have noone."
He looked at me and said, "I knew there was a reason I had the idea to leave the church open today,".
I looked at him, "Do you know your mother came to this very church on a night like this when she was about your age,"he said.
His face started to look more familiar, he was my nans priest, i hadnt been church since i was like three or four.
"Ive done so many bad things," i said, "i feel so sick, i feel dead."
He said, "Why do you think God made tommorow, you have another day to make it right,."
I sobbed and bawled, "I have noone, not my mum, not my nan, not my dad."
"What about your older sister- does she keep in touch?".
I looked at him, "I dont have a sister," i said.
He looked bare confused, "Of course you have a sister Deena, do you keep in touch with her?".
I got up, "i dont have a fuckin sister!," i shouted.
"Deena, you do," he said, "I know that because I christened her - you are not your mums only child."
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