Deena Sket

LONDON HATH NO FURY LIKE A BOSH SCORNED

2010-07-07T05:38:00.000-07:00

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SKET DUALITY- PAULA VS SAISHA
SORCHA

"There's One Thing You Should Know About Me Sorcha, I'll get Sweeney Todd on a bosh If I Have to"

DEENA SKET FINALE CHAPTER 70

2010-05-27T19:49:00.000-07:00

When i woke up i was in the house and there were lights everywhere, i could hear distant sirens and then I looked up and my vision got clearer and there was someone standin over me.
"Can you hear me,".
I felt like i was swimmin, i slowly turned my head and i saw Ryans dad lyin on his back covered in blood. I started cryin and then i heard someone say, "shes alive,".
I dont remember what happened next, i jus remember bare lights and me swimmin and then bein lifted up and me not bein able to move my head.
All i could hear were faint voices and like i felt that i was half asleep.
I just remember a tear rollin down my left eye.
Then i remember bein in a bed and then fallin asleep.

"Deena," I woke up.
There was a doctor standin next to me, "Deena how do you feel."
My entire body was in pain.
"Deena, my name is Dr.Cox, I operated on you yesterday,"
"Operated?".
"You were shot Deena- we were able to remove the bullet but-"
I started cryin, "I was shot?".
"Deena, the police want to talk you, did you see who shot you," he asked.
I cried and just cried, "what about-"
"The man in the house was also shot- he's in a stable condition- Deena did u see who shot u,"
I cried.
"No," i said.
"Deena someone's here to see you," he said.
I cried.
The Dr left the room.
Rochelle walked in and sat next to the bed.
I looked at her and cried, she stroked my face with the back of her hand, i couldnt even say anyfin.
"Dr Cox told u what happened to you yeah?", she asked.
I cried.
"Deena who did this," she asked.
"I dont know," i sobbed, "i didnt see anythin,"
My legs were in a cast.
"Why are my legs in a cast," i asked.
She looked and said, "Deena- they dont know if ull walk again."
I turned my head and started sobbin.

I just cried, she kept sayin "its gonna be ok, its gonna be ok,"

"They might need to perform an operation on you-" she said, "and you might lose a lot of blood and so they've found someone with your blood type just in case you need blood."

"Get out," i said. I couldnt feel anythin in my legs. They were jus numb.
"Why are u even here," i screamd, "u hate me!".
"I dont hate u Deena- im here to help u," she said.
"I dontneed ur help- I just need ryan," i said cryin, i sobbed so hard.
"Deena," she said, "You might not walk again and you need to understand that no matter what happens to you you need to be strong,you need to carry on tough ok,"

"Get out!", i screamed.
"NO!", she shouted back, "im not leavin u here like this."
I looked at her and started cryin, i felt empty and lost.
"Deena, the feds are gonna come in here and talk 2 u about protection," she said.
"protection," i said tryin my best not to cry when i realized that i felt absolutely nothin in my leg.
"Whoever tried to shoot u might try again," she said.
"Who- who shot me Rochelle?", i wept, she hugged me and i wept so hard i felt like my insides were gonna fall out of my eyes, uno them hard cries like where ur whole body shakes.
"Deena, im gonna go see Dr.Cox about gettin in contact with your nan ok, ill be righ back," she said.
Then she left.

And when i was alone, for the first time in my life I prayed and i prayed that If God would give me another chance, I would change and do better and that i would- i started cryin as i closed my eyes to finish my prayer, then someone came in and closed the door.
I looked up.
They locked the door and looked at me, we were look at each other.
And then i knew it, "You did dis, you shot me, how did u get out! how did u get here, how the fuck did u get out."

They looked fumin. Then they pulled out a strap.
"Im doin this for Ryan."

"Please no," i cried.
"Scream and ill shoot straight away," they said.
"Why would u do dis," i cried, "why would u shoot me."

They didnt say anythin and then held the gun up and said, "I saw our mum today for the first time,"

And then I knew it.
"No no," i said, "nah nah it aint- it aint u- it cant be u- u cant be-"

"That's right Deena, the baby in the picture was me."
"YOU FUCKIN BASTARD!", I screamed.

Then he aimed at me and pulled the trigger.

"That's Olefumi to you."

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DEENA SKET FINALE (68 PART 2, 69)

2010-05-27T17:34:00.000-07:00

68 PART 2

He pulled the trigger.
I screamed as Sorcha hit the ground. Damon laughed.
"Its empty u bosh, where's my money," he said.
Sorcha got up cryin.

"Deena leave," he said, "before man decides to take u back with me."
I looked at Sorcha and kissed my teeth and then suttin hit me, how did she know about the business with my sister. I made my way to leave the room but as i did Damon grabbed me by my waist and said, "wait,"
He kissed my neck.

"Aint you goin Ryans funeral?", he askd me.
I shook my head.
"You know he was a gay bosh yeah?", he said, "he used to get lined up by old white breddas in soho for 2 bags a week,"

I looked at Sorcha, she looked away from me.
"You didnt know?", Damon laughed, "why u fink he set up Diane, she wanted a piece of that dough and he werent givin her none so she started runnin her mouf,"

I looked up at him, "please let me go," i said.
"Sorcha wheres my money," he asked her.
She pointed to bag, "you were gonna run wiv it," he laufed.
He picked up the bag and said, "alright girls ill be on my-" then he looked at my tits and licked them, "you know what," he said, "i dont feel like goin."

I looked at Sorcha, "Us three are gonna fuck, and if anyones got a problem wiv it man might just have to take out my real stap and delegate a few bullets in your pussies."

"Please no," i said.
"Sorcha come ere,"he said.
He was sexy, but my body was still numb, my pussy had stopped hurtin but i was still upset about everythin. Sorcha walked toward us.
"Lips her,"
I looked at him and said, "no please,"
I was so shocked about what i had just found out about Ryan that my whole mind was a mess.
"Lips her,"
Sorcha slowly grabbed my face and kissed me.
At first if felt weird but then my pussy got wet and then i started rollin my tongue around her mouth as we rubbed tits togehter, i was jus doin dis so Damon would leave me alone, the second i had the oppurtunity i was gonna duss.
"lets go the room," damon said.
I looked at Sorcha, she was cryin, she had nuthin, no money, no passport, no ticket to france, no adam. The three of us went up into the room.

As we walked in, i noticed the key to Sorcha's room on the floor, i slyly acted like i had to scratch my foot, i put the key in my jeans pocket.
he lay on sorchas bed.
"ur both gonna suck my dick,"

He pulled off his jeans, took off his ed hardy tshirt and pulled down his boxers. His dick was harder than a day in Wiley's career. Sorcha looked at me as if to say play along so I did, we both took off ourclothes , my tits were still in pain as me and sorcha leaned over the dick and started lips with the dick in between our mouths.
We were both lipsin the dick, my mouth was over the dick and sorchas tongue was runnin up and down the dick as damon squeezed both our asses.

I was so horny, it felt bare wrong, i sucked the dick so hard, he was playin with my pussy, it felt kind of nice to have soft hands there, i was tryin to block out the image of all the tings i had seen, what happened to me at that party, the whole shit with smurkz and then ryan and then icey, all of it.

Damons eys were closed and then he'd open them for a bit like he couldnt believe it was really happenin, Sorcha licked my lips and pulled the dick out of my mouth, she sucked it for a bit and then held it to my lips, i sucked it whilst she was holdin it in her hand.

The dick tasted so clean, i didnt wanna stop suckin it, i was getting lightheaded as i sucked it, my pussy started gettin so moist then it made that sound whenever my thighs rubbed together, Sorcha started bashin him off into my mouth. I sucked the top, licked the tip and then slowly deepthroated it, his body tightened up and he clenched his fists.
"AAAAAAAH," he camein my mouth.
Sticky.

When i opened my mouth his cum ran down my lips, Sorcha leaned over and kissed me sucking the cum out of my mouth, lickin it off my lips.
Then as she did it, I said, "you lot wait here, lemme go take a piss and ill be right back."
Sorcha tried to come with me but damon said, "nah i dont trust u sorcha- ull try and run ,"

I put on my clothes and left the room, i shut the door behind me an dkissed my teeth, I locked those fuckers in.
I heard Damon bangin at the door tellin me to unlock it, I ran to the toilet, flushed the key and left the house.

I didnt even know what i was gonna do, where i was gonna go and then somethin hit me, I needed to find out who my sister was, I needed to go back to the Church to see the Priest.

I walked to the church and when I got there, I couldnt believe it. They were havin a funeral.
Ryans funeral.

Chapter 69

I couldnt believe it, people were leavin and goin into the cars, I saw Sorcha's mum and she walked up to me and hugged me, "Oh deena, you're too late, he's already been cremated."

I looked at her, "cremated?". And then something hit me, Diane and Ryans baby had no parents, Diane and Ryan were dead. I started cryin a bit.
She started cryin and got into acar and then I saw Paula with her mum, she looked at me and turned away. Then i saw the Priest, i had to talk to him, i walked into the empty chair to follow him, i followed him down the stairs which led to the church hall but then i lost him, there was bare mess, i think everyone was on their way to ryans parents house, i was crying and then i saw two people rush into the toilets.
I walked into the toilets, it was a proper big church, the toilets were like the ones in school.
I walked into the toilet to see who it was, there were two people in the cubicle and i recognised one of the voices. I went into the cubicle next to it and pressed my ear to the other cubicle. It was two people- fuckin.
Then i knew who one of the people was, it was Ryans dad.
He was bangin someone, and then he said suttin, "What did the Bible Basherwant to talk to you about, is it about what you know about Deena,"

And just as the person was gonna reply, i think ryans dad phone rang and then i heard him the cubicle and rush out of the toilets and then the prson he was with left too.

Who was he with? And what did that person know about me.
I walked out of the toilets to see what i could see and then all i saw was the Priest walkin into the hall dryin his eyes.
I walke dto him.
He looked at me
"Deena,"
"I need to know somethin,"i said.
"Deena this isn the place, ive just had to conduct a funeral for a young lad,".

"Its about the picture u gave me," i said, "how do u knw the baby was a girl?".
"Because it was wearin pink and the name of course."

OMFG. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT BEFORE- If i just asked him for the name that he christend, it would help me find out who my sister was.
"Well, it was an African name, it sounded feminine," the priest said. "ive forgotten what it was,"
"Dont u keep it in record," i asked.
"Deena," he said, "you need to let this go, you dont need all this pressure and upsetness, ve just had to cremate a boy who was stabbed by a thug with no morals, lifes too short to worry about silly things."

"ITS NOT SILLY!," i screamed, "I need to KNOW who my sister is."

"The best person you can speak to is your mother," he said, "she'll have your answers."
He looked at me like he felt sorry for me, I told him to suck out and then I left.
I was so upset, I just started cryin because I realized how fucked up shit was. Ryan.
There were pictures of him all around the church from when he was little, in his uniform, playin football and that.
I left the church and then i saw Ryans dad in the car park withhis head on the wheel cryn.
I knocked on the car window, he looked up at me and rolled down the windows.
"Can i get in," i said.
he didnt say anythin and he opened the car door for me.
I got in and looked at him, he looked an older Ryan and a bit like Sorcha.
"Im sorry," i said, "about ryan."

He started bawlin, "I fucked up with him, i really fucked up,"
I rested my hand on his knee, "lets go somewhere private," i said.
He looked at me and put the key in the ignition and drove out of the car park.
We were headin to East
"Why did u have the funeral in south london," i asked.
"My aunt Shirley's friend Ethel arranges the flowers for the Church and so she helped arrange it," he said cryin.
I didnt even know why i was in his car but i felt safe with him, he was proper big, like he looked like griminal if he was 35 and was on weights.

We got to some house.
"Wheres everyone else," i asked.
"My aunt Shirleys in Brixton, they wont care about where i am- everyones thinkin the same thing,".
"what," i asked.
"that its my fault he's dead," he said, "that if i had been there for him as his dad he wouldnt have gotten into this mess."

I felt so guilty, i wanted to tell him what I knew but i need suttin from him and i knew how i was gonna get it.
We walked into the house.
It was so big, but it was dirty.
He was in a black suit.
"You wanna drink?", he asked.
I shook my head, he walked into the kitchen and came out with what looked like Rum.
"You're a nice girl Deena- what were u doin with a boy like ryan," he asked sippin his glass.

"I loved him," i said.
He sniggered, "Youts talkin about love."
I didnt say anythin and then he said, "im sorry- listen take a seat."
I sat down, i couldnt believe this was sorchas uncle, paulas dad, ryans dad, michelles uncle, the man rochelle grew up believin was her uncle. He was big, his shirt was off now, he was startin to remind me of natalies dad.

"I know your mum," he said sippin his rum.
"You do?", i asked.
He smiled and said, "your mum was my first,".
I froze.
"Your mum could suck dick like her life depended on it- i know tings about ur mum that u dont,"

I wanted to cry but i said, "where did u meet her,"

"Party- 1988, we were both 14, i didnt even know who she was and i fucked the shit out of her in your grandmothers bed,".
He was drunk but i could tell he wasnt lyin, "you know how i found out ryan was fuckin with u?", he asked, "Sorcha, she knew i used to fuck wit ur mudda, i tell sorcha everythin."
He was soundin like he was five, "this house- is where i came when i left ryans mum, i used to fuck so much pussy on this couch, whilst ryan was bein the man of the house lookin after his mum and sister and here i was, fuckin pussy like my life depended on it," he started cryin and then he said, "ryan my boy."

"The police dont care about who killed him cos he was in trouble with them himself apparently, so they just see it as black on black i dont see it like that- i see him as my son," he was screamin and cryin now.
"You know somethin about me," i said.
He looked at me and froze, "i heard you tell someone today that- the person knows somethin about me and you do too."

"Come ere," he said.
I looked at him for a bit and got up slowly, i walked over to him.
He touched my tit with the back of his hand, "be nice to me," he slurred, "and ill tell you what your mum told me."

I kissed him, he tasted of ryan.
I kissed his neck. ryan.
the hands. ryan.
the chest. ryan.
the dick. ryan.
I cried as he flipped me on my back and pulled off my clothes, in my head it was ryan, i held onto him so tight, i felt his dick against my pussy, his tongue against my neck. Ryan.
It was Ryan fuckin my wet cunt, it was ryans dick slidin in and out of me lickin my neck. It was Ryans who hench body was on top of mine givin me the bang, his thick dick strokin every inch of my throbbin pussy, every inch of it in me, "Ryan."
I scratched his back and blew in his hear, he fucked me even harder. Ryan, ryan all over again on top of me, dick in my pussy, tongue in my mouth.
"AAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAAAA RYAN!".
I trembled and came.
I cried out with my hands wrapped around Ryans neck and then he spoke, and it wasnt Ryan, it was his dad and i started cryin again.
His dad got off of me and fell on his back, we were on the floor lyin next to each other pantin.

"You're not your mums first born," he slurred.
"Who is it," i asked.
"I dont know," he said.
"You do," i cried, "please tell me, i know who killed Ryan, tell me and il tell you."
He slowly got up and said, "YOU WHAT."

I jumped up and said, "i know who killed ryan, tell me who my-" He punched me.
All i remember from that time is somethin being smashed across my face and me blackin out. A fist in my jaw and then my hair bein pulled out and somethin fallin out of my mouth.

CHAPTER 68 part 1.

2010-05-27T05:12:00.001-07:00

"Your sister is...."
"Who,who!".
"My pussy!", she smacked around the head, i screamed as she tried to tear the euro ticket from my hand.
My head was throbbin, i backhanded her.
She fell on the chair.

I held the ticket high, "why the fuck do you need to jack my id to leave the country,"
She looked at me, "Deena please gimme the ticket."
I stepped back, "nah nah," i said, "u tore that picture knowin how much it means to me,"

"Please Deena, i need to leave,"
Then she looked at me and said, "what happpend 2 u when u left me here,"
I kissed my teeth, "shut up,"
"Deena please- I need to leave,"
"With Adam?", i asked
She looked away.

"He loves me innit," she said.
"U set ur owncousin to get shanked and then u try run away on his funeral,"
"SHUT UP!", she said, "You are the dumbest bosh Ive ever met in my life, Ryan tried to kill me, he tried to kill Diane, he almost killed you, he snitched on Fumez, he fucked u up multiple times and ur still dangling on his sack, eediat eediat!".

"Why would Ryan wanna kill you and Diane, diane's his baby mum, she was his youts mum."

"Two words, Ryan is a bosh!". she said.

"What r u talkin about?".

"You know what you are Deena- you're one of them girls who couldn't take a hint even if it took a shit on your headpiece, Ryan used to do some tings tht he didnt want anyone to know about- some tings he could get killed for and Diane found out and toldsomeone and I told someone else, then ryan found out- I dont know how he did it- but he must have known me an diane were gonna so shot at that house cos i know he arranged for both of us to be killed, he set up the mum of his son to be killed and now there's a boy who'll forget his mums voice because of Ryan, he aint no hero Deena, he isn't Gandhi or Marvin X, he aint no civil rights leader, he was a prick, a pussyhole pansexual prick, dats why i dont give a shit deena and u shldnt either."

"You're lyin, ryan wouldnt do that,"
"COUNT YOUR FUCKIN BLESSINS DEENA! If Ryan was still alive, he'd be beating u up everyday, he never loved u, noones ever loved u, ur dad dont want u, ur mum didnt want u, ur nans a tief, ur own uncle fucked u and the only guy who ever treated you good is in love with me, how do you feel babes, how do you feel?".

I started cryin.
"You know what," she laufed, "if u fixed up again like you used to you could easily be a light skin Lola Monroe, now you look like a tramp."

She slapped me, "and you're a pussy too,"
She took the ticket from my hand, i just cried, "now leave my yard," she said.
I went to leave and then turned to her and said, "Just one thing before I go,"
"What"

I took her fake passport t and Adams passport from out of my hand and tore out every single page. She screamed.

"how are u gonna travel without a passport?".
I threw the pages down to the floor.
She started cryin, "u bitch!"
She tried to pick up the pages as she cried,

"Too bad," i said, "now ur stuck, u see how annoying it is when someone keeps blockin your progress- u see what its like when someone keeps tryna hold u back,thats all u ever did to me, so now ill do it to you, your stuck."

She started having a panic attack. "Deena i need to leave now- I cant stay- please, help me."
"Look at you," i said, "you'd set up your own mum if it paid the rent,"
She ran to the curtains and closed them.
"They're gonna get me," she cried.
"Who's gonna get u,"
"Deena please help me- I'm pregnant with Adams baby."

I looked at her and kissed my teeth, i wanted to cry.

"Wow!", i said, "i wonder how that happened."
"Deena- i need to get out the endz now, if i don't they're gonna get me."
"Whos gonna get u,".

Then all of a sudden I heard the backdoor get kicked in.
I screamed.
They walked into the room, Sorcha sobbed.

"Oh shit, Deena, we didnt know you'd be here?"

"Please leave me alone,"Sorcha cried.
"U try boops us out 2 bags and fink we're lettin u get away with it."

Then Damon pulled out his strap and pulled the trigger.

CHAPTER 66/67

2010-05-26T14:25:00.000-07:00

"I dont care," i said.
I tore both of the tickets. I tore up his ticket.
He screamed and ran to me, he slapped me.
I kickd him in the balls, grabbed a lamp and smashed it over his head. He fell on the floor and I ran out with his passport, sorchas fake passport and sorcha's eurostar ticket and forty pounds that was lyin on the desk.
I ran out of the house. These times it was 12.30, it was raining so hard, i looked so rank, my pussy was still sore but the rest of my body was beginning to feel better.
I ran into some shop and begged them to let me call use their phone to call a cab, i was cryin. They let me use their phone and i used one of the local cab services.
I waited for the cab and just as i got in, i saw adam runnin towards me, i jumped in, shut the door and told the driver to take me back to my house, I needed to see my mum.

As the cab left Adams street, i saw him runnin behind it runnin towards me cryin in the rain. I knew that was the last time i was gonna see him.

The cab driver said, "rough night?".
I nodded, then he looked at the passports and ticket in my hand, the money was in my pocket, "You goin abroad?", he asked.
"Yeah," i said, "Yeah I am,"
The car stopped outside my house and the cab fare came to 60, but i speeched the driver to allow me, so he accepted 40.

I knocked on the door.
"Grandma?."
She pulled me in and hugged me so tight. She looked at me and cried, "Deena what happend to you,"

"You're back?", i cried huggin her.
"Come to the front room," she said.
When i walked in there, it was fucked up, everythin was smashed. i started cryin, "what happened?", i asked.

"Your mother," she said, "I- came back and she did this, Deena I..."
She looked at me, "Deena, there's something you need to know, and I want to tell you dis in a way that will help you to understand because if you see your mother and she tells you- she'll say it out of spite."

We sat on the sofa.
"When she was about 16,your mum got pregnant with Ethel's son, and we never told Ethel or her son that it was his baby and erm, she had it and gave birth to it, and we christened it and we- your mother she was goin on wild, different man everyday in her room, everyday calls from the school about her fighting with other girls, she started doin things- and expectin me to look after her baby, the 3 month baby and I told her that i couldnt look after her yout for her and that if she didn't sort herself out, i would give it up for adoption, she moved out with the baby, moved in with some Jamaican boy and i didnt see her for a month, when i found her address come to find out the boy lef her and she was squattin in the place, no lights, no electricity, no nothin and when i looked at the baby i saw cuts on its arms, she had tried to kill it and so i did- what i thought was best and i took that baby to Barbados to give to Mable's mother to look after, then she died a year after i gave the baby to her, when i went to back home for the funeral and to bring the baby back because your mother had sorted herself out, Mable's stupid father tell me give the baby awayto a friend, i was so hurt, i never cried so much and i told your mother when i got back to London that her baby was dead, then a year later she had you and you made everytin alright, two years later I tell Ethel about everytin and the bitch tells me she knows who has the baby, she knows who raised it, she tells me that she'll tellme if i give her money, so i lied to you- about the mortgage, it was the only way, come to find Ethel was lyin like a dog- she didnt know shit, all the while your mothers been thinkin her baby died many years ago, then last week I came back from Barbados when your mother told me that Mable called and told her the truth- that her baby was alive and that her father had just given it away," then my nan started cryin, "then she did all dis."

CHAPTER 67
The tv was smashed up, everyfin was fucked up.
I just looked at her, "was it a boy or a girl?", i asked.
"Boy," my nan said, "a baby boy,"
I got up slowly, "where are u goin," she asked cryin.
"To shower,".
I walked up the stairs and took off the dirty clothes and got in the shower and sobbed, why was she lyin to me- the baby in the picture was a girl, it was wearin a pink dress, ithad long eye lashes, curly hair, it was a girl, it looked a dark skin me.
I got out of the shower and walked into my room, i put on high waisted jeans, a blue and white striped vest top, i tucked the top into the jeans and put on blue airforces.
i brushed my hair back and put it in a high ponytail.
I put the passports in a clutch bag along with sorcha's ticket and put on a blazer to hide the bruises on my arm.
I walked down the stairs and walked into the front room, "grandma- tell me the truth," i said, "was the baby a boy or girl?",

"it was a boy," she said, "why do u ask, deena why ur face so swell up, someone beat u?."

"Nan, if im not back in the hour, please dont bother ever calling or talking to me again, you and my mum are both dutty stinkin liars,"
Then i left.
I cried, i wiped my tears as i knocked on Sorcha's front door,
She answered it.
She tried to slam the door in my face, i kicked it back and walked into her house, i locked the door behind me. there were two suitcases lyin in the corridor. I looked on the floor, there was a leaflet, for Ryans funeral, it was today, at 3.
"HELLO!", i called to see if anyone else was home, when nobody replied, I looked at her and said, "wheres the picture i left here."

She gave me a blank stare.
She walked into the front room and picked up the picture, "you mean this?", she asked.
"Give it to me," i said.
She lifted it up and tore it into two and threw it on the floor.
I didnt scream, i didnt cry, i wanted to though.
"You're running away on the day of Ryan's funeral," i asked, "what a bitch."
She looked shocked, "how the fuck do you-"

Then i pulled out her Eurostar ticket.
I could tell she wanted to scream.
"Dont do it please- dont tear it," she said.
"Why not," i asked tryin not to cry about the picture she tore.
"Iknow who your sister is," she said, "Its...."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 64 and 65

2010-05-26T03:02:00.000-07:00

I looked up at Adam.
he fell on his back next to me, my pussy hurt so much, i didnt say anythin,
"why did u hurt me,"
"what"
"why did u hit me?".
"i told u i was sorry,"
"then why did u do it again,"
"i only did it once," he said getting up.
I got up slowly and looked at him.
He couldnt look at my face, even though the bruises werent that obvious from eveything that had happened the night before, the swellin was there. "Ive got HIV," I said.
He stared at me and slowly shook his head.
"And you just fucked me bareback," i said.
His eyes started to water up.
"You're lying,"
"Where did you ask the cab to pick me up from- a hospital, why do u think i was there,".

He said, "you're chattin shit."
"Ive got HIV," i said. "I bet you wished you used a rubber now"
He went to punch me but then stopped, "you're lyin, show me the results."
I pointed at my pussy, "this is the result,"
He screamed and grabbed hold of my neck, "what good is fuckin me up gonna do- im fucked up as it its," i said.
"you're chattin shit," he said walking backwards awayfrom me.
Then i noticed something, there were two suitcases underneath the window.

There was a passport and two airline tickets on the desk next to me
"You're tryna run away," i said, "before the feds start to ask you questions about ryan,"
He went to come near me but i picked the passport up, "ill tear out every single page if u come any closer,"
I picked up the airline tickets and realized they weren't airline tickets, they were Eurostar.
I opened them.
There was one for Adam and one for..

Me.

CHAPTER 65
I picked up the second passport I looked closely at the pic, it had my name on the picture. But Sorchas face.
"What the FUCK IS THIS,!" I screamed.
He gave me a blank stare like say I had just told him Roll Deep that if you took the chorus out of Roll Deep's new song, the song would slip down the charts faster than you can say "Channel Aka".
"You and that bitch," i said, "you're running away- together, tryin to use my identity."
He went to come close to me but i said, "come any closer and ill tear that shit up,"
he backed away.
"You wanna try and get away from what uve done, from killing my man,".
"IT WAS SMURKZ."
"Oh i aint worried about Smurkz," i said, "he was nabbed this morning, drug raid."
Adam looked horrified, "so is sorcha on her way den," i asked.
He didnt say anythin.
"If u dont answer me, ill tear it up," i said.
"ur chattin shit about the hiv," he said.
"maybe i am, either way im not lettin u duss from what uve done, and that bosh too, is she on her way,"
"shes meeting me at st pancras in two hours," he said.

"So she's gonna leave her maj to go france wiv u, why u scared," i said.
"cos i cant go pen for what me sorcha and smurkz did,"

"and now you know smurkz will snitch cos ive just told u the feds have got him, so now these tickets mean more than what they did five minutes ago and that bosh is tryin to use my name to get out of the country yeah?," i said.
"Please Deena, let me go," he said startin to cry, "u hated ryan yourself."

"SHUT UP,"
"He fucked u up, sorcha told me how he didnt even care when u got raped by jesse and faisani, how he's the reason you had a miscarriage and ur angry at someone for duppying him after all he did to you," Adam shouted.

"He loved me,"
"There's tings u dont know about him, Deena, tings that he did."

"Like what, how would you know, you - you only saw him once,"
"There's shit that he did that you dont know about, that Sorcha doesnt even know about,"

"Tell me then you fassy- tell me what you know!".

"HE KILLED DIANE!".

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 63

2010-05-24T14:24:00.000-07:00

"Your father's wife," she said, "I know exactly who you are,"
This was too much, I just started cryin thinkin about ryan.
"look at you, as much of a whore as your mother," she said.
I looked up at her and said, "please, ill go to another doctor."
She walked to the door and lockd it.
"You think you can ruin my family," she said, "you think my husband loves you more than me."

"Why are you angry at me for what YOUR husband did with my mum," i said.
She went to slap me but i grabbed her hand, "if your husband loved you he wouldnt have cheated," i said, "fuckin hypocrite." I was ill, i was sick but i was so angry, like i was drawin my stregnth from how pissed off and hurt i was.
"Look at you," she said, "you're worse than those tramps and you have the audacity to share the same gene pool as my family,"

"And what family is that?", i asked, "dont mek me tell u about yourself zainab, faisani is a sick pervert, your husband is unfaithful yet you fink ur shit doesnt stink, keep on believin being a loyal wife will make him love u, my mum wasnt the first woman he cheated on u with and she sure as fuck isnt the last, look at you- big ass doctor tryin to come for a girl like me when ive come to you for help, i didnt even know who u were, but now im seein ur face i can understand why he went fuckin elsewhere,".

She slapped me, the pain in my face hurt so much, "It's your husband you should slap, not me."
"get out,"
"im going to get tested," i said, "and ur goin to make sure I do- cos i you dont, ill make a scene right here and now, how would your friends down at the mosque feel if they knew that your husband who claims to be a devout muslim had an affair with a black woman and has a child with her,".
She looked at me and then left the room.
I just cried.
You know that feeling when everythin feels like whats the point. All i could think about was the last time I saw Ryan, when we had that fight cos of adam, how everyfin just got fucked up.
I swear, for the first time I missed Natalie so much, like i wish i could call her up and tell her everyfin. Noone else knew about dis, but two years ago i got jacked by some girls in East, i got proper fucked up by them because I must have given one of dem a dirty look and as soon as i told Natalie, she took me out to Tinsel Town and we spent the whole day, watchin dvds, doin homework and for the first time in my life i had been happy.

You know that feelin when u stop in the middle of a moment and just smile, thats how it was with Natalie, and like she was the first person that i proper liked, that i could trust, she used to call me up to tell me if we had any homework when i missed school and when.. Pearl walked back in.
"Deena, you ready for your test?", she said.
I nodded.

When she finished with all the STI tests she looked at me and said, "Deena- no matter what the test results say, you have to go on livin ur life, " she looked at me and said, "I'm HIV positive Deena."

I looked up at her and was so shockd.
"Ive been HIV positive for 25 years," she said. She looked bare healthy tho, like u would never think.
"How did u get it i asked?".
She made that hmmp sound black woman make when somethins sad.
"My boyfriend," she said, "Leroy, he was my baby father and everytime i wanted to talk about marriage he would say no no- theres no need- no need- and me like a fool i kept fuckin him, we had a flat together in Elephant and Castle, and uno he was a looker, smooth talker, uno he was so attractive that i let so many tings slide, like how everyweek girls would call the housephone lookin for him, how he would spend all day bunnin and when he wasnt bunnin he wasnt doin anytin productive- and i was still fuckin him, and i thought he would never cheat on me, because i thought wehave a baby together, and hes livin with me and uno he calls me his wife- so he wouldnt cheat, i didnt fink i needed to use a condom because of course im tinkin im the only one, and the problem with men is that they're good liars, when they tell u theyre not fuckin about with other bitches you believe them because YOU WANT to believe it you know, anyway, ill never forget it, it was carnival- 1985 and it was the Monday one and I was wit my sister and a girl walked up to me, i was dancin, imagin me dressed like sometin out of a salt and pepper video, and i was dancin next to a float and a girl, tall coolie girl walks up to me and tells me that my man- my Leroy gave her sister HIV, and i ignored her because in my head Leroy would never cheat and so uno what i did,"

I looked at her. She continued.
"I went back home and didnt tell my sister what the girl said to me, i just went home and saw him,he was with his friends bunnin in the balcony and that nite when we were alone i told him i wanted to fuck with him a condom from then on, LIKE A FOOL- i was too afraid to confront him about it, and after a few fucks he convinced me to stop makin him wearin the rubber and i let him continue to fuck me bareback, a year later i got pregnant and the doctors tell me that me and the baby hiv positive." A tear ran down her eye.
"Imagine this Deena, young girl like me, no more than 23 years old, been in this country no longer than 5 years with a baby in my house and a baby with hiv in my stomach, i aborted the baby and i took my son and i left Leroy, luckily for me they spotted it early, they gave me the medications and ive been takin them everyday for all these years, come to find out last year that Leroy has a son the same age as my son and a daughter who was born the same month as my yout was due, he died last year, went to his funeral and i cried like a baby," she started laughin, but the laugh was sad.

I hugged her.
"Im gonna go now," i said.
"We can text u ur results," she said. I gave her my number as i held back my tears.
"Where are u going to go," she asked.
"There's someone i need to see," i said.

I left the room and walked out of the hospital, i was wearin jesses clothes and trainers. I knew what i was gonna do, i walked back into the hospital and asked to borrow the phone to make a quick call, i made the call and the person told me to wait outside the hospital for a cab to take me to where they wanted to meet me.

The cab came and i got in.
I cried as i sat in the back, then i wiped my tears.
"where's this goin," i asked.
"The man who called said to take u to an address in Northolt love," the cabbie said.
I nodded, the person i was gonna meet knew how risky it would be for me to be in South, I was gonna do this for Ryan.
The cab stopped outside some house and i saw him waiting there.
He walked to the cab and paid the man and looked at me as i got out of the cab.
He stared at me, "Deena what happpend to you."

"Let's just go inside innit," i said.
We walked into the house, "whose house is this," i asked.
"My dads, i knew u wouldnt wanna meet at my house or in south cos-".
I looked at him, "Deena im sorry," he said.
"Ryans dead you know," i told him.
My heart sank as i said it.
"Is there somewhere i can shower," i asked him.
He nodded and started cryin, "Deena im sorry,".
I kissed him, "its ok," i said, "im happy."
He led me to the shower,"whose clothes are those," he asked.
"Someones," i said.
As i was naked, he looked at my pussy.
He gasped,
"what happened," he askd.
I didnt say anythin and got into the dirty shower, i knew i was gonna leave it dirtier than when i got in, all i wanted is to feel water on my body.
He was watchin me shower and cryin, "when did ryan die?", he asked.
"Yesterday," i said, "lost too much blood,"
I got out of the shower and stood in front of him naked.
He looked at my face and body, "what happend to you deena."

"Men did," i said.
Then i grabbed his dick gently and kissed his neck.
"Fuck me," i whispered in his ear, "chop my backs down,"
He started bawlin, "Ryan, i didnt meet for dis to happen- i didnt know."
"Its ok," i said kissing his face, "just put ur dick in me."
He was gettin hard, he led me to one of the rooms and gently put me on the bed, i just lay there and spread my legs.
He went to put on a dom, "No," i said, "it feels better when i can feel it all."
He tore off his clothes as he was cryin and got on top of me. He put his dick in me.
I cried and started bleedin.
I screamed, it was bleedin so much, it was sore, the throbbin in my head was insane, like i'd been shot in the head.

He wiped my pussy with the dirty duvet, and said, "youve been raped."
I shook my head, "no," i said, "please go on."
"Deena u just bled ," he said.
"it wont happen again, please," i said, "do it again."
He put it in slowly, this time i didnt bleed but the pain was still there, i wanted to scream but then he would pull out and then i would have failed.

"All the way inside," i said gently.He cried as he fucked me.
"Tell me you love me," i said.
"I love you deena,".
"I love you too Adam- I love you too."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 62

2010-05-22T09:51:00.000-07:00

BAM.
A car hit some blind man.
I kept on running and ran into the mcdonalds, i ran into the toilets, bare people were lookin at me as i ran in, i pushed open a cubicle door, a fat woman was taking a shit, i closed dat door and pushed open another one, a woman in a burka was fingerin herself, i kicked open the last one and just vomited in the toilet. The same white fluid just poured of me.
I cried, i felt so sick, my stomach was hurtin so much. I started screamin, i couldnt stop vomitin. One of the staff ran tohelp me, "please help me."

I must have passed out because I didnt remember being taken to hospital. I actually just remember lying down on a bed and feeling really light headed like i wasnt there, like i had just woken up from somewhere, i started cryin when i realized where I was, Kings. All i could think of was Ryan.
I was alone in some room, it wasnt a normal ward it was like a gps surgery ting, then some doctor walked in with a notepad. She looked she was about 50.

"Hello Deena," she said.I didnt say anything.
"My name's Dr. Z," she said smilin at me, "how are you feeling"
"My head hurts," i said.
She looked at me for a long time like she realized somethin then said, "Deena, the bruises on your face?".
From Chanels dad, from the yardies, from sorcha, from dee, from smurkz.
"I fell," i said.
She nodded, "Deena, you were brought here because you collapsed in a public place and were regurgitating, we've run some tests, 80% of your upchuck was semen- Deena, have you been raped?".

I turned my head away from her.
"Would you be willing to do a test, just to make sure you're safe from anything, it won't hurt, i can arrange it for you now," she said.

I turned to her,"yes please."

They took me into some room, and there was a nurse, she was a Jamaican woman and she said, "You haven't used any moutwash have you since it happened,".

"No, no," I said, "i wasnt raped- i just, it was a mistake, there were so many of them, i just want to get tested to see if ive caught..."

"I see, I see," she said, "ok let me just inform Dr. Zarinsdast of this, the test will be carried out differently then."
She left the room and I looked around, there was a leaflet about a place called The Havens where women and men who have been raped can go to for free help and advice http://www.thehavens.co.uk/
They had bases in Paddington, White Chapel and Camberwell for anyone, it didnt matter, they help everyone, I took down their number for the Camberwell base, 0203299 1599. I knew i had been raped, i didnt want to be fucked by all them men, but i was scared, my pussy was so sore, i felt sick and hungry.

The nurse came back in and sat down, "Deena, I'm going to need you to explain what happened to you, was it consensual?".

"It was only meant to be one guy" i cried.
"There was more than one?", she said horrified, "how many- did this to you?".
"30," i said, "there were 30 of them,"
She looked at me and said, "You've come to the right place- that IS rape, you did not consent to having all those men sleep with you and so it is rape."

"Some of them didnt penetrate my-vagina," i said, "some only used my mouth."
"Did you consent to it?", she asked.
"I didnt say anythin to stop it though," i said startin to cry.
"It's STILL RAPE, rape counts as the oral, anal, and vaginal penetration of someone without their consent as well as touching someones body without their say so, unless you actively said they could do it, it is rape and it is against the law."

She was so nice and calm, she gently said, "we're going to carry out a rape test, to make sure you're ok, where you wearing those clothes when it happened."

"No no," i said, "this happened last night, I- i got changed," i didnt tell her about smurkz and dee and jesse, and what happened wiv dem cos jesse told me to tell nobody.
"Ok," she said, "I'm going to explain our HIV testing procedure, When a person is infected with HIV, their body responds by producing special proteins that fight infection, these are called antibodies. An HIV antibody test looks for these antibodies in your blood,your saliva or urine, if you agree we will do all three. If antibodies to HIV are detected, it means a person has been infected with HIV. But there are some exceptions because babies born to mothers with the virus keep their mother's antibodies for up to 18 months, which means they may test positive on an HIV antibody test, even if they are actually HIV negative and some people who have taken part in HIV vaccine trials may have HIV antibodies even if they are not infected with the virus itself.
Most people develop detectable HIV antibodies within 6 to 12 weeks of contracting the infection. Sometimes, but only very rarely it can take up to 6 months for antibodies to develop,".

I looked at her and started cryin, you dont knw how shook i was, i started thinkin of all the times i had fucked bareback, or when the dom had split, about all the man i had fucked who had wifeys who were fuckin them bareback, I realized how dese tings spread, everyone finks it can never happen to them.

"We'll test you for every other STIs, the HIV test results will come back in a few weeks but the others will arrive faster, I-" just as she was speaking, the dr came into the room.
"Pearl can you give me a moment to speak with Deena please?".
Pearl gave her one look and left the room and closed the door.
The dr looked at me and said, "I know who you are bitch,"

I was bare confused,
"what," i said.
"I said i know who you are."

"What are u talkin about, who are you?".

"Mrs. Zarindast, your fathers wife,".

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 61

2010-05-20T11:55:00.001-07:00

i look up and just started cryin. All i could think about was Sorcha and the picture.
Jesse looked at Smurkz and said "wheres the charlie?".
Smurkz said, "upstairs bruv- u didnt see it?".

Then Jesse looked down at me and looked up at Smurkz, "where upstairs?"he asked.
WTF. How did Jesse and Smurkz even know each other.

"Deena aint you surprised to see Jesse here, tru say u used to fuck him," i looked at jesse, and he said, "i met my man at some rave and he told me u fucked him too- and that prick ryan,"

Smurkz kicked me in my right tit and then whipped out his dick, "suck it," he said.
I got up and put it in my mouth and sucked as i cried, he was punchin me as i sucked.

"Oi, whens that bre comin to collect his dro," Dee asked Jesse.
"About ten minutes," Jesse said, "ive weighed it up and shit, and the charlies all there yeah?".
Smurkz nodded, "u can get ur piece once it's all be sold innit, shouldcome to about 3 bags,"

He punched me, Jesse said, "three bags worth of coke here right now,"
Smurkz said, "Im a fuckin hustler,".
Dee laughed and said to me, "Ur boy Ryan fucked bare of us over, he try mug off Smurkz, he banged up Jesse and his boy but now he's in afuckin morgue, he's probably gonna be suckin dick in hell."

Smurkz laughed and said, "sick sick,". Jesse laughed.
"Ur lookin worse for wear Deena," he said.

I felt sick and vomited all over the carpet, bare white stuff came out with it.
Smurkz kicked me in my jaw, "she's vomitin cum!", Frisky screamed, i kept vomitin and vomitin, it was all the food i'd eaten with bare white fluid, Smurkz kicked me and said, "lick it up,".

I cried.

He kicked me in my forehead and said, "LICK IT!".
I cried as i lowered my head to the carpet when Jesse said, "nah nah,just make her clean it up, i wanna draw brain off her still, lemme go get some CIF and a sponge from the bathroom."

Jesse went up stairs and Smurkz gave him a weird look.
Then Jesse came back down and said "Actually Deena- come and get it urself u bosh,". Smurkz looked at jesse and laughed, "sick guy, u heard him deena, go get the fuckin cif to clean up your shit, Lil kim."

jesse pulled me up and slapped my face and said, "wheres ryan now,"
he pulled me up the stairs, i was cryin so hard. he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door.

"Im gonna get u out, ive only got ten minutes," he said, "the feds are comin here for a raid."
He was whisperin, i couldnt stop cryin, "deena, listen- im gonna get u out, but u need to be quick."

"why are u helping me," i cried.
"Man fucked about the last time, this aint right- u dont deserve this, listen, in a bit, im gonna back down by myself and as soon as i get to the last step run down, unlock the door and duss,".

"I have no shoes," i cried, i was sobbing.
"Wait here."

He left the bathroom and i sat on the toilet cryin, why the fuck was he helpin me, the sun was comin out. he walked back in a tracksuit and creps. "put this on,"
he threw them at me, i quickly put them on top of sorcha's pyjamas.

I looked at him, "dont tell anyone u were ever here deena."

"Ur snitchin on them," i said, "ur workin for the feds,"
He didnt say anythin and said, "get ready, wait at the top of the stairs and when im at the bottom step run down and get out of here, dont stop just duss,".

"why are u helpin me," i asked.
He looked at me and said, "deena- if u tell anyone dat i helped you."
"i wont," i said wipin my eyes. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, like i was gonna escape.
"start groanin," he said.

I started actin like i was gettin fucked so they wouldnt get suspicious. Then Jesse went out of the bathroom, i followed him to the top of the stairs and waited till he was at the bottom step, the creps were heavy, they were one size too big but as soon as he was the bottom step, i dussed down the stairs pushin jesse, and unlocked the door.

Smurkz started screamin but i just ran, i ran down the stairs of the estate and ran out onto the main road, there were people goin work, i didnt car ei just ran, and then i saw bare police cars drivin toward the estate.

I just ran as i saw the feds jump out of their whips and run up the estate, i pushed past people, i was jus running so fast, my legs were tired but i didnt care, i had to keep on dussin, i pushed some old lady to the floor and kept on runnin, i had to cross the road, i saw abus that went near my ends, i didnt have no money, so den i realized i had no way of getting back, i felt like i was gonna vomit, i saw a mcdonalds across the road.

I ran into the road.
BAM.

DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 59 and 60

2010-05-18T05:00:00.001-07:00

CHAPTER 59

"Shit Deena, you fucked Sorcha up too?", he said.
I just started cryin. He was holdin Sorcha's house key.
"You're comin wiv me," he said. He grabbed me by hair, i bit his hand and drew blood, he backhanded me. He kicked me in the face, i grabbed his foot and pulled him down. I went to dial for the police, but he grabbed me by my waist, i fell and my head slammed against the bannister.

Two man ran up in the house and pulled me out of the house. I was kickin and screamin as they pushed me into the black car, the same car i saw earlier, all someone said from their window was "shut up u slag", they must of thought i was jokin around.

They kicked me into the back of the car as Smurkz locked Sorcha's door and ran into the drivers seat of the whip.
I was in the middle of one black guy and Dee who had a big scar on his face and in the passenger seat was one other white bredda and Smurkz was drivin.

Dee slapped me, "long time since i seen you Deena," he punched me.
I started cryin. I couldnt believe this, all this shit in two nights, i wasnt even scared uno, i wasnt even scared, i was jus tired.
"Hows ur man," Smurkz said, "ur boy ryan."

They all started creasin, "Batty boy fi dead," smurkz laufed, "stuck the shank so deep in, the blade broke in his fuckin belly."

I just kept my head down and didnt say nuthin.
"You know what," Dee said, "i dont even fink she's sorry."

Then i looked at Dee and sniggered, "Why are u talkin like Westwood."
His bres started sayin, "ah shes boyin it, shes boyin it."
Dee slapped me and said, "uno what- suck my dick."

He unzipped his jeans and forced my head to his cock, i just put my mouth on it and didnt suck it, he punched my head so i started sucking. His pubes smelled like proper BO, as i sucked, he was writhin and groanin, he was pullin my hair so hard. his boy started touchin my pussy.

The car stopped. We were in some next place, the sun was comin out, "nah nah," Smurkz said, "lets jus go back to your yard Frisky, the suns coming out."

"But i cant," frisky said, "my mums home."
Smurkz kissed his teeth, "alright we'll take her to mine."

They kept on drivin and i thought we were goin to dees house but smurkz must have got a new place cos now we were on the motorway, fuckin pussyhole, he mustve moved cos he was prang after what chanel and her boys did to him and dee.
We on the motorway for ages and then i realized that we were in Surrey Quayes.
The car stopped in front of some any run down estate, Dee pulled me out of the car, imagine this now- i was barefoot in Sorcha's hello kitty pyjamas. they pushed me to some door. Smurz unlocked it and kicked me in. I fell on my face.

They surrounded me, "U look fucked," Smurkz said, "You upset cos ur batty boy man is dead?".
I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in my bum, it hurt so much cos his toe nails were long. Dee dragged me by my hair into the livin room. It was so dirty, pizza hut boxes everywhere, rose bottles on the settee, there were condom wrappers everywhere.

"You aint so big now," Dee said, "Where's Chanel now Deena," he screamed. The scar on his face was so deep, it was like a tumour. Smurkz said, "You're the dumbest sket alive, tru say Dee, she's the dumbest bosh on road, real talk Deena on a level, how many man have u fucked,"

I didnt say anythin. He kicked me in the face, my head felt like it screamin but i didnt make a sound. Smurkz got vex and pulled off the pyjama bottoms and looked at my pussy.
Dee gasped.
"What the fuck happened to it," he said.
It was hurtin, i could feel blood slowly comin out of it.
Then Smurkz grabbed my neck and spat on my face.
"Beg us to let you go," Smurkz said.
I didnt say anythin, he punched me, "beg me!".

I didnt say anythin.
"She finks someones gonna save her," Dee said, "noones not gonna know where u are, that sket Sorcha will fink u jus left her for dead and dussed."

Smurkz laufed, the two other bres were just watching. Smurkz looked so evil, his eyes looked soulless like someone had taken somethin out of them, as he grabbed my neck and found it hard to breathe, he laughed. He was choking me, i grabbed his forearms for him to let go as i was chokin but he laughed, "u like dis u sket dont lie,".

Dee looked away as i choked, i could feel my face gettin red.
"BEG!", he shouted,
I didnt beg. He kept on chokin me and then he let go, i fell on my back and panted holdin my neck, his hands were so strong i could their imprint on my neck, i gapsed for air desperately as Smurkz took off his chain and clothes.
"No," i said.
"Shut the fuck up," Dee said.
I jumped and tried to run but Smurkz threw a remote control at my head, the pain was so much, i fell to the floor and started cryin.
He grabbed me by my legs back to the livin room, my face had bad carpet burn, he looked down at me and said, "Your boyfriend Ryan is the biggest chich on road, i fuckin set him up, that bredda Adam told him he wanted to link him but i showed up instead," he started creasin, "Blacked out, black balaclava, i ghosted him nice, and uno what he said when he realized he had been shanked."

I looked at Smurkz.
He said, "His last words were, Deena." They all started creasin.
"U even got batty bisexuals finkin of u on their dying day," Dee said.
"What happened to ur pussy," Smurkz asked, "why does it look so sore."

I didnt say anythin and then i looked up and said, "i got fucked by your dad innit."
He kicked me in my stomach. I cried out.
"Ive got a fuckin suprise for you," he said, "just wait innit."

Chapter 60

I was cryin out in so much pain, my stomach was painin me, it was like someoned had shanked me.
"Her pussy looks like she got fucked by Mandingo," Frisky said.

"Who the fucks Mandingo," Smurkz said.
"Aww some pornstar with a hench dick."
"Why u watchin nex mans piece for- are you fuckin fruity bruv," Smurkz asked.
Dee started laughin, "i told u from day u was gay Frisky,"
Frisky looked bare upset when Smurkz said, "ur a fuckin bats man- thats the last time i let u watch man beat ever,".
Then Smurkz turned to me and said, "Oi Frisky, Deena wants to take u to get ur nails done."

Frisky got bare vex and didnt say nuthin.
"You and your fuckin snakey friend Natalie, she finks i dont know how she set the whole ting up so chanel could get me yeah? shes next," then he looked at Dee and said, "we should do to her what chanel did to you man."

"Fuckin scar up your face," Dee said.
"Nah nah," Frisky said, "i wanna fuck her."
They all look suprised, "Ur gay doe," Smurkz said.
"Nah nah i aint," Frisky said, "lemme fuck her."

"Alrite den," Smurkz said, "and if u buss within ten minutes, ill fuckin punch u up."
I screamed as Dee held me down as Frisky stood over and dropped his pants. His dick was lopsided, almost like it sleeping on his left thigh. He lay on top of me,he went to kiss me, i bit his mouth. he fell on his back and kicked me in my knee.
He tried to get on top again but i kept movin, Dee slapped me so i would stop and then when Frisky put it in, i did the dirtiest fing ever.

I farted.
Frisky jumped up. Dee stepped back.
"What the fuck man," Smurkz said, "u takin the piss."
He pulled me up and heabutted me, i burst into tears. I couldnt take this anymore, i wanted to die, mybody felt dead as Smurkz started punchin me up,proper fucking me up.

He grabbed me and threw me across the room.
My head hit the wooden table. i felt a splinter in my tongue.

Then i heard someone walk in, "Oi Smurkz u never told me we had dis bitch here."
I looked up.

"Wagwan Deena."

Jesse.

CHAPTER 58 part 2

2010-05-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

"I kiled Ryan."
I sat down on the chair and looked up at her. She looked at me. We were looking at each other.
She sat next to me, i punched her. Her face took one dirty spin and then she said, "im sorry."
"You're lying- you wouldnt do it- he's your cousin, what are u talkin about."

"I told u he was gonna die and u didnt listen, i asked for your help," she said, "when i came to you and told you he owed them man money and that i needed your help,"
"He paid them back,"i cried.
"He never paid them back," she said, "he never, he may have told u he did but he didnt, i paid them back, i almost got killed paying dem back, remember the ting wiv diane, i shotted for murda that night and almost got killed for it, i was shottin to make enough money to pay them man back for ryan but when diane said she needed the money for her yout, her and ryans yout, i said she could have the money and i left, thats when she got killed and so i ran to the man who ryan owed and because i was so scared for him, i gave them everythin, i took everythin out of my account to pay them because i loved him, because i didnt want them to hurt him, and then I-" she paused and looked at me.

"I went to Adam," she said.
I looked at her and said, "you bitch- that time i saw you outside his house."
She looked down, "I'd be stayin wiv him, them times nobody knew where i was, i was wiv him and i told him everythin, about the money i took out for ryan, everyfin about diane and he cared, and i thought that-" she started cryin, "i thought that when i saw ryan again he'dbe grateful for what i did and uno what he told me- he said i was dumb to pay dem back because he had the money to do it, and i was so vex because i had nuthin deena, and then i did somethin dumb, you didn't know it, but i've been fuckin adam and he erm- he said he knew someone who wanted to beat up Ryan for sumfin and needed a way to set him up and i was so vex, i said the way to set him up was to convince him that someone sexy wanted to link him, i gave adam his number and dat was dat, i didnt know who the person who wanted to fuck ryan up was, i just knew that adam was gonna set it up and then i hear that ryan's dead, because of me."

"You've been fuckin adam," i said.
She looked at me, "it was him-he set ryan up, it was him."
"You helped him set adam up to be duppied," i said tryin not cry.
"it was cos- i didnt know they we're gonna kill him," she started cryin.
"You dumb slag," i said, "you fuckin slag."
I got up and started cryin, "you and adam."

"Im sorry," she said, "that day you saw me when u was leavin his house i was going back to him id been sleepin dere for the entire time, he loves me, he's even come here before, he fucked me so nice i blacked out, his dick sent my pussy to iraq and back and please believe it was the bomb, he even has a spare key to this very house, he loves me."

I turned to her, "like hell he does," i said, "he's a pussy hole, he- you dumb bitch, you set ryan up to be killed by Smurkz."

She gasped.
"Adam and Smurkz planned this entire ting because they both hate him and u made it possible,"
She screamed and ran up the stairs. I followed her into her room.
"You dumb skank," i screamed, "Smurkz! the same bredda who tried to duppy us, he killed YOUR cousin because of your dumbness, because u were dum enough to let money fuck up your judgment."

"Fuck you Deena!", she said, "dis is your fault, ryan was fine before he met you- if smurkz duppied him its cos of u."

I looked at her and said, "uno what ryan did to him? he told him to suck his dick in front of bare man when he was gettin moved to and smurkz like the batty he is went to do it, and ryan was jokin, dats why smurkz did it, smurkz was gettinhim back and ulet him."

"I didnt know."

"Oh you did," i said, "in dis day and age uno how dese man are, they dont beef wiv fists, they beef with straps and blades, and u put ur own cousin in dat situation because of money."

She tried to push past me, i grabbed her neck and threw her onto the floor.
"You bosh!", i screamed, i went to kick her but the pain in my hand and pussy kicked in. i just started cryin. it was dark outside, about 3.30 in the mornin, it was rainin and the rain against the window was beating so hard.
"Deena, please you cant tell anyone," she started beggin. I slapped her. She slapped me back and punched me in my boat. I fell to the floor as she cried, she leaned against her wardrobe and cried.

"Everythin," she said, "after evertyin he did to you, you're still on his nuts,".

I got up slowly, "he loves me," i said.
She sniggered and wiped her tears, "you really are as dumb as you look," she said, "he was linkin about five other chicks when he wasn't make that hole between your legs bigger, biggest gyallest on road and u think he'd stick wiv u."

"You're lyin."
"Shut up," she said, "i beg u shut up, im his cousin, he tells me everytin."
"You're damn right," i said, "he showed u everytin too, talk about kissing cousins."

"Skets in glass houses shouldnt throw stilletos," she said, "you fucked your own uncle babes, dont ever come wiv the hype about me and ryan cos ill tell u all about yourself wiv ur bowel problems."

I went to slap her, she threw my hand down.
"Don't play wiv me Deena," she said.
I punched her, "u killed him," i said, "its ur fault he's gone."

She looked at meand said, "uno what- I did set him up yeah, but uno what now i think about it i dont regret it- he didnt care about where i was when u lot thought i was dead, he never cared about diane's yout, he didnt care about u when U GOT RAPED by faisani and jesse, oh and ill tell u sumfin- he most certainly didnt care when he killed your yout when he threw that xbox on your gut, he didnt give a stinkin shit, so i dont care about him, and ill go to his funeral, ill rock my black blazer, im sure ull wear a black blazer, black jeggins and black airforces and ill put on sad face, ill cry, ill scream, ill act a fool, but i dont care, im glad he's dead, me na fi give a crap."

I backhanded her.
She kicked me in the stomach.
"You aint Natalie or Chanel y'nah," she said, "u aint a problem for me to handle."
"Handle me den," i screamed, "if you're bad handle me, handle Deena! you never could and you never will, im the only bitch who wanted to ber your friend after u fucked and jacked everyone else and their mandem, your maj looks like that sket who poisoned snow white wiv the apple wiv her wrinkly face, you've been beaten out more times than a church rug and your pussy lips come like parralel lines- they never meet!".

We started scuffin. I headbutted her three times. we rolled down the stairs punchin each other up, we landed at the foot of the stairs, i rolled off her body, my nose was bleedin, i looked at her, she werent movin and her eyes were closed. i shook her body, she wasnt wakin up, i thought to touch her pulse but the time they were teaching where it was i was linkin some Ugandan ting in North, so i didnt know how to check her pulse and then the door unlocked. I looked up.

"Ay my size," Smurkz said, "Long time no see."

Chapter 58 part 1.

2010-05-15T15:08:00.000-07:00

I didnt say anythin.
"Can i talk to him," i said.
She looked up to me and didnt say anythin.
I went to the phone and said, "whats the hospital number."
"He's dead DEENA!", she screamed.
I looked at her and slowly walked up to her bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the edge of the bath and then i walked out and went down and i said, "babes can i borrow your phone to call him."
She started sobbin. I looked at her and just stood there.
"where's your mum?", i asked.
"at the morgue," she cried.
I didnt cry, i just looked at her.

She looked at me, "why arent you cryin," she said.
I looked at her blankly and said, "can i talk to him."
She got up and walked out of the room cryin. I just sat there, soakin wet. there was blood runnin from between my legs. I got up and walked upstairs, she was in her room crying. i walked into her bathroom, took off my dress and shoes and got in the shower and rinsed my body.

I didnt cry, the picture was downstairs on the sofa.
I got out of the shower and dried myself and wanted to call Ryan. I went into Sorcha's room and opened her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas and put them on.

"Did you not hear what i said," she asked.
I left the room and went down to her kitchen, I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of rum, a glass bottle and when it broke in my hands i started cryin.

I fell to the floor, my hands bleeding, the glass in my skin and just cryin.
Smurkz. Adam. they did it.

I walked to the sink and puled the glass out of my hand and threw it in the sink. I sobbed as i held my hand under cold water. I just cried. I cried so hard, the pain was so much, my head was throbbing and my chest hurt, my chest hurt so bad.

I cried and cried, my hand was freezing, the blood was pouringout and it wouldnt stop, my pussy was hurtin, my neck was hurtin, i felt skinny and then i saw my mums face and then i vomited all in the sink and farted.

I vomited holding my head over thesink, it splattered back in my face, i cried and then fell to the floor, i wiped my mouth and just lay on the floor with my head against one of the legs of Sorcha's kitchen table in a foetal position just cryin and i kept sayin ryans name. I kept sayin his name and then in my head i heard his voice and i touched my belly, our yout together. dead.

I felt dead inside, like my heart had stopped beatin. Everythin suddenly stopped hurtin and then i let out a small laugh when i thought I heard his voice, i heard him say somethin in a different language and i started smilin and in my head i saw me sucking his dick, i saw him eatin my pussy, me sittin on his face, him bussin in my mouth, him punchin me and kickin me in the stomach, him killin my yout. RYAN!

I cried out so hard as all the pain came rushin back, the pain in my pussy was worse, my tits felt sore, i was shiverin, my hands were swollen.

My stomach felt weird. I jumped up and vomited in the sink. everythin came out, there was bare white fluid comin out with the vomit, i just cried and vomited. I rinsed my mouth out with the tap water.

I got up slowly and walked to the living room and picked up the picture and then i looked down at it. this was gettin too much. I thought of my nan, my mum, my dad, everyfin and then i thort of Adam.
Smurkz.
Ryan. Me.

I had so many questions. how did adam and smurkz know each other? I felt sick,i felt like i was dreamin, like i wasnt there, i slapped myself to wake myself up, my face hurt.

I quickly pulled myself together and breathed in cos i had hiccups, i was in sorcha's hello kittypyjamas and they were soakin wet.

I picked up sorcha's phone and dialled Adams mobile number, but she already had it saved.
I closed the living room door.
"Hello."
"Adam," i said.
"Deena?".
"Adam, erm, i need to- i'm in bare shit," i said. i started cryin.
"Deena whats wrong, listen i'm sorry about everyfin."
"Adam how did Smurkz get in contact with you," i said.
There was a long silence and then he put the phone down.
I tried callin him back, but the line kept goin to voicemail and then it didnt ring altogether.
Then the door pushed open. it was Sorcha.
"Deena," she said.
I hugged her so tight.
"I know who killed him Sorcha, i know who shanked Ryan," i said.
Then she slowly let go of me and looked at me.

"It was me Deena- I killed Ryan."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 57

2010-05-15T11:24:00.001-07:00

"What are u talkin about," i said.
"Your grandma said she was living in Barbados with your aunt Mabel." he said.
"My aunt Mabel lives in Spain!". I was just bare confused.
"The week after I christened your sister, your grandmother stopped coming to church, she said she was ill."
I got up and went to leave. "Im sorry if ive said something wrong," he said.
"You're wrong," i said, "i aint got a sister,"
"Come with me," he said.
I looked at him, he walked behind the alter and down some stairs. I followed him slowly, it led to a house which was next to the church. It was an old house.
"I keep every single picture of christenings here," he said, "in case people need them for anything."
I wiped the tears from my eyes as the pain in my pussykept on hurtin.
Then he gave me a picture and i looked at it. It was bare people in front of the church and in front of them was my mum, she looked bare young next to my nan and my nan was holding a baby girl, a dark skinned baby girl.

"What year was this taken," i said tryin not to cry.
"1990, the baby was just a few months when this was taken," he said. I looked at it and looked back at him, "I didnt know," i said. Then i started cryin, uno them cries when ur shoulders tremble and ur hands shake. I cried and he held me and kept saying its ok, its ok, i had the picture in my hands.

"Your grandmother stopped coming to church a week after this and then a two years later when you were born she came back to have you christened, she came with you for two years then stopped, when i asked about the first baby she just said your aunt was looking after her in Barbados so your mum could go to school,".

I looked at him and felt sick. This was toomuch. My chest was beaten, my pussy was hurtin and I lookd at him and said, "i'm gonna go now,".
"Are you sure," he said, "please feel free to stay here if you have nowhere to go."
"I do," i said wiping my tears.
"Just know that the Church is alwayshere for you and that you never have to be too afraid to talk to God, sometimes it takes for us to hit rock bottom for us to see the light because after rock bottom the only way is up."

I left the house and walked out on the street with the picture in my hand.
It was rainin so hard, i was drenched and i wasnt cryin, I just walked, i walked past Sorcha's house and started to cry. I washolding the picture so tight. My dress was soaking wet, i was limpin in heels, my hair drenched, my make up running down my face. My legs hurtin sobad, my jaws throbbin.
I was cryin so hard, i didnt even know where i was goin. As i was walkin, I noticed a car followin me. I had to be smart, what was i gonna do if this car door opened and someone tried to pull me in.

So i did the smartest thing I could think of, I turned the corner into a side road to see what the car would do. From when the car turned into the same road as me, I knew i was in trouble and so I started screamin. When i mean i screamed so hard if i was pregnant dat baby would have jumped out of my pum quick time. I screamed so hard. People started to look outside of the windows and whoever was in the car got prang and sped off. I ran into Sorcha's house and locked the door.
I switched the living room light on.
Sorcha.
She was sitting down on the sofa in the darkness. She didnt even look at me.
"Ryan," she said.

"Ryans dead."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 56

2010-05-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

I looked at Paula. She was bleeding. Then i looked at Murda and Damon. My stomach started to hurt.
"Wagwun Deena," Murda laughed. Damon nodded at me.
Paula was cryin. "Virgin no more," Damon said. Icey was standing behind them zippin up his jeans.
Imagine all these man in this small flat, naked man and two chicks. I looked to chanels dad, "please let her go, i'll stay, just dont touch her, ill do anythin, i'll leave the money but please just let her go," i said.
Chanels dad looked at me, "why- you know her?".
"Please," i said, "just let her go home, dont touch her, i'll be here."
"We already beat her out," Murda said, "she might as well get lined up now."
"Take the 3grand," i told Murda, "just leave Paula alone please."
Paula wiped her tears.
"Alright fine," Chanels dad said, "we'll let paula go if you suck my dick right now."
I looked at Paula,"not in front of her though."
"She's seen everytin already," Damon said.
"Alright alright," chanels dad said, "get her dressed and take her home, then you man come back here."

Damon looked vex but he didnt say nuttin. Paula got dressed and left the flat with Murda and Damon.
"Time to suck."
I got on my knees, he whippd out his dick.
I slowly put it in my mouth. He cried out. i licked the tip, i pulled it out of my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out, i smacked his thick dick againstmy tongue and looked up at him. all his boys started gettin hype and horny.
one of them got behind me and started feelin my pussy. i was suckin chanels dads dick so hard.

Then another stood in front of me and whipped out his... is that supposed to be a dick. it looked like one of them mini sausages. i put it in my mouth, i tried to suck it but tru say it got lost in my mouth. i wanted to laugh but this guy was some big hench bre. he buss. thank God. "Put her on the bed, her pussy fi dead."

They picked me up and took me into a room.
"Please wear a condom," i said. they laughed. at this point there were 15 man in the room. chanels dad got on top of me and put it in me, it hurt so much. i felt disgusting.
"you need to relax," he said, he slapped my face, "bring in some ganja."
they brought in.
"smoke it."
i put it to my lips and took a puff, i coughed as he started to finger me. his fingers were so coarse, it was a like getting lined up by monsters. their breath smelt of weed, they had bo but they thought that cheap deodorant would mask the smell.
i was just gettin fucked.that was it, i was lyin there just gettin fucked. just gettin beat out. it didnt feel nice or nuthin. it didnt feel good, it hurt. bareback. gettin lined up. i lost count. tears ran down my left eye whenever someone buss in me. i closed my eyes and remembered gettin raped, i just cried, my neck being held on, my face bein slapped. my tits bein sucked by teeth that felt like they were covered in grit.
at that moment i stopped livin and i killed myself, i stopped feeling anything. i felt like my heart had stopped beatin. i looked up at the man fuckin, he looked down at me and said, "you lis dis dick bitch"
then he punched me and when my head spun to the left and fell on the pillow it stayed there, something was bleedin- i didnt know what as i was getting fucked.
I dont even know how many hours this lasted. i just remember bein in the bed and the lights being off and the door being closed.
After an hour I got up slowly and fell back on the bed, i looked down, my pussy was bleeding. I got up really slowly and tried not to cry, it was almost impossible to walk. I walked into the mainroom, it was empty, i looked and saw a black nike bag. i opened it. it was empty. THEY HAD TAKEN MY MONEY.
I started cryin as i put on my dress. i looked outside of the window, it was stil dark, i looked at the time, it was 2in the mornin. my pussy was stingin and bleeding, my mouth was swollen and some of my tracks had fallen out.
I fixed my dress and walked into the bathroom, it was coveredin piss. I cried and stumbled out. I walked out of the house.
They had jacked my phone, my clutch bag. Everythin. the 2 bills i got from the priest gone,but i looked on the floor and saw my card, i picked it up, i looked at it.
I was so shook to leave but i knew i couldnt stay. I walked out of the flat and stumbled out of the estate down the stairs and walked out of it. I cried.

. As i walked the streets, bare cars beeped me, one guy rolled down his windows and told me to get in. I ignored him and just went looking for a pay phone, I was in hackney. i was cryin so hard. i needed to get back to sorcha's. I walked into a taxi cab place and asked for a cab to sorcha's address. I got in the cab with the driver and told him i needed to take money out for him when we got near sorchas house. We were in the cab and i was in the back, the rain hit the window as i cried. We got Sorcha's bits and i saw a cash machine, i told him id be back and walked to the machine. i took out 30 pounds and as i was going to get back into the cab i saw a church.

I walked to the cab and paid him and told him i would walk home. He drove off and i looked at the church. It was an old one and it was open. I limped into it and when i walked in, i realized how quiet it was, it was lit by candles and all the pews were empty and i sat in the last one, i didnt even know wat i was doin. I just bowed my head and prayed, i didnt even know what i was prayin for- i just prayed and then ilooked up.
"Hello,".
It was a priest. "May i sit next to you," he said. I budged up and he sat next to me.
"Whatever pain you're going through won't last forever," he said. I looked up at him and he gasped.
"DEENA!", he said,.
WTF. How did he know me.
"Yeah?", i said.
"Deena, I havent seen you since you used to come in with your grandma, how are you?".
I looked at him and started to recognise him vaguely.
"Deena, whats wrong," he said.
I looked at him and cried, "everythin, everythings a mess, i have noone."

He looked at me and said, "I knew there was a reason I had the idea to leave the church open today,".
I looked at him, "Do you know your mother came to this very church on a night like this when she was about your age,"he said.
His face started to look more familiar, he was my nans priest, i hadnt been church since i was like three or four.
"Ive done so many bad things," i said, "i feel so sick, i feel dead."
He said, "Why do you think God made tommorow, you have another day to make it right,."
I sobbed and bawled, "I have noone, not my mum, not my nan, not my dad."
"What about your older sister- does she keep in touch?".
I looked at him, "I dont have a sister," i said.
He looked bare confused, "Of course you have a sister Deena, do you keep in touch with her?".
I got up, "i dont have a fuckin sister!," i shouted.

"Deena, you do," he said, "I know that because I christened her - you are not your mums only child."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 55

2010-05-13T15:00:00.000-07:00

Rochelle froze.
Sean jumped up and covered himself with duvet, i was on the bed naked. "Please get out," she said calmly, "please just leave."
Sean tried to beg her, but she looked at him and said, "you can forget about that money you wanted, get out."
"My clothes," he said.
Rochelle walked over to abig black nike bag and threw it out of her window. "Fetch," she said. He ran out of the room. Then she looked at me, i was naked on the bed. i got up and started to put my clothes on.
"You bitch," she said gently, "After everything."
"Come on Rochelle you know tings go on, any smart sket knows never to leave a sket alone with her man."

She looked at me in horror. "God Bless you Deena," she said as i did my bra.
I looked at her confused, "HELLO! i just fucked ur man."

"You're addicted to fuckin shit up for yourself," she said, "you're so used to negative shit that u create it for yourself, i dont care about him, he was only a bit of fun."
I looked at her and got vex, she wasnt takin me seriously , "Your clothes stank anyway," i said.
She nodded and said, "Thankyou,"
I walked to her face and said, "I know you got fucked by a dog." Why werent she reactin. She looked at me and said calmly, "God bless you."
I went to slap her but she grabbed my hand and said, "hit on a bitch who you know can't fuck u up,".
I pushed past her and ran down the stairs with my bag. I kissed my teeth and walked to the station. I was so vex.
I was so vex as i got on the train, i didnt even know why, it was somethin about the way rochelle reacted, like she didnt care.
I didnt even know why i was vex, i was angry and upset all at the same time. I got off the train and changed to the one that went to Sorcha's and when i got there I called Chanel to tell her i was on this ting tonight.
She told me to walk up to the guy in blue shirt and the timbaland boots and that as soon as she could confirm i had done it, she'd send 300 to my account that same night and the rest in small installments so the bank wouldnt get suspicious.
I walked to Sorchas house. When she opened the door, i dropped my bags and we hugged so hard.
I walked in and we were both cryin.
We sat in the front room, "my mums gone to see him now," she said, "theyve removed part of the knife from him,"
I started cryin, "Sorcha, if i tell u this u cant tell anyone," i said.
She looked at me, she looked so tired, oh shit i forgot all about the madness with diane.
"What is it," she said.
"Murda and Damon have been linkin Paula and they're gonna make her do a 50 man lineup,".
She gasped, "wait, who's Paula," she said.
"Ryans sister," i said.
"likkle Paula," she said. she got up and turned to me, "how do u know dis?".
Oh shit, how could i tell her that i had gone to murda to shot for him after what happened with him, diane and sorcha.
"They kidnapped me," i said, "as revenge for bein with ryan and thats when i saw her, she erm- shes scared Sorcha."
She looked at me, "murda is a prick," she started cryin.
"Do the feds know who might have shanked Ryan," i asked.

"All they know is that he was supposed to meet someone in Camberwell and then one guy in a balaclava walked up to him and stabbed him so hard that the handle fell off and the blade-", she started bawlin, "the blade is still in him."
I wanted to vomit, but i farted.
She looked at me and said, "whats wrong with u- what the fuck is wrong with your fuckin stomach, what do u eat?".

"I dont know," i said, "its a problem."
"Well fuckin sort it out, cos we were talkin about suttin serious and it just killed the whole vibe."
I looked down, "Sorcha- can i stay here," i said.
"Yeah yeah sure," she said. I wanted to tell her so bad that I knew who stabbed Ryan but i didnt want to get in any shit, all i wanted was the grand from Chanel and then i could think about where to move, where to go.
I looked at her and said, "Sorcha, so much shits been goin wiv me, so much nastiness, ive missed u so much."
She hugged me and kissed me on the lips. I went to lips her but she pulled away, "not now deena, i have to take a shit." She went upstairs. When i was sure she was gone, i let out some more farts, it stank of old eggs. I fanned my ass to woft the scent away and sat down. I was so worried about my boo, smurkz was such a prick, shankin Ryan. But i didnt even care, once i had the grand from Chanel, i was leavin, i was gonna move somewhere far, i know it was mad- but i was thinkin of Spain, not with aunt mable cos i know she wanted to fuck me up, but i met some man out there who were on me, i could move in with them, i just had to get away before any more shit kicked off.

Sorcha came back down.
"Babes, im going out tonight," i said.
"where to," she asked.
"To see one of my uncles, ill be back here tommorw," i said.
She nodded, she had been cryin, "im gonna see ryan at the hospital now, erm, i dont when ill be back, why dont u come wiv me," she asked.

"I cant see him like dat, seein him lyin dere would make me go mad for whoever did that to him, i swear if i knew who did," i said.

"You know the worst ting is dat ryan had so many people after him, itd be so hard to find out who it was," she said lookin at me.
She put on her makeup and left wearin a black and white cheque shirt tucked into high waisted true religions and black boots. she looked a mess but she was still nang though. her hair was black again and her make up was on point.
She left her house and gave me a spare key.i went up to her room and slept in her bed. I put my alarm on for 7pm and got up. I showered, took a shit and shaved my pussy and armpit hair. I brushed my hair and put in some clip ins in the back, it was chocolate brown to match my hair color. I only put in about 5 tracks and then curled my entire hair and brushed it to give it loose waves. I beat my face with hot pink nude lipstick, smokey eyed ting, mascara and tinted my eyebrows with my brown pencil and then opened Sorcha's bathroom draw and found dark green contacts. I put them in. I had to look as nang as possible for this guy i was gonna beat tonight, 1 grand.
I wasnt gonna wear a bra but i did put on my hello kitty knickers and this dress http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bodycon-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=837565&cid=8857&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black
And these shoes
http://www.asos.com/Karen-Millen/Karen-Millen-Extravagant-Frill-Satin-Court-Shoe/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1155182&cid=6461&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black%2fMulti

I called a cab to take me to Guvnor Bar and whilst in it, i told Chanel i was on my way there. I was so nervous. I had two doms in my clutch bag and was startin to wonder what this guy was, like who he was.
When i got to the bar, there were so many Affs there. I got out of the cab and every man was watchin me, i saw a few girls givin me dirty looks, but i didnt care, i walked in and looked for the guy. Blue shirt and timbalands.

"Sorry can i buy you a drink."
I looked and saw one bashy look alike. He was holding a cup of Dissarano. "Im good thanks," i said.
I sat at the bar. It was so noisy and crowded, so many man watching me. The guy at the bar asked what i wanted to drink and i asked for some hennessey. He laughed and got it for me and said, "you dont have to pay for that,".
"I dont?", i asked, "why?".
"Because the man over there says u can have anytin u want."
I looked over and some guy in a blue shirt and timbs was nodding at me. I smiled and took my drink and myself over to him.
He looked yardie.
"Deena?", he asked.
"Yeah hi," i said.
He was Jamaican, looked about 40, looked like beenie man and movado put together with long dreads.
He bit his fist in his mouth and said, "u a sexy motherfucker."
I giggled.
"Chanel tell u what i want?", he asked.
"She didnt say exactly, but i have an idea." I giggled, but i was fuckin nervous. He whispered in my ear, "suck my dick nice and ill give u 3 grand on top of the one."
I got wet immediately.
"Lets go," he said.
"Where too?",i asked.
"My flat, got a nice place."
I giggled as we left and got into his car. Mercs.
As he was drivin, he kept lookin at me.
"How old are you," he asked.
"18,"
"You know who I am," he asked.
I suddenly got scared and looked at him, "Im Chanels dad."

I started to feel sick and i didnt know why, "she tells me the man dem love you."
"They do," i said tryin not to sound prang.
"You're not goin to fuck me tonight," he said, "ur goin to fuck some of my friends."
"What."
"Im going to pay u 3 grand to take care of some of my dawgs," he said.
I wanted to cry but i held it in, "how many?". i asked.

"3 grands wort," he said.
This guy looked too young to be Chanels dad, "you look so young to be chanels dad," i said.
"thats because i'm not, my mudda adopted her and when she died, i had to look after her,"he said.
"Chanels adopted," i asked.
"Enough about dat," he said, "how good is ur dick suckin."
We got to a traffic light, "its the best," i said.
"Good," he said, "cos ur gonna suck off 30 yardies."

"I cant do that," i said, "its too much."
Then he pressed a button and the cars door lucked. I gulped.
"Its 3 grand Deena," he said. "Here's what we're going to do, all da money is in a bag in the boot, we can go to your house right now and leave the money there so uno its yours and den we go and do it."

"I cant," i said, "i have nowhere to stay."
"Alright," he said, "then gimme ur account number and ill send in installments."
I nodded. I was so scared.
We got to some estate in and we got out of the car. He put his arms around my waist and squeezed my backoff as we were in the lift. We got to the flat and he knocked on the door.
The door opened. the scent of dro hit me so hard. He kissed my cheek and pushed me in gently. there were about 40 man sittin around the flat just bunnin with one hand in their boxers.
They saw me and started sweatin.
"dis our new bitch," chanels dad said, "courtesy of Chanel."
All the men laughed as Chanels dad slapped me. I fell to the floor.
"Dont worry bitch," he said, "ull get ur tree grand, but for dat much money we got to do whatever we like."
They tore off my dress.
"Please were a condom," i said.
"there arent enough," one of the other yardies laughed.
"only pussy os use de rubber," another one of them said.
i was on the floor naked.
"where she from," another one asked.
"half bajan, half turkish," chanels said.
"iranian," i said.
he kicked my ass, "dont matter, by the time u finished, the only ting that will b inside of u is pure jamaican."
I Got up and kissed chanels dad. he started swallowing my mouth so rougly. then he pushed me to one of his boys who grabbed my pussy bare hard. And then all of a sudden, one door opened.
"AH ITS DE YOUNGER ONE!", Chanels dad said. I looked.

Omfg. She walked out cryin and she was naked.
"Deena, say hello to Paula."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 54

2010-05-13T04:59:00.000-07:00

He gave me a blank stare like say I had told him I was leavin him for Mr. Wong.
"Why the fuck did Ryan call you 25 times on the same day i was with you, the day you banged me up," i said.

"Who's Ryan?", he asked.
OH NO NO NO. Dont try that dumb shit with me. "Dont play dumb," i said, "u asked about him just like ten minutes ago and now u actin like u dont know he is,".
He gave me a blank stare. I kissed my teeth and dialled Ryans number.

It rang.
"Hello Kings College Hospital?". I put the phone down.
"You!", i said, "UR THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM I WAS WITH U- it wasnt sorcha." I jumped up.
He tried to hug me, i pushed him back. "I did it for u, i wanted u to come back to me."

"He BEAT me up," i screamed, "after you BEAT me up, i was beat up twice in the same day because of you, fucked up twice in the same day, do I LOOK LIKE kat stacks pussy!".
He tried to hug me and then he said, "where u goin- ryans gone, u cant go back to him."

Then i froze and walked back and shook my head, "it was u," i whispered, "you got him shanked."
He looked at me, "nah nah it wasnt me, nah nah."
"YOU LIAR!", i screamed. "You mustve set him up, cos ur too much of a pussy to do it yourself."

Then Adam picked up a lamp and threw it to the wall, "HES A FUCKIN BATTY BOY WHO WANTED TO LINK MAN SO YEAH I SET HIM UP- FOR ONE OF YOUR OTHER MAN TO GET HIM!".

I screamed, ryan! my baby. I was goin mad. i couldnt close my eyes, i was so- feeling so many tings. "You prick, ryan would never try and be with you, he's not a bats."

"He's THE ONE who set me up, remember that night i went to go pick up my boys from south wiv you, he paid my boys to set me up to get jacked,"

"Why would he do dat?!".

"Because he knew that would be the way to get u back," he shouted, "he knew ud be shook to be in souf alone and that ud call him, den when u came back to me, he found me on facebook and started chattin shit to me, den he tried move to man, fuckin shirt lifter, he tried move to man like say mans even on dick so i set him up, cos he dont deserve you."

I felt sick. I ran down the stairs and started to put on my clothes.
"It was Smurkz!", Adam shouted, "Smurkz shanked him." Adam ran down the stairs to stop me from going. I punced him, he grabbed my arms, "I dont know what Ryan did to him, but Smurkz wanted him dead, yeah i set him up, but i did it for you." I slapped him and ran out of the bed.
I got to the end of the road cryin. I called Sorcha.
"Im coming to ur yard now," i said.

I caught the bus to the trainstation and was gonna go to Sorcha's straight away but i remembered i had rochelles clothes on and wanted to change back into mine, so i called her to say i was gonna go over to see her. On the train, i just looked at the map, i didnt wanna think about any of this shit. I felt sick, it was all too much, i was- i couldnt breathe, the train was gettin too crowded, i had my suitcase with me. I started breathing slowly, the man next to me asked me if i was ok and i said i was, but i wasnt.
I just closed my eyes. Some guy tried to chirpse me but i ignored him. I inhaled and just waited for my stop. I got to Chalk Farm station and walked to Rochelles house.
I wasnt gonna tell her about anyfin, i was just gonna say that my mum and me were cool again like i did before.

I walked to her house and knocked on the door. The door opened, it was some scruffy looking gunger, "Is Rochelle here please?".

"Yeah yeha upstairs," he said. I smiled at him and walked up and knocked on Rochelle's bedroom door. She opened it, wearing some sexy frenchies. I kissed her on the cheek. "You ok," she said. I nodded.
"Im here to give you your clothes back and to thank u for last night, i dont know what i would have done," i said.
"Its ok," she said, "my doors always open for you anyway, i know how mad tings can get."

"Can i get changed in your bathroom?", i askd.
"Oh my boyfriend is in there, you can get changed in here though,, i'm going now anyway, doing a course at the Open University, if you're gone by the time i get back, ill call u.." I hugged her, She put on a long flowery dress, some bangles and brushed her pocohantas style hair, then left.
When she left i got naked and started cryin, all this mess, my mum, ryan, adam, murda, that woman, icey, paula, all this shit i was involved in. I was naked when the door was pushed open.
"OH SHIT!", I screamed. I covered myself with hands as some man walked in.
Tall cooly ting. He looked about 510, sick shape up, nice hair, big hands, he looked like an athlete.
"Oh shit im sorry, who are you?", he asked as I tried to cover my body.
"Deena, im rochelles friend, didnt she tellyou id be in here, who are you?".

"I'm her boyfriend," he said, "Sean."
I glanced at his body in the towel. I saw his dick getting hard. I dont even know why i did this. I stood in front of him naked. "Rochelles gone to work," i said.
"Has she," he said. He looked about 19, a year older than me.
He closed the door and locked it.
"Rochelle never told me she had a friend called Deena," he said.
"We met recently," i said.
"You're quite boom," he said, "you look like a mixrace Mercedes from hollyoaks or that ting that ray j beat."

I wasted no time. I walkedover to him and licked his lips.
He dropped his towel. WHOAH! Oh my Lexington steele! I started singing Ludacris fantasy in my head.
I grabbed his neck and we started lipsin, i started rubbin up against his dick. He pushed me on the bed and spread open my legs and looked at my pussy.
"Bareback?", i asked.
"Rochelle always makes me use a rubber." he said.
"Rochelle's no fun," i said.
He rubbed his dick against my clit to get me wet and believe me it was workin, i couldnt close my eyes cos of the image i kept seein of the insects eating the womans face, the woman who murda and damon made icey rape.

"You're so sexy," he said. he had a coarse voice, he sounded like wiley, that kind of road cockney voice thing. He slowly put his dick in me. AHHHHH. ITS TOO BIG. PULL IT OUT. He laughed as he shoved it in, i lost my breath. it was tearin me out, it was so big, pleasepull it out.
But then it tickled me, then i shut my mouth and lipsed him. He was grindin in me, kissin my neck, suckin my tits as his dick was beatin me out. it kind of hurt but the feeling of the thickness was to nang for me too complain. He smiled as i groaned and moaned, it was one of dem rough beats, i looked down at the dick, i couldnt believe it was able to fit in me.
Take it take it love me love me. This cock was givin me the business, i think it was the element of suprise that was makin it feel so nice. i spanked him, "is that all uve got u pussy, fuck me like a man."
He got vex and started fuckin me harder, i laughed so loud as he grabbed my neck and started gruntin as his ginomours piece impaled my smoking cunt.

He was so leng! bangin me out, it wasnt as good as adam or smurkz or even ryan for that matter but it-

"Oh Deena i forgot to take your mums adress,".

"ROCHELLE!".

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 53

2010-05-12T10:57:00.000-07:00

"Chanel."
I let her in. She walked in.
"Deena you look fucked," she said.
"Chanel, how- did you find i was here," i said.
"This is your mans house," she said, "ryan innit."
I looked down and started cryin, "he's been shanked." i said.
She looked at me bare horrified, "Deena im so sorry, i didnt even know erm, its ok ill go."

"No no," i said, "what did u want."
"Ive got a job for you, 8 bills,"she said.
I was so confused, everyfin about ryan was makin me sad, i didnt want rochelle to worry as well.
"Chanel- I'm not on this ting anymore, its over, im not on any of this hype," i said.

"Deena, its one ting, and 8 bills," she said, "but ud have to fix up quick though, as in your look."

"What is it." i said.

"You ever heard of Guvnor bar," she asked.
"No." i said.

"E-16," she said.
My phone rang, it was Rochelle. I answered it and said, "Rochelle im just in the cab now, ill be back soon," then i put the phone down.
I looked at Chanel, "what do i have to do," i asked.

"Some guy saw your picture on facebook, and he has somethin i want and so he said that if can get u to fuck him, he'd give it to me for free, i'd give 8 bills and he'd give u 2."

"A GRAND!", i asked, " agrand to fuck?!".
"Yeah, its nang isnt it, ud get a grand to fuck some guy, tonight."
I suddenly thought about Rochelle, "i cant," i said, "im meant to be somewhere."

"Are you dum babes,ur gonna get a grand to fuck," she said.
"Alright."
I called Rochelle, "rochelle... hi... i saw my mum.... yeah yeah we're gonna sort things out.... but ill come see u tommorow.... yeah yeha im sure... no no im fine...yeah? no no i swear im ok we're gonna sort things out.... ill give u a call later on tommorow so i can come and see you... ok bye...loveyou too."

"So you on dis ting yeah," Chanel asked.
"I have to go and see my man in hospital," i said.
"Go tommorow," she said, "you need to get ready, ill send u the adress of the club and make sure you're there by 9."
Then she left.
This was so fucked up, i didnt wanna lie to rochelle but a grand to beat some guy, i couldnt turn that down, and ryan- i was shook for myself, i just wanted to know who shanked him.
I needed somewhere to go now, i couldnt stay here, it was too moist, i coudlnt go to sorcha, i didnt trust her, so I knew what i had to do.

"Hello Adam It's Deena."

I was at his house within the hour.
I got there and he opened the door. He loked at me for so long and said, "sorry."
I walked into the house and sat on the sofa, i hadnt beenhere in time, not since he fucked me up.
"Deena, i said im sorry," he said.
"Wheres Marlon," i asked.
"He's gone Brazil with his baby mum- Deena what happened to your eye."
"You did," i said, it was lyin- it was from Ryan.
Adam started cryin. He was so hench, i swear down he looked like could easily have been 6'5.
"Deena im so sorry," he said, "i was goin thru a lot, id never hurt u again."

I got up and kissed his lips. "I need to stay here," i said, "can i stay here." I slowly stroked his dick. "Of course," he said wiping his eyes, "are you still with that guy."

"Who ryan," i asked. He nodded.
"He's an ex ting, " i said. "I need to take a shower," i said, "come we take on together."
I got in the shower with him, scrubbin ourselves down, he cleaned my pussy, I cleaned his dick, as we showered i hugged him, he hand his hands all over me rubbin his dick against my thigh.
"i love u," he said. fuckin pussy. who knew that he was whipped?
"Deena i shouldnt have hit u," he said, "man was aprick."
I kissed him, "im here now innit, its forgotten."

We got out of the shower and he dried me with his towel and kissed me on my lips.
He creamed me with cocoa butter and paid extra attention to my pussy, rubbin the cream all over it, shit- i needed to get a wax, i could feel some hair growin again down there.
He kissed my neck and his dick started to get hard. He ran his fingers through my hair. I felt so clean, last night had been a madness, everytin had been a madness, everytime i closed my eyes i saw that womans face being eaten alive by worms or sometimes i saw myself getting raped by animals. so i didnt close my eyes and just looked at adams body.

I was suddenly bare shook, so i held onto him so tight as i pushed him on the bed. this guy was a fuckin giant. I licked his dick up and down. he groaned. i remembered i had two bills and that priests card in my pocket. I sucked adams dick, lickin the balls and usin bare saliva to moist up the dick. i deepthroated him, he groaned, "i fuckin love u!", he shouted out.
my pussy was gettin so wet, actually- when was the last time i fucked, i was so horny, i couldnt close my eyes or id keep seein that womans bein eatin by insects.
i wanted to cry. i blocked the image out of my head as adam sat up.

i needed to ride the dick. i stood over him and started playin with my pussy, i needed it to get wet but i couldnt get really horny, even with the giant dick beneath me callin my cunt to sit on it. I slowly sat on it. i started to ride it, the dick felt nice but in my head i couldnt stop seein the woman. I kept my eyes open wide so i couldnt close them, i rode his dick as he squeezed my tits.

I rode his dick so hard, i rode it slow but hard, like i clenched my pussy so hard so his dick felt the tightness. i had to fart so bad, but that would mean farting on his balls and that was dirty so i held it in and rode his dick whilst bangin on his chest. he was in the fuckin zone, his eyes were closed, i wish i could close mine.

He started grindin up, like arched his back up so his dick was deeper in me, i felt like i was on a mechanical bull, that how hench he was, his dick was so hard, his balls were so fat, the sound of my wet pussy eating his dick was sendin me to space. I started to feel lightheaded, the dick was sendin me insane. i could feel it all in me. i was pantin, my chest was beatin so hard, you know that feeling u get when ur face gets so hot.
He was grindin me. i was grindin him. i wanted him on top.
i got off the dick and lay on the bed. he got on top, he spread my legs and licked my pussy.
He slowly put his dick in me. AAAHH, "nah nah wait," i said, "its not in properly."
he took it out and put it in again, i wanted to thank his mum for the size of his piece, or whoever it was that gave it to him.
he started bangin me slowly, he was pantin, i was pantin, i kissed his licks and was scratching his back.
"Fuck me," i whispred, "my pussys all for you."
he started gettin rougher with me, i got ligheaded again and then i couldnt remember anythin.

I woke up and he was eating my pussy. I came in his mouth.
He looked at me, my juices runnin down his mouth. "im gonna brush my teeth,". He left the room.
i was lyin in the bed, legs spread, nipples hard, i was playin with mypussy. I turned and saw his phone, i wanted to take some pictures of myself for him, i picked up the phone and went to go to camera but then i thought, "lemme check this guys call list."
Then i did.
He came back to the room.

I looked at him
I asked him this question,

"Why the fuck have u got 25 calls from Ryan?".

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 52

2010-05-10T11:54:00.000-07:00

I held back my tears as I read the text. I put my phone off. I didnt wanna believe it. I just walked in the rain.
And then i stopped and put my phone back on and started cryin, it was rainin so hard as my phone rang. I was drenched and freezing.
I picked up the phone, "Sorcha."
"Deena," she was cryin, "where are you?".
"What happened," i asked. i was havin to shout, the wind was so loud, my hair was a mess, my make up was fucked, i felt so sick.
"Ryan's got bawed up," she sobbed, "my mums gone to the hopsital with his dad, deena come and be with me."

I held back my tears, "no," i said, "im not goin back to souf,".
"ok,ok," she cried, "but why not," she asked.
Even though damon and that lot were east man i didnt wanna be anywhere bait, i needed to be far away.
"Where's Ryan," i asked, "which hospital?".
"Kings," she sobbed and then she started cryin so loud, "he's gonna die."

I had never heard her cry so hard.
"Deena, why wont u comebe with me," she asked.
I was startin to shiver so hard, "sorcha, im not comin back to-"
then the line cut. the wind blew the phone out of my hand. it fell on the floor and i picked it up. I wasnt thinkin straight.

I took out Rochelle's adress, i ran into a phone booth and found a phone number for a cab. I called it.
I waited in the phone booth for it to come and when I saw it, i ran in. I gave the cab lady the adress.
West was so far, when the cab got to rochelles address, the fare was 50 pounds. It was an adress in Camden, this werent west, it was north west but it was just near baker street, like in between baker street and camden.
I got out of the cab and called her.
"Rochelle,im outside,".
I looked up at the big house and saw her from the window, she opened it and ran down. She opened the door. She looked at me and gasped.
"Babes come in."
She pulled me in and hugged me and closed the door.
"Deena," she said, "what happened."
She was in a nightgown. "Come upstairs," she said.

The way the house was, it was like there 3 floors and i think each person rented their own floor. Rochelle pulled me upstairs onto her floor. it had its own bathroom, toilet and bedroom, i think she shared a kitchen though.

She pulled me into the bathroom and dried me down with a towel. I was sobbing, she kept saying, "its gonna be ok, whatever it is."
Then she hugged me.
I sobbed so hard as i sat on the edge of the bath.
"Deena, what happened."
"Can i take a shower please,".
"Yeah yeah, ok use one of the blue towels, ill be in the room."

I got into the shower and cried. it felt so nice. it was so clean. You should have seen the amount of dirt that came off my body. My hair was so fucked, it was like bare frizzy. I got out of the shower, dried myself with the towel and walked to rochelles room.
"You ok?", she asked.
I nodded.
"Wear these pyjamas," she said. I got dresed in front of her. we both sat on the bed, it was so warm.
I told her everythin, except about Paula.
"A priest?", she asked.
I nodded, "and he tried to rape you?", she asked.
I nodded, "so i fucked him up," i said.

"Serves him right," she said, "why is a priesttrying to pay for sex."
She looked at me. "Rochelle, im tired of it all,".
She nodded, "I want to get away."
She looked horrified but not shocked when i told her about Damon, Icey and the rape and the initiation.

"I swear Deena," she said, "i know you're sad that ryans been stabbed, but hes just like these man who kidnap a woman and make a yout rape her to initiate him,."

She was wrong. Ryan wasnt like dem. "Deena, running away isnt the answer," she said, "i tried it, but until you sort out whats inside of you it dont matter where you go, you'll still be troubled,".

"But Rochelle," i said, "its too much, all this hype or this shit, i dont know what i would have done if i didnt have you adress, i would have done suttin stupid."
Then i started cryin.
She hugged me. I felt so safe. It was like bein held by my older sister.
"Dont worry about michelle," she said, "ill find another way to see her, just think about u."

I wasnt thinkin about michelle anyway.
"I need to go and see Ryan," i said.
"For what?!," she said, "Deena, this is your chance to move on, dont forget that ryan is the reason YOU were in hospital once, you had a miscarriage because he fucked u up, i lost a baby too uno."

I looked at her.
"I was pregnant, i didnt even know who the father was, i didnt even know i was pregnant and erm i was in dis club in central and the older sister of some guy that in the gang that raped me saw me there and fucked me up, i lost the baby and i cry it for bare, i never stop missin it, and it wasnt- it wasnt that long after i lost my mum," she said, she started cryin, she quickly wiped her tears.

"You're a fool if you still wanna be with him," she said, "you're a fool if you think he'll change, because like i told you, if a bredda hits you once, he'll hit u again, whats so attractive about him, does his sweet boy flex cancel out all the timeshes made u cry," she said.
I looked at her and said, "but he loves me."

"Deena, Ryan doesnt know how to love, none of the men in that family do, they're all sick men, ryans dad, my step dad, they're all the same, Ryans a road man pure and simple, dont forget that he used to be tight bredrins wiv the man who just raped an innocent woman in front of your own eyes, ill tell you this Deena, if you dont leave this lifestyle, it will kill you, too many mandem and chicks today cant see the bigger picture, it aint even about education, its about life, whats fulfillin about this lifestyle, always scared, the money aint worth it cos no sooner than the feds nab you its all gone, none of it is worth it, i was raped, punched, assualted so many times because of these road man that everyone's so hot for," she said.

I looked down, her room was so warm. her curtains were closed, "They looknang now Deena," she said, "they look nang now when they're makin that big p, when they're in their big whips and they're big on road but what happens in 20 years time, and thats if they're lucky, look at you- you're one of the most beautiful people ive ever seen and look at you, youve been fucked up so many times your eyes are dead, all for what- what has any of this, what have dese man ever done for you, look what you've lost deena- your friend, you cant even walk around without being shook someones gonna get u, what for Deena."

She looked at me and shook her head, "I see myself so much in you, i thought i was a big girl, rollin with all these man, uno how many people were shook of me and my girl sherice cos of who we knew, and now guess what,all them girls who were shook of me are in uni, they're doin productive things with their lives, i saw one girl i fucked up in year 10 today and when she saw me she was so nice even though I used to bully her and she's in uni and workin part time, yeah tru say im out of trouble but look at me, the only fing i have are gcses deena, thats it and i even fucked them up- too busy watchin man, too busy worryin about the rave next friday or what so and so said on facebook or what so and so said about me, none of that matters when you look back at it, where does it get you, where did it get me."

I tried my best to hold back my tears, "what am i gonna do," i cried.
"You're gonna free yourself" she said, "you're gonna love yourself enough to know that yeah you've made mistakes but you're young Deena, you're 18, how long do u wanna live for, if you aint plannin on dyin tommorow then you better stop feeling sorry for yourself and get it together."

I cried and put my head on her shoulder, she held me so tight, "I aint got noone," i said.
"Yes you do," she said, "you've got yourself, thats all you need, your bredrins have their own path to lead, theyve got their own lives, live for you Deena, dont watch what other people are doin, live for you, look what tryin to impress people did to both me and you, i would still have my mum if i didnt get involved with her-".
Then she kept quiet.
"I need to leave London," i said, "can you help me?".
She looked at me, "I'll help you, if you're willing to help yourself, you can never see Ryan, or Sorcha again, they're bad mind,"
I had never felt so safe, it was so warm in her room.

"Deena, these man on road dont care about anyfin," she said to me gently, "they will kill you, they dont feel anyway because they're animals, you see the man who have morals, the man who have sense, them man like Wiley, SB, The SN1 man, Bashy, Noel Clarke, Chipmunk, Tinchy, man like that, they are the ones who you need to be following if you're gonna follow man, you wont see them on road cos they know the only place the road takes you is to another road until that road takes you to pen or the cemetery, you seen that documentary on itv about wormwood scrubs, these are disturbed men, they started out like ryan, smurkz and fumez, they think they're bad, they think they're the shit, but they dont realize that they're wasting their lives, the worst thing is that some of them have youts, and i was one of them dumb girls who fucked them or almost had a baby, and even though i miss my baby, i know God made it so i didnt have it, Deena listen to me, there's a war and these man on road are going to lose, and the smart breddas, the ones with dreams and morals and hardwork are goin to win, these man who are so fucked in the head that they can stab people are the biggest pussies, they're animals, not even most anims kill their own kind, who the fuck kills their own kind,a lot of these man dont know how to cope with life, like they're just born, fed and thats it, they dont get any trainin and so thats how they do all these tings, they need help."

She hugged me.
"Im scared," i said.
"Alright," she said, "tommorow you're gonna go to wherever your clothes are and bring them here and then we'll sort something out,". I nodded, "when you go, you'll get a cab, you'll go straight there and come straight back, thats it."
I nodded.
"You hungry?", she asked.
I nodded, "you want some ackee and saltfish."
"You made it?", i asked.
"Deena, not to be rude, but once you taste my cookin, you'll wanna slap your nan."
We both started creasin.
We ate and then we watched Paid In Full. It was like sittin with someone id known all my life.
We went to bed.
The next morning, me and rochelle woke up and had breakfast. She let me borrow her clothes. I was rockin a baggy navy blue star in the hood jumper, black tights and white airforces.
"Get your stuff and come right back," she said, "dont go anywhere else, dont speak to noone,".

She called me a cab.
I got in it bare shook. It was around 9.30, the traffic wasnt bad. all my shit was at ryans house. I told rochelle it was at mine but if i did, she'd say i couldnt go, but i needed my stuff.
I got to Ryans house and unlocked the door with the key I had.
I walked up to the room and quickly packed my clothes in my LV suitcase. I called Rochelle and told her i was at my yard so she wouldnt worry and she told me to call a cab ten minutes before i was ready to come back so i didnt have to wait too long alone.
I walked around the house after packin and sat in the kitchen and poured myself some orange juice.
The door bell rang. Shit.
Omfg, what was i gonna do, who the fuck was it. oh my fuckin gosh, what if it was whoever shanked Ryan.
I walked to the door slowly and opened it.

"Guess who, bitch."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 51

2010-05-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

She looked at me.
"Oi Deena, stop looking at her," Damon shouted. I started cryin as I realized it wasnt Sandra, it was a woman that looked like her but still it didnt matter. it was sick.
Icey was up against a wall sobbing as Murda was kicking the womans face.
"No," i screamed.
I pushed Murda away and shielded the woman with my own body. "Stop,"i screamed. the woman was wailing a sobbing, she was someones mum, i could tell.
"Deena move," Damon said.
"No," i said, "please, let her go."
Damon kicked me in the head. I fell to the floor.
"Take her home bruv," Murda said.
I looked at the woman, she clung to me as Damon pulled me away. Icey was up against the wall cryin tryin not to look at the woman.
I felt sick. It was like i was dreamin.
Damon dragged me out and pulled me all the way down to the car.
We both sat inside and i cried.
"Damon, i dont wanna be involved in any of this,i wont say anythin about this, please just let me go,"

He looked at me, I was crying so hard, i was starting to have a panic attack, i felt lightheaded and i felt like i wasnt there and i was trembling so hard.
Damon pulled a bottle of Evian from the back of the car and gave it to me,it was brand new, "drink it slow," he said.
I opened it shaking and sipped it.
I sipped it slowly and was starting to feel better.
"Deena, if you tell anybody about this," he said.
I looked at him, "please, i wont, i just wont- i beg u let me go,."

"What do you mean, let you go?", he asked,
"I dont wanna be involved with any of this now," i said, "i just wanna go home."

"Deena, if you tell anybody about this, ryan will be the least of your problems."
His voice was so scary, i was so prang, all i could think about was the woman, it wsnt sandra but she looked so much like her, and Icey, that poor bre. he didnt even know what he was doin.
I looked at damon,"damon- i swear to you," she said, "please, i wont say shit, uve been so cool to me, i just- i dont wanna see anymore of dis and fuck anythin up for you or Murda, im a pussy."
He looked at me and said, "get out of the fuckin car then innit."
"what."
He kicked me out of the car, i fell on the floor. I didnt waste anytime, i stumbled to my feet and walked away bare fast, ill never forget that image of myself walkin away, blood runnin down my lip sobbing, nowhere to go,someone as peng as me goin thru all this.

I had nowhere to go. I really had nowhere.
People drivin past where lookin at me like i was mad, i had bare money in my account so i knew what i was gonna do.
My phone was ringin, i looked down. It was Sorcha, i ignored it, it was so mad, but i knew what i had to do, then all of a sudden i felt sick. I ran into some alleyway and vomited on the wall, two girls looked at me and started laughin and walked on. I felt so sick. I was in east somewhere, i was on a high street, I looked and saw the road name and called a cab. I wasnt even thinkin straight, i didnt even know what i was gonna do.
I told the cab to wait outside the mcdonalds and when i thought i saw it, i ran to the car and got in.
"Cab for a Deena," the indian guy said.
"Yeah yeah," i said nervously. It mustve been 11 by now.
"where to," he asked.
"Hendon."

Whilst i was in the cab, i was so scared, what the fuck was i doin, where else i could i go tho. I knew what i was gonna do, i was- i felt so sick, oh shit, sorry stop the cab.
I Cant.
stop the cab. Please.
I cant.
I vomited all over the seats.
"OH WHAT THE FUCK YOU DO!".
"I TOLD YOU STOP THE FUCKIN CAR," i shouted. I started cryin, the image of that woman and icey made me sick.
The cab driver was gettin so vex, he was cussin me. I was havin a panic attack again.
"You stoopid beetch," he shouted when the vomit started to smell.
I didnt say anythin, he stopped the car at a gas station and said, "ill charge u for this, ill charge u to clean this."
He got out of the car and ran into the shop to get tissues. I kissed my teeth and jumped out of the car and ran out. He saw me from inside the shop and tried to chase after me, he threw his shoe at me as i ran.
I was so desperate now, i didnt know what i was gonna do, i had ran fast enough, like ten minutes away from the cab driver.
I was pantin so hard, i was sweatin. I felt so sick, my breath smelt of vomit. I walked into a shop and bought some mint chewing gum, i know i looked so frass, like i could smell my own pussy, i know i looked sick.
I paid for the gum and walked out and then i walked into some park. It was 11, and dark, it was so dark and i felt sick.
I wanted to die, why was all this happenin to me, all this shit, what for, i sat on the park bench lookin into the black sky. Then i realized, Natalie.

All dis started from when i fucked ryan and fumes after they raped her, if i didnt do that, i would have never had met ryan or fumez and then i wouldnt have seen sorcha again that time at fumez yard and id still be in college and still be besties with natalie.
As i was thinking, some old white man came and sat next to me. It was dark, but i could see that he looked like one of them man who spent all day in the pub, he looked like the man from the royle family just bald and a bit chubbier.

"You alright love," he asked.
I looked at him, "yeah," i said. I wiped my eyes.
"You dont look it," he said. He gave me a tissue. I wiped my eyes with it, blew my nose with it and gave it back to him, he put it in his pocket.

"Boyfriend troubles?", he asked, he had a really husky voice, like had a problem with his throat. he smelt of beer and cigarettes and a bit of piss, you know the smell that tramps have. He was wearin a navy bomber jacket and dark jeans and some white dirty nike trainers.

"You're a very beautiful girl," he said, "anyone ever told u that."
I looked at him, he looked at my tits, "im not interested," i said.
He looked at my lips and said, "please,".
"Please what."
Then he kissed me. I pushed him away. He pulled out his wallet.
"Please," he started beggin. he was so pathetic, imagine- old man beggin me for sex.
he was breathin so hard,he stank of piss. he looked like one of them paedophiles you see on crime watch.

I looked at wallet,he pulled out 20 pounds.
I got up and went to leave, "please," he said beggin, "please."
I turned around, he had 200 in his hands. I looked at him.
I walked to him, "is there a toilet near here," i asked.
"Yes," he said, "there is".
I kissed him on the lips as it started to rain, he took my hand led me into the toilets.
We walked into the cubicle and he locked the door. I was up against the cubicle wall as he took of his jacket, he was wearin one of them thing priests wear.
"you're a priest?", i asked.
He didnt say anythin and squeezed my tits.
"get em out," he said.
"wait," i said gently startin touch my pussy, "gimme the money first."
He was so desperate he gave me the 200 and i put it in my pocket. "u got anymore," i asked.
"here's my card," he said, "when we're done, we'll go and take more out."
He gave me his debit card. "eat my pussy," i said.
He got on his knees, i looked at him as he was on his knees trying to get to my pussy.
"wait," i said, "let me suck ur dick,."

he laughed.
"ur a priest?", i asked.
"yes," he said as i got on my knees.
"catholic?", i asked.
he nodded as he whipped out his dick. it was red, really fat balls and red, like 4 inches.
"suck me slow," he said.
"alright."
I put my mouth on the dick. he sighed.
Then i bit it.
He screamed.
I bit the dick so hard till i tasted blood. He fell to the floor. I tumped him in the face and then started to knee him, i grabbed his head and slammed it onto the toilet.

He started cryin as I started kickin his face.
"wheres ur fuckin card," i screamed, he sobbed as he gave it to me.
I kicked him in the face three times and spat on his face. and then i ripped out his collar.
I kicked him in his teeth, his blood splattered on my shoes.
I grabbed him by his neck and punched him.
"Fassy," i shouted.
Then i left, with his card and 200. I ran out of the park and back onto the mainroad. I called another cab, i was gonna go to rochelles, i had her new adress, then my phone rang. it was a text from Sorcha.

SORCHA:
Babes
Its me, i beg u call me when u get this, its important, its about Ryan.
He's been stabbed.

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 50

2010-05-08T02:03:00.000-07:00

It was like a few hours later.
Damon and I were sittin in the front room and i was playing with his dick. all of their boys had left so it was just me, damon, murda and.. shit ryans sister.

I looked to Damon, "Damon, whats ryan sister doing here,"
Damon looked at me, "We're trainin her innit,".
"For what."
"She wants us to look after her, and she's gonna do a ting for us," he said.
"What,"
He looked at me and laufed, "did u ask ryan this many questions?".
"Please tell me,"

Damon kissed me and said, "She's a virgin innit and so we told her that if she does a line up of 30 man, we'd look after her."
I looked down and started to have a panic attack, i took in a deep breath and said, "but she's ryans sister."

Damon kissed his teeth, "ryans a fassy, you know how many fings us man have almost gone through cos of him, like with this diane ting, if ryan was here we'd all be in pen for shotting."

"I dont get u," i said.
"The feds know that Diane was shottin for Murda when she got killed but cos Murda is a snitch for the feds, they'll overlook it, if we still rolled with Ryan they would have to arrest us cos of the ting he and fumez did when they tried to duppy that natalie ting."

"The police know about Murda- and they havent arrested him?".

"You think the police are stupid, the MET police solve murder, they work with intelligence on terrorism, you don't think they know how to deal with drugs on road," he said.

"I dont get it," i said.
"Deena, the feds know about everything that goes on on road, they just choose to ignore it, "
I didnt say anything and kissed his cheek, "come out with us tonight,"he said.
"where are you goin," i asked.
Just as i was speakin, my phone rang. I took it out of my pocket and looked at it, it was Ryan.
Damon looked at me, took the phone and threw it, "fassy," he said, "dont worry ill get you a new phone."
I kissed his neck, i was so moist for this guy, so funny he didnt seem so sexy in the car with me that time that night natalie try set me up with jesse and faisani.

"Deena," he said, "dont tell anyone about paula or what you're doing for us yeah, if you there'll be consequences,". I nodded.
"Whats she doing in there with him," i asked.
"Probably backing him brain, 30 man have paid 40 each to be in the line up to take her hyman," he laughed.

"Who gets to fuck her first," i asked.
"Whoever pays more on the day," he said. I felt an uneasy feeling in my stomach.
"How did she come to you," i asked.
"She knew Ryan rolled with us, and came to find him, but by these times he had left to go south innit and she said she wanted looking after so we came to a deal, tru say she looks like a black sorcha."

I nodded. This wasnt right. this girl was michelles cousin, ryans sister, sorcha's cousin, the idea of this was makin me sick.
"Tonight we're going to some warehouse to initiate one guy innit, 14 year old bredda who wants to role with us, he's gonna do somethin for us innit."

"What," i askd.
Damon kissed my neck, "you are the sexiest chick in the world," he said. I giggled. He started rubbing my pussy. I could hear Murdahad put on Nolay's unorthodox daughter in his room. I kissed Damon, we were lipsin, he grabbed my tits. He kissed my neck. I put my leg around his waist, he started suckin my tits. I took out his dick and started suckin, my jaws were hurtin from when ryan and adam punched me but i didnt care. I sucked on the tip and slowly took the whole ting in my mouth. He just back with his hands behind his head smilin.

Paula walked in by herself fixing her school uniform and sat in the chair watching. I was about to stop but damon pushed my head back down, "wheres murda," he asked paula.
"He has a headache," she said. Omg, she sounded just like Sorcha.
"Damon, do i have to go home?", she said.
I looked up, "why dont u wanna go home?", i asked.
She looked down.
"Paula talk to Deena," Damon said, he got up with his dick still out and walked to Paula. She kissed his dick and then he left and shut the door behind him.
"Paula, why are you here?", i asked, "where's your mum and dad?".
She looked at me and said, "i cant go back home," she said, "my dads been hittin my mum."

I looked at her and tried not to cry, ryan was right, his dad was a prick, "Everytime my mum talks about my older brother, he hits her."
She didnt know i knew ryan.
"Why," i asked.
"My older brother left when my dad came back to be with my mum and my dad made my mum choose between my brother staying or my dad not coming back to her and even though she didnt choose my dad, she didnt stop ryan- thats my brother- from leavin but now my cousin, we thought she was dead and what it is is that my mums scared that ryan might be involved in crime and doesnt wanna get a call one day to say he's dead, so she wants him home, thats why i came here to find him, but erm- when i- things worked out differently."

"Paula, why do you need protection," i asked.
"I cant live with my parents anymore," she said startin to cry, "my dads been hittin my mum so bad, he doesnt work, he cant keep a job, my mum is the one who works but sometimes she cant even get up to go to work because he fucks her up so bad and he's been starting to beat me as well."

"How old are you?".

"16," she said.
"You've got your GCSEs comin up?", i asked.
She nodded and started to cry, I walked over to her and hugged her. Shelooked at me and said, "who hit you?".
I didnt wanna say who it was, cos it was her brother so i said, "i tripped and fell."
"Thats what my mum tells her friends," Paula said.
"Paula," i said, "you dont have to do this line up ting, you're a virgin its gonna hurt you."

"I have to,"she said, "if i dont, murda wont look after me and then id have nobody."
This girl looked like a black sorcha, she was so beautiful.
I looked at her and was about to speak when Murda walked in, "Paula i beg you go chinese take away for man and get the usual."
She got up and walked to him, he gave her 20 pounds. "deena u want anythin?", he asked.
"Erm no," i said.
"Then Paula get anythin u want, and bring man back change." She took the money and left.
"We're going out tonight," Murda said.
"Damon said," i said.
He stared at me and said, "dont feel sorry for Paula, she loves dick just as much as ryan and sorcha, mus run in the family."

Damon walked in and sat on my lap and laufed,
"ur squashin me," i giggled playin with his dick.
"brav," he said to murda, "i fink im in love with this chick uno."

"Is her pussy that good," he asked.
Damon looked at me and said, "best pussy mans ever had."

Paula came back a few minutes later with the food.
Murda lipsed her and she said, "can i stay here tonight please."

"We're goin out," Damon said, "go home."
"I cant," she said.
"Please just let her stay," i said, "she can still stay here alone."
Damon looked at Murda and Murda said, "alright."

A few hours passed, before I knew it it was 9.
Me, Damon and Murda left Paula at the flat and got into Damons whip. "Where we goin," i asked.
"First we're gonna pick up the bre i was tellin u about then go to some estate, Deena when he gets in the car make him feel relaxed yeah," Murda said. I was at the back and Murda was in the passenger seat.
We got to Aylesbury Estate and when we got there some guy who didnt lookanymore than 13 got into the car.
He spudded Murda and Damon, then looked at me and whispered, "whoah."
Murda and Damon laughed, "this is deena," murda said.
"Hi," i said kissing him on the lips. We started lipsin, I touched his dick. AAHH! what the fuck was i doin, i was gonna stop but Damon looked at me. I lipsed the guy and kissed his neck.
"If u go through with this shit tonight u get to fuck her," Murda said. WHAT! I wantd to say somethin but i was scared, so i said nothin.

We got to some old place, it was like some old estate, like it was gonna be demolished. We got out of the car and when we got there, two of Murda's man were waitin.
Murda hugged them and said, "she's up there."

We walked up in the estate. it was so dark and horrible and cold. I hated it. i could sense something bad coming. It reminded me of the whole thing with chanel and smurkz. I felt sick.
Murda looked at Damon and said, "are you ready."
The guy whose name was Icey nodded, i could sense the fear, it was the same fear i felt when i could sense somethin bad was coming. Murda opened the door.
There were five men in the place.
It was dark.
Then i looked on the floor, OH MY GOSH.
I screamed.
Damon looked at me and told me to shut up.
It was a black woman, tied up. over her head were bare pillow cases. and she was naked.
I looked at Damon, "no no," i said, "no this is rape."
Damon slapped me, "Deena shut up, you're scaring Icey"

"I cant do it," Icey said.
"If u wanna role with us then do what needs to be done."

Damon said, "Deena, get him hard."
I looked at Damon and started cryin, i held them back and walked to icey. i started kissing on his neck, playing with his dick blowin in his ear. Then he got a boner.
He slowly took off his tracksuit and was naked.
"SHIT," Murda said, "how old are you bruv?".
"15," Icey said.
"Mans dick wasnt lookin like that when man was 15," Damon said.
"He developed fast," Murda said.

all of them started to laufin. Icey laughed nervously.
"Do it to her,"Murda said, "and ull be cool wiv us."
"Who is she," Damon asked one of the other man.
"Some woman we nabbed from her car, try blow her horn at us, she's been here for two days."

I wanted to cry as Icey nervously tried to put his dick in the woman. the woman started cryin and screamin. Murda kicked her face and held her still. Damon held her legs apart as Icey slowly put the dick inside. The womans muffled scream pierced me, i knew i would never forget it.
I was screamin inside as Icey raped her. Damon and everyone were watchin and smilin as Icey was fuckin her. The woman was screamin, her hands were tied up. She was a black woman, her skin was so dark and clean, like no dirt had ever touched it, but that was a lie because Icey was that dirt. He was fuckin her, he was cryin as he did it.

"MAN UP BRUV!", Murda shouted.
Then Icey screamed and came.
He fell on his back.
"Pull off the pillow cases bruv,"Damon said.
Murda slowly pulled the pillow cases off the womans head.

I fell to the ground and hit my head hit the floor.
"Sandra."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 49

2010-05-07T03:29:00.000-07:00

"Mum you cant marry him," i said.
She went to slap me, i pushed her back. What she said hit me, she said she wished she had killed me, aborted me.

I started cryin so hard. "You slut," she screamed, "you've always been jealous of me."
I looked at her and held back my tears, the pain i was feeling was so piercing I felt like i was gonna collapse.
I looked at her and said, "Bye mum."
"You NEED me," she screamed, "you're nothing but a cheap slut, how can you ever be my child?".

"Ive never needed you, nan raised me, and i have money, my DADS been sending money to me."

She looked shocked, "you what?".

"I went to see him, he's been sending me money because i'm his daughter, if anyones the slag its you, fucking married man coming like Javine,."

She picked up the vase and threw it at me. I dodged it.
She went to fight me, i pushed her on the chair and ran upstairs. I locked my bedroom door, got changed into a tracksuit and reeboks and then packed my clothes.
I unlocked the door, i didnt say anything to her and left.

I didnt know where i was gonna go.
For all i knew, it couldve been sorcha who told ryan i was with adam.
my nan was in bados.
ryan was out of the question so was adam.
I was so scared to be walkin around like this, i kept worryin that smurkz would come after me. And then i thought, "im gonna see my dad."

I couldnt go and see him like this. I got on the bus to go to nans house and when i got on the bus some chicks started singing

DEENA DEENA
EVERYONE'S BEAT IT
BUSS IN HER MOUTH
DUN KNOW SHE'D EAT IT

I just ignored them, my face was bruised up, my hair was a mess. I got off the bus and walked to grandmas house. I unlocked the door and ran up to the shower, i didnt want to cry as i showered but i just did, and then i remembered that i didnt see the spare key, sorcha mustve forgotten to post it when she left.
I got out of the shower, dried myself, straightened my hair, put on concealer and some make up, and put on my coco and breezy's, my navy blue baggy star in the hood jumper, black tights and electric blue reeboks.
I left the house, with the sunglasses you couldnt tell my eyes were bruised.

I called a cab to my dads workplace in finsbury.
I got in and tried not to cry, i hated my mum so much, what she said was hurtin my heart.
The cabdriver wanted to talk to me about the election but i didnt say anythin, i was too upset.
It got to the GP and i paid the driver, i didnt even know how much. I walked into the gp and asked the receptionist for my dad.
"Did you book an appointment with him?", the receptionist asked. I didnt wanna tell her that i was his daughter cos he most probably knew hs wife and other kids and i didnt wanna ruin anythin for him, and as well i didnt wanna risk faisani finding out i had been there.

"No i didnt," i said, "please just tell him that it's Deena."

"Alright."
She called him up and then after five minutes, he came out.
He looked so tired.
He stared at me and when he realized that the receptionist had clocked somethin was goin on, he said, "come with me deena,".
then he tld his receptionist not to call his office for five minutes.
Me and my dad walked into his office.
I took off my glasses.

"Deena, what do you want," he said gently.
"I have nowhere to stay," i said,"mum and me had a-"
"what happened to you, did she hit you," he asked.
"No," i said, "daddy i have nowhere to go."
I saw the look on his face when i called him daddy, like he was disgusted.
"Deena, there's nothing i can do for you, i cant even afford to give you 600 a month."

"Why?", i asked.
"That's 7,200 a year, i have a family, im trying to get into retirement."

"I'm your child though, you OWE me, you wouldnt say no to your other girls would you."

"Deena," he said, "ive tolerated your threats long enough, enough is enough, no more money, no more contact, ive given you too much."

"Fuck you," i said, "all i have to do is to tell your receptionist who I am and your wife will find out soon enough, what happens then, what happens when your family and mosque find out that you fucked ablack woman and have a daughterwith her."

"You filthy bitch," he said, "filthier than your mother, leave my office."

"No!".
"Leave!".
"If i leave, im telling your receptionist evrything and then i'll go to your house and tell your wife everything." I put my shades back on.

"What do you want?", he asked, he started to hold his chest.
"I dont want your money dad, i want you to accept me, i want you to take me in."

"I can NEVER do that, look at you- YOU ARE BLACK!, you thinkmy wife can accept you into our home, you think my children will learn to love you, NEVER, you are a mullato, a half cast, i regret the day i ever met your mother."

I looked at him and a tear ran down from beneath my shades.
"I love you daddy."

"I have enough daughters," he said, "i dont need you."

I looked at him and said, "write me a cheque for 5 grand and i'll never see you again, i wont bother you, gimme 5 grand,".

He looked at me and shook his head, "your mother was a whore, follow in her footsteps, you wont blackmail me anymore."

"What."
He picked up the phone and dialled a number.
"What are you doing?".
"I'm calling my wife and telling her everything."
I looked at him as he put the phone on speaker.

"Hi dad," a girl on the phone said.
"darling, is your mother home?".
"Yeah she is- MUM ITS DAD."

I looked at him. he was really doing it.
"hello."
then he started speaking in fardou and then i heard his wife scream and put the phone down on him.
"Now get out," he said, "you can never blackmail me anymore."

I looked at him, "and im not sending you anymore money, like i said, your mother was a woman of the night, ask her for tips."My heart sank. I left the office and the receptionist looked at me.
I left the GP and walked all the long way to the mcdonalds, i walked in, walked into the toilet, walked into a cubicle, sat on the toilet, locked it and sobbed.
I sobbed.

I cried for like an hour and then walked out. Where i was gonna go, I needed P and then i remembered somethin, Murda.
I know it might be dumb, cos like how diane got killed shottin for him but i needed money, i needed somewhere to say. But then somethin hit me, i had rochelles number. I opened up my bag and found the piece of paper she gave me and dialled the number.

"Hello," she said.
"Rochelle, its Deena."
"Oh sorry, this is her friend Antoinette, she's at the polling station helping with the voting, who's speaking please."

"Its ok," i said, "ill call later."
I put the phone down and called Murda.

"Deena?".
"Murda its me, please I need to see you."
"You still with ryan?", he asked.
"No, thats why i need to see you, please."

"Alright cool- come check man at yard yeah," he said.
I left MCds and got the bus to Fumez old yard where Murda was staying.
I walked into the estate, bare youts running around like it was half term or suttin.
They all looked at me and started shoutin, "OI SKET COME ERE."

I ignored them and knocked on Murda's door.
Damon answered, he was one of the guys i fucked during the line up.
I kissed him on the cheek, he squeezed my bum.

We walked into the front room. Murda was snortin a line.
I took off my shades.
"Shit Deena! you're fucking boom," he said.
All his boys laughed, there ten of them with him, i had fucked 8 of them and sucked two of them not including Damon.
I sat on the dirty couch. it smelt like weed so bad.
"Whats good Deena, ryan fucked u up again," he asked.
I nodded.
"Murda, i need dough," i said,
"Deena, you're too risky, Fumez is in pen for you, yeah u didnt ask hm to set natalie up but here's the thing every single man i know gets gassed up over you, man aint lookin to fall in love."

His boys started laughin.
"Murda," i said, "i have noone, im alone, i need protection, i need P, i'll do anythin."

"This sounds familiar," Damon said, "Oi, did you know that diane chick?".
I shook my head, "im not like her," i said, "she was dumb,id be so good, id shot for you."

"Nah nah," Murda said, "ive stopped lettin chicks shot for me, you're gonna have to do somethin else for your P,"

Murda beckoned me. I got up and Damon followed me and Murda. we went into the room where i got gangbanged with the 19 guys and the same room that me sorcha, fumez and ryan had the foursome.
Damon locked the door.
Murda said to me, "are you on skettin,"

"What," i asked.
"Are you fucking man for money," Damon asked pulling me tohim.
"Yeah," i said.
"Alright," Murda said, "ill look after you, if you fuck a few man for us once a week, we'll pay you about 3 bills a week."

"Which man," i said.
"Man from all around endz innit,"Damon said touching my pussy.
It felt so nice.
Damon, i looked at him, i think he was gonna be my new ting. He looked a bit like smurkz, damon long hair though, like black the ripper..
He kissed my neck.
"Ill do anythin u say," i said.
Murda laughed, "then sort me and my boy out, make our dicks happy."
I took off my clothes. Murda sucked my tits. Damon was squeezing my ass and then he said, "ryan got to have this to himself brav?".
Murda laughed, "its ours now bruv."

I lay on the bed and started playing with my pussy. Murda started to fingerin me. Damon took out his dick, 11 inches. My mouth opend by itself.
He put it in and i sucked it.
I sucked it like it was a life force. He started giggling as Murda started to eat my pussy.
"Shit man didnt know u was a bocat," damon said.
murda looked up and said, "i aint, but this pussy is nice."

Damon started rubbin my tits as i sucked his dick. Deepthroat ting. He started cryin out and laughin.
"Is this pussy wet enough bruv,"Damon asked.
"All yours."
Murda stopped eating me out as Damon took off his garms and got on top of me.
"You've been fuckin with a fassy,"Damon said, "ryans a bitch compared to me."

"does ryan still suck dick,"murda asked.
I nodded.
Damon and Murda laughed, "cant lie though," Murda said, "ryans brain isnt bad, ive buss in his mouth many a time, JOKE!".
Damon said, "you know ryan used to do line ups for other man."
WTF.
They were lyin.
"Tru say im not lyin,"Damon said.
Murda nodded, "Ryan used to do line ups for old white men we used to shot to and they'd pay him an extra bil for it."
They needed to stop talkin about all that gay shit. it was so dirty.
Then Damon put his dick in me.
I groaned.

I grabbed onto his neck as he started wockin me slowly.
His tings, so hard in me growin in me moist pussy. he was kissin my neck. his big hands all in my hair as Murda watched.
Damon was wedge, not too wedge, just tall and wedge. you know that warm feeling you get all over your body when there's abig hard throbbing dick in you, that feeling was gettinme on a hype.
Damon looked down at me and kissed me.
"it feels nice yeah," he laughed.
Murda was watchin it.
I started gettin high, i hadnt felt this way since adam. my head was getting light. body feeling weak. legs quivering, dick digging out my pussy.
"fuck me damon, beat me out."

"ur on this dick yeah?", murda asked.
"This is my chick now,"damon said lookin at murda as he fucked me.Murda nodded.
Damon groaned, my pussy was eating his dick, the moisture making his dick slippery.
"fuck me in my mouth murda," i said.
"Nah its cool," murda said, "ive got a headache."

Damon's chest hair was all in my face. i bit some off and swallowed it.
"SHIT!", he and murda said.
"ah now ur gonna get it."
he started banging me out so hard and then the door bell rang.
Murda walked out to answer it.
Damon was banging me so slow as Murda walked back in.

"Deena," Murda said.
Damon stopped fuckin me. I sat up. there was a girl in her school uniform with Murda in the room, she looked like a young sorcha just with dark skin. Murda kissed her on the lips. she grabbed his dick. Damon got up and kissed her.she,murda and damon were having a threesome kiss.
I said, "who is she?".

Damon looked at me and laughed, "her names Paula," he said.

"Ryans little sister."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 48 part 2

2010-05-04T13:35:00.000-07:00

My face.
I cleaned the blood off my face and tried not to lookmyself in the eye in the mirror. But i could see my reflection clear, he had hit me again. I was in his bathroom and he was lying in the bed and i wanted to cry so much but i held it and wiped the blood off my face.
He walked in and kissed my cheek, "You ok," he said.
I nodded and kissed him, "I wont do it again," he said. He hugged me and lipsed me.
"You want anything to eat," he said.
"Anythings good," i said.
"Ill go Sams for you innit," he said.
"Ok."
Then he left. I waited until he closed the door and just bawled on the bathroom floor. My face didnt hurt that much but my chest did, you know that painyou get in the back of your throat when you're so upset. He had tumped me again. This time it was just once and then he kicked me and then went to sleep. He knew i'd fucked Adam.

I just cried on the bathroom floor as blood poured from my bottom lip.
Then i thought of the yout. The baby that i lost when ryan fucked me up the first time and i was so- i was bare upset. I just cried. I was alone in the bathroom and alone in the world. and i was here just bawlin. my head hurt so much. I got up slowly and i walked to my phone. I picked it up and called Sorcha.

"Deena, i'm with my mum, we're talkin to the police, call me back," she said.
"Sorcha, did you tell ryan you saw me at adams yard," i asked.
"What- Deena no- i aint spoken to ryan, why whats happened, he hasnt hit you again has he?".

"Nah nah," i said. then i put the phone down. I was alone in Ryans yard, my top was bloody and my hair was a mess, i could still feel mans fist on my cheek. Then the door unlocked and he came upstairs and saw me standin there.
"Man forgot my wallet,"he laughed.
"You hit me," i said.
"I said im sorry," he said, "have u seen my wallet, im gonna get vex if ive lost it cos i just bought it as well."

"You tumped me," i said, "again."
"Deena shut up please and help me find my wallet,".
"Hit me again," i said.
He looked at me in shock and said, "Deena please man said hes sorry,"
"Hit me again Ryan," i said.

"What are u sayin," he said.
I walked up to him and punched him.
He fell to the floor. Shit.

He got up and lipsed me, "alright now we're even."
I punched him again. He punched me back. I fell to the floor. "Deena why the fuck r u tryna vex man."

I got up and wiped the blood from my nose.
I went to punch him again but he grabbed my hand and pushed me back.
"You really want man to fuck u up," he said, "u fink i dont wanna fuck u up for fuckin adam."

"Who told u," i said.
He punched me, "You're MINE!", he said.

I was bare dizzy as he kicked me in the stomach. Then he shouted out bare loud and ran into the bathroom and locked the door. "Im leavin you Ryan," i said.

He unlocked the bathroom door and looked at me.
"You aint goin nowhere," he said.
"Im leavin and not comin back,"i said.
He laughed, "ur a fuckin sket- who else wants you."
I started cryin.
"Ah babes," he said, he hugged me and started whisperin how sorry he was. I pushed him away.
"No," i said, "no."
I went to leave the house, but he grabbed me by hair. I screamed as it felt like my routes weregonna come out, i kicked behind me, my foot hit his dick. He fell back and i ran out of the house barefoot.
I swear to you, i ran barefoot on the road, bleeding gum, bloody top, i ran and ran and bare people were lookin at me, i didnt care, i ran all the way to my house, unlocked the door, ran inside and locked it behind me.

Then she walked out of the living room and saw me. "Deena."
"Mum."

I sat next to her as she cleaned the blood of my face with a wet towel.
"Deena," she said, "what happened."

My feet were aching so hard, id run barefooted.
"He hit me mum, Ryan hit me." She hugged me so tight and i pulled away.
"I shouldve come to see you when you lost your baby," i said.
She looked down, "oh lets not talk about that ok," she said and hugged me.
"Deena, i told you he was trouble, i told you he wouldnt really forgive you after you lied to the police to put him inside,"

"Mum," i said, "im sorry for everythin."
She started cryin and said, "its ok deena,".
I cried so hard. I hadnt been so close to my mum since i was bare little. She smelled of palmers cocoa butter.
She hugged me so tight. "Deena," she said, "what happened, why did he hit you."

I didnt say anythin and then i said, "he thinks i slept with my ex,".
She nodded wipin her tears, "hes a sick boy, hittin you like this again."

I looked up at my mum, "what happened to your baby," i asked.
"After you and me had the argument at marlon's, i was drivin and i started bleedin, i didnt even know i was pregnant," she said and started cryin.
"Im so sorry," i said.
"Its ok, its not the first time this has happened," she said.

"What."
"Before I had you, i had two miscarriages, i lost a boy and a girl, one year after the other," she said.
"Who were they with?", i asked.
She looked down at me, "It doesnt matter."
"No mum please tell me," i said.
She looked at me and said, "Natalies dad."

I turned away.
"It was when we were going out," she said.
"You and natalies dad?", i asked, natalie hadnt been lyin.
"We were havin an affair, he was with Natalies mum at the time and Natalie had just been born," she said.
I felt sick. "Then we broke up when I got pregnant with you, I thought he was your dad, but i was seein your real dad at the same time and i wasnt sure until you came out of me that you weren't natalie's dad baby, you looked too much like your dads other children."

I looked at her, how could Natalies dad be so sick, fuckin me knowin he had already fucked my mum.
"Deena, whatevers happened between us in the past, me and you can move on," she said, "we've both made mistakes, but you're my daughter, nothin should come between us."

"Mum who was the father of the yout you just lost," i asked.
"Natalies dad, we've been seeing each other for two years now, even though he was about to marry some Sandra lady."

"Mum, there's something i need to tell you about Natalies dad," i said.
She looked at me.
"what is it?", she asked.
"I slept with him mum too."

She jumped up and looked at me. She turned her back to me.
"You're lying", she said, "he wouldnt do that to me."
I was shocked,"mum, its true- that night i caught you with thatold man, i went to natalies house and he- we fucked."

She slapped me.
I screamd out. My face hurt even more.
"You lying bitch," she cried, "he wouldnt cheat on me with my own daughter."

I got up, i didnt know what to say. I was shakin with fear, what was she sayin.
"You- you're just jealous of me," she said, "you're lying, he LOVES me, he was goin to leave that sandra bitch to be with me."

My tears started flowing but i wasnt cryin. my eyes were just flowin with tears.
"mum," i said, "are you alright."

"Since the day you were born, you gave me trouble, i should have killed you, the shame i faced because of you, havin to explain to my mum who your father was, i knew you were a slut from when you were little, i saw the way you used to look at my boyfriends."

I froze and burst out cryin.
"I HATE YOU DEENA- i hate you, to sleep with MY MAN!".
"He wasnt yours," i stammered, "i- di-didnt know u were- he was engaged to sandra."

"But HE loved me and we're goin to be together, dont you understand?".
"What".

She screamed at me and pointed to her ring finger.

"He proposed to me, we're going to get married and YOU fucked him."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 48

2010-05-03T05:03:00.000-07:00

"Deena WHO'S DOWN THERE!", Sorcha called from upstairs.
I looked at Rochelle, she shook her head as if to say dont tell her im here.
"Ah it was some jehovah witness," i said.
"Meet me at KFC in half an hour, dont tell Sorcha anythin," Rochelle said. Then she left.
It was so surreal. It was actually her. Rochelle. She was so beautiful- oh my gosh I was bare confused. Sorcha walked down the stairs.
"Shit Deena, you look like you've seen a ghost,", she said.
I looked up at her, "babes, i need to go and do something really quick yeah," i said, "wait here,".

"Where u goin," she asked.
"Im gonna go pick somethin up," i said, "wait here yeah."
She nodded, "is it alright i sleep in one of the beds," she asked.
"Yeah but not the one with the blue duvet, thats the one Jason fucked me in."
She went upstairs.
I left the house and locked the door and made my way down to KFC. This was fuckin nuts. I thought Rochelle was dead, thats what everyone was sayin. She was so beautiful.
I walked into KFC and saw her sitting near the back drinking a bottle of water.
I walked over and sat opposite her.
"Deena?", she said.
I nodded, "Rochelle," i said.
"You're not suprised to see me?", she asked.
"Tru say you're supposed to be dead."

She didnt say anything and then sipped her water. She looked like Chelsea from eastenders just with darker skin and smaller eyes.
"Ill explain all that later," she said.
"How do you know who I am?", i asked. "what do you want with sorcha."

"I wanna know why Sorcha knew Michelle was in trouble and didnt help her, i wanna know why YOU AND SORCHA went to ricos house and saw Michelle there and didnt nothin."

"I didnt know it was Michelle," i said,"but she's fine now though, she's with Sandra, she's safe now."
Rochelle looked at me like she was so vex, i actually wanted to eat her pussy, thats how sexy she was. She had on a tight white top and high waisted jeans with some boom chanels on with a navy silk scarf around her neck. Her hair was dead straight like pocahontas behind her back and her lipgloss bright pink and she had on some sexy smokey eye make up.

"Michelle isnt with Sandra," she said, "shes in a foster home because of what you and sorcha did."

"Sorry babes," i said, "dont blame us for what Natalie's dad did."

"Who's Natalie's dad."

"Sandra's ex," i said.

"Wait, Sandra was goin out with Natalies dad and you fucked him?",she asked. I didnt say anything.
"Why isnt Michelle with Sandra," i asked.
"She's not with Sandra because now Sandra is a single mum who already has twins, social services have to assess her before deciding she can look after Michelle," Rochelle said.

"How is that my fault," i asked.

"Its not only your fault, its the fault of Sandras man, had he not cheated Sandra would still be with him and social services wouldnt feel anyway about giving Michelle to them," she said.
KFC was startin to empty and it was only me, rochelle and three other people inside.

"How do you know all this," i asked. "where have you been, i thought you were dead."

"I didnt die in the fire, I managed to get out but everyone else died, my real sister Nomi, this other girl and my dad."

"Hes not your dad," i said, "he's sorcha's and michelle's dad."

"You dont have to remind me," she said, "he was a fuckin pervert, i managed to get out of the fire and i spent 5 months in hospital healing from the burns on my back and then after my friend Antoinette and I moved to West."

"You've been in London all dis time," i said.
"Yeah and what?", she said, "i didnt know michelle had been kidnapped by Rico until i got out of hospital, by the time i was ready to look for her the feds had found her."

"So what do you want with Sorcha?", i asked.

"Be honest Deena, do you think Sorcha wants anything to do with Michelle," she asked.
I kept quiet for a bit andthen looked at her, i suddenly saw a sadness in her eyes.
"No," i said, "she hates you both for having her dad."

"He was a pervert,"she said, "he wasnt no good man."

"But it was still her dad and you and Michelle both had him there for you and she didnt."

"Whose fault is that?", she asked, "she should count herself lucky that he wasnt in her life, he caused all this mess."

"Where's your mum?", i asked.
Rochelle looked down and started cryin, "erm, shes dead innit."
"Oh im sorry," i said, "i didnt know, how did she die."

"Her man beat her to death after she caught me and him-".

"Oh," i said, "Rochelle, what do you want."

She pulled out a piece of paper from her clutch bag and gave it to me. "I was gonna give this to Sorcha but since she has no interest in being a sister to either me or Michelle i want you to have it."

"What is it," i said.
"It's my adress and number, i want you to keep it and give it to Michelle, and tell her that if she ever needs me for anything, i'll always be there for her."

"Why cant you give it to her yourself," i asked.
"The last time she saw me we were almost duppied and burnt alive by her dad, i dont wanna scare her, just give it to her and tell that im always gonna be there for her."

I looked at the adress and said, "There's no way i can give this to her, she hates me for not helping her and for fucking up her situation."

"Deena please," she said, "Ive lost everything and have had to start all over again, my mums dead, my real dad died even before i knew who he was, my real sister Nomi died in the fire, my nan- i dont know where she is, all i have is the hope that one day Michelle and I will be close again when shes older, dont tell anyone that youve seen me or that ive given you this," she said. Then she looked at arm.

"Whered did u get that bruise," she asked.
I looked down, it was either from when Adam or Ryan beat me up.
"My boyfriend," i said, "Im not sure which one."

"Are you still with him?", she asked. Then i remembered it was from when Ryan beat me up.
"I am," i said.
"I know this is none of my business, but if a man hits you once, he will do it again." she said

"It was a one off," i said, "Ryan wouldnt hurt me again."

"Ryan?", she asked."As in Ryan Whiteley."
I nodded. "Deena, i'll tell you from experience, road man only take a girl once place- to the road," she said.

"Rochelle you dont know shit," i said, my neck started to hurt from when Adam punched me. "Ryan's different now," i said, "hes changed."

"That bruise looks fresh, did he hit you today,"she asked.
"This was another guy, Adam, he hit me today, it made the bruise from ryan worse."

She looked at me for barelong and said, "Deena, what are you saying- how often do guys tump you."

I kept quiet, "Ryan wouldnt hit me again, the first time was my fault, i pushed him to it."
"He used to beat Diane up the same way," she said, "before she had his yout, he used to punch and slap her, and these times they werent even 17, he used to slap and kick her and then change for a bit and then tump her in her boat when he got vex."

"Diane's dead," i said.
"I know," she said, "the same fing which makes ryan attractive is the same fing which killed her- road mentality."

"Rochelle i beg you shoosh, Ryan aint road anymore," i said.
"Whats ryan doin now," she asked.
"Hes goin college in september."
"But he's my age, why is he only startin college now," she said.
"He's changed Rochelle, he almost went pen and that changed him."
"Pen for what," she asked.
"He tried settin up some bitch for me, he did it for me," i said.
She looked at me and shook her head, "You're even dumber than i was back in the day, these road man never change, change comes when you see it, not just when he says it,I got involved in so much shit because i found man like ryan attractive, known on road, a shotter, buyin me this buyin me that and i was so attracted to them kind of man that i let them do anythin they wanted to me and it fucked me up."

"I'm not like you Rochelle," i said.
"We're the same," she said, "only ive seen a better way."
I kissed my teeth, oh shit i just had to let out a sly fart. She smelt it and rolled her eyes,
"Deena, let me tell you from now- get your education whilst you can, because if you dont, you'll live to regret it, just look at Diane, me her and Sherice used to be so tight, always fuckin about in school, Diane got pregnant with only SATS to her name and had to shot to make P and looked at how that worked out, do you really wanna live your life always scared about this person comin after you or this person on road who you owe money," she said.

"You make it sound like anybody chooses to be on road," i said.
"People on road WANT to be on road, i know that cos i was one of dem, education is free in this country, but these eediats would rather be on road lookin like human post boxes, some of these man on road are so stupid that they fink being intimidating is a good fing- why would you wanna look scary, the man on road are so lazy that they cant even be bothered to think of their own gangs and so they "rep" bloods and crips like say they even know how to book a flight to America, they think they're so hard callin man who arent like them pussies, what they dont know is that whils theyre on road, the smart mandem are studying so they can leave the endz and do big tings," she sipped her water.

"Just look at tings like GrimeDaily and SBTV, do you think they're succesful cos they're lazy and act like the typical road man, no, they work hard so they achieve things, whereas that prick Femi Mccool finks that going into oxford street and asking dumb people even dumber questions is journalism like say he hasnt heard of a release form, being a hoodrat really isnt the one babes, you need to find somethin you're good at and work on it so you can leave endz and see bigger tings," she said.

"Nah but you go on like its easy to do big tings when everyone knows white people will only hold you back," i said.

"This is the UK babes, not Eastern Europe, racism only works when the victims of racism let it work, you fink an employer can get away with turning down ten black job applicants and go unnoticed, bein succesful dont mean that you're tryin to act white and dats the mistake too many of these youts make, if being succesful and an overachiever means your tryna be white, then what does it mean to be black- unsuccesful and a failure? never dat Deena- never dat, i'll tell you from now, these wastecadets are in for a suprise in 20 years time when they realize how wasteful their time has been, what are they gonna do when when they're 30, go raves and chirps gyal dem, oh please, they dont realize that their shootin themselves in the foot,all these dumb girls thinkin these man on road are sexy- i used to be one of them." she said.

I got up and said, "Ill give this to Michelle, but i never wanna see you again,".
She got up and said, "ok, just make sure you give it to her- why dont you wanna see me again."

"Because you think you know too much, but youdont know shit about me," i said. Then i left.
I put the piece of paper in my pocket and as I was walkin back to my nans yard to be with Sorcha, my phone rang, it was Ryan.
"Come here now," he said, then put the phone down. I didnt think too much of it, maybe he was ready to talk about Diane.
I called Sorcha and told her to meet me at Ryans house in a few hours but she said she wanted to go and see her mumso i told her where my nans spare key was, so when she left she could lock the door and post the key.

I got to Ryans yard and knocked on the door.
He opened it. He was wearin nothin but a string vest and white boxer shorts.
"You alright," i said.
He closed the door behind him and looked at me.
"You were with Adam today innit," he said.

I started breathing bare hard and sweating.
"Ryan I-".

He punched me and I hit the floor.

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 47 PART 2

2010-05-01T05:19:00.000-07:00

I cried and hugged her. She held me so tight.
"What are you doing here?", i asked.
She started cryin and said, "I followed you," then she looked at my face,
"what happened to you."

"He hurt me," i cried, "Adam fucked me up."
Sorcha kissed her teeth. "Call a cab," she said, "we're going back to south."
I called a cab and me and her didnt speak the whole way, it suddenly hit me that she might ask why i was with adam in the first place.
The cab stopped at Mcdonalds in Brixton, I paid and we both got out and walked in.
I ran into the toilets to fix my face as she waited.
When i came out, I realized that she had lost bare weight and she looked like she hadnt slept in days.
I sat next to her.
"This place is too bait," she said, "lets go to your nans, do you still have the keys."
I nodded and me and her walked to my nans house. I still had the key, I know that my mum was finkin of movin into it, when we got there there were nuff suitcases in the corridor.
I sat down next to her and hugged her, "I thought you were dead."
She hugged me back and said, "i almost was- i aint shottin again."

"What happened?", i asked.
"You know i told you some time back yeah that i was gonna get uinto somethin, it was shottin, i shot for Murda but it aint shottin dro, its heavy stuff like charlie and meow meow, and erm- yeah basically Natalie's bitch friend Diane shots for him too and he had a big order, so he told me and Di to go together to this yard in west ham cos basically the guys there were some white skinhead bitties," she started cryin, "when we got to the estate, Diane begs me to allow her to go alone so she can keep the P for herself cos she wanted to take her and ryan's yout disneyland, i said kl and left but cos Murda told the bitties that someone called Sorcha was comin, i gave Di my provisional so she could say she was me, because we look the same now cos we both have blonde hair, i let her go up to the flat and waited at the bottom of the estate to make sure she got in ok, twos twos i see them punch her and drag her in, i just ran."

"You know they killed her," i said.
Sorcha started cryin, "it would have been me,"
"Where have you been," i asked, "your mum thought you were dead."
"I ran away cos i thought Murda would fink i jacked his shit but then when i saw someone leave a comment on Di's facebook saying RIP i knew that everyone knew she was dead, i stayed with my dads mum in north, ive only met her twice when i was little but she still recognised me and so i was stayin with her and was gonna go to adam to ask him to call u so u could meet at his yard so i could talk to you, but then i saw you there."

I hugged her.
"Diane's dead," she cried. I hugged her. i didnt give a fuck about diane, i only cared about Sorcha.
"Deena,i was so scared," she said, "diane's son isnt gonna have a mum because of me."

"Its not your fault," i said, "she was bein greedy."
"Nah nah,"Sorcha said, "i shouldve run up to help her."
"How could you."

"Deena, you have to help me go back and see my mum," she said, "ive been to the police station and told them im alive but im scared they might ask why diane had my ID and what we were doin at that estate."

"Listen," i said, "Ryan will sort all that out."
"Natalies gonna be so hurt," she said, "her and diane were close, diane used to be girls with that girl."

"Which girl,"i asked.
"Rochelle."
"Your sister."
"She aint my fuckin sister, she wasnt my dads real yout, MICHELLE is my sister."
She started bawlin and huggin me. She had bad BO, i felt to just slyly spray my deodorant on her.
"Diane's yout," she kept sayin, "whats ryan gonna do."

"how come noone told me he had a yout with her," i said.
She looked at me and said, "diane was a fuckin bosh, it might not even be his."
She got up and dried her eyes.
Then the door bell rang.
We looked at each other.
"Go upstairs and hide in the cloakroom," i said.
Sorcha quickly ran upstairs as i went to answer the door.
I opened it.
"Hello."

"Sorry are you Deena?".
"In the flesh".
"I'm looking for Sorcha,".

"And who are you?".

"I'm her sister, Rochelle."

DEENA SKET 70 CHAPTERS

2010-04-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

The original plan was to have it go up to 60 chapters but 10 more are going to be added to accomodate something really big. The next five chapters will be posted everyday from Monday to Friday.
Whilst you wait, read The Sorcha Beat or The Deena Dialogues.

Chapter 47

2010-04-28T03:30:00.001-07:00

"It's Diane."
My heart stopped beating, "Natalie's friend?".
Ryan froze.
"Which Diane RYAN!", I screamed.
He walked upstairs and then ran into the bathroom and locked the door.
I banged on the door. I kept bangin and bangin. "Ryan whose Diane, which Diane do you mean?".
Then he came out, he had been bawlin. "Diane, my youts mum."

I looked at him, in shock. And then somthin hit me. When Natalie and Smurkz set me and Sorcha up and then Natalie turned on smurkz with Chanel, natalie said somethin about some chick called Diane who smurkz used to link.

"What yout," i said.
"Deena, i have to go," he said.
"Where," i said, "where are you goin- where's sorcha."
He picked up his car keys and then left the house. I was so shook, what the fuck was goin on. Ryan had a baby. What the fuck.
I was tired, id been up all night and this ting was a madness. The madness with smurkz jackin that fat boy cj, ryan and them bres tricking him into almost backing ryan brain, the bullshit with sorcha. it was too much. I stopped carin and went to bed and just lay there for an hour thinking.
Then my mind.. i started cryin for no reason. Then everything started to come back to me, ryan beatin up, the rape, me and natalie not speaking, me thinkin sorcha was dead, my mum losin her yout, my nan back in bados, and then i thought of Adam.

I wondered what he was doin. I was scared of bein alone in ryans yard and i wanted someone to hold me innit, not even to fuck but just to hold.
I got in the shower actin like none of this shit was happenin, got dressed into this dress

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I took out my extentions, straightend my hair, use britney spears curious and left ryans yard, i called a cab to take me to adams yard, cos i wasnt feeling to be gettin feel up by any butters wasties on the train. I was actin as though none of the madness was happenin, like it was a normal day. Whilst i was in the cab some any waste cadet girls from the year below me in college saw me and started singing
DEENA DEENA
EVERYONE'S BEAT IT
BUSS IN HER MOUTH
DUN KNOW SHE'D EAT.

What dumb bitches, they're on the roadside and i'm in a cab and theyre thinkin i care about what they're saying. I'm balling and they're still reminiscing about junior jam. any strawberry shortcake hoes. Their dads probably wanna dig me out.

I drank a red bull in the cab and after being in bare traffic, i finally got to Adams.
I was so nervous.
I paid the cab driver something like 50 and I walked to the front door. I was actually pretending that the madness with ryan and sorcha and this diane bitch was goin on.
"Hello."
"Adam."
He looked at me, nah he actually stared at me for long and said, "come in."

"I knew you'd be home," i said.
"Mans that predictable yeah," he said. he looked so nang, green ralphie, boxer shorts, outline of the dick. I licked my lips.
"Adam im sorry," i said.
"for what," he said, "im the one who was goin on dumb, you didnt do anything to me, uncle marlons gone away for two weeks"
I didnt say anything and looked at his dick.
"Im not gonna waste any time Adam," i said, "i came here for you to blow my fucking back out."
No long.
Dress of. heels goodbye. shades dash to the floor. ralphie off the back, boxers on the sofa.me on my knees. his dick in my face.
I let that dick slip and slide all in my mouth, my saliva cocooned his piece, his dick was drownin in my mouth so bad i know it was wishin it had learnt to swim.
the smacking of my mouth against his dick sounded so hot.
his ting was bigger than ryans, ryan was big but adam was pokin out my cheeks.
i grabbed onto his waist as he fucked my mouth. he had his hands on my head as i slurped on his dick.
"ah", he groaned."i wanna fuck u now."
i got up and walked to his room. he was squeezin my ass as we walked there, i wasnt even thinkn of anything, just that my cunt was feenin for his dick.
I got on the bed and lay on my back. "beat me out."
He didnt even put on a dom, he spread my legs and smacked his dick against my moist pussy.
Then he slid it in.
"fuck."
i started singing rude boy in my head. he started fuckin me slow, it felt so nice. his entire dick was in me and he was grindin in me. he didnt look at me as he was fuckin me but he was sucking my nipples. he had gotten even more wedge, he was like a fucking giant now, like proper fit and tall. oh shit, i know he looks a bit like dwaine chambers.
he was fuckin me so raw and nice but i wasnt in space yet, i wasnt high off his dick yet so i told him to doggy me. I turned around on my knees and arched my back somy ass was up in the air. He was behind me, kneeling behind me with his dick rubbing against my pussy. it was so wet.
Then he put it in.
I hung my head and gasped, he had his left hand on my left shoulder and his right hand on my back.
BAM.
He started doggyin me bare fast. I sounded so dumb, i was gruntin so hard, it was so rough and his dick was movin in and out so fast that i couldnt breathe. i fell on the bed lying on my stomach as he kept on doggyin me. His dick felt so nang, it had been bare long since my pussy had taken it. Imagine this yeah- i arched my back so my ass was high up, he grabs my ass with both hands, leans back and then starts thrusting in my wet pussy. i grabbed onto shelf above his bed to stop myself from fallin.
"FUCK ME"
"YOU LIKE THIS DICK YEAH"
"I LOVE THIS DICK, FUCK ME."
He was pantin and sweating. "eat me out."
what.
"eat me out," he said.
"what the fuck do you mean, eat you out- what do you have for me to eat out."
He turned around and put his bum in my face. I screamed and did a sly fart. I hope it dont smell.
"i beg you eat me out deena, my boy said it feels so nice."
I looked at it, i slowly spread the cheeks and looked to see if it was clean, what the fuck am i doing.
One lick.
he groaned and giggled. I licked it over and over again and he begged me to stop, "nah nah, its too much," he said, "its alot."
"its ok," i said.
He lay down on his stomach as i licked his ass.
It felt weird at first but then i got used to, i knew it was dirty but i wanted him to know that i still cared for him. I started eating out his hole. he was cryin out an laughin at the same time, "ah ah ah ah ah."
oh my fucking gosh, he buss.

how the fuck did me licking him out make him buss. he turned around and his cum was all over his thighs. I licked it all off and swallowed it for him. "i love you," i said.

"suck my toes," he said.
i threw my hair back and crawled to the end of the bed. his arms were behind his head like proper chillin, "suck dem innit."
I sucked his toes, the big one first. it wiggled in my mouth.
"what do my feet taste like deena," he said.
i took the toe of my mouth and said, "air forces."

then i went back to sucking. his toes.
I sucked on the toes, he was groanin, it must have been feeling bare good for him.
"bring my airforces," he said.
"what,"
"my fuckin airforces," he said.
"where are they," i asked.
he pointed to the floor. I leaned over and picked one up.
"lick the bottom of the shoe."

I laughed, "what are you smoking," i asked.
"alright cool, lick my ass again."
I put the trainer down and he turned around and arched his back. i started lickin his hole and then i tasted....
"dont be scared, everyone farts," he said.
I wanted to vomit so hard, i could taste it in my mouth.
"No no," i said, "what the fuck are you doing." he was trying to fart in my mouth again.

"i thought you liked being treat like a bosh," he said, "i thought thats how them man you fuck treatyou,."

"Whats wrong with you," i said tryin not cry.
"Man dont want you think im a pussy, so ill treat you how a real man should innit, cos u like real men innit, u dont like pussys."
I slapped him.
He laughed and spat in face, he grabbed my neck and flemmed on in my mouth.
"Fuckin sket."
I tried to leave the room but he grabbed my neck and threw me on the bed and locked the door.
"I know u like it," he said, "u lke bein treated like a dog innit cos when mantreated you right and did bare shit for you, you still were attracted to them road man so now i know their secret, treat girls like shit and you'll get them wet for you."
I didnt recognise him, he was so cold.
I lay on the bed jus cryin as he stood over me. "open your mouth," he said.
I tried to run but he sat on my stomach, he must have been at least 17 stone of muscle on my 9 and a half stone body. he was crushin me.
All i could think of was ryan.
adam grabbed my face and punched me, "open your mouth," he said.
I opened it and he started bashing off into my mouth. and then he came all in my mouth.
"swallow it."
i swallowed it.
Then he fingered me.
"stop," i said.
"isnt this how them road man do it." he was doin it too rough, he knew only two fingers could fit inside but he was tryin to 4.
"nO," I screamed.
Then he stopped and looked at me.
"Get out," he said, "GET OUT!".
I ran downstairs put on my clothes. i was crying so hard.
I put on my shades and then opened the front door to leave. OH MY FUCKIN GOSH.

Sorcha.

Chapter 46 part 2

2010-04-26T23:32:00.000-07:00

We went up to Fumez old flat, where Murda was livin now. It was just me, ryan and him in the front room.
"What happened," i said, "why was she at that flat, why did you send her there."

Murda looked like he wanted to cry, but didnt wanna show it. Ryan was lookin so vex, I touched his hand to calm him down.
"She called me up last week saying she needed some P and she wanted to shot for me," Murda said, "I know some bitties in West Ham who Fumez used to shot charlie too, they're cracked out and i was gonna take her to there to shot them the dro but if i took her id have to pay her less innit so she said she'd go alone, wha- what happened?".

"You knew they were cracked out bitties and you sent her there?", Ryan asked trying not to get vex.
"She wanted to go," Murda said, "She came around 10 that night from her yard and I know she caught cab there."

"How do you know?" ryan asked.
"I called it for her, what happened, like whats happened to her."

"SHES DEAD!", Ryan shouted. He got up bawlin and left the room.
I looked at Murda, "They did a raid in the house after found her in the toilet with her throat slit."

"A raid? so them man i shotted to got nabbed?".

"Is that all you care about, you're scared of gettin caught when a girl is dead."

"Oh shut your mouth Deena, shut your mouf innit, dont try act like Sorcha was mother fuckin tereasa, she probably did something to them, you know how sorcha is, she even used to cuss you, she's a fuckin..." before Murda could finish, Ryan ran back into the room and started to box him up. I ran to Ryan to pull him back, he pushed me away and i fell on the floor. He kept on boxin Murda up. Then out of nowhere Murda pulled out a strap. Ryan stepped back. I got up slowly.

"Ryan dont fuck me with yanah, dont fuck with man, what would your girl fink if i told her what you did, how are you gonna wifey a sket that everyman and his dad has buss into, she's a fuckin cum collector, just like Sorcha, dont blame me cos ur cousins a dumb slosh, she probably tried boops them or suttin, so you two get the fuck out of here and if you ever come here again, i'll bury some bullets in your headpiece."

I looked at Ryan, what did Murda mean he would tell me what Ryan did, what did Ryan do.
Ryan told Murda, "dont ever try threaten man, you dont think i know the kind of shit you still do."

"Fuck you and your chichi ass,"Murda said, "Man mus fink he's the fifth member of JLS now just cos u moved out of ends and wifed up a boomie, but you'll always be road Ryan," then Murda looked at me, "he's bein nice to now you innit- just wait till you do somethin to make him really vex, he'll fuck you up again."

"Lets go Ryan,"i said. Ryan gave Murda a dirty look and we left the estate got back into the car and drove off.
"what are you gonna do," i said.
"gonna back home and leave this to the feds, im not getting back onto road and all the hype just for her, it aint worth it," he said.

"But.."
"Deena, you want me to be back on road lookin for dese breddas who did this and then what happens them, someone gets shot and then someone ends up dead or in pen, man has aspirations now, i wanna change."
We didnt say anything the whole car journey, he put on his Sade cd and we listened to Soldier of love as the sun came up. we had been up all night and I was so tired, then all of a sudden the car stopped. We parked on some side road.
Ryan looked at me and then looked at the window mirrors. He rolled down his window.
Some police man came to the car.
"What are you two doing out so early in the morning?".
"Excuse me," Ryan said.
"I said sir, what are you doing out so early in the morning?".
"Was i speeding," ryan asked.
"Sir will you answer my question," the officer said.

"I would," Ryan said, "if you could explain what that has to do with you."
"Alright step out of the car," the officer said.
"What for," i said.
"This has nothing to do with you," the officer said. "sir step out of the car."
The sun was comin up as Ryan slowly got out of the car.
"License please,"the officer said.
I was gonna start wilin out, but Ryan winked at me. He just took out his license and gave it to the fed.
The idiot looked at it and said, "is this car insured?".
"Yes Mr.Police man," Ryan said.
"Dont act smart son."
"Aren't you a police man?", Ryan asked.
The officer looked at him and threw the license back at Ryan thinkin Ryan wouldnt catch it.
"I have reason to believe that you may be under the influence of something whilst driving," he said.
I wanted to shout but Ryan smiled and said, "and what reason is that,"
"Open your boot," the office said.
"Unless you have x-ray vision, i dont know how you assumed that my car out of all the cars on the road this morning has something in it, but since I don't want to be difficult." I was shocked jus sittin there.

Ryan opened the boot. "Almost as clean as my record."
"Be on your way," the officer said.
"Be on yours." Ryan said and got back in the car.
"Dickhead man," i said, "why did you let him talk to you like that."

"You want me to start wilin out so that he has an excuse to nab me, fuck that, thats what he wanted, he wanted me to start actin dumb and vex so he has an excuse to arrest me so that he can write down in his little file that he made an arrest, these pussy ole police officers, instead of bein out there sortin out the hype on the road they wanna target people in their whips."

"Its cos ur black," i said.
"The government and feds know about every single gang on road, they know about every single one cos when most man go pen, they snitch to get easier sentences, if the feds wanted to stop gang crime they could but that would mean accepting how big gang crime is and if you accept how big it is then you have to record it and then that would make crime rates sky rocket, but if you arrest one or two man and the odd man carryin dro in his whip then they can say theve reached their target like say this is a game show, and so they ignore things on purpose so they can say crimes gone down 10% and shit, when they know full well that bare people dont report crime and that even if they do, the people who commited the crime never get caught."

He started the car up, "Im not gonna be a fuckin statistic," he said, "Yeah i'm 19 now but what am i gonna do when im 40 years old, shot on road? what kind of waceman is that, even man who are 18 and still on road need to fix up, i was so blinded man, gettin arrested was the best fing cos it made me appreciate my life, im not gonna let some racist cunt in a uniform get me into shit, if he was really a bad man he and his colleagues would go to every estate on ends and do a raid, knife and gun crime would drop to 0% in a night but they dont want to."

"Why not," i said.
"Cos the more black man and girl that don't go college and don't go uni or go college and do shit in it means that the people at the top dont have to worry about their jobs, why do you think they brought in B-TECH, real talk, does it make sense that something as easy that is ever going to be taken seriously by an employer if ten man with alevels come in wanting the same job, like yeah, if the person with B-tech has got the experience then maybe but im talkin about 6 man come straight out of uni, one of them did a btech at college, the other 5 did alevels, nobody takes btech seriously and so they put all these people who did shit at gcses on it to limit their chances of getting a proper good job, like how are they puttin people that did btech on the same uni courses as people that did alevel, that means you might as well do btech to get into uni but people dont realize that a lot of people that did btech in college flop in uni cos the works too hard for them , you think the government dont know what they're doing, they know exactly what they're doing, its like voluntary slavery, us black yout are so busy tryin to be big on the road that we dont see that oppurtunities are just passin us by, i'm gonna go back to college in september, i got my gcses so im gonna go college and do alevels."

I looked at him, he was chattin so much sense, "thats why i dont care about sorcha," he said, "i really dont, i dont even think she's dead, i dont think its her body they found in that toilet."

"Why," i asked.
"Cos if u remember, she called a bit before i fucked u," he said, "and then her mum called after to say she was dead, how the fuck did they find her body so fast, aint it a bit convenient that the same night sorcha gets killed in that house the police do a raid."

I was bare confused, "I dont know," he said, "ill leave it to the feds to sort it out, thats what man pays his taxes for."

We got back to Ryans yard, then ryans phone rang.
"Hello," he said. he went silent and then put the phone down.
"what is it."

"Sorcha's mum and my dad just went to morgue- to identify the body."
"And is it her- is it Sorcha?".
"Its..."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 46 part 1

2010-04-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

I put the phone down and started cryin.
"Who said dat," ryan asked, "who was it."
"Her mum," i cried.
Ryan jumped up and took the phone. "It was witheld," i said.
"So how do you know it was her mum?", he asked.
"I recognised her voice, she said the police are at her house now..." i started bawlin so hard, "she wants us to be there."
Ryan looked at me as i started screamin and cryin for Sorcha.

Me and Ryan got to Sorcha's house and when he did some feds were leaving. We got out of the car and went into the house, the door was open. Her mum was on the sofa crying.
"Oh Ryan," she said running to hug him. Her teeth were so yellow coming like a drunk man's piss.
"What happened," i asked tryin not to cry.

She sat down and we sat down of the sofa next to her. "I came home from work two days ago as she was going out to some club she said, and Ive been at my boyfriends since last night but when I came back this morning, the police were waiting outside for me and they said they found...." she started crying.
Ryan put his arm around and her and patted her back.
"They did a drug raid in a house in West Ham and they found Sorcha in the toilets, someone had slit her throat."

I started bawlin. I couldnt hold it and had to leave the room. Ryan was startin to cry as well.
I stood outside the livin room cryin. I didnt care what anyone said, she was still my girl, i know she cared about me.
I heard Ryan ask, "how are the police sure its her."
then her mum said, "the girl fits her description and had her provisional licence on her, they want me to identify the body tommorow, your dad's coming to help me, he's coming here now."

I walked back into the room. Ryan jumped and shouted, "WHY DID YOU CALL HIM, he doesnt care about Sorcha."
Sorcha's mum started cryin and said, "he's her uncle ryan, he's your dad, he's the only member of the family who said he'd help, please for sorcha's sake, put your differences aside."

"Fuck you Mary, fuck you- you know how much i hate my dad," ryan started cryin, "if he's coming to then im not."

"Ryan please!",

He ran out of the room and into the car and i ran after him.
When i sat in the car, he had his head on the steering wheel crying.
"Ryan what's wrong," i asked.
"Mary knows how much i hate my dad and she called him here, he dont care about Sorcha Deena, he dont give a fuck about her and he never gave a fuck about me."

"Ryan please," i said, "tru say just do it for Mary, fink about Sorcha, you dont even have to speak to him, just be there to support Mary."

"I can't Deena, man just cant."
He drove off, "where we goin," i asked.
"Back to East," he said, "im gonna find out what happened."
"NO", i said, "lets just go back home."

"I need to talk to my boys, how can i sleep knowing someone who lives close to my bits duppied my cousin, I know she was rolling with some bookie man or some big drug business shit, but i didnt know...."

Then he started to cry. It was dark outside and raining bare hard. I could feel the cold even though we were in the car. I missed Sorcha so much,it was like i could keep seein this image of her dead with her head in some toilet with her throat slit.
I farted.
Ryan looked at me and kissed his teeth and when i back to thinkin of Sorcha. We got to Fumez flat and it brought back so many memories, when i did line ups for him and his boys.
When we got inside the estate, there were bare man on bikes just there talkin.
When they saw me and Ryan, they got overhaps.
"Big man's back," one of the guys who i sucked in the line up said walkin over to us.
He hugged Ryan and said, "I went to see Fumez in pen today, he said you never go and see him."

"Murda, thats not why I'm here." Ryan said. Murda looked at me and licked his lips.
"You came for round 2 yeah," he said to me.
Ryan grabbed his neck and said, "dont ever talk to my fuckin wife like dat again."
Murda said sorry.
"It's Sorcha," I said, "she's dead."
All of the man were lookin shocked, Sorcha had probably backed most of them brain.
"Nah nah bruv," Murda said, "nah nah it cant be."

"It's true," I said, "she got found in some house in West Ham,".
"Nah nah,"Murda said, "its not true."
"Stop fuckin sayin that bruv," Ryan said, "are u man gonna back me in this yeah, im on taking care of whoever did dis."

"Ryan,"Murda said, "I know who duppied her."
Ryan looked at me.

Murda continued, "I know who duppied her cos I sent her to that house."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 45

2010-04-24T07:10:00.001-07:00

"Ryan no."

Ryan was holding the shank to Smurkz neck looking at Smurkz lips. Smurkz boys went to fuck up Ryan but when they saw how close the shank was to smurkz neck they stood back.
Smurkz looked at me in shock.
"Deena," he said.
I looked away. Ryan looked bare stunned, "who the fuck are you," ryan asked him. I looked at Smurkz face, he had a fat scar on his hand. "He's my ex," i said.
Smurkz looked bare shook, he knew that i could have ryan shank him up for what he did to me, setting me up to be duppied cos i agreed to help chanel set him up.

"Fuck off," Ryan told smurkz boys.
they looked so prang.
All of a sudden, bare man came with the guy who Smurkz had been chasing.
At least 20 man. Smurkz boys tried to duss but two of the guys caught them.

"Thats the boy who helped me," the boy said to the tallest bre he was with.
The boy who was getting chased must of run back to his estate to call his older brother and his boys cos these man werent playin.
"He was tryna jack him," ryan said.
"Safe for that man," the guys older brother said.
Smurkz and his boys started beggin them not to hurt them.

I was so confused, the alleyway was pack up, i saw some girls turn the other way when they saw how many man were in there.
"What happend CJ," one of the guys asked.
"I was coming back from the shop to buy grandad's newspaperand i dropped a ten pound note, when i dropped it these guys started chasin me for it." cj said. He looked about 12 and smurkz and his goons were trying torob him.

The bres looked angry.
Ryan looked at me and then all the other bres did. I saw one say "shit man she's fucking cheung."
Then the tallest guy, who i think was CJ's brother punched Smurkz in the face and then pushed smurkz boys next to him so all three of them were next to each other and the 20 guys and me and ryan were surrounding them.

I felt someone slyly touch my ass, Ryan didnt notice, so i didnt say anything.
"You man like robbing youts yeah," cj's brother said, he looked like abutters version of Reggie Bush.
"Get on your knees," Ryan said.
I looked at Ryan.
"Nah," Smurkz said.
One of the guys backhanded him, "on your fucking knees bruv." Somebody had serious BO, true say i felt like i was in a Uni rave, bare unclean black bres like sardines in a can.
"Get on your knees," i said.
All the guys looked at me, "these bre jackedmy nan," i lied, i wanted to make smurkz pay for what he did to me and sorcha, i almostkilled sorcha cos of him, he and natalie set me up to be raped, now he would pay.

"He jacked your nan?", Cjs brother asked.
I nodded.
"she's chatting shit," smurkz said.
"Does it even fucking matter," i said, "you tried to jack this litle boy."

"This girls militant yeh nah," one of the guys said. I was on a hype, i never thought id get the chance to make smurkz pay, dee is just lucky he wasnt there.
"On your knees," Ryan said.
smurkz and his boys got on their knees.
"Only wace bres jack people," Ryan, "big man make their own P, big man secure their own shit, alie."

all the guys said alie. Later, true say ryan just met these guys.
"Since you wanted my youts tenner somuch," ryan said, "kiss mine."

I gasped. Ryan whipped out his dick. some of the other bres were like "nah nah put it away," but cjs brother told them to shut up.
"You like tenners so much, kiss my ten inch dick bruv."

What the fuck, why werent any of the bres suprised ryan was doin this, i mean what the fuck, who whips out their dick and tells someone else to suck it in front of bres they just met.
"fuck that battyboy shit,"smurkz said tryin not to cry.
"it aint batty boy shit," cjs brother said, "it's a lesson, you wanna act like a bitch, then take a dick in your mouth like a bitch."

Smurkz boys were trying their best not to cry.
"You got pretty lips too as well," Ryan laughed,"suck on it, put them lips to use innit."

I looked at Smurkz, i knew he wasnt gonna do it, Smurkz may have been a prick, but theres no way he'd suck another mans dick.
"batty boy fi dead," smurkz said.
Ryan punched smurkz so hard in the face, smurks eyes redded up quick.
"Suck his dick and we'll allow you innit," cjs' brother said.

Then one of the guys gave cjs brother a strap.
"suck his dick or man will pop you in the head right now, no long."
Smurkz looked at the dick, he started cryin and slowly opened his mouth.
Ryan closed his eyes.
I held in my vomit.
Smurkz put his mouth on the dick.
Ryan punched him.
"BATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTY BOY!", Ryan shouted. all of the bres started creasin.
"It was a test u fucking chich," ryan said, "now we're gonna fuck u up."
cjs brother gave ryan five and all of them were creasing, i looked at smurkz and his boys and one of them looked so shook im suprised i wasnt smelling his shit.

"You know what guys," ryan said looking at me, "you deal with pussy hole, im gonna take my wifey home."
Cjs brother said," safe for that yeah, any problems, holla at man yeah."
They exchanged numbers and then me and ryan left.
I kissed Ryan on the cheek, what a big man, unlike that pussy Adam, Adam was such a pussy that im sure he must bleed once a month.

"Tell me about what happened with you and that bre," ryan said talking about smurkz.
"It doesnt matter," i said. "hes a wace man."
"You say wace like i do," he said.
"how."
"you say wace, instead of waste."
We stopped in the middle of the pavement and lipsed.
We got back to ryans yard.
We both got in the shower and sat on the couch watching eastenders. I proper felt like i was some big woman with her husband.
i looked at him and said, "i love you so much."
He smiled and said, "im just happy me and u are still on this love ting, after everything ive done."

"oh wait," he said, "i got a present for you."
"what is it."
He got up and went upstairs and came down with a cd, he gave it to me.
"It's Joe Grind's cd innit, Not Your Average Joe, i know you like him innit," he said.
I jumped up and hugged him, i was fuckin feenin for this cd.
"girls see me and they start talking like my brother, UMMMM", i said.
Ryan laughed and hugged me.
My heart was beatin too fast for this bre. I felt my pussy getting wet and i wanted to ask him to fuck me, but i didnt wanna sound too much like a hoe innit.

Then Ryan's phone rang.
"Its Sorcha."
"Ignore it," i said, "dumb slag."
Ryan laughed, "shes my cousin man."
"So, shes a fucking slag."
"True true, a few of the girls in my fam are like that, i heard my cousin rochelle was a bit of a bosh."
I rolled my eyes, i thought i'd heard the last of that skets name from when chanel pretended to be her to get my attention back in the day.
"Listen," i said, "lets just play this cd innit."

I put the cd in.
We started skankin hard to Mad Situation. Ryan sat down on the sofa and started watchin me whine.
My skank turned into a lap dance. this song was so hypnotic. I slowly took of my clothes, i was in this sexy agent provocateur underwear, basically the knickers had a zip at the front.
mad situation was so hard, i started grindin on ryans lap as he was feeling on my tits, and then Not Your Average Joe came on.
"I'm the ones that says DAMN FAM!".
Ryan was getting so gassed up as i sucking on his neck. my ass in the air, my tits on his chest.
"you're sick deena."
"thats because im your average joe," i whispered in his ear.
He kissed my lips as i was sitting on his lap, his fingers all over my wet pussy.
his hands felt bare warm, his dick was so hard against my ass.
"UMMMMM, that feels nice," he said.
I was so wet, mypussy was making that smacking noise that all wet pussies do.
I need a dick in me.
Ryan kissed my neck, "do you any gunna bars," he said.
"what do you like him?".
I looked at ryan and he blushed.
He turned me over and started dry sexin me so nice as i said, "snitches in the station leavin letters like the mail man."
Ryans boner got harder.
"even bitches know we do dis ting."
His jeans were off.
"I get that paper high, like im flyin in the..."

His dick was in me and he was fucking me.
His fat piece was so far and hard in me that i had to gasp to catch my breath. he was grinding in me so hard and fast with his head over my shoulder and his hands up against the wall.
"fuck me," i said.
He was in my pussy so hard, "oh shit." my cum was runnin down my leg and all over his dick.
i felt the tip of his dick hit my gspot and his vline was banging into mine.
He licked my mouth.
I grabbed his ass and pushed him deeper in me.
I suddenly saw Smurkz face in my head, I looked at Ryan to get the image out of my head.
why was i thinkin about getting fucked by smurkz.
Ryans body was so nang, he was proper goin on raw now, he was fuckin me so hard, i had to hold onto his neck to stop myself from falling.
it was like his dick was vex with my pussy.
"ur fuckin tight," he laughed.
i couldnt even speak, i was just gruntin, my head banging against the sofa.
i was gona cum but i didnt wanna cum to soon, so i said, "lemme suck ur dick."
He pulled his dick out and put it in my mouth as Joe Grind's album played in the background.
I could taste my pussy on his dick. I licked the tip and let the whole thing slide into my mouth.then i started sucking it so hard.
His dick was grindin against my tongue as the tip of his dick was drippin with pre-cum down my throat.
my pussy was so wet as i was kneeling on the floor sucking ryans dick.
his hands were in my hair massaging my head as i gave him head.
I took the dick out of my mouth and started bashin it off as i licked the balls
"oh shit," he giggled, "your mouths bare warm."

"warmer that my pussy?", i asked before lickin the tip of his dick.
"nothins warmer than ur pussy," he said.
He lay on the floor , i knew what to do.
I slowly sat on the top half of his dick and started bouncing it. he started writhin, i knew he was gona cum.
so i did this trick that sorcha taught me.
when i could feel his dick about to let his cum come out, i closed my legs bare tight and let them rest on his stomach, basically jamming his dick in my pussy, so when he came it would go directly in my pussy and every single nerve in his dick would feel it.
he screamed.
he actually screamed like achick as he came.

i laughed and got up. I wiped my pussy with my middle finger and put it in my mouth.
Then ryans phone rang again.
i kissed my teeth.
"answer it please," ryan said lying on the floor with his eyes closed and pantin.
the number was witheld.
i answered it. the person said something, i gasped and then i threw the phone down.

"whats wrong?", ryan asked looking at me.
"Its Sorcha," i said.

"She's dead."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 44

2010-04-22T02:54:00.001-07:00

"Fuck you Sorcha, get the fuck out," I said.
She looked at me like i had told her Sway Dcypha had a top 10 single.
"What," she said.
"You think im gonna survive gettin set up by jesse, faisani and natalie, almost getting killed by smurkz, getting raped at aidens party and having to watch adam get made a mockery out of just to get raped cos ryan owes money, fuck you sorcha, i'm telling Ryan so he can sort it."

She kissed her teeth, "you're dumb, let them fuck you and it'll be over and done with."

"YOU fuck them, nah nah, just get out, just get the fuck out," i said.
"LAAAAAAAAAAAATER babes, this is my cousins yard, how r u gonna tell me to get out,"she said.
"Like this." I punched her in her boat so hard. she fell back and her nose started bleeding.
"You're some any jealous sket who dont like it when im happy, thats why you're tryna involve me in this shit, fuck you and get out, im telling ryan when he gets back and he'll sort out his own shit, about asking me to let some man rape me to pay off a debt, what do you take me for, some kind of sket?".

She looked at me as she wiped the blood from her nose with the back of her hand.
"You think you're big now innit, now that Ryan wants you back, you think he's changed but it wont last long, its only cos fumez is in pen but once ryan sees his boys again, he'll be the same bre that fucked u up, the same bre that almost killed you when he dropped his PS2 on your belly."

"It was an xbox," i said.
She kissed her teeth, I told her, "Sorcha, i'm gonna tell you this once yeah, im not the same dick ed girl u met at your party, im not, so go find some other sket to fuck about with cos im back with my man and nothings gonna change that ok."

"Oh please," she said, "spare me the speech, coming like final thoughts on the Jerry Springer show, Ryan knows your a sket, he knows EVERYTHING, all the man we fucked together, all the brain you backed, all the buss you used to moisturize your tonsils."

"You mus forget tings fast cos tru say i just boxed you in your boat." i said.

"You caught me off guard, try that again and it'll be me and you."

"Is that a dare."
"Dont fuck me with Deena yeah, you really shouldnt, i know a few man whod like to do bad tings to you." she said.

I boxed her again.
She grabbed my neck and slammed me into the floor and started kicking my stomach, i grabbed her leg and pulled the bitch down and started tumpin her forehead, she scratched my tit and kicked me back. I fell onto the sofa. I picked up Ryan's xbox controller and threw it at her. it hit her nose and she started cryin as she jumped on me, me and her were wrestlin on the sofa and then onto the floor.
We proper scuffin like bres, i wanted to tear her dress so bad so i kept tuggin at the straps and when it did, she punched me in the face so hard, i blacked out for a bit.
I grabbed her pussy so hard till she screamed, she spat on my face and some went into my mouth, her saliva tasted like cum.
She headbutted me and then she.

Then she kissed me.
I kissed her back and we started rubbin our tits together.
Then she kissed my neck, i started to groan, then FUCK!
"You bit me you bosh!".

I kicked her back and she hit the front door.
"Get out," i said.
She got up and said, "That was round one you dirtz, watch when i catch you on road."
I burst out laughin, "what are you gonna do, get your sketty mum on me."
She picked up one of Ryan's phones and threw it at me, i caught it.
She left.

I was on a hype now.
I called Ryan and begged him to come back. He said he was in East and that he was coming back now.
I tried to tidy up but it just could be tidy, that bitch had broken the sky control. Then i thought, how the fuck was ryan affording sky and 6 bills at westfields when he didnt work, i hoped he wasnt still shotting.

When he came back, I told him everything.
"I just paid them man back just now," he said, "thats where i went."
I hugged him, "imagine if i had done what she said," i said, "it wouldve been for nothing."
"She's a bosh bruv, tru say shes supposed to be your friend, how can she even suggest that."

"Nah nah, she said that the guys you owed want to do it, it wasnt her idea," i said.
"shes chattin shit," he said, "she probably came up with the idea."
Then he kissed me and said, "you're bare trustworthy,".
"Ryan," i said, "are you still on man."
He looked at me and said, "are YOU still on man."
"Yeah."
"There's your answer, the only person im fucking is you, so who i'm on dont matter, who i'm with is what does."
I kissed him and we lipsed for so long.
"Lets go out tonight, let's go Central , to the cinema,"
"Can we get train," i said, "i aint been on train in ages,"
"Ah i hate trains man," he said. "but for you, we'll go on the train, go get ready."

"I'll see if they're showing Shank."
"cool,"he said.
I checked the cinema times on the blackberry ryan gave me and then put on this
http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Oversize-Scoop-Neck-Batwing-Lounge-Sweat-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1089680&cid=8834&sh=0&pge=1&pgesize=20&sort=-1&clr=Bleached+Blue+Marl

And these shoes
http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Stargazer-Leather-Cutout-Shoe/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=950674&cid=6461&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Pale+Pink

I had my hair like Ciara's in the video for Ride when she was on the mechanical bull and put on my make up with my smokey eyes. Oh my gosh, you dun know im the sexiest girl on road.

When i walked downstairs, Ryan said "chayze" and wanted to bang me before we left but i told him that my pussy hurt from my scuff with Sorcha and so we could bang when we got back.
We walked to Tooting Bec station and got the Northen Line to Bank, then changed on the Central line and got it to Oxford Circus then we walked to the cinema.
I swear, everyone was clockin me and Ryan as we held hands, i could feel that he felt so nang being next to me and i was the same, we lipsed when we passed Uniqlo and then we walked all past the madness in the square then into the cinema to see Shank.

We left halfway through and decided to go back home to beat.
We got back on the train and when got to tooting bec station, some fat idiot pushed past me and ran.
Then come to find out, he was being chased by three guys.
The guy who was running looked so scared.
"Ryan dont," i said.
"nah nah deena, i need to help him, what if it was your little brother."
I looked at him and he started to chase after the guys who were chasin the other guys.
I kissed my teeth and followed them.
When i got there Ryan was holding a shank to one of the guys necks, i didnt know where the guy who they were chasing had gone but the other two guys were bare prang cos ryan had a shank to their boys neck. I couldnt see the boys face but all i could hear ryan sayin, "you wanted to eat that fat bre cos he looked like a pussy, but now man has a shank to your neck, you're lost for words."

"Ryan dont,"i said.
Ryan looked at me and the guy who he had the shank to took off his hoodie and looked at me.
Oh my fucking gosh.
"Smurkz."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 43

2010-04-21T09:58:00.000-07:00

I punched Natalie and ran. She fell on the floor and i ran all the way back to ryanshouse crying.
I banged on the door. He answered it. I hugged him and cried. I just cried so hard.
"Whats wrong," he said.
He sat me down the sofa and gave me a tissue. I wiped my eyes. "I saw Natalie, she said the baby my mum lost was her dads."

Ryan looked so shocked and hugged me.
"What kind of man does that, hes fucked me, sorcha, his girlfriend and now my own mum," i cried so hard.
Ryan kissed my forehead and said, "Listen it's cool, just call your mum to ask."
"No," i said, " i dont wanna speak to her again, I just wanna be with you."

We lipsed. My phone rang. it was Marlon. I kissed my teeth and put the phone off. "Ill give you a new phone."
He took my phone and went up to his room and came back with the new Blackberry foursquare. He gave it to me. "How much is it monthly," i asked.

"Dont watch that, ill pay."
I kissed him.
I grabbed him by waist and held my head to his dick.
"I fuckin love you Deena."
I stood up and kissed his lips. "How many times did me and u used to fuck a day," he asked.
I giggled.
"Am i the best fuck you ever had," he asked.
"Yeah," i said. I was lying, it was Adam, it was him because Adam was rough but gentle and when he fucked me i knew he really cared cos after we would talk and crack jokes with the other ones, it was just a wock and that was it. I Didnt love Ryan, i never loved smurkz, adam was the only one.
I kissed Ryan's tatoo on his neck and he squeezed my ass.
"Let's go shopping," he said, "We'll go Westfields."
"Ok."
He got ready and i fixed my make up and we left the yard, got in his car and drove to West.
I swear down, we must have been the sexiest couple a them heads in west had ever seen cos they couldnt stop clockin as we walked into Hollisters.
I saw Ryan clocking the mixraced ting on the till and ignored it. "Pick out anything you want," he said.
I picked out bare jeans and a few hoodies and some sexy white guy came to talk to me.
"You need any help," he asked.
"Erm no i'm fine thanks,".
He smiled at me and left, i would so let him it.
I looked over at Ryan and saw him crackin joke with the mix race ting.
I walked over the till and put the clothes down.
Ryan kissed my cheek, "this is my girl Deena," he said to the mixrace bre.
"U alright," the guy said. He looked bare like Master shortie.

He scanned the items.
"That'll be £236.79 please." he said.
Ryan took out a stack of bills and paid the guy in cash. The guy took the money as his collegue bagged the clothes.
Ryan took all the bags.
"Babes i can carry some," i said.
"Forget it,"he laughed, "you need your hands free for more shit."
As we walked out of Hollisters some girl gave me dirty look and licked her lips at Ryan.
We bought bare other shit and then he went food shopping at M&s, then we went into the car park, got in his whip and went back home.

When we got back, we put the bags in the front room and then Ryan said, "I have to go see some guy," he said, "ill be back in an hour."
"Dont go," i said, "stay with me."
He kissed my lips and said "Do you want me to make dinner when i get back, or do you wanna make it."

"I cant cook," i said.
He shook his head, "a wifey who can't cook, what's next- Sadie Ama a virgin?".
I didnt wanna laugh cos i thought Sadie was a heavy singer but i buss out laughin.
I kissed him and then he left.
I took out all my new clothes and folded them onto me and ryans bed.
Then there was a knock at the door.
I ran down and answered it.

"Deena!".
"What the fuck do you want."
Sorcha walked in to the house, she was wearin this http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Sequin-Sunset-Vest-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1021340&cid=10572&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=20&sort=-1&clr=Print

And these shoes http://www.asos.com/1971-Reiss/1971-Reiss-Marina-Nubuck-Peeptoe-With-Cut-Out-Cuff/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=968369&cid=6461&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=20&sort=-1&clr=Champagne

She always looked on point.
"Deena, you live here now?", she asked.
"Sorcha, does Ryan know you're meant to be here,".
She kissed her teeth, "its you i came to see innit."
She had taken out her blue contacts and her hair was so boom, she had dyed it blonde and it was bare long and frizzy.
"I need your help," she said.
"I beg you fuck off," i said, "why are you still even breathing"
"Ryan owes some man some money and they're coming afterhim," she said.

I looked at her.
"What do you mean, how is he broke,he just spent bare P in westfields just now."
"He owes money for some scam they did, he took too much it and now some East man are after him, thats why he left East to come live in south, he owes bare p."

"How much," i asked.
"3 grand."
"What the fuck," i said. I was feeling so sick, what the fuck was going on.
"Deena, i need your help."
"Why dont you tell Ryan, dont involve me in your shit, you think im gonna give u 3grand to pay these man when next ting i know ur chattin shit and u keep the money for yourself."

"I havent told Ryan cos the guys said there's an alternative."
"Sorcha, why the fuck are you getting involved in my mans shit, if he owes money just fuck off and tell him, let him deal with it."

"Im gettin involved because they wanna kill him, he took their money and said he'd payit back but then left endz but they said there's an alternative that Ryan doesnt need to know about."

"What the fuck is it Sorcha, what the fuck is this alternative."

"We set up this chick for them to..."

"What."

She looked at me and said"They want me to set you for them to rape you and then they wont kill Ryan."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 42

2010-04-20T11:15:00.001-07:00

I woke up on Ryan's sofa.
It was 6 in the morning and Ryan was in his room and he had dropped Sorcha home after he picked me up. I wasnt sleeping with him.
I went up to his room and he was watching grime daily on his laptop.
"You ok," he said.
"Ryan, can you drop me back to Hendon please."
"Right now," he asked.
I nodded.
"I have a spare toothbrush," he said.
"I wanna go back now please, il brush my teeth there." He got up and puton jeans and a white tshirt.
The sun was out and it was kind of breezy. I didnt even care about what i looked like, i just put on my sunglasses and got in the car with him.
"Hes not a pussy," he said when we got to the traffic lights.
"He is a pussy," i said, "what kind of big man lets other guys run up on them and make them strip and do starjumps."

"All i know is dat dem boys werent gas gang, it was probably some eediats sayin they were just in case you and adam called the feds so the feds would automatically go for gas gang instead of them," he said.

"Hes still a pussy."
"If he's a pussy, why are you going back to him," Ryan asked. "What was he supposed to do, he was out of his ends, 6 or 7 man with shanks, did you expect him to take on 7 man when he had nothin on him in THEIR OWN ENDZ, come on Deena, sometimes fighting isnt always the answer, he's still alive, they might have duppied him if he tried to fight back."

I didnt say anything.
"Why you defending him," i asked.
"Deena, mans seen some fucked shit man, i wish I was like this adam bre, like he aint on a hype, he sounds like a good bre, them guys that attacked him might have gotten away with his jewlery but the way you describe how he's got his life together, he can buy it all back today, those man who jacked him are still gonna be on road tommorow and the day after that and the day after."

I looked at him and he was so beautiful, Id never seen him like this. I forgot about the way he fucked me up, how I lost a yout cos of it and then i thought of my mum.
We were driving for a bit and then after an hour we got to Marlons house.

"Ryan," i said, "I like you, but i dont trust you or Sorcha, i dont think i can see you again."
"Why not," he said, "mans told you ive changed."
"I know, but I love Adam."
He didnt say anything for a bit and then we saw Adam walk into the house with a newspaper in his hand.
"I love him bare," i said, "like he's proper good to me and he wouldnt hurt me like you did and that bitch Sorcha," i kissed my teeth.
"Alright," he said, "but dun know you know its me you'll call when you've got problems on road, just like last night."

I kissed him on the cheek and said, "cool."
Then i got out of the car and watched ryan drive off.
I walked to the door and unlocked it. Adam was in the sofa watching GMTV.
"You cool?", i asked.
"Yeah," he said quietly.
I sat next to him.
"Did your friends get home alright," i asked. He nodded.
"I shouldnt have left you like that,"he said. "I know you werent laughing."

"Them man are pricks," i said.
"Lets not talk about it yeah."
I kissed him. He got up slowly. "You think im a pussy," he said. I looked at him and said, "no no i dont."
"I let south man jack me and make me take off my garms and make me dance,"he said.
"You dont act like you're from road so i dont expect you to act... i dont expect you to.."

"You dont expectme to know how to defend myself," he said.
"Fuck you Adam!", i shouted, "Fuck you! you're here feeling sorry for yourself acting like your the first man on road to get eaten, why you pissed at me for."

"Im not pissed at you, im pissed at myself, im pissed black boys, im pissed that i got eaten cos i was wearing garms that looked expensive, thats why they asked me to take them off, they were jealous."

"I know that," i said, "i know that they're waist."
"No you dont Deena," he said, "cos i saw who dropped you here, hes the kind of bre thats involved in that kind of shit yeah- man cant even go to a rave without being clocked by other man cos i look better than them."
I got up and kissed my teeth, "Im tired of this shit," i said.

"No you're not," he said, "You like it,"
"What do you mean."
"Uncle Marlon told me about why you had to spain, you like dem kind of bres, you never liked me, you like them waste man who spend all day on road thinkin they're hard cos they intimidate people, you like them waste man on road who fink converting to Islam is like deciding whether to order nandos or dominos, you like them PRICKS who jack people who look vulnerable."

"Dont fuckin blame me cos ur a pussy who cant defend himself." I said.
He shook his head, "leave Deena, i beg you fuckin leave and go back to South, them man there can entertain your shit, you're nice but you know it, my boy told me how you boyed him off at a bus stop, i didnt wanna say shit cos i thort u were just having abad day but now i know, you're a beautiful sket, that's all you are, you're a beautiful sket who dont want man like me who are out workin hard, you like them wasteman."

I punched him and ran upstairs crying and packed my suitcase.
I pulled my case downstairs and he was there looking at me. He tried to hug me but i pushed him away.
"I proper liked you," i said, "i didnt think you were a dick ed in life and you're not, but you're so proud, blaming me for what some waste pricks on road."

"Deena, im sorry."
"Ill call uncle Marlon later to sort things out," i said.
I left the house and started bawlin and called a cab, i was going back to my house.
I cried all the way in the cab. I could tell the driver wanted to ask if i was ok, but the way i was crying it was obvious i wanted to be left alone. I liked adam bare, but he was taking the fuckin piss now.
I got to my house and then i decided not to go inside, i told the driver to take me to Ryans house. I didnt care how much it cost.

I got to Ryan's house and knocked on the door. When he answered it, i just lipsed him. he grabbed my ass and kicked the door closed.
He threw my suitcase on the floor and took off my clothes, i ran upstairs into his room and jumped on the bed naked.
He took off his clothes and his body... he had been in the gym. he had the six pack and the vline and his chest was so sexy, he licked his lips and spread open my legs with his knees.
"beat me," i said, "fucking beat me."
His dick was movin by itself up and down and then he started to rub it against my pussy, he groaned, "ah shit," he said. the sensitivity of his dick was making my pussy feel so nice.
I started to twist and turn as he slowly put his dick in me. it made that wet noise. he was almost completely inside of me, i grabbed onto his arse to try and push him in further.
"ryan yeah."
he was all in me, his fat cock in my wet pussy making that smacking sound, he was groaning ashe wocked me. he looked down at me and smiled. "OH SHIT." the feeling of his pelvis against my clit was driving me mad, i wrapped my legs around his waist so he could get deeper in me and when he did he stuck his tongue in my mouth. he was jooking me so raw, his dick all in my pussy, his sexy body sweating all down on me.
I closed my eyes and i was getting so high. he started to whine his hips in and out.

"dont stop," i said.
"my beats good,"
i giggled, "the best."
Then he started fucking me so hard, my head was just banging against the headboard as he had his hands around my neck and his thick dick in my cooch. He pulled out of me and turned me round and slowly put his dick back in me. he was doggying me with the upper half of his body arched above me with his hands keeping him up, it was like he was doing press ups whilst fucking me.
i could feel every inch of his fat cock in me, he was groanin as he was banging me, in my head i could see him bangin me, his pelvis was smakcing my ass.
"ryan i love you."
"i knew you'd come back."
"AHH"
One jook.
Two Jook.
Three Jook. Four.
I was about to cum when my phone rang.
Shit.

Ryan laughed and lay on the bed as i picked up the phone.
"Hello."
"Deena its me."
"Mum, i was gonna call."
"Deena its ok, listen i need you to come to the house, ive been let out of hospital."
"Ok ok i'll come."
"Do you want Uncle Paul to pick you up."
"No no its fine,i can come." I didnt tell her i was with ryan.
"Ill be there in abit." i said.
I put the phone down and looked at Ryan. "You good?", i asked as he was bashing off.
"Who called."
"My mum," i said.
As he was bashin i quickly put my mouth over his dick so he bust all over my tongue, i swallowed it and giggled.
"CHAYZE!", He said.
I got up, brushed my teeth, had a shower and put on my baggy electric blue jumper, black tights and pink and blue louboutins. "Ill be back tonight," i told ryan.
"Cool- call me when you're done and ill come pick you up," he said.
I didnt say anything and left his house.

As i was walking down the street to catch the bus to go back to my house, i heard someone call my name.
I looked.
Oh shit.
Natalie. With some tall sexy mixraced hench ting.
She walked toward me and looked at me, "Fuck off," i said.
She laughed and said, "tell your mum im sorry for her."

"What the fuck you talkin about," i said.
"I knew my dad was a wasteman, but i didnt know he was this low."
The guy she was with looked at her as if to say allow it.
"What do you mean," i said.
"I know your mum lost her baby," she said, "True say it just wasnt meant to be."

"What do you mean," i said.
"Me and you being step sisters?".
"What."
"The yout your mum lost- it was my dads."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 41

2010-04-18T09:41:00.000-07:00

Marlon came back from the hospital.
I was just sitting with Adam in the living room tryin not to seem nervous.
He looked at me and sat opposite me and Adam.
"Adam, could you give me and Deena a minute please," he said.
Adam looked at me and then kissed my cheek. Then he went upstairs.

"Is she ok,"i asked.
"Deena, your mum had a bit of an accident," he said.
"Oh my gosh," i said, "is she dead."

"No," he said, "but Deena, I need you to promise not to do anything too rash when i tell you this yeah?"

I started to cry.
"Your mum had a miscarriage," he said.
"What."
He looked at me and said, "She was in the car when it happened." I didnt even know what to say, I just felt shocked like i wasnt hearing what he was saying.
"Is she ok," i asked.
"Yeah she is, she's at Barnet hospital,"
"Who's with her?", i asked.
"Her boyfriend."
"Sorry what?". What the hell was this guy telling me, i was proper shocked.
"She hasnt got a man," i said.
"I don't know if maybe she hasnt told you, but she has,".
I got up and shook my head, "i dont wanna see her," i said.
"Deena, shes your mum, shes just lost a baby," he said.
"If she couldnt even tell me she had a man, then i dont need to go and see her, her man can look after her."

"Deena how can you say this, shes your mum." he said.
"She wasnt thinking aboutbeing a mum when she was always at work taking the money my dad sent to me," i said, "you dont know about all these fings marlon, im grateful for you letting me stay here, i really am but i cant see her."

"She says she wants to see you, shes upset," Marlon said.
"Marlon," i said, "I cant."
"Ok," he said, "Im going back there now, do you know your grandmas number in Barbados."
I shook my head, "She moved back there recently, i dont know, but here's the number for my Uncle Jason's mum, she can tell my nan."

I gave him the number and he said, "When you're ready to see her let me know yeah, i dontknow what she did to you, but she's still your mum."
Then he left.
Adam came downstairs and i started cryin.
He held me in his arms, "you ok,"
I couldnt stop bawlin. I felt sick, i had cried so many times recently and i was getting sick of it.
"She had a miscarriage," i said.
"Did you know she was pregnant," he asked.
I shook my head.
I ran up to the toilet and just vomited.
Adam stood behind me and held my hair back.
"You finished," he said gently.
I kept vomiting.
When i had finished, he flushed the toilet and watched me brush my teeth.
I was feeling so weak.
"Lie down,"
He helped me into bed and i lay on his chest with his arms around my waist.
"Deena, are you ok," he said.

"I told her i didnt wanna see her again," i said, "i feel bare guilty."
He kissed my forehead.
"Deena, i think u should go and see her y'nah, shes your mum, shes got nobody but you," he said.

"She's got a man," i said, "she didnt even wanna tell me."
"Maybe she was waiting to introduce him,"he said.
"She didnt want me to know cos of somethin i know about her, she knew what i would think of her."
Then i looked at him, "fuck me," i said.

"Deena man,"he said, "lets talk, your mums just gone through losing a yout, lets go see her."
I started to try and take off his jeans but he got up.
"Deena, we need to talk about this."

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE TO TALK ABOUT ADAM!".
He looked at me and said, "Im downstairs when you're ready to think straight."
Then he left the room and closed the door.
I lay on the bed crying. Just crying so hard. I hated my mum so much, why didnt she just say she was pregnant.

I didnt wanna think about it, i just wanted to fuck.
I walked downstairs and saw Adam tidying the living room.
"Im going out," i said.
"Deena wait," he said. He walked over to me and hugged me, "Listen, i just wanted to talk to you about it, we can chat in your own time."

I looked at him and kissed him on the lips and then he said, "at least lemme call Uncle Marlon to tell your mum that you will go and see her."
I nodded.
He picked up his phone and sent a text.
"Sorry," i said.
He smiled and said, "Go lie down and Ill bring you up something to munch yeah."
"Im not really hungry," i said, "my stomach still hurts a bit."

"Lets go for a drive then yeah," he said, "Get some fresh air."
I kissed him and we both got in his car.
The windows were down and we just drove everywhere, we drove all round Brent Cross and Sudbury, then Queensbury then Tottenham then Central, then we passed Westfields and just rode on the A40.
It felt so fucking beautiful.
He was blastin out Shystie One Wish and then the air was clearing my head.
We got back to the house.
He unlocked the door and went to the housephone.
"Someone left amessage," he said.
He put the phone on speaker.

"Adam, Deena its me, Deena im with your mum, she's staying in the hospital overnight and they've said she'll be ok, they just need to runsome tests, your Uncle Paul is coming to take her up to Leeds tommorow night, just to let you know,i'll see you tommorow morning."

I looked at Adam.
"Ill call him later so i can see her before she goes," i said.
Adam nodded.
"Im hungry,"i said, "is there anything to eat,".

"I feel like some chinese man," he said.
"Bare takeway, its not good for you."
He lifted his Raplhie to show me his six pack, "Say suttin." I giggled and hugged him.
"Do you wanna fuck me now,"i asked.
He kissed me and said, "get your ass up to my bed."
I walked slowly up to the room, letting him feel my ass.
we got to the room and he took off my clothes. i took off his and we were lying on his bed, i was playing with his dick.

Then he said, "Get on top."
"Im not wet enough yet," i said.
he put his fingers on my pussy and started to massage, my tits were feeling bare sensitive . i started gettin wet and then his phone rang.
"Ah man," he said lookin at his phone.
"whats wrong," i said.
"I promised my boy id pick him up from some rave in South," he said.
"Hasnt your boy heard of a cab," i said getting vex.
"He got moved to at some rave last week innit so he's still a bit shook."

"So whys he goin ravin then," i said.
"I promised id go pick him and his boy up, i have to go."
"ALL THE WAY TO SOUTH?!", i said.
"I know im pissed off too," he said.
I kissed my teeth.
"Come with me," he said, "lets go quick, drop him off to his yard and then we'll come back."

"Some any pussy bre," i said, "cant even go ravin without someone havin to pick u up."
Adam laughed as we got dressed, my mind went back to my mum for a bit and then i said, "adam, seriously- is your boy such a pussy that he needs you to pick him up from South."

"I promised him Deena."

I kissed my teeth as we both got into the car.
"Where in south," i asked.
"Narm," he said.
"Im staying in the car," i said.
We were drivin for about 45 minutes, when we got to Peckham. It was some house and they were bare youts leaving it. Adam parked near some alleyway.
"Stay in the car yeah," he said.
He got out of the car and went into the house.
I locked the car doors. I was so shook, i put on my Coco and Breezy sunglasses.
I looked and saw Adam walking to the car with two guys, they looked about 16.
Oh shit.
About 6 man surrounded them.
I didnt waste no time, i picked up my phone and went to call 999 but one of the man banged on the window and i could hear him saying "open the fucking door."
I was bare shook when i saw them jacking Adam and so i unlocked the door and they pulled me out.
"Oi, look at this boomy," one of the guys said.
"Shit bruv," one of the other guys said, "Thats that Deena sket."
They all started laughing.
About 6 people walked past and didnt say nothing as they forced me Adam and two guys into the alleyway.
"Gimme your phone," one of them said to Adam.
Adams boys took off their chains, their watches and their phones and gave it to the bres.
"Please, allow us man," Adam said.
"Look at this pusys," one of the guys said, "is he your man," he said to me.

I didnt say anything.
"Bruv- this chickstoo peng" one of the guys said.
"is that ur chick," one of them said to Adam.
These guys were so boosted, they looked like they were 25, they looked so high.
"Yeah shes my chick,"Adam said.
Then the guys started laughinand said to me, "your mans a pussy."

"What ends u from," they asked Adams boy. He started cryin. He got punched twice.
"North," Adam said.
omfg. what the fuck did he say that for.
"Shit man," the guy next to me said, "this chick is leng."

"If you want us to let you go," one of the guys said to adam, "take off your clothes and do 40 star jumps,".

"No," i said. I looked to Adam, why wasnt he doing anyfin.
One guy said to Adam, "if you dont take off your garms and do 40 star jumps man will baw u up."

Adam took off his clothes slowly till he was weairng just his boxers.
"Bruv, take it all off," one of the guys said, his hair was bare dirty and his lips were black and his eyes were bloodshot, i could tell hed been bunnin.

Adam took his boxers.
"This is batty," one of the guys said.
"Shut up," his boy said then he told Adams boys, "oi u two fuck off."
They looked at each other and ran off.
I was so shook.
"40 star jumps," one of the guys said squeezing my ass.

Adam did it and a tear rolled down his eye as they took out their phones and started crying, i heard one of the say gas gang.
I looked at Adam and felt so embarrased for him.
"Say you love gas gang," one of the guys said.
"I love gas gang,".

The bres started creasin as Adams dick was flopping about.
Then one of the guys whispered in my ear, "let man beat you and we'll let your man go."
"No," i said.
"This chick is going on like she knows people," one of them said.
Adam stopped doing the star jumps and then one of them pulled a kitchen knife. He started jumpin again.
"Who do you know from these ends," one of the guys asked.
"Ryan from Brixton," i said.
"We eat Brixton man for lunch," one guy said.
Then one of them said, "Ryan whitely?".
I looked at him and he looked bare shook.
"Yeah,". i said.

"Lets go," he said, "lets duck."
"why," his boy said.
"lets just fuckin go man!".
they all looked at him and when they saw how shook he was, they started toback away.

When they all left, i ran to Adam and went to hug him.
He pushed me away as he put his clothes back on.
"Adam are you ok,"
He wiped from the tears from his eyes and said, "fuckin wasteman," he was so vex and was proper shakin.
"Adam, why did u just push me away."
"I saw you laughin," he shouted, "i saw u fucking laughin."

"I never laughed," i said.
"You fuckin did," he said startin to cry, "You laughed."
Then he ran into his car and drove off.

He left me.
I was alone in that alleyway in Peckham and i started cryin. I dialled a number on my phone.
"Please come pick me up," i told the person where i was.
i was so shook waiting alone and then the car came ten minutes after.
The windows rolled down.
"Thankyou." i said
I looked at her.
"Get in Deena."
I got into the back seat of the car.

"What happened," Ryan asked. Sorcha looked at him.
"Dont worry," she said, "We're here now."

DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 40

2010-04-17T03:43:00.000-07:00

"Please dont run," he said.
I looked at him and i dussed.
I was thinkin to run outside Brent Cross but i didnt know if maybe he had people outside waiting for me so i ran up the escalator pushing bare people and ran into Mcdonalds and then into the girls toilets. it was empty and i hid in one of the cubicles and stood on the toilet so if he came in he couldnt see my feet.

I heard him come in.
"Deena, i beg you hear me out, Im not to here to hurt you, i just wanna chat to you innit," he said.
I could hear him so clear. I put my phone on silent so it didnt ring.
He was standing outside the cubicle i was in, "Deena- if i wanted to hurt you i wouldve done it that time when sorcha took me to your new yard, i just wanna talk, ive missed you."

His voice sounded so soft and different, I opened the cubicle door and looked at him.
He looked so good and clean.
"Stand back," i said, "come closer and ill scream."
"Why u going on like this Deena," he said.
"You know i lied to the feds for Natalie to get you in shit, you're not here to chat, you're here to fuck me up."

"In a shopping centre?"he said.
He was in some navy blue raphy, some bangin shorts and some white airforces, he had a tatoo of a woman fingering herself on his neck.
I looked at it.
"Come we just chat," he said, "in mcdonalds, there are people in dere, im not gonna hurt you in front of people when ive just escaped going pen."

He was speaking bare different.
Me and him slowly walked out of the toilet and sat down in mcdees.
"Do you want anything," he asked.
"No."
"Kl, im gonna get a happy meal, we can share if you want."
He got up and went to order and i was tempted to run but then i thought about it, and then said whats the point, he knows where i live anyway.
He sat back down with his food and looked at me.
"Sorry," i said.
"Its kl," he said, "I know why you did it."
I was bare confused.
"I fucked u up for no reason and you wanted man to pay, i deserved it."
"Ryan, im bare sorry."
"Deena its cool, mans over it now."
"What about Fumez?".
"20 years, eligible for parole in 2 years, attempted murder."
I looked to the floor.
"Im happy," Ryan said, "now man has the chance to start afresh."
I looked at him and he said, "Deena, you're fucking sexy."
I tried not to smile but i did.
"Im gonna start college in september so i can go uni," he said.
"I dont believe that you're not pissed off with me for what i did," i said.

"I tried to duppy Natalie for you, cos i want u to be my wifey and i needed to be scared of goin to pen for me to sort man to sort his shit out innit, yeah i was vex, but im cool now, i know i shouldnt have come to your new yard with sorcha like that, i didnt know about what happened with that chanel chick innit."

I nodded.
"You ok now though?", he asked, "like you good for money and shit?".
I nodded.
"Ive got a man," i said.
Ryan put down his burger, "His names Adam and hes bare good to me, he'd never fuck me up like you did."

"Man said im sorry for that," he said, "Deena, im not here to force you to do anythin, i just want you to know im sorry, u fink man would leave ends and whip it ALL THE WAY to North to fuck you up when I JUST got lucky by not getting sent to pen, thats some any dick-ed ting."

I looked at him.
He was so sexy, he looked like he'd been banging out gym.
"You wearin contacts now yeah?", he said. "Come like Sorcha."
I kissed my teeth.
"I have to go now," i said.
"Alright," he said, "here are my digits yeah, if you wanna chat, just bell me and we can link anywhere you want."
I gave him my blackberry and he typed his number in.
"Man got a new yard, its still in south, but its nicer," he said.
"I've got a man now," i said, "i wont need your number."
"Just save it," he said. Then he took out an envelope from his pocket and gave it to me.
I opened it slowly.
2 bills in 20 pound notes.
"Its for you to do somethin nice for yourself," he said, "you're even penger than before."
I put the money in my clutch bag and left.
I caught the bus back to Adams yard and went inside and tidied up so theyd know i was grateful.
Then my phone rang, it was still on silent but it vibrated, i took it off silent and answered.
"U alright mum... what time?Yeah im free...i dont know if....ok so he knows you're coming.... yeah an hours fine... oh mum on the way could you pick me up some lipgloss, you know the one i use... alright love you."

My mum was coming. I wanted to know what my nan was playin at taking 5 bills from me to pay the mortgage when come to find out she had finished paying about 20 years ago.
My mum was the house within the hour and when she came in she was in her work uniform.

I got her some ginger beer before putting the money ryan gave me in my suitcase and then gave her the drink. she looked vex.
i sat opposite her.
"whats wrong," i asked.
"Deena, Mabels divorcing her man."
I looked to the floor.
"Deena, why is Mabel telling me that her man paid you not to tell her that he was fucking her neighbour."

"She's lyin, why would i lie for him," i said tryin to sound convincing.
"Deena, her man confessed everything, how could you take money from him to lie to your OWN aunt," she said.
I was gettin vex, "i beg you shut up, you sent me to Spain with jackshit, you didnt gimme nuthin, how else was i gonna pay for stuff, you see how quick you are to get vex with me for taking money for lying but forget how i overlooked how u fucked man for money."
She got up to slap me and I got up too.
"Dont you ever talk to me like that," she said.
"Or what, im not going back to Spain, im staying in London, its safe, i saw Ryan."
She gasped.
"Hes changed now," i said,
"You fool, you think hes going to forgive you for almost sending him to prison."
"Dont watch dat, just find out why nan took my money."

She didnt say anything and took out her purse and gave me 6 bills.
"She owed Ethel money," my mum said. I snatched the money from her, it was in a rubber band and i put it in my pocket.
"Deena, you cant go back to Spain cos of what u did to Mabel, but you cant stay in London, its not safe."

"Im fine mum," i said, "i got thru shit without you, whilst you were too busy fucking man and usin the money dad sent to me for yourself, i shouldnt even be chattin 2 u."

"Deena, dont talk to me like im one of your friends."
"Mum, dont try come with that parent talk when you havent been a parent for years now, just fuck off."
She gave me one slap to my headpiece.
I fell back.
"Get out," i said, "I never wanna see you or nan again."
She tried to say sorry, but i slapped her.
"Tell nan i hate her," i said.
My mum started cryin and said, "shes gone back to Barbados for good Deena, her and Jason."
"Good," i said, "you should go with them."
Then my mum left and slammed the door.
I started bawlin so hard on the floor.
My tits started to feel heavy again and so i took off my clothes and ran upstairs and got on the scale. I couldnt be pregnant cos i was on the pill but i could feel that i had put on weight on my ass and tits.
I got on the scale.
"9 and a half stone."

I had put on half a stone.
i didnt even care, i was just upset, i took out my contacts, took a shit and then got in the shower.
I meant it, i didnt wanna see my mum again, she and my nan had so much bookie shit to me.
I put my hair in the headcap and showered so nice.
it calmed me down and then i could hear breathing.
I rinsed the soap out of my eyes and opened them. It was Adam.
"I saw your mum," he said, "you ok?".
I started cryin.
"Get in here with me," i said.
He took off his clothes and got in the shower with me.
the feeling of his hench body up against me was so nice.
i turned around and bent in front of him, i wanted to clean his dick with my saliva.
i started to suck his dick.
"Uncle Marlon might come back," he giggled.
i didnt care, his dick was in my mouth and i was suckin it so hard. All i could think about was ryan.
what his dick tasted like.
i looked up at adam and he smiled at me.
"Fuck me raw," i said.
we both got out of the shower and dried ourselves and ran to his room.
he locked his door and pushed me on the bed.
i spread my legs.
He pulled out a rubber from his draw and put it on.
he started to rub my pussy as he sat on the edge of the bed.
"Deena on the real," he said, "how come ur pussies still tight even after getting fucked by me.
my mind was off my mum and nan situation.
"dont complain," i said, "i know a few girls with buckets."
"is it," he said.
he licked my pussy one time.
his big tongue was insane.
"can i call you king kong," i said.
"why," he laughed.
"cos uve got big ass dick and a hurricane tongue."
he laughed and licked me again.
i grabbed onto the pillow.
then he stood up and i saw his dick, all 10 inches of it, big and throbbing ready to turn me into a sket.
He looked at me and shook his head, "if you knew how cheung u were, u wouldnt waste your time fuckin me."
He got behind me and took my left leg and put it round his waist. he was gonna fuck me from the side.
i wrapped my hands round his neck as he rested his head on my shoulder.
slowly, his dick went in me.
"ADAM!."
the dick was all the way inside of me and my heart was beating so fast.
he was bitin my neck as he was jookin me, fuck that, it wasnt a jook, it was a wet fuck. He was making my cunt go insane.
He was bitn my neck and it hurt but it felt good.
I could feel his entire dick in me and my nipples were rock hard. his long strong fingers were in my mouth as his dick... oh shit i could feel my wet pussy leaking all over his dick and onto the bed.
this guy was turnin me into a some any slag and it feel nice, his big dick ramming my tight wet pussy, i started to feel sorry for virgins cos this dick was what they were missing out on.
FUCK ME ADAM
FUCK ME ADAM
DEENA CAN YOU TAKE IT
FUCK ME OH FUCK
DEENA TELL ME WHO YOUR DADDY IS
YOU ARE
YOU ARE
TELL ME WHO THE FUCKIN MAN IS
ADAM
ADAM
ADAM
ADAM FUCK!
He pushed his dick in so hard, my legs started to spasm, he pulled his dick out and i squirted.
Then my phone rang.
He answered it.
I looked at him,

"Deena, it's your mum- she's in hospital."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 39

2010-04-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

I kissed my teeth and picked up my blackberry.
"What are you doing," she asked.
I closed my curtains and said, "if you dont get the fuck out of here, i'll call the feds."
She looked shocked.
"Come here again, or bother me again and i swear down Sorcha I'll tell the feds everything, about the bank scam yous you used to do, dont fuck with me, Deena ain't a dickhead out here."

She looked at me and then ran out of the house and into the car.
I saw Ryan ask her what happened and then he looked me. I rolled my eyes and he nodded his head as if to say "alright den." Then he drove off.
I called my nan.
"Hello."
"Why did you tell anybody where I am," i asked.
"Who is this."
"Gran its me, why did you tell sorcha where i was."

"Dat yella girl with the green eyes? isnt she your friend."
"Thats not the point, mum said nobodies meant to know."
"Oh Deena whats the problem, you're going back to Spain anyway."
"Thats not the point grandma, yeah i know im not in hiding, but im here to get away from the hype."
"Deena please, im going to Ethels."
"Grandma you just got mugged, why are you going out alone."
There was a long pause and then she said, "How are you."
"Gran, why did you ask me for money for the mortgage when you already paid it years ago."
"Hello.... da line is cuttin...oh jason we need to fix this line."
Then she put the phone down.

I kissed my teeth.
I wasnt even scared, i was just vex. Sorcha was taking the fucking piss, why was she bringing that dick shining wasteman to my yard like say this is asuprise party.
And why was my nan going on bookie, how are you going to Ethels yard solate at night when you just got mugged three days ago.
I was just confused.
Now i was alone in the house, it feel bare weird cos i had just met adam and fucked him and then almost got fucked my marlon.
I sat down and put on the tv.
Adam came back in with bare bags.
"shit, where did you go," i asked.
"I was gonna help my boy with something and his maj gave me bare food."
He smiled and walked into the kitchen. I followed him.
"Where did your friend go," he asked.
"She's not my friend, shes a snake, if she comes here i beg you call the feds, shes not wanted here."

"Shit, that serious?".
"Yeah it is," i said.
"I beg you helpme eat all this," he said.
"You want me to get fat innit," i said.
He laughed.
He pulled out bare disposable containers filled with bare food.
There was macaroni cheese, rice and peas, dumbling and salt fish stew, oxtail, trotters, egg fried rice, fried chicken, stuffing.
"My boys sister got married last week, so there were bare left overs."

Me and him sat at the kitchen table eating so much.
"Ill leave a bit for Uncle Marlon," he said when we almost finished it.
I nodded.
"Your friend's actually one of the cheungest girls ive ever seen in my life," he said.
I looked at him and said, "she's alright."
"You're beautiful, she's sexy, like she looks like she's tasted nuff dick."

I didnt wanna laugh, but i had to.
"I need to burn off all these calories," i said.
"I can think of a way," he said.

No long.
We took everything off and ran upstairs.
I had to do a sly fart so i coughed bare loudly as he threw me on the bed.
"Shit deena did you fart," he asked.
"I dont fart," i said.
"Yeah, and shola ama's making a succesful come back."
I laughed so hard as he put the rubber on.

"Do you want a dagger fuck or a slow whine fuck." he asked.
"whats the difference."
"Ill show you."
He put his dick slowly in me and then spread his legs so either foot was touching the side of each bed.
"take a deep breath," he said.
Before i could take a breath, he started bangin.
At first the dick was in but it wanst doin what Smurkz could do but then he grabbed my neck and pushed the dick in so hard, my legs started shakin.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as he banged and banged.

i started pantin so hard, my head felt light and my stomach was tingling so hard as the dick banged me raw. He was so big.... DAGGER ME...... he banged me so hard, he started gruntin as he daggered me with my legs spread and wet pussy open.
Adam fuck me
Adam do it harder
Adam please fuck me harder
Yeah yeah! OH SHIT.

He sucked on his tits as he had his hands around my neck

he smelled so nice. He took his dick out and put it in my mouth
It felt nang throbbing in my mouth, poking my cheeks
He was sweating so hard and groanin as i sucked his dick.
i sucked the tip of hisdick using my saliva to wet it up. I sucked the rubber off his dick and spat it on the floor.
He was looking so sexy now, he pulled his dick outof my mouth, turned me round and put his dick in my warm wet pussy, he pushed it in bare deep and then stop and then go in again to the point where i could feel his entire cock in me grindin the shit out of me, it was far in me, i could feel it in the pit of my stomach
Getting doggied bareback, he was pulling my hair, i was panting, he was fucking.
"Fuck me," I said, "Teach my pussy a lesson."
"What did your pussy do," he asked.
"It disobeyed you."
BANG.
Cock rammed in my cooch, my head pinned to the pillow.
"How did it disobey me," he asked.
I couldnt even reply, i was pantin so hard my tongue felt like it was frozen.
I was hoping i was going to squirt, my body was telling me it was coming.
He started fucking me like he was whinin.
"Deena say she fi wan de dagger, but she nah can handle me cocky." he said, "tell me when you want it harder."
"Now!".
He turned me around and picked me up, he put me up against wall, he stood on the bed as my back was on the wall, his right hand was keeping me up because it was wrapped around my neck.
"Spread your legs as far as possible," he said.
I did it.
Then it happened.
He started fucking me yeah, and it was bare hard, like insane hard, to the point where it only felt nang for a little bit and then i...
Then i passed out.
When i woke up, i was lying on his chest and he was stroking my hair.
"what the fuck happened."
He laughed and said, "my fuck happened."
I felt bare weird, like i was just waking up.
i felt a bit dizzy and my pussy was so wet, i felt like i had just cum but i didnt remember cumming, i was shaking cos i knew i had squirted but i didnt even remember it.
"what did you do," i asked.
He laughed, "you got the dagger beat innit."
I was actually getting angry, i couldnt remember squirtin,"what the fuck did you do!".
"oi oi babes," he laughed, "why are you getting vex deena, do you want me to make you squirt again?".
"Yeah."
He put two of his fingers in my mouth, "lick them."
i licked them and he started saying ummmmmmm, just like Giggs.
then he took his fingers out of my mouth and put them in my pussy. he put his left hand on pussy as his two fingers from his left hand were in my pussy.
he started going up and down with his fingers in it.
i started to shake a bit and start moanin out.
"its good yeah," he said.
"yeah yeah," i giggled. i was gettin a bit embarrased. i was proper shakin, my body was shakin itself.
i was gigglin so hard and my toes were curlin and my legs kept movin as his fingers shook inside my pussy harder.
i was almost rolling off the bed, but he pulled me back and put his right hand on top of my pussy.
i had to grab his strong neck to keep myself from fallin.
"You ready to squirt."
"Yeah."
BAM.
He shook my pussy so hard and then I...
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK ME ADAM.

I squirted everywhere, some went into his mouth, all over the walls.
i grabbed hold onto his waist and shook so hard.
"put ur fucking dick in me."
"no," he said.
"please, aahhhh adam."
i couldnt stop squirtin, i thought i was gonna have a heartattack cos i was feeling lightheaded.
"alright then."
he put his dick in me and slowly fucked me. his cock wasblockin myorgasm and making a brand new one.
i suddenly thought of smurkz and then adam kissed me and it tasted so good.
he pulled his dick out and rolled over and fell on the floor.
i just lay there.
he walked over and looked at me, "you ok."

"You're never fucking me again Adam," i laughed.
"why not."
"cos if u make me squirt again i might have to let you make me wifey."
"is it now," he said, picking me up and putting me back on the bed.
I lay in his arms.
"when i woke up this morning i didnt even know you, now ive fucked the shit of you twice." he said.
I laughed as my legs were shakin a bit.
"Let's go out tommorow, we'll go cinema," he said, "then we can go dinner."

"will your uncle mind us being together," i asked.
"Im suprised he didnt try and fuck you himself."
I didnt say anything and then i said, "he wont mind yeah."
then he kissed my cheek, "He wont mind, so you're on this official ting yeah."
"yeah but we just met."
"lets see how things worksout," he said. Then i fell asleep.

I woke up the next morning and he wasnt there.
I walked to my suitcase and took out my addidas tracksuit and went downstairs.
Marlon was downthere fixing his tie in the living room.
"Morning," i said.
"You ok," he said, "how was your first night."
"Good," i said, "Thanks again for letting me stay here."
"Ah its no problem, like i said your mum and Uncle Paul are my bredrins, listen im going to work now but i'll see you when i get back, have you met my nephew Adam yet, he's in kitchen making breakfast."

"Yeah we met," i said.
He looked at me and shook his head, "I know those eyes," he said, "Your mum has the same expression everytime she.." then he stopped.
I couldnt believe what he was about to say and then he said bye and left for work.
I walked into the kitchen and my man had made a full fry up.
there were two plates on the table.
"You hungry," he asked.
"Yeah yeah,"
"Im going gym now yeah, ill be back in a few hours, you alright here alone?", he asked.
"whose the second plate for," i asked.
"for me," he said, "im gonna eat and go gym, you alright here alone?".

"Yeah," i said. i wasnt but it wasnt like i could go gym with him.
"Do you know brent cross?", he asked,
"yeah yeah," i said, "i used to go there before westfields."
"its near here, you can go shopping innit,your mum called this morning, she said to give you two bills and she'll pay me back whne she sees me,"

"she wont," i said, "dont worry, i have money,". i sat down.
he sat opposite me.
he was topless in nothing but sponge bob square pants boxers.
"you shouldnt wear make up," he said, "you dont need it."
"oh shit," i said, "i havent even brushed my teeth."
"fuck it," he said, "feel at home man, just eat."
i laughed and ate.
it was so nice,bacon, buttered toast, fried and scrambled eggs baked beans, sausages, fried onions, sundried tomatoes and a full glass of orange tropicana.
"im gonna get fat," i said.
"then sign up for gym with me," he said, "ill bring you back a form, you still on going out tonight yeah,"
i nodded.
he looked at me and smiled, he ate, kissed me on the cheek, got dressed and told me was going.
i was in the house alone.
I wanted to go for a walk, just to get to know the area, so i ran upstairs, got in the shower, brushed my teeth and put on my make up, i had run out my lipgloss and so i needed to go and buy some so i decided i needed to look for a Boots.
I had on these jeans
http://www.asos.com/Cheap-Monday/Cheap-Monday-Patched-Tight-Skinny-Jean/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=954809&cid=3630&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Denim

I went to put on my bra but it didnt fit.
what the fuck, i usually wore a 34 c and it wasnt fitting.
My tits looked huge, maybe it was all that nang fucking.
I kissed my teeth and opened my suitcase and saw one of Sorcha's oldbras that she left at my house once.
it was a 34 d. I put it on and it fit so easily.
I put on a tight clean white vest to go with my brand new blue banging jeans, and my heels were some banging one from ASOS

http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Posh-Bow-Heeled-Shoe/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=918162&cid=4172&Rf-100=Shoes+-+Heeled&Rf-200=9&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=20&sort=-1&clr=PinkBlack

I know i looked on point, my nails were hot pink and I was so cheung. I felt so confident leaving the house walking around the area.
So many peole were stopping and staring, then some man who looked like tim westwood came up to me and said, "do you model?".
I kissed my teeth and said, "do you suck your mudda,".
Then i walked off.
I was looking so nang, i had in my dark green contacts and some tall neeky white guy with his girlfriend winked at me.
It was so crazy.
I was just walking aimlessly.
I walked to go and cross some road and some builders in a van stopped and one of them shouted, "You got any Irish in ya,"
I laughed and said, "Yeah i do."
"Would you like a bit more," he said.
Then they drove off.
I asked some old lady how i could get to Brent Cross and she said i could get the 186 straight from Hendon Central there.
I waited at the bus stop and felt so sexy, it was a nice hot day, it felt like i was back in Spain.
I was just waiting there and some guy came up to me, he was nice but he had a gap tooth.
"can i talk to you please," he said.
"No you cant," i said.
"why not," he said.
"Cos ive got a man and you're butters."

These two other guys started laughin at him and said , "my girls raw."
The guy who i parred said, "fuck you, you fink you're a boom ting innit, you fink you're hot."
I kissed my teeth as he walked off and my bus came.
I got on the bus and asked the driver to tell me when we got to brent cross and he said it was the last stop so i sat at the back. I wanted to spend bare p, i had bare dough from my dad and he would be sending another 6 bills at the start of month which was in two weeks and i had 6 grand in my account cos Aunt Mables man had given me some too for helping him with something.

I got to brent cross and it wasnt that busy. I held my electric blue clutchbag close to me when i saw a few butters mixrace chicks givin me screw face.
I suddenly had to piss and ran into the nearest toilet. I took a piss and walked out of the cubicle to wash my hands.
Then the door opened.
It was them boosted girls.
There were 6 of them and they surrounded me. Some white lady walked in but then when she saw the girls surrounding me she walked out.
"Can we see your bag please," one of the girls said. they looked so butters, they looked the ugly shit from Eastenders, the one who played Billys girlfriend.

"No you cant see my bag," i said.
Then one of them pulled out a small pen knife.
I kissed my teeth and quickly pulled out my box cutter, "say suttin," i said.
The girls looked at each other, i said, "You saw me and thought i was a prang chick, if you dont wanna get fucked up, i beg you let me pass."

"shut the fuck up," one of the girls said.
"Unless one of you had something bigger to show me, my box cutter is gonna do at least two of you damage." i said.

"This chick must tink she's Uma thurman or suttin."
They all started laughin.
One of them went to punch me, and i just stepped back and cut her friend on the hand with my cutter.
i backed myself against the wall with my cutter out and said, "try that again, im not playing with any of you."

I was tired of being shook, these chicks saw that i didnt look like i was from endz and tried to come for me.
"she cut me," the girl i cut said.
Then two security guards walked in.
I put the blade in my box cutter back in its container and slipped it back in my clutch bag.
"whats the problem girls," one of the guards said.
"Nuthin," i said.
I looked at the girl who i had cut and she looked bare shook.
"whats in the bag," the guard said to her. the dumb bitches had been lickin shops.
The girls ran past the guards and dussed.
the guards chased them and i walked outside of the centre, i just wanted to go back to adam and marlons yard.

"Deena," i heard someone say.
I turned around
Oh shit. Ryan.

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 38 part 2

2010-04-11T04:27:00.000-07:00

I jumped up.
"Sorcha?", i asked.
"Pretty mixraced girl- green eyes."
"What?!", i said.
"Deena I just met you, i dont know who your friend are, go down and see her," he said.
I put on my clothes bare quick and actually remembered that i had just met adam.
I walked down the stairs and there she was.
Her hair was in a backward pony tail and she had in big diamond studs. She had on leopard skin tights, a black baggy jumper, a clutch bag and these shoes http://www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Tegan-Leather-Punched-Out-Sandal-Boot/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=996350&cid=4172&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black

Her eyes were green.
I looked at her and didnt say anything.
I stood on the middle of the steps looking at her, she looked at me, her eyes were proper green,they looked real.
"Deena," she said.
She looked so different, like she'd lost bare weight but it suited her, i looked her up and down, she looked clean like nothing had happened to her.
Adam came down the stairs, "Im just gonna go food shopping yeah," he said.
I looked at him and didnt want him to go. He smiled at Sorcha and left the house.

"He's your man?".
"How did you find me, how did you get here," i asked.
"You dont really want to know that," she said, "you wanna know what happened to me."
"I dont give a shit Sorcha, you tried to get me into shit when u told Smurkz i was gonna help Chanel, when we were in the flat you told him.. you tried to save yourself."

"Sorry," she said. "You look nice."
"What do you want."
"I went to your nans house to check for you, she gave me this adress."
"And you came all the way from South to see me," i said.
"I thought i was gonna die Deena, Dee was about to throw that acid ting on me but i begged them not to, that was when Chanel and her man came in."

"What happened to Smurkz and Dee," i said.
She looked to the floor, "Chanel's man are crazy- i dont wanna say what they did, but i know theyve left ends, smurks and dee have."

"Sorcha, i need you to leave innit, i dont wanna speak to any of you lot anymore."

"You dont mean that," she said.
"I beg you just leave, you're bare sad, you came ALL THE WAY from south JUST to see me in Hendon cos uve got no girls, cos ur a snake."

She said, "You're my only friend."
"Green contacts yeah?".
She didnt say anything.
"Everyone knows your eyes are brown Sorcha,".
She kissed her teeth, "Deena, i beg you forgive me please."

This girl was actually gassed. Begging me to be her friend like say she didnt do anything to me.
"Did Chanel do anything to you," i asked.
She started crying and just fell to her knees.
She was crying so hard.
I ran and hugged her.
"My mum threw me out of the house Deena, i have nowhere to go ."
I looked at her.

I took her into the living room and made her drink, it was like i had been living in the house for bare long.
I gave her some Ribena.
I sat next to her.
"What happened, why did your mum throw you out."

She dried her eyes.
"When we were in the flat, chanels boys took smurkz and dee somwhere and it was just me and her, and she said that if i gave her money she'd let me go and even take me back to my yard, i was bare shook deena," she started bawlin, "i had my nans account details and her card."

"Oh my fucking Sorcha, tell me you didnt."

"Me and Chanel went to the cashpoint and i took out 2 bills for her and she said it wasnt enough," she was startin to make that hiccuping noise people do when they cry bare hard, "and so she we went to another cash point and went to bare until i took out 6 grand."

I gasped, "why 6 grand? you only owed her 6 bills."
"It was cos she said she'd allow me and not duppy me for telling smurkz that she wanted to set him up, and she dropped me home and i just went in the shower and cleaned myself up and one of my contacts got lost in my eye."

She started crying so hard to the point where she couldnt breathe, "and when my mum got home she said that my nans details and card had been stolen."

"Wait, why did you have your nans card in the first place."

"Cos sometimes i go shopping for her innit," she said, "and then when my nan called the bank they told her that the card had been used in the cash machine right near my yard and then my mum knew it was me and threw me out."

"You stole 6 grand from your nan?", i asked.
She started crying bare and rested her head on my shoulders.
"You need somewhere to stay?", i asked.
She looked at me and nodded.
"Too bad it cant be here," i said and pushed her off me, "You think im some any dickhead in life babes, please get out, if you can still 6 grand from your nan how the fuck can i trust you."

She got up and wiped her eyes and said, "Deena please."

"Sorcha, im happy here, im not gonna let your ruin it for me."
Then her phone rang.
She looked at it and looked at me like she didnt wanna answer in front of me.
Then she picked it up, "Ill be out in a minute babes."

"Who the fuck are you with?!", i asked, "who did you bring here."
I heard a car horn beep. I opened the living curtains and looked into the Benz.
He looked at me.
"Ryan," she said, "I came with Ryan."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 38 part 1

2010-04-10T11:31:00.000-07:00

"U alrite darling."
She kissed me on my cheek. I let her in.
"Chanel."
She walked in and close the door behind her.
"You look so nice Deena, did you go on holiday,".
"No," I lied, "Ive been here."
She laughed and walked into my front room and looked around, "You're lying, Ive had man drive by here everynight for the past two weeks, nobodys been here except your maj."

She sat down on the sofa.
"You actually look bare nice," she said.
She didnt look like she used to, she looked bare tired.
She stared at me and said, "My money please."

I almost shitted my pants.
"What."
"Remember that grand I gave you to set up Smurkz."
"It was 5 bills Chanel."
"I had to give your friend Natalie 5 bills to do the job YOU couldnt do so now i want it from you, where is it."
I was so shook, I could feel myself getting red.
"Chanel, I dont have agrand."

"Deena," she said, "You DO have a grand, you have a GRAND that you owe me"
I looked to the floor.
"Is that all your hair," she asked.
I looked up and nodded.
"It grew bare fast from when I last saw you."
"Chanel, wheres Sorcha, is she ok?".

Chanel looked at me and laughed, "She's fine, i didnt do shit to her, it was Smurkz and Dee."
"But you said that- whenyou walked into the room you said that... you said dat..you were shocked by what you saw..."

"Oh yeah," Chanel said, "One of her eyes was brown, they must of fucked her up bad, but dont try change the subject, i want my dough innit."

"What about Smurkz and Dee."

Then she gave me a dirty look and got bare in face, "They got what they're so used to giving... you have two months to get my money innit."
And then i thought about it, why was i gonna go through all this stress when i had 5 grand in my account, if it meant getting her out of my life then fuckyeah.
"Alright, gimme ur bank details and I'll send it to you," i said.

"Only deal with cash Deena."

"Chanel, I can only withdraw 3 hundred at a time, please let me just send it to you."

"Cool."
Me and her went upstairs to my room and i opened the door. My laptop was on the bed. She sat on the bed next to me.
I logged on.
"What are your details please."
She looked at me and told them to me.
I wanted this bitch out of my fuckin life.
"Alright," i said, "Ive sent the grand."
"When will i get it."
"Tommorow."

She kissed me on the cheek and got up to leave.
"Chanel," i said, "what happened to Sorcha when I left, did you do anyfin to her."

"I left before my boys did- I dont know what they did to her innit, tru say she owes me money too, 6 bills i think it is, are u gonna pay for her?"

I shook my head.
"Then shut the fuck up den innit."
I followed her down the stairs and saw her out.
"You went on holiday innit," she said.
"Spain."
She nodded, "I wont trouble you again innit, I promise."
She kissed me on the cheek and then left.

I was so scared.
I locked the door and ran up to the bathroom and looked into the mirror. Chanel was right, my hair was too long.
I whipped out the scissors and then cut my hair to shoulder legnth, I did it bare neat, I had learnt to do it from year 10 work experience in Toni and Guy innit.

I got out my straightener and straightened my hair.
As i was doing it, i stopped and held back my tears, i couldnt get the rape out of my head, i was bare scared of being alone and then i thought about it, i was dumb to come back here alone, i was dumb to care about sorcha and dumb to give chanel a grand, but i just wanted her to fuck off.

I put on my jacket, called a cab and left the house.
The cab was there within five minutes and it took me back to Hendon to Marlons yard.
I walked to the wrong door at first but then i found it like five minutes after.
I knocked on the door.
Oh my. Oh my.
Some tall 6ft, dark skinned guy answered.
"Deena yeah?", he said.
"Hi."
I smiled and walked in.
"My names Adam, I'm Marlons nephew."
"Oh hi."
I walked into the front room.
"Has he gone out," I asked.
"Yeah yeah," Adam said, "He's staying at his girls house tonight."

I nodded.
"You look bare familiar," he said, "You like someone off tv."
I smiled and took off my jacket, this guy looked like a proper sweet boy. Blue Ralphie, green slippers, navy jeans and a tatoo of a map of something on his right bicep.
I was bare shy.
"You eaten?", he asked, "I just came back from Chicken Cottage."
I laughed, "Man dem and chicken cottage."
He laughed, "Black man's crack, do you want some?".
"Im ok thanks."

His voice was so soft but at the same time it had a bit of road innit, he sounded like a guy from road who'd had speech lessons, it was weird but nice.
I sat in the chair and put on the tv, I was suprised by how comfortable I was in the house, tru say I had only moved in that morning.
He came back with a plate of two big chicken breasts and chips with peyear mayonaise.
He sat down and said, "Can man just check Sky news quicktime."

I gave him the control. He changed the channel, they were talking about the election.

"You gonna vote?", he asked.
"Im not even interested in you know, they're all the same."
"They're actually not yanah, politics affect everything."

"It dont affect everything," I said, "it dont affect raving."

"Yeah it does," he said, "Didnt you hear about that Giggs show that got shut down by the feds for the dumbass reason that a fight might break out but dont have shit to say when those muslim man started heckling at the burials of the soliders brought back from Iraq, the feds couldnt have shut the show down if the law didnt let it, laws are made by politics."

"I aint even registered you know."

"You should," he said yamming his chicken, "I registered yesterday."
"Who are you voting for?".
"Labour man, when they brought in EMA,it saved my life," he started laughing, "Them times i was in college, i was living with my dad and he wasnt helping out with anything, like I did photography alevel and you have to bare shit for it with your own dough, i used EMA to get all of it, Labour care more about the average person innit, like you and me but their crime and immigration policy is shit."

"Tru say Conservatives are racist innit," I said.
"They used to be, but they cant be anymore, they're not dumb, they know how powerful we black heads can be when we want to, here's how i see it, even though Im voting for Labour, im only doing it cos they helped me with EMA and cos I prefer them to the Tories but Labour give people too much to the point where they discriminate against hard working people, like i know bare girls from secondary who got pregnant just to get a free flat, the tories would never allow that innit."

I was getting bare interested.
He continued, "Labour help people yeah- but they help a few people too much to the point where it becomes cheaper for you not to work than to get a job, but if you're tryna work your way out of ends and do bigger shit then they're the ones to vote for, but once you get out of ends and do bigger shit they discriminate against you for being rich, I know a few man in Uni who wouldnt get grants cos their parents earn too much like to say their parents give them money, thats not fair, the conservatives are old fashioned but deal with crime better and look after the rich innit."

"Who should i vote for?".
"Its not a rush ting, you have until April 20th innit, you're 18 yeah?".
"Yeah i turned 18 when i was in Spain- i was in spain with some fam."
"Skeen skeen, yeah you looked tanned."
I giggled.
"Make sure you at least register though yeah,"he said.
"On that aboutmyvote.co.uk site innit."
He nodded.

He was nowhere half as good looking as Smurkz or Ryan but he was still nice, he looked like Michael Jai White, just a younger version.
"How old are you," I asked.
"21," he said, "Do you model?".

"Nah," i said, "do you think i should."

"You like bare like that...ah whats her name.... you know what- you look like Kanye West's ting just with hair but at the same like them arab girls on that dumb show."

"Its not dumb," i laughed."The Kardashians."
"Yeah yeah," he laughed, "the one with the fat backoff got doggied out raw by Ray J."
We both laughed so hard.
"Where u from," he asked.
"My mums Basian and my dad's Iranian."
"Can you speak Fardou?".
"How do you know about Fardou?".
"I used to go out with some Iranian chick from Finsbury Park innit."

"What happened."

"I fucked her bredrin," he said, "dem times dere i was a gyallest."
"You're ALL gyallests." i said.
"Nah nah, ive changed man," he laughed, "Im on serious shit now."
"Is it."

"I work at the local youth centre part time and Im trying to build my own studio."

"You mc?".

"Used to," he said, "but got involved in too much hype so man left that shit."

"Have you got a girl," I asked.
He shook his head and smiled at me. "Got a few tings that are on me still."
"Im not suprised," i said.
"Ah i see, you think im nice yeah."
"I didnt say that," I smiled, "You're not bad though."
"Thanks, you just did a lot for mans ego," he laughed.
"Sorry," I said.

"Uncle Marlon didnt tell me what happened to you like why you're here, but know that you're safe yeah, he's bare cool,"

"Yeah i know, he seems like it," i said.
"Listen, do you wanna go out for some Nandos."
"You just ate chicken cottage."
He put his plate down and lifted up his ralphie, "You see this six pack yeah, man works hard for it, i eat more than this everyday."
"Alright cool," I said, "do you drive."
"Yeah yeah," he said, "black renault clio."
"Oh i saw it outside."

"Im gonna shower yeah, ill be down in a bit."
I nodded.
His skin was on point, his skin was on point, body was nice. Now i was feenin for the dick.
I got up slowly and walked up to the bathroom.
I could hear the shower running.
I took off all my clothes, even my thong and walked in.
"Hello?", his eyes were covered in soap so he couldnt see, he was so soapy scrubbing himself.
I looked at the dick, 10 inches.
He wiped his eyes and saw me standing there.
He looked at my body.
"whoah."

He looked at me and said, "Deena, u on this ting, you're naked in front of me- but do you really wanna bang doe."

I passed him his towel.
He dried himself and i shut the bathroom door. I locked it.
"Bareback me," i said.
He kissed my lips as he hand his big hands on my ass.
He started sucking my neck.
"wait," he said.
He walked to his jeans which were on the floor and pulled out a rubber. I rolled my eyes as he put it on.
"I like it bareback,"i said.
"I like it protected,"he said.
He hand his hands on my waist as he sucked on my bottom limp.
he was rubbin himself up against me.
He said, "Do i feel nice," and he sounded bare like Giggs. I got wet immediately.
He touched my pussy.
My legs started to quiver.
I sucked his neck. The feeling of his head against my neck was so warm.
he spread my legs apart and said, "Dont scream."
"what."
I screamed.
He shoved his dick in me so hard i had to gasp for air.
i wrapped my legs around his waist and started to whine on his dick. his palms were pressed firm against the wall behind me as he started to bang me.
I could feel only half of him inside of me and i wanted more, i tried to lower myself more on the dick.
He took his dick out of me and put me on the floor.
I lay with my face to the ground, with my ass in the air, with my back arched.
He got behind me and slowly put his dick in me.
"oh adam, adam please more."
i couldnt fake it if i tried.

The feeling of his dick in me was sending me.. i was feeling high. in a daze.
i didnt know if it was the way he was doing it, or the size of his dick but it was too nice.
"Deena back your backoff more onto me, push it more," he said. i did it and i cried out.
all of him was in me.
he was bare muscular, i could feel his legs muscles against the back of my thigh.
He was banging me slow and i could feel every inch of his big black dick inside of my pussy walls. everywhere it touched tingled.
i wanted to scream out "marry me," but that would sound bare dumb.
he was doggying me the best i had ever had it, and then he...oh shit.
He held my head down with his right hand and started to bang me so hard, we both started to slide across the bathroom.
i was gruntin bare.
"Let me suck ur dick."
He pulled out of me and when he did my pussy felt bare empty.
He whipped off the rubber and i put my lips on dick. I could feel it poking my cheek as i licked the tip.
He was so tall and strong and he was smiling at me as i sucked his cum pipe.
"Im gonna buss."
I started suckin bare hard and then he buss in my mouth with his dick still in it.
His cum ran down my lips and onto my tits.
He pulled his dick out of my mouth and wiped it with his towel.
He tried to help me off my knees but i couldnt walk, i had shaky knees.
we both started laughing.
he picked up and took me one of the rooms and lay me on the bed.
He lay next to me and i rested on his chest.
I was still panting from the beat.

"whats that tatoo on your arm of," i asked.
He said, "its a map of Cameroon, my ancestors are from there innit."
I looked up at him, "how doyou know?", i asked.
"My great grandad told me when i went Grenada a few years ago, he said he met his great grandad who was a slave."

"Oh shit is it," i asked.
He nodded.
"Fuck me again," i said.
He giggled, "You wanna take another ride in my cock pit yeah."
I leaned over and licked the top of his dick, he said "AH".
He was about to get on top of me and then the doorbell rang.
I kissed my teeth
He jumped up and put on his jeans.
"Im gonna see who it is."
I waited for him as he went downstairs.
I heard him open the door and i heard a chicks voice, then i heard Adam say , "wait here."
I heard him run back up. he came to the room.
"who is it," i asked.
"Its for you," he said.
"Who is it."
"Some chick, some chick called Sorcha."

CHAPTER 37-DEENA SKET

2010-04-08T14:54:00.000-07:00

The cab stopped outside my nans house at 2 oclock.I paid the cab driver and took my suitcase out of the back.
I walked to the house and unlocked the door.
When i got in to the front room, my mum ran up to me and hugged me and I looked to see my nan crying and Uncle Jason comforting her.

"Grandma." I said. I hugged her and she couldnt even look at me without crying. She didnt say anything except cry, I looked at the cuts on her head and tried not cry.
"Deena, come to the kitchen," my mum said.
I wiped my eyes and walked into the kitchen with my mum. she closed the door and hugged me.
"The police came and took a statement," she said.
"When did it happen," I asked.
"Two nights ago," she said, "Jason said she came home and went straight to bed and told him the next day."

I started crying.
"She wouldnt speak," mum said, "she wouldnt speak until i came and called the police."
I wiped my eyes.
"Deena, you have to be strong for her," she said, "we all do."
"What kind of people would do this?".

"Mugging and old lady and punching her for her purse," mum said, "she said it was two boys about your age, how did you get a flight back so quick."

"Aunt Mable," i said, "her man works for the airline." I started crying so hard again. I was back in London and didnt wanna be. It had only be three weeks since I left and my maj called me to tell me to come back cos of what had happened to my nan.
I walked out of the kitchen and sat next to my nan.
She looked at me and started crying, she hugged me.

"When i catch de fuckers who did dis," Uncle Jason said.
I looked at my nan and said, "its gonna be ok."
She hugged me and said, "You see what dis city is coming too, look at me, almost pushing 65 and i get mugged for my purse by two boys young enough to be my grandchildren."

I looked at my mum and said, "The police are gonna catch them innit."
My mum nodded.
Then she beckoned me, we went back into the kitchen.
"Deena, i know you're concerned, but you know you cant stay here for too long," she said.
"Mum i just got back,".
"Deena babes I know, but the whole point of you going Spain was to take you away from all this, I called Uncle Paul, he said you can stay with one of his friends in Hendon until you need to get back to Spain, ive told mum, she understands."

I looked at my mum and said, "I cant stay even just for tonight."
"Yeah you can Deena, but im scared about that Ryan boy, what if he knows you're back."
I looked at her and said, "Where's this place in Hendon."

That night as I lay next to grandma, I thought of Sorcha and everything that had happened, I just lay there wondering about what had happened to her, how even though Smurkz said he gave me herpes when i got tested in Spain, it said i didnt have it.
I cried thinkin about how my mum was scared for me to even be in my nans house too long.
Spain had been so nice, like there were no problems, Aunt Mable and her man were so much joke, we went out every night and when Aunt Mable was at work, Id spend the days with her man when he wasnt working. It was good. It felt bare nice and it was bare big.
Now i was back.
Back in London, lying next to my nan, my nan who got rushed by some pricks.

My mum had gone to work and Uncle Jason was in the other room. I couldnt sleep, i looked at grandma and she looked so peaceful.
I got up, i was wearing my baggy spongebob square pants tshirt. I walked into his room.
He was lying in the bed.
He had lost weight, he looked bare like he was spending everyday in the gym. His body was thick and hench.
I closed the door behind me.
He was sleeping.
I was so tanned, my hair was brown again and the same style as Ciara in her get up video. i nudged him.
He looked up at me.
I knew i looked sexy, i hadnt fucked in ages,and even though I felt disgusting thinking of it, i wanted to fuck him.
"Deena, is aunty ok," he asked.
I looked at his bare chest, "Yeah shes fine."

I was missing Sorcha so much, thinking of her and if she was ok was making me blusky.
I touched his dick.
"No Deena," he said looking into my light brown eyes.
"Why not," I said, "Fuck my cooch."
I kissed him.
He got up and said, "No, go back to Grandma, what if she wakes up and your not there."

"Fuck me quick then," I said.
I lifted my t-shirt to reveal my pink g-string. my pussy wetness was leaking down my leg.
I took off the tshirt. My tits felt and looked so peng, they were firm and my stomach was so flat, my backoff had gotten bigger and my lips, my lips were covered in pink lip gloss.
I put my fingers in my pussy and said, "Fuck me, Uncle Jason, gimme the cocky."

Boxers down.
g-string off.
He threw me on the bed and kissed my neck.
His big chest rubbed against my tits as i spread my legs and wrapped them around his waist. he kissed my lips. He smelt of sweat- you know that smell of sweat that dont smell horrible but just nice.
I looked to see an Asda uniform on his chair.
He sucked on my tits.
"You so sexy Deena," he said, "Even sexier than before."

"Put your dick in me Jason, i wana feel it."
"U on the pill?", he asked.
I nodded.
He laughed and reached undernath his bed and pulled out a rubber.
He smiled at me and he slipped it on.
"Hurry up man, just gimme the dick."
I got the dick.
He turned me around and spread my legs.
He slowly slipped his dick in me. I bit into his pillow to avoid cryin out like a bitch.
He had his hands pressed firm against the bed next to my bed as he was doggyin me, kind of like he was doin press ups at the same time.
His cock was so nice in me, I could feel his six pack rubbing against my back and i threw my right arm back and grabbed the back of his head.
He was doin it so nice, he spanked my ass and kissed the back of my neck and his dick went deeper and deeper into me and my pussy was getting wetter and wetter as he got bigger and bigger inside of me.
He pulled out the dick and said, "suck it."
I leaned over and put the dick in my mouth, as i was suckin his dick, he reached over my back and fingered with me with his left hand. He put his right fist in his hand tryin not to scream as i did my tongue twister move.
Then i stopped sucking and slowly sat on his dick, placing his dick in my pussy. i grabbed nick and started to grind, he squeezed my backoff as he sucked on my neck.
I wasnt feelin the dick too much in that position and so i lay on my back and spread my legs.
"Fuck me missionary."
His dick was like a wet black pole, imagine the thickness sliding in and out of my wet cooch that made a smacking noise everytime he put it in me.
He lay on top of me, fucking me. His sweat running down my body. My body was glistening as he licked my neck. i scratched his back. he started to jook me so hard.
"come on!", i said. "fuck me nice."
Then the cock exploded in me.
He pulled out and his cum ran down my legs.
I got up slowly and used his duvet to wipe the cum off my pussy, put on my tshirt and my g-string and went back to grandmas room and lay next to her.

The next morning, I woke up bare early and made breakfast. My dad had sent another 600 to my account so I had gone to Waitrose and bought bacon, eggs, bare bread and toast and some tropicana.
By the time granmda woke up, the breakfst was ready.
She satin the sofa and just put on the tv, I put her food on the plate and put the plate on the tray.
She smiled at me and began to eat her food.
"Uncle Jason's gone to work," I said.
She nodded.
"Grandma,Im gonna go live with mums friend in Hendon."
"Becuase your scared of those boys," she said.
"Im not scared," I said, "they cant hurt me."
"They can Deena, these people have no hearts, they can do anyting, just look at me."
I looked at her.
"She called and shes coming to get me in an hour," i said.
"Its ok," she said, "Ethels coming to see me."
"So is Mum, shes just gonna drop me off and come back."
She nodded.
I went up and got into the shower and got out, i put on my tight high waisted jeans and a tight blue tshirt and gold bangles. I put on my make up as my mum came into the house.
I walked downstairs.
"Deena get ready," she said.
"I already am,".
She nodded.
Granmda looked at me and said, "Make sure you come to visit me before you go back to Spain."
I kissed her on the cheek and cried and said, "yes nan."
"Mum," my mum said, "im gonna drop you off at ethels house and then when ive finished dropping Deena off, ill come pick you up."

"Ill be alright alone here," she said.
"Nan are u sure," I asked.
"Yes Deena," she said, then she looked at my mum and said, "just come back quick."

I put my suitcase in the back of my mums car and got in the passenger seat and did my seatbelt.
"She wants to move back to Barbados,"my mum said as we got to the Brixton academy.
"She cant though, like she has to pay the mortgage," i said.
"She finished paying that off years ago Deena, why would you thinks she needed to pay it off."
I was bare shocked, "She asked me for money ages ago, she said she needed it to pay the mortgage."
My mum looked at me as we were waiting for the traffic lights, "Deena are u sure."
I nodded, then she said, "I need to talk to her about it then, how much did u give her?".
"I think 500."
"500!, where did u get that from?".
I didnt say nothing, "from a boy," she asked.
"Nah nah," i said.
Then she changed the subject, "Marlons the guy you're going to stay with, he's Uncle Pauls boy from college, I used to go out with him before I met your dad."
I nodded.
She said, "its only temporary Deena, he's a nice guy, as soon as we sort out what we're gonna do, you're going back to Spain, its safe."
Then she started cryin, "Ive never seen her so scared."
She was talkin about nan, she said, "This fuckin country, lettin dumb youths run the streets attacking innocent people."
I looked down and she said, "I swear Deena, if I didnt like Labour so much, id vote conservative cos they seem to know how to deal with crime, but theyre racist, they act like they're modern but they're racist, but they know how to deal with crime."

"Are u going to vote," i asked.
"Of course," she said, "whats the point in complaining and not doing anything about it."
"who are you voting for," i asked.
"Tory," she said, "I hate them, but look at whats happened, only they know what to do with this kind of stuff, Labour are too busy letting everyone be lazy, last night at the hospital, this woman came in with her daughter, and when we asked the mum what was wrong, you know what she said sorry no english how do people who cant speak English get into England- make sure u vote Deena, politics affects all of us."

We got to Hendon.
When we got there, some tall black guy was standing outside the house. My mum put on her lipstick and we both got out of the car.
"Marlon,"my mum waved.
I pulled my suitcase out of the back and we walked towards the guy. he looked bare like an older version of Bashy.
"Im sorry about what happened," he said, "how is she."
"Shes fine, shes at home, a bit shaken up." my mum said. "Marlon this is my daughter Deena."
Marlon kissed me on the cheek and said, "Woiii, she's a looker."
I smiled and my mum gave me the kind of look which said dont fink about it
"Deena," she said, "I have to go and go to mum, Marlon, I'll call you to arrange rent and stuff."
"Alright," Marlon said.
He kissed her on the cheek. My mum hugged me and then left.
"You want a drink," he asked as she left.
I tried to hold back my tears and said,"yeah."
We walked into his kitchen, it was nang. i think it was a new house cos it looked like he had just moved in.
"Deena is it?", he asked handin me orange juice.
I nodded.
"The spare rooms big and nice, my nephew stays in it sometimes but cos ur here, he'll stay in the other one," he said.
I nodded and he stared at me in the face, "Do you model?".
I shook my head.
"Listen, your mum explained why you were in Spain and stuff and i want you to know that you can talk to me," he said.
I nodded and said, "thanks."
"You know who you look like," he said, "You look like that girl, the one who Ray J fucked on camera."

"Everyone says that," i laughed.
"You dont have to pay rent," he said, "ill just take the money your mum gives me and give it to you."

Then i caught him looking at my tits.
"Can i see the room."
He showed me into the room and i looked on the bed.
"the bed is nice," i said.
"its comfy." he said.
I looked at him.
"Its really big," i said,
"I hate it," he said, "i hate being in bed alone."
"How old are you again," i asked.
"36."
I nodded.
"Youve got something on your top," he said.
Then he started brush his hand against my tit.
He pulled off my top.
I pulled off his jeans. He took off mine and he undid my bra and i took off my gstring.
his body was so in shape, he had a tatoo of lion paws on his chest.
He kissed my tits.
I licked his lips as he slowly put me on the bed.
"You're the sexiest piece of pussy ive ever seen," he said. then he looked at me and said, "nah, i cant do this, your mum and uncle want me to look after you, im sorry."
then he put on his clothes and left the room.

i lay on the bed and cried.
I felt so lost, i was scared for sorcha, bare upset about my nan and i missed spain, tings were simple there.
I put on my clothes and went downstairs. Marlon was on the phone.
When he saw me, he said bye to the person and put the phone down.
"Can u call me a cab please," i said, "i need to pick up my phone from my house."

"Would your mum be cool with it," he said.
I said, "yeah,"
He picked up the phone and called me a cab. when he finished calling it, he said, "Deena im sorry yeah, im really sorry- im your uncles friend, your mums ex, that shits bare weird."
I smiled, as i waited for the cab, he was telling me about how he worked in some jobs agency and how his nephew was making bare P at some call centre and how if i wanted he could get me a job there.
When the cab came, i said, "whats your number,ill call u when im on the way back."
He gave me the number, i picked up my clutch bag and ran into the cab.
It was raining bare hard.
it was rush hour as well, it took an hour and a half to get to my mums yard.
i paid the driver and unlocked the door and went into the house.
where the fuck is this phone. i ran upstairs and found it in my room. i was kinda prang cos i didnt wanna be alone in the house too long,i was jus about to call the cab, when there was a knock at the door.

Something was telling me not to answer it, but i walked downstairs and opened the door.
"Long time Deena."
SHIT. It was Chanel.

DEENA SKET- Independent review by Tianasamour

2010-04-04T18:18:00.000-07:00

A tale that seems fictional to the majority of society, yet all too real to others.

This blog follows the story of Deena, an emotionally damaged young lady with promiscuous tendencies, living in the thick of London’s underground gang culture.

Her life is plagued with destruction, sex, violence and betrayal.

I found this story both revealing and disturbing at the same time and soon if I wasn’t on my laptop I was constantly checking my iphone for the next chapter.

Aside from being highly entertaining ……. (once I had become desensitised to what I initially thought to be gratuitous violence), I realised that the story serves not just to entertain or indeed shock but also as an warning to young people in and around this undercover “road” community.

Sentiments in the book provide me with a sense that the author whilst providing highly entertaining cliff-hangers, chapter by chapter also shows us a sense of her moral compass by humanising the characters.

The Deena Sket story takes you all the way through a broad range of emotions, parts make tears fall and others get you furious as plot changes, twists and turns have you unsure how u feel about the main character Deena and supporting roles.

"That’s a double negative you dumb sket, get on your knees,"

But like any good fiction writer, the author has subtly added light-hearted moments even within dark situations.

The above quote is a good example of that, being given grammatical criticisms by a Gangster is not something most people would expect.

This story captured not only my interest but also family, friends and colleagues from a wide variety of backgrounds.

My anticipation at times has equalled that ofeastenders “who done it?” and I eagerly await the next instalment of DeenaSket.

By Tianasamour

THE DEENA DIALOGUES

2010-04-04T18:06:00.000-07:00

Chapter 37 will be up on Friday and on the same night The Deena Dialogues will be published.
The Deena Dialogues are all the conversations that Deena has had with other characters that did not make it into the chapters.
The Deena Dialogues will include:

SORCHA AND DEENA
SMURKZ AND DEENA
NATALIE AND DEENA

Chapter 1 of Deena Sket can be found in the archives.
Chapter 37 will be a two parter.

DEENA SKET- THE POLL

2010-04-03T14:08:00.000-07:00

Who do YOU think is the sexiest character and why?

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 36

2010-04-03T04:09:00.001-07:00

Smurkz tried to draw for his strap but one of Chanels man kicked him down. I jumped up bare scared as Chanel looked at me. i could see the scars on her face and she was wearing black gloves on the hands that Smurkz had thrown acid on.
Natalie got up from the floor and stood next to Chanel.
Dee ran out of the room and screamed "SHIT" when he saw Chanel and her man dem.
Smurkz looked bare shook, he was goin so red like he was gonna shit himself.

"You SNAKE!", he shouted at Natalie.
Chanel looked at Natalie and smiled, "Safe for this yeah."
"It's no problem, this dickhead bre thought I was on his team," Natalie said.
Then Chanel took out what looked to be 300 in 20 and 10 pound notes and gave it her wrapped in a rubber band.
Natalie put it in her purse and said to Smurkz "You give my girl Diane herpes from cheating with other chicks and u think im gonna be pally pally with you, when Chanel called me and told me what u did to her, I got so vex."
Then she kissed Chanel on the cheek.
"I beg one of u take her to the airport for me,"Chanel said.
One of Chanels boys and he and Natalie walked out of the flat and closed the door.

I was so shook, Chanel looked so different, Smurkz had really fucked up her face.
She looked at me and then looked at Smurkz, "Tie him up," she said to her boys, "and den u man bring whoevers in the other room out here innit."

Smurkz and Dee were shook as Chanels man tied them to the chairs.
I looked at Chanel and i started to cry, "please dont hurt me."
I realized the mess i was in, i thought of just being in college, doing my coursework with natalie, going to lessons, going to lunch and cracking joke, walking home with natalie and just enjoying ourselves and now it was over.
Chanel's boys pulled out the two guys whowere in the room.

"These are two of the bres that raped me,"Chanel said.
They tried to fight but Chanel's man dem started punching them up.
They tied them up too.
Then Chanel pulled out her strap and walked to Smurkz.

She held it to his head. I started crying as two of her man dem sat on opposite sides of me.
"15th May 2006," she said. "Girl gets on a bus by herself leaving her grandparents house at 10 oclock, she gets on the 196 going to Norwood, she was 14 years old, how old were you Smurkz."

He started stammering. "You were 16," Chanel said calmly, "And she's on the back of the bus on the top deck by herself texting her mum to let her know she was on the bus coming home from spending the day with her grandparents and then five bres, one 16 year old and 4 18 year olds get on the bus, go up to the top and see her there and they try and chirps her and when she said she had a boyfriend so the guys would leave her alone, what happened next?".

Dee looked at Smurkz and started crying. Smurkz said, "i dont know."
Chanel held the strap closer to his head, "Ill tell you den, one of the guys stood in front of the camerawhilst the rest of them tore off her clothes and raped her, at the back of the bus, 14 year old girl coming from spending the day with her nan and they raped her on the back of the bus and then got off at their stop like nobodys business."

Then one of Chanels man said, "She was my little sister Smurkz."
I gasped.
"Nah nah nah, it wasnt me,"Smurkz said.
"14 year old girl to embarrased to tell her mum or anybody what happened to her, and doesnt know how to cope and she tells ONE person, her best friend and I didnt say anything to anybody, I promised I wouldnt tell anybody wanted happened to her,"Chanel started to cry and then she said, "But then when she killed herself Smurkz, I had to tell somebody why, I had to explain to her maj that she was raped and then a few years I find out it was you who did it with your olders, thats WHY i wanted to set u up, fuck the other shit u did, fuck when u banged up that guy for no reason, fuck when you jacked the white lady walking her kids from school and fuck when you had your boys rape me in this very flat, but my best friend killed herself because you killed her first, when you and your man got on the 196 and raped her on the back of the bus on the top deck."

The guy who had spoken before walked up to Smurkz and started punching him up, Smurkz started screaming as a tooth fell out of his mouth.
"Stop it,"Chanel said.
"You know what you do to aperson when you rape them,"Chanel said calmly, "You kill them, and you take everything away from them, they never forget your face or the way you smelled when you violated them or the way you didnt care that you were hurting them, they never forget and sometimes if their lucky they can move on, but sometimes when its bad, they can never get rid of the feeling of your hands on them violating them."

"Im sorry,"Smurkz cried, he was bawlin so hard, "Im sorry."
"People fink its cool to do feel ups,"Chanel said, "It dont matter whether the person you're doing it to doesnt say anything to stop it, if they haven't given you permission to touch them its aviolation, people think its alright to hurt people who seem more vulnerable than them, they fink its alright to pick up a knife from their yard and go out with it and end someones life with it, they dont understand that when you kill someone you kill a family, you kill the memories, you kill years of friendship and families, man dem- innocent man dem- attacked for nothin because people dont appreciate human life, when i told deena to help me set u up, I was never gonna hurt you, i just wanted you to feel scared, like all those people did when you attacked them, do you know what it feels like to walk the streets and not know if you're gonna make it home safe."

Then Chanel looked at me, "Deena, where's Sorcha."
I pointed in the other room.
She walked in there and ran out screaming, "what did u do to her!".
Dee started cryin, the other two guys were tryin to hide that they were prang but i could see it in their eyes.
"You're sick," Chanel said. "I want you to feel what its like to do what you did to me and my friend,"

"no no," dee cried, "please dont."
Smurkz tried to escape.
"Wait," Chanel said, "Someone take Deena home,".
I cried.
One of her man dem took my hand and led me outside the flat and as we walked out of the corridor and toward the lift, i heard Smurkz screaming.
As Chanels boy walked me to one of the ten tinted cars outside the flat, he asked me if i was ok and gave me a ribena.
I got in the car. I cried thinking about Sorcha, what had them man done to her, the way Chanel screamed told me it was something bad
"Where do u live." he asked me.
I gave him directions to my mums house.
It was a long drive.
"My name's Tony innit."
"Hi Tony,"I said trying not to cry.
"Ur gonna be ok, stop crying yeah," he said.
I nodded.
"Do you want anything to eat," he asked, "Chanel said man can get you some KFC or suttin."
"Im ok, turn the left here please."

We got to my mums house and before i got out the car I asked him, "Are they gonna kill them."
He looked at me and sed, "Most animals dont even kill their own kind."
I Got out of the car and knocked on the door, i felt so sick.
The door opened and it was my mum.
The car drove off.
"Deena baby."
I hugged her so hard, "Mummy."

I told her everything as she cleaned my face up, I told her about Natalies dad, Sorcha, everything, except what happened with Jason.
She started crying, "I should have been there for you Deena, Ive been to busy trying to sort my life out, that I stopped caring about you."
I looked down and wanted to tell her about me finding my dad but i looked up and said, "Mum, im scared about what that ryan boy might do to me."

"Deena," she said, "These people are animals, they feel no way about killing or doing anything, they're just animals."

"Mum, theyre gonna come after me now he knows I lied to the police about not being with me when he was."
Then i looked at her face, she had been crying, "what happened to you," i asked.

"Im working at a new hospital, Kings, and erm yesterday a boy came in, about your age, a bit younger and he had been stabbed 6 times and erm," she started crying, "when he came in, he was losing a lot of blood because they had cut into his veins, they stabbed him twice in the arm and when his mum came in with his older sister, she didnt know what had happened the police had only told her her son was in hospital and just as one of the other nurses was explaining to his mum," she started crying and said, "just as she was telling his mum that her only son had been stabbed, the doctor walked out and told her that her boy was dead."

I felt sick.
"And his sister- she just froze and walked out of the hospital into the cold and his mum just fell on the floor crying and when i went to comfort her, I felt her loss, like it was you who had been killed, they killed her boy Deena and when they were preparing his body to take him down to the morgue this morning the doctor noticed his right fist was closed and when they opened it, there was a pound in it- he was going to buy an easter egg for his little cousin when he got stabbed."

My mum got up and went to the sink and started bawlin.
I had to hold back my tears. "Deena I know what these boys can do, they're sick, I dont ever want to be home and get a knock on my door and know what the police are going to tell me, I know i havent been there for you, but i cant lose you Deena, not to these streets, its like i knew you were going to come today, your nan said she hasnt seen you in days."
I cried as she hugged me so tight, I had told her about everythin, smurkz and natalie setting me up at the party, about sorcha, about michelle, about everythin.

"Deena, you need to leave London," she said.
I looked up at her, "what?".
"I'm going to book you a flight for the next plane out to Spain, you can go and stay with Aunt Mable and her boyfriend."
"Mum why?".
"Because I cant risk this Ryan boy and his friends come and get you because you lied against them to help Natalie."
"Mum i cant leave London."
"If you stay they'll kill you."
"Mum what are you saying."
"You're leaving London Deena, you're leaving London."

To Be Continued.

CHAPTER 35

2010-04-02T16:26:00.000-07:00

Natalie Smurked.
I looked up at her and grabbed her leg, she kicked me with other one and i banged my head against the bed.
Sorcha walked back into the room with a knife in her hand. Her face so bloody and one of her contacts had fallen out.
Natalie picked up the chair as Sorcha got closer to her. I ran inbetween and started crying, "please stop i beg u two please stop."
Natalie grabbed my hair and swung me onto the floor and when Sorcha went to help me up, Natalie kicked her in the face. the knife fell out of her hand.
Then we heard the front door open and close.
Then i looked up.
"You alright babes," Smurkz said kissing Natalie on the cheek.
I looked at him and didnt want to cry in front of him but it hurt so much, I thought he really cared.
He looked at Sorcha and laughed.
"Where did you park the whip." Natalie asked.
"Round the back, we have to go right now cos someone might see it," He said, "How are we gonna get them into the car."

"We're gonna walk," Natalie said, "If not, we'll just send your boys to Deena's nan yard and then have them visit Sorcha's mum tonight."
Smurkz squeezed Natalies ass and helped me up.
I spat in his face. He slapped me.
Sorcha got upslowly and dried her eyes.
All four of us walked round the back of the house and got in the car. I wanted to scream but i realized that i didnt know Smurkz, i couldnt risk him hurting my nan
so i got in the back of the car next to Sorcha and Dee.
Dee avoided eye contact with me and Sorcha as Natalie sat in the passenger seat and Smurkz got in the drivers seat.

Sorcha just kept crying, she wouldnt stop.
"Shut the fuck up Sorcha," Smurkz said.
"Where are we going," I asked trying not to show them how shook i was.
"Somewhere private innit."
Natalie looked bare sad as she looked at me and then when she saw Smurkz look at her she gave me a dirty look.
We were drivin for half an hour and then i recognised where we were, it was the same place that we saw Chanel getting raped.
It was dead out, nobody was there. Smurkz parked the whip in front of the entrance and pulled me out of the car. Sorcha got out of the car and tried to run but Dee tripped her up, she fell on the floor and her face was grazed. they pushed us into the lift and then when we got to the flat, Smurkz unlocked the door.
It stank of weed and there were two man already in there.

"I thought you said it would be just us,"Natalie said.
"These man wanted to have fun innit,"Smurkz said. I cried when i recognised one of the guy who had raped Chanel.
The flat looked worse than it did before, it smelt of dro and piss and likesomeone had just done a shit. the windows were boarded up and there was a bull dog running around the place.
"Get on the sofa," Dee said.
I sat down quick time but Sorcha said, "fuck it, i aint scared of u lot." Smurkz backhanded her and she fell on the couch.
I saw Natalie look at her watch really quickly and say, "I need to leave in an hour, im going dubai innit with my man and his parents."

Smurkz nodded as he lit up a browns.
"Deena," he said, "You were gonna set me up for Chanel innit."
"No," i said.
"Dont lie," he said, "i swear this chick is making me vex"
"Just tell the truth,"Dee said calmly. "Please."

He looked like he didnt wanna be here, like he felt deep.
"Deena, you were gonna set me up to get fucked up by Chanel, you took her dough so you were gonna do it,"
I looked at him and started cryin,"I was finkin about it but den I started to like you bare, so i couldnt do it, i proper like you, i swear down."

Sorcha kissed her teeth and said, "shes chattin shit, she told me she was gonna do it, that she was gonna set u up and that she was gonna do it, she even asked me to help her."

I was so shocked and i started stutterin, "shes chattin shit."
Smurkz said, "Deena, i beg u tell me why u asked Chanel for more money if u werent gonna do it."
I couldnt even lie, i just cried.
I felt like i was dreaming, you know when you feel as if it cant be happening, like its not real.
Smurkz punched me up. i started crying as he repeatedly punched me. Sorcha looked at me and smurked, then out of nowhere she got pulled to the ground by one the guys and the two guys started kicking her in the stomach.
Natalie just looked on and i saw a tear rolling down her eye.
"Put on ur doms when ur gonna fuck dem," Smurkz said when he punched me in the stomach. "This one has herpes, i gave it to her."

Dee laughed as he and the other two guys took Sorcha into the other room and closed the door. Smurkz unzipped his jeans and put his dick in my mouth and grabbed the back of my head making me suck it and i could hear were Sorcha's screams. Then Dee walkedout naked and said to Smurkz, "is the acid still in the fridge."
Smurkz turned to him and nodded, Dee pulled out an evian bottle which looked like it was full of water and went into back into the room and closed the door.
That was when i heard Sorcha scream so loud that even Natalie burst out crying, she ran into the room and started begging them to stop. Dee pushed her out and said, "You wanted this yeah, dont make us turn on you."

Smurkz looked at Natalie and said, "dont feel sorry for her, she wouldnt feel sorry for you."
Blood was running down my face as i sucked Smurkz dick. My jaws were startin to hurt as he punched me whenever i didnt suck hard.

I coud hear Sorcha screaming, like proper screaming and crying.
"I have to go,"Natalie said.
"How are u getting to the airport,"Smurkz said.
"Ill walk to the mainroad and call a cab, my man has my luggage with him."
"Kl."
Natalie kissed Smurkz on the cheek and then as she went to open the door. It was kicked down. Natalie fell on the floor.
Ten man, all blacked out ran in, one of them had a strap and then i saw her.

"Chanel."
"Ya dun know."

CHAPTER 34

2010-04-02T03:40:00.000-07:00

Natalie looked at me and laughed.
"Your little boyfriend Smurkz wanted me to tell you he knows that you were gonna set him up," she said.
"He wouldnt," i said.
"Any dumb bitch, i was at aidens party and u saw me three times but didnt even clock it, Sorcha told Aiden that his boys could fuck u as a way of allowing her the money she owed him and she told Smurkz this, then my girl Diane whose linking Smurkz told me all of this shit, so i called Smurkz and set it up, i told him to tell sorcha not to set u up and i gave him the money to give to sorcha to pay aiden back so i could set u up myself afte i fucked it up the first time with jesse and faisani, sorcha told smurkz that you have herpes, so i told the guys to wear rubbers."

Then she laughed. I looked to sorcha and she said, "shes chattin shit, i wasnt gonna set u up,".
I looked at natalie and said, "Ur chatting shit, smurkz wouldnt do that, why would he do that."
"Who told u come here today deena," she asked, "smurkz did, he knew i'd be here with sorcha."
Then she looked at me and sorcha and laughed even harder, "you two are of the dumbest skets Ive ever met, smurkz and dee know everythin, they know all about u linked ryan and fumez after they raped me, they know about how u fucked my dad and they knw that u were considering setting smurkz up for chanel."

"Ur lying," I said, "nah nah, smurkz loves me, he wouldnt."
"Deena," natalie said, "nobody loves you, your mum's a sketty hoe who gets doggied on the regs by old white guys, your dad didnt want you EVEN BEFORE he knew who you were and your nan, some any dumb old lady who still thinks cutting ur hair makes it grow."

"it does make it grow longer!", i shouted.
my high was coming down and i fell on the floor crying.
"sorry," sorcha said.
"fuck off!", i said.
Natalie looked at Sorcha and said, "And as for you Sorcha, your lucky I'm going uni this year cos i swear down, if i didnt have anything to live for your head piece would be cut in half right about now."
I looked up at Natalie and said, "Natalie, why would you do all this shit to me, them man raped me, they cut me, LOOK AT MY CHIN, look at the cut there Natz! You set me up the first time and it didnt work and then u did it again and..."

"You see how much it hurts Deena," she said, "When someone you think is down for you takes the piss and does bookie shit to you, you dont think i didnt cry thinking about what you two did to Sandra and Michelle, you dont think i wish me and u were still girlies."
Then she banged another hole in the wall.
She started crying and screamed at Sorcha, "YOU FUCKIN KNEW RICO HAD MICHELLE AND U DIDNT DO SHIT- SHES YOUR FUCKIN SISTER AND YOU BOTH WENT TO RICOS YARD AND SAW HER THERE AND SAID NUFFIN."
"I didnt know it was her," i said cryin, "i swear i didnt know."
Sorcha looked at Natalie and said, "Natalie, get the fuck out of my house now."
"Or what babes?", Natalie said drying her eyes, "Or what are you gonna do?".
Just as Sorcha was gonna reply, the housephone rang.
we all looked at it. Sorcha picked it up slowly.

"Hello.... hi mum.....erm i'm here with deena.....yeah everything's fine mum....love you."
Then she put the phone down.
Natalie said, "Why didnt you tell her to call the police,"
"Cos im gonna fuck u up and i heard bitches can get sent down for that."
"Is that so?", Natalie said.

"Lets do this like real girls," Sorcha said, "No weapons, just fist to fist shit."
Natalie threw down the hammer.
Sorcha threw down the ice pack. I was just on the floor crying.
"stopp!", i said.
Natalie punced Sorcha. Sorcha grabbed Natalies neck and banged her head against the wall, Sorcha then punched Natalie in the stomach and threw her on to the stairs.
Natalie kicked Sorchas stomach and Sorcha fell back. then Natalie ran upstairs.
Me and Sorcha ran after her.

Natalie ran into Sorcha's room and i ran inbetween them, "allow it," i cried. Then Natalie picked up Sorcha's laptop and smacked me over the head with it, i fell on the bed and my nose was bleeding, i felt like i couldnt get up, i felt dizzy.
Sorcha and Natalie were fucking each other up in the room. Natalie grabbed Sorcha's head and smashed it against her desk and then punched her in the face six times.
I tried to get up but i felt sick.
Sorcha started to cry as Natalie started to kick her in the pussy bare times.
Then Natalies phone rang.
She picked up Sorcha's chair and smacked it around her head, Sorcha fell out of the room.

"Hello," she said picking up her phone, "Yeah come now... come right now....kl."
I looked at Natalie and said, "who was that."
She Smurked.

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 33 part 2

2010-03-31T13:17:00.001-07:00

"Natalie- what are you doing here?".
"Come inside."
I walked inside slowly and she closed the door behind her.
"Where's Sorcha."
Sorcha walked out of the kitchen.
I looked at them both.
"Whats goin on," i asked.
Sorcha was holding an ice pack to her mouth, it looked like she had been fucked up. I looked at Natalie's fists, it had blood all over them.
"Whats in the bag," Natalie asked.
"Fuck off," I said, "what happened."
"Sorcha, hows your mouth?", Natalie asked.
Sorcha put her middle finger up at her.
"What the fucks goin on."
"Deena are you high," Natalie laughed.

"Deena come here,"Sorcha said.
"FUCK YOU," I told her, "I know what you did."

"This is cosy," Natalie said, "what did she do?".
"Fuck you."
Then Natalie kicked me. i fell on the floor. Sorcha ranand helped me up.
"She came here to fuck me up, she broke in through the back door and heard me talk to you on the phone,"Sorcha said.

"What do you want," I said pulling myself away from Sorcha.
"You fuckin sket friend here gave Ryan an alibi, so he's out, and so the feds think i either didnt see ryan or lied."
"Ryans out?", I asked.
I looked at Sorcha.
"Thats right Deena, and now he knows you helped me to try and put him away."
"Is that why ur here?", i asked.

"He's not gonna come after me Deena, he knows the feds are looking after me, you on the other hand are pissed," she said.
Natalie looked at the bag and said, "Deena, whats in the bag."
I said, "Fuck you."
"You've got a dirty mouth Deena, almost as dirty as the cum stains on your face," she said, " Im tryna figure out which one of u has fucked more man, I think Sorcha's done about 80 and you Deena, i'd say about 50, NOT including my dad."
I kissed my teeth and took out the hammer. Natalie picked up Sorcha's cordless housephone and threw it at me, it hid my head and i dropped the hammer. Sorcha went to reach for the hammer but Natalie ran, kicked her and picked the hammer up and went back to where she was standing. "Sorcha, tru say this is the hammer i lent you last year," Natalie said.
Sorcha said, "Fuck you Natalie and get out."
"U want me to fuck u up again Sorcha,".
"I dare you." Sorcha said.
I was feeling so high. Natalie took the hammer and banged it against the wall, she made a giant hole in it and said, "Tell your maj im sorry," she laughed, "wait a minute," she said, "this hole is almost as big as your bucket pussy Sorcha."
"I havent got abucket Natalie."
"You do," Natalie said.
"Your DAD didn't seem to mind it."
Natalie smashed the hammer against the wall and made another hole.
"Tru say my man wants to fuck u up so bad," Natalie said looking at the both of us.
"Who that pussy Mark, as in Rochelle's ex man, if hes bad let him come in it, u must tink hes bad just cos he fucked up Fumez but everyone knows Fumez is a pussy anyway," Sorcha said.
She didnt even care about the holes in the walls.
My whole head was in a daze.
"You lot suprised me man," Natalie said, "IM the one who introduced you to each other and then u go and fuck me over like that, the bookiest of the booky."
Sorcha kissed her teeth.
"Natalie you're lucky you caught me off guard cos if i had seen you coming in from the backdoor, there'd be a shank in your head piece right about now."
Natalie laughed and looked at me and rolled her eyes.

"Hows ur dad Natalie, u best keep michelle away from him, uno how he likes em young," Sorcha said.
Natalies eyes went red and she made another hole in the wall with the hammer. she was about to come close to us with the hammer but Sorcha pulled out a blade from her pocket, "natalie i swear down, come any closer and I'll cut u."
Natalie went to bang me over the head with the hammer. I dodged and Sorcha kicked her back.
Sorcha held me and said, "are u ok."

I spat at her.
"I know you fuckin set me last night."
Sorcha wiped the spit offher face.
Natalie laughed.
"No No Deena, that was me- I set u up."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 33

2010-03-31T02:30:00.001-07:00

I woke up alone in Smurkz bed and went down to the living room, he was watching GMTV.
My eyes were bare heavy from crying.
"I got some Greggs, theres some in the kitchen," he said.
When i went into the kitchen, Dee was pouring himself some milk and gave me a weak smile and then left the house.
I didnt even think anything of it at the time.
I walked back into the living room with a sausage roll in my plate.
Smurkz looked so sexy even in the morning.
"Dee doesnt know," he told me, "Me and U are gonna do somethin to Sorcha."
"What is it?", I said.

He lowered the volume on the tv and lifted up the pillow on the sofa we were sitting on.
He pulled out a hammer.
"Smurkz i cant."
" she took you for a mug Deena, she's laughin at u, she set you up to be raped as a way of paying Aiden back the money she owes him, what kind of friend is that."

He put the hammer in my hand.
"Are you gonna come with me?", I asked.
"Nah nah, and dont tell her I know about dis either innit, this is between you and her."
"Where did u get this from?", i asked, "the hammer." it was so heavy.
"It's her mums, when i first moved here Sorcha let me borrow to help put tings up, now ur gonna give it back to her."

I looked at him, i was so shook.
"Smurkz, please, lets find another way, i cant kill someone." i said with tears roling down my eyes.
"Deena she took you for a fucking mug, them man violeted u cos she told them too, what if them had boared u up with the box cutter, take the hammer and secure that shit, call to see if shes home now."

I dried my eyes and dialed sorchas number.
"Hello."
"Hi babes, where did u go last night."
"Erm, i got sick, i had to go home."
"Oh alright, what u on today."
"I was gonna come check you at your yard, are you home?".
"Yeah yeah, come see me, i made bare breakfast, dont eat until you come here lol."
"Ill be there in a bit."
"In a bit."
She put the phone down.

Smurkz looked at me, he scratched his balls and said, "Ill drop you off to the start of her road so u dont have to get the bus and then ill leave you, when you're done, call me and ill come get you."

I started bawlin, "Smurkz I cant."
He kissed me and took the hammer out of my hand and put it on the table.
"come upstairs."
He led me by the hand and took me up to his room.
he reached under his bed and pulled out a bag of coke.
he lay on the bed with it in his hands.
he took off his boxers and threw them on the floor.
He opened up the small bag of charlie and poured a bit on his six pack, then he gave me a debit card.
"line it up so its neat in a straight line.
"Smurkz, i dont do charlie."
"shut up and do it man."
I looked at him, and used the card to make the charlie on his six pack straight.
"sniff a bit yeah."
i shook my head.
"DEENA UR PISSIN ME OFF MAN, SNORT THE FUCKING COKE".
I put my nose on hissix pack and started sniffin, i started coughin when too much went into my right nostril. he laughed as he watched me snort the whole line and then fall on the floor.

I was numb and then i couldnt remember where i was. i just felt bare strong and bare horny. I stood up and started laughin cos smurkz head looked like it was blue. he kissed me and threw on the bed.,
he sucked on my nipples as i sucked his neck, it felt so weird, like it wasnt sex. he was sucking my neck and then he spread my legs and started... it felt like my whole body was on fire, but it felt nice. he was fucking me and my pussy felt like it was eating his dick.
i couldnt hear anything, i just blacked out and woke up in his car.

"You ready yeah?"
I looked down and i was fully clothed. I was in his car and we were on the end of sorchas street. the hammer was in a big black leather bag.
I felt a bit dizzy and bare hungry.
"Go and do it," Smurkz said looking at me.
"ok ok."
I stumbled out the car laughing with the black bag in my hand. i shut the door and smurkz drove off.
As i walked to Sorchas door, i felt myself getting even more angry with her, like proper hating her. Some old lady walked past me with her little grandson and shook her head, i felt love bites all over my neck. then i got to sorchas door. i rang the bell and i heard her coming down.
Then the door opened.

"Deena."
"Natalie?".

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 32 part 2

2010-03-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

"STOP"
The boxcutter had cut some of the skin on arm it was bleeding, i was crying.
"Lets give her a choice," one of the guys said. "You can either do line ups for us, OR we'll cut you up."
They had into my forearm and a little bit into my chin. they were both bleeding.
"Im not sorcha," i cried, "I can prove it."
"Shut the fuck up!", the tallest guy screamed.
I started cryin.
"Im not Sorcha," i said.
One of them punched me and said, "Bitch!, do you want man to slice your nipples off your tits."
"No," i cried, "Please let me go, I havent done nothing."
"Thats a double negative you dumb sket, get on your knees," another one of them said.

"Its your choice, suck or get cut."

So i sucked.
It was disgusting, some of their dicks were deformed like horrible. i cried when i kept getting punched, i had my mouth on the dicks but i wasnt sucking and so they keep pushing my head back and forward with the box cutter to my throat. the small cuts in my arm and chin were bleeding as my mouth was getting raped.
i cried as i could feel hands on my pum.
they pushed me up against the wall, and then all of them put on rubbers, pulled down my dress and then they all...

When they were done, i just lay in the alleyway cryin.
"Deena!".
I looked up and saw Smurkz.

It must have been 4in the morning by the time we got back to his house. I cried so hard in the shower as the cuts stang. I didnt wanna leave the shower because i felt so ashamed and then smurkz walked in.
"I made you some hot chocolate yeah."
He dried me with his towel and walked me to his room.
He sat me on the edge of the bed and sat next to me, he opened up a first aid box and said, "this might sting," he put disifectant on the cuts and then put a plaster on my arm and then gave me an ice pack to hold against the small cut on my chin to freeze it.

"Who did this," He asked.
I started crying and said, "they said they were chanels boys."
"Did they.."
I nodded.
He held me and said, "I waited ages for you in my whip and when you didnt come, I parked the car and came looking for you, where's sorcha."
I shrugged and rested my head on his shoulders. he kissed my forehead. I cried so hard, i felt so disgusting.
"Whose party was it?", he asked.
"Sorcha said it was some guy called Aiden."
"Aiden?"
"Yeah," i said.
"Tall black guy with dreads," he asked.
"I didnt see him," i said. "why."
"She owes that guy Aiden, that is him, cos he lives in that estate, why the fuck would she go to his shoobz."

I just couldnt think, i just kept on bawlin.
"You dyed your hair?", he asked.
"Yeah," i said.
"I like it," he whispered.
His arms were soft and gentle, his breath smelt of dro and he smelt like he had just showered.
"Should I call Sorcha," I said.
"Nah nah dont."
"why not."
"Somethings bookie about dis whole ting, everybody who knows sorcha knows what she looks like, nobody would see someone else and tink its her cos shes so bait, everybody knows her face and her eyes are blue." he said.

I started crying and he kissed my neck.
He said, "ill make you feel better."
He lay me down on the bed and took off the towel and looked at my pussy, i felt so ashamed.
He slowly massaged my pum and said, "dont worry deena, its all good."
"should we call the fedz," i said.
"sshh," he whispered and then his tongue found its way inside my pussy.
I clung to the pillows letting my ice pack fall to the ground.
I cried, i felt safe now.
he took off his clothes and said, "deena, nobodys going to ever hurt you again,"
He kissed my pum so softly with his hands gently caressing my stomach. he kissed my nipples gently and then gently used his tongue to lick my clit.
my tears started to dry.
"tell me when you want me to sop," he said.
"dont stop."

it was raining outside and there was lightining as he ate my pussy.
then he stopped and held me in his arms, my head rested on his chest.
"i cried the whole way through." i told him.
"its alright, I'll deal with dis."
"Lets just call the feds," i said, "chanels crazy, she made those guys rape me."
"what happened exactly," he asked.
"i dont wanna go into too much detail," i cried, "please."
I started bawlin.
we just lay there for about two hours, the sun came up and then he said, "do you bun."
"no," i said,
"you're gonna try some," he laughed.
"am i now."
"you are."
he pulled out the rizzler and did it.
me and him both sat up.
he put the now rolled up rizzler to my lips and lit the end of it.
"u done it before?". he asked.
"yeah, my uncle paul let me do it once."
"skeen- go on then, this is a tens yeah,"
" a tens?", i asked.
He nodded and then i smoked it. i started coughing so hard.
he laughed, we passed it back and forth until i got really light headed, i started laughing so hard for no reason and then i felt as though my head was gonna fall off.
I looked at smurkz and he was just staring at me, he wasnt high.
"what happened, tell me everythin,"
i told him everythin.
"they put on rubbers?", he asked.
i nodded.
"why would they put on rubbers," he asked, "they ALL had rubbers?"
i nodded.
"so they knew they were gonna rape you, they were well prepared, isnt dat strange 2 u".
"wat r u sayin", i was bare high.
"have u got anythin- be honest- i wont be vex, have u got an sti."
i cried and said, "sorcha said she saw a herpes results test in the bin, we dont know which one of you has it."
he kissed his teeth and said, "that dumb bitch, that test was for dee's boy, he was here before you lot came that day, them boys who raped you knew you weren't sorcha and they weren't chanels man dem."

"what are you saying," i asked.

"Sorcha- SHE set you up."

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 32

2010-03-27T12:52:00.000-07:00

I was shopping online. I bought BARE new outfits with the money Chanel had given me, dumb bitch.
i was in sorchas yard, her mum had made bare breakfast and sorcha was bringing some up so me and her would eat in her room and watch tv together.
I had had bare nightmares about the chanel ting but i had taken it out of my head, she deserved it.
sorcha came in with only one plate of toast, eggs, bacon and muffins.
"wheres mine," i asked.
"its downstairs with the other stuff," she said.
"You couldn't bring me some," i asked.
"Deena, do i like you somebody who serves people."
I kissed my teeth and went back behind the computer.
"I called the clinic, they said we both go in and get tested today," she said, "we need to know if we have it or not,".

"Are you sure it was a herpes test result you saw?", i asked.
she nodded, "one of them has it and we've been fucking them,"

I sighed, i wasnt even concerned.
"Deena, this is serious," she said, "you can't cure herpes."
I said, "whats the point in worrying about it, if weve got it weve got it innit."

"Why u going on rude for," she said.
I got up and stepped to her face, "Your some any booky bitch, you went upstairs when the feds came to tell smurkz what i told you and now look what he did to chanel and the worst part about is that YOU OWE HER money and THEN you have her set up, that shits not right sorcha and to be honest it made me doubt where i should even trust you especially after i forgave you for exposing me to natalie and sandra."

She roled her eyes and said, "Deena, Chanel deserved it."
"Noone deserves to get raped, pissed on and have acid thrown on their hand Sorcha, that shits fucked up."

"Deena, I did you a favour, what if i told Smurkz you were gonna go through with it, you'd be gassed up by now so i beg you come off the hype babes."
She kissed her teeth and sat on her bed.

"You know what Sorcha- I was going to allow you but since me and you are on this honesty ting..." i began, i picked up the container for her contact lenses, "True say everyone thinks your eyes are naturally blue."

She stood up and her fae showed me that she was shocked that she forgot to put in her lenses, "You're a fake bitch Sorcha," I said, "Your eyes are as brown as dog shit and you try come like you're from the aryan nation."

I picked up bags and got ready to leave. She got up and said, "Dee Dee why are we beefin', me and you are girls, after doing the test lets go Westfields yeah, we'll go wagamamas, ill pay."

I couldnt help but to smile and we hugged.
"how does the test work," she said, "do we have to pay."

"Nah nah," she said, "Its free on the NHS, basically they check your pum or dick to see if there's any sores and shit and if theres any blisters, they use a swab to take some of it to test, but some people dont show the symptoms of herpes and so they have to do a blood test to see just in case there are no physical signs."

"What happens if we have it, like do you itch."

"When my girl Shareeka had it, she had something like the flu, she had fever, was always bare tired had headaches, and her back used to hurt bare and her pum used to itch so much, but the ting is that she got it from her man in July before she left to go and spend the summer in Antigua but only got the symptons in November."

"How did she know she got it from him in July?", i asked.
"That was the last she got fucked by him before she went Antigua innit."
"So her man must have been fucking other chicks."
Sorcha nodded, "thats why chicks should wear rubbers even when they're with their boyfriends."
"Yeah but sorcha, me and you fuck bareback all the time."
"Thats why we need to get tested."
I nodded.
"I feel like beating now though you know," she said.
I nodded.
"Oh shit," she said, "I forgot to tell you, ryan and fumez are going court today for the natalie ting."

I went silent and then i said, "howd you know,"
"His mum told my my mum."
"How do your mums know each other?".
"Ryans dad is my dads cousin innit, and even though ryan dont chat to his parents, the feds told his mum."

"Wait so you fuck ryan even though you're related."
"Shut up deena."
"Eeuugh, but i cant deny, you know i fucked Jason."
"whose jason- oh my gosh, your uncle?!."
I nodded.
she fell on the floor laughing.
"what did it feel like?"
"Nice," i giggled.

"Lets get a link right now," she said, "im so fucking horny, and then later we'll go and see smurkz and dee."
I nodded.
Sorcha went onto her facebook and looked through the man dem on it.
"Oh my gosh," she said, "oh my fucking gosh look at what Natalie wrote on some chicks wall."
she read it out to me

NATALIE POSTED ON MARTINE'S WALL:

Cant wait till me and Marky Mark and his fam go Dubai next week, going court today to face the wastecadets who tried end my wonderful life, Too many dum'ass skets on road and too many dum'ass men giving them dick to explore.

I roled my eyes and then Sorcha said, "then she said to another person."

NATALIE POSTED ON SHARON'S WALL:

Sometimes the people we respect and love too much are the ones who hurt, what these bitches dont know is that they're in for a treat they never saw coming.

I kissed my teeth and said, "She must be going out with that Mark guy "
"She's a hoe," Sorcha said, "How can she get angry at us for fucking her dad, has she not seen how sexy he is."

I laughed, then sorcha said, "should we go and see ryan and fumez in court."
"no," i said, "lets just find a link."

She looked at me and said, "found one."
I went behind the computer and saw who she meant, he was some sexy lightie.
"half pakistani, half nigerian," sorcha said to me.
I licked my lips, "and believe me, his dick took me all around the world when i banged him."
"How big are his tings," i asked.
"His dicks bare small when its not erect but when its erect its about 10 inches and quite thick, not really thick but it gets the job done," she said, "hes got a stammer though, so dont laugh when you meet him."

I nodded.
I put on my clothes as sorcha put in her contacts. my hair had completely grown back and last nght I had dyed it jet black to make me look even more like kim kardashian.
I put on my make up.
I was wearing a baggy navy blue jumper, black tights and black reeboks with the same stunnas chipmunk had in Look to Me.
I looked so nang.
Sorcha called the guy we were going to link and told him to pay for a taxi for us to come collect us.
The cab came after ten minutes and sorcha gave the driver the adress.
I felt like i was a celebrity with my sunglasses, i dont think i had ever looked so good and sorcha was looking so average, she was some any mixraced beanie now i knew her eyes werent really blue, lool, some any faker.

when we got to Islington and the guys house, he was waiting outside.
he wasnt even sexy in person.
I paid for the cab, and it came to like £60.
we got out of the cab and sorcha ran and hugged him.
he squeezed her ass and looked at me, "huh-huh huse dis," he said.
"Oh babes," sorcha said, "this is my girlie deena."
"Hi," i said.
"U kl," he said. "Come in."
When we went inside, there were two guys waiting in the living room.
they were nice looking.
when they saw me they got up and shook my hand.
i took off my sunglasses as sorcha walked in.
"girls these are boys, OJ and Theo," the guy said, then he lipsed sorcha.
they were playing little dee's star in the making on their ps3.
"come we head upstairs," the guy who sorcha was with told her. they went upstairs and isat in between the two guys.

i put my hand on one of their dicks and squeezed, his friend looked at him bare nervously and squeezed my tit. He then got up and closed the curtains cos we were in the living room innit.
i took off my clothes as the both of them started sucking on my tits with both their fingers playing with my pussy.
the guys had nice fingers, they were both white, one of them looked like a bit like ayoung jack from eastenders and the other looked like someone i knew but couldnt place it.
i groaned as their tongues licked my face and neck.
then the took off their jeans and showed me their dicks.
i took one in my hand and licked the top whilst his friend sucked my tit.
i could feel soft hands in my cooch, only two fingers could fit inside and then i got really wet.
then one of them put me on his lap as the other stood in front of me with his dick in my mouth. i put the guys whose lap i was on dick in my pussy.
i whined pon his dick as i sucked his boy off.

the dick tasted so clean on my tongue, i started to feel dick deeper and deeper in me and then i started bouncing up and down on itso hard and fast till the guy started saying "ah, ah" like he was in pain but knew it was feeling peng at the same time.
my pussy got really hot and then i felt as though i was going to cum, as i came i closed my legs so tight that the guy came in me as well. i quickly got on my knees and licked both our cum off of his dick as his boy played with my pum.
then i bashed his boy off and let him bus all over my tits.
I reached for the kleenex and wiped my pum as the two guys just sat on the couch panting, then they gave each other high five and i laughed.

"You two were good," I said.
"Alright sket," one of them laughed and then i suddenly felt a sad feeling inside of me and then i went upstairs as they started laughing at me. i looked for the room sorcha was in and when i heard fucking noises i opened it.
sorcha was getting fucked in her mouth.
"Sorcha can we go now, "

"wait one minute," he said. then he came in her mouth. she laughed as his thick cum was all in her mouth.
he fell back on the bed exhausted as she spat out his cum into a tissue.
she put on her clothes and told him bye.
he didnt say shit to her as we left.

"have u called a cab," she asked me when we were outside as she pulled up her jeans.
"it costs too much- we're getting train."
"theres a drink up tonight in brixton, some guy just text me now," then she looked at me, "deenas whats wrong."
"Sorcha, we could have herpes and weve both just fucked these guys bareback."
"Shut up Deena, we might not even have it, lets go and get tested now, they said we could come at 2."

We went to highbury and islington station and caught the train to the my GP.
When we got there, we were bare nervous.
"I cant do it,"she said.
"what," i said, "sorcha we have to know."
"Nah nah," she said, "I cant, lets just go, we'll come back tomorow, i feel bare sick."
"thats the fuckin point babes," i said, "lets go inside."
then she shook her head and walked away.
i ran after her.
"tommorow yeah?", i said.
"thanks."

I felt bare dumb for agreeing because we had to know.

We caught the bus back to her yard to get ready for this party. I didnt even feel like going, grandma had called bare times but i didnt pick up my phone cos she was starting to get on my nerves.
Me and Sorcha spent hours on facebook listening to Nolays new stuff and proper whinin to Giggs Look What The Cat Dragged in. Then it was 9 oclock.
We got ready.
I put on this banging purple dress that was identical to the one victoria beckham wore and bright pink heels. i put on my pink lipgloss and did smokey eyes and then put on britney spears curious, i wasnt too fussed with what sorcha was wearing.

When we got on the bus to go the party, we saw so many man.
Sorcha and me wen to sit at the back where they were cos there were two seats left.
"You alright girls," one of the guys said.
"Yeh yeah, "Sorcha said, "Just off to a party, you?".
"We're gonna link some chicks," one of the guys said, we all started laughing.
"Us lot should link up some time," Sorcha said.
the guys looked at each other and then sorcha said, "what are you lot doing tomorow?".
"Nothin," one of the bres said.
"Heres my blackberry pin," she said, "Call me tommorow."
As me and her got off the bus one of the guys squeezed my ass, i kissed my teeth.

"They were so nang," Sorcha giggled as we walked towards the flat where the party was.
It was on some estate and we could see bare people heading inside.
when we got in, they were playing Pass Out and bare people were drinkin and whinin everywhere.
I looked and i thought i saw someone i knew and i got a really uneasy feeling in my stomach.
Sorcha kissed me on the cheek as she waved to some guy who was pouring Dissarano into some chicks glass.
We went into the front room where it was so pack up, bare chicks bennin up. bare man daggerin as Wolf in Sheeps Clothing came on, it was goin so hard, whatever stereo they had was so fucking nang.
me and sorcha started whinin together.
evryone was sweating
the red lights were dim.
weed was in the air
hands on my body
people drinking.
bare gyal and man on a lipsin ting
i was getting high from the dro i was inhaling.
all i could see were whinin bodies, it was sexy.
bare of us dancin together, bare man on me touching my tits.
Nolay's wolf in sheep clothing was playing so hard, the bass was pumping me and i turned and sorcha wasnt there.
i looked and saw her going upstairs with some guy.
I kept on dancing and then i saw a glimpse of someone.
then my phone rang, it was smurkz.
"hello,"
"i cant hear you deena, where are you."
"hello!".
i decided to walk out of the party to outside of the flats where a few man were bunning.
when they saw me they started whistling.
"can u hear me now babes," i said.
"where are you," he said.
"at some party in endz, where are you?".
"Im going penthouse, i wanted to come check you first but ill see you tommorow innit."
"No wait," i said, "come pick me up, im in Myatts Field init."
"Kl," he said, "meet me on the high road in five minutes."
I said bye and put the phone down. I walked down the stairs and when i got to the bottom of the stairs I saw six men down there.
they all looked at me, one of them was carrying a shank. I said "excuse me please," cos i wanted to walk past them to leave the estate.
"sorcha," one of them said.
"what," i said,
"dont act dumb innit," one of the guys said.
"No no i'm not sorcha."
then one of them grabbed my arm.
I looked around and could see there was actually 7 of them, they looked angry, they were all blacked out, the moon was out and the sky was dark.
"Im not Sorcha i swear," i said.
"Fuckin Sket," one of them said.
They dragged me by my dress into some alley way. I was gonna scream but one of them had a shank to my neck.

They pushed me against the wall as they surrounded me.
"This is from Chanel."

Then they took out the box cutter and then they started cutting into my skin

DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 31.

2010-03-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

I sat in the car crying listening to Look what the cat dragged in was slowly making me feel better.
I wiped my eyes as smurkz walked in and sat next to me. what had sorcha done?
"sorcha told me that chanel paid u to set man up- and that u told sorcha to protect me," he sed.
I looked at him, "smurkz- what did they do to her."
sorcha hadnt told him that i was considerin actually helping chanel, he looked at me and sed, "what happened 2 her is what would happen to any bitch who tries to fuck around with me innit," he sed, in his eyes i saw somethingugly for the first time.

"r u gonna kill her," i asked.
"come back inside with me," he sed.
"i cant watch what theyre doing to her," i said.
"ur gonna have to so u know never to fuck with me."

He pulled me back into the flat.
when we got there sorcha and dee were lipsin on the couch, smurkz walked past them and kicked open the door chanel was in.
i started cryin when i saw her on her back getting fucked by some bre. she was crying.
"i cant look," i sed, "smurkz please."
"sorcha's seen it and she didnt cry, " smurkz sed.
"allow it man," dee sed
"nah she needs to see what happens to chicks who fuck around with me innit," smurkz sed, "look how she's crying deena- i'd be crying too if you had helped her set man up."

then he walked into the room,pulled down his zip and pissed on her. all the guys in the room jus laufed.
she looked at me and cried and i mouthed "sorry."
smurkz looked at me and sed, "how much did she give u,"
"erm she gave me 500."
then sorcha stood up and sed, "so u need to give smurkz and dee 400 and me 100."
then i wiped my eyes and sed, "why do i give u one hundred."
"cos im the one who saved smurkz life- imagine what would happen if you had gone ahead with setting up- you'd be lying where chanel is right now or worse,i saved ur life deena."

smurkz looked at me and sed, "deena its cool- i dont even want the money, mans just grateful you saved my life init- ur bare smart, taking her money that she paid to set me up jus so u culd give it to me."
he kissedme on the cheek.
i looked at chanel as the guys were that raping her were shoutin at her sayin, "u might as well enjoy it- cos we're not gonna stop."

and then i noticed her legs, they were badly bruisd like someone had been trying to break them and she one black eye and a busted lip.
sorcha walked into the room and looked at chanel, "any dumb sket- look at you now- its a good ting ur not a virgin or else there would be a lot more blood."

smurkz and dee laufed, then sorcha kicked chanel in the face.
"when you man finish with her, leave the flat and dont ever come back here- just leave her to sort herself out," smurkz sed and then he sed to chanel, "just so u know never to fuck with man again..."
then he knudged sorcha. she went into her bag and pulled something- it looked like water.
chanel started cryin as dee told everyone to step back as smurkz walked towards her, he poured the clear water looking ting on her hand and i realized when it started to smoke her that it wasnt water, but acid.

she cried out in pain, smurkz gave one of the ten guys who was raping her the bottle and sed, "just in case she misbehaves."

then we left and got back into the car.
"lets go withdraw the money she paid deena right now," sorcha sed.
"forget about the fucking money sorcha," smurkz sed, "its deenas- shes the one who saved mans life, if she didnt tell u i could have been....." then he stopped and sed, "lets go back to ours innit."

"i wanna go home," i sed wiping my eyes.
sorcha looked at me sed, "ignore her dee, lets go to your drum innit."
we got to the house.

we got out of the car and walked inside. it was bare dark outside.
sorcha and dee went upstairs and i sat on the sofa watching Eastdners. smurkz sat next to me with a glass of ben and jerry's cookie dough ice cream for me.
he looked at me and sed, "thankyou- the sket was gonna have man duppied if it werent for u."
he looked even more like a mix between aggro and marvin from jls now.
we lipsed as he had his arm around me as i ate the ice cream.
we heard sorcha getting wocked upstairs and we both smiled.
i looked at him and sed, "do u do this to people often- like when they hurt u, u have them like roughed up."
he didnt say nuthin and sed, "jus cos a guy's not on the road dont mean he dont know how to handle shit deena- i want people to know not to fuck with me innit."

then he kissed me and said, "and i want people to know to never fuck with my wife."
i looked at him and smiled, then he said, "im happy it was u and not sorcha who chanel tried to bribe- sorcha's a snake she would have taken the money- you see how eager she was to get it."

I nodded.
"dee dont even like her," he sed, "its just that her brain game is on point and her pussys nang."

"u fucked her?", i asked.
"yeah- i used to fuck sorcha from day, lineups in the park ting, me and a few man would meet her every day and just beat her out rawly, she was even carryin a yout one time when we smashed"

"what?".

"yeah she was pregnant for some man she sed,but i think his daughter was her friend or sumtim, i dunno it was some long dramatic story but she killed it innit," he sed.

"why."
he shrug his shoulders and sed, "ur the cheung one- if she didnt have blue eyes then no man would clock her, yeah her body is nang but everytin about uis on point the sexy eyes the sexy skin the back off the lips."

then we lipsed so hard and sexy.
"why does chanel hate u so much?", i asked.
he didnt say nuthin and then sed, "dont watch her deena, think about me and my nice dick in your iranian pum, yeah?".
then he licked my tits.

"i need to reward u for helping me," he sed.
he took the ice cream out of my hand and took off his clothes, he gave his black boxers to me and i smelt them, it smelt of his dick and then i put them in my mouth.

he spread my legs apart, i werent wearin no underwear. the feeling of his warm tongue flickerin over my clit made me wanna pass out, he started lickin faster then and harder. i was twistin and turnin and wanted to scream but the taste of the boxers was too good to let go.

his lips wrapped around my pussy eating me for dinner.
my legs over his bare shoulders as i was cryin in pleasure.
"you see how much i love you deena," he said.
i nodded.
he went back to eating my pussy and lickin it all over.
as the holby city theme tune played my warm pussy was being devoured by the sexy lips of smurkz, he licked the clit so fast that my heart was beating too fast, i had to ask him to stop and just as i was about to squirt, he- oh shit.

he started fucking me.
the feeling of my own orgasm being trapped inside of me by his dick was mental.
"fuck me smurkz- beat me out nice," was all i could say as my legs were wrapped around his neck and he wocked me out.
then he pushed me on the floor so i was lying on my stomach then he put his dick in me from behind and started doin press ups as he fucked me.
getting doggied is the best feeling a girl can have and as smurkz doggied me all i could think of was how his dick looked inside of me.

"im gonna squirt," i said.
he laufed and started bangin me even harder, "dont stop!", i cried.
he pulled out of me and as he came all over my ass, i squirted.
he cleaned the cum off his dick was my ass and then licked my cum off my pussy and then spat into a tissue.
i tried to stand up but i cldnt- my legs were too weak.
he picked me up and we lipsed and i sed, "smurkz i love u."
then he sed, "u dnt love me deena, u love my dick, when u actually love me you'll know about it."

so sexy.
he took me up into his room and he put me on the bed.
man had a huge boner pointin in my direction, "lemme christen u deena," he said.
"whats that."
"lie down."
i lay on the bed as he stood over me and bashed over my face.
i opened my mouth as his cum ran down the air and onto my tongue.
then he fell on the bed next to me panting as i swallowed.
i went to kiss him but he pushed my face away, "theres a spare toothbrush in the bathroom, its the blue one, use it and throw it away."

I got up and made my way to the bathroom, i peaked into dees room to see him doggying sorcha. i suddenly got horny again, i went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, then walked back into smurkz room, he laying there exhausted.
i suddenly thought about my miscarriage and felt a bit sad and then i thrt about what smurkz had sed about sorcha having an abortion, she never told me about it.

smurkz got up as i lay down and went to his mac, it was already on and he put on youtube and started watching some little dee interview.

"do u think hes nice," smurkz asked me, "so many chicks i know are on his nuts."
"yeah hes nice," i sed, "ur sexier tho."
he didnt say nuthin and kept on watchng. then he sed, "whose ryan deena."

I looked at him as he turned to me, he was holding my phone.
"some dickhead guy i used to link," i sed trying not to be nervous.
he stood up and gave me my fone.
then he lipsed me, grabbin my ass.
"i was goin through ur texts," he sed.
i sat on his lap.
"whose the sickest femcee in ur opinion," he asked.
"it has to be between nolay, shystie and lioness, nolay's f64 was deep."

"innit," he sed.
"but shystie cant be compared to anyone, shes just sick in her own right."
"she's got class," smurkz said.
then he touched my pussy and sed, "would u be on doing line ups for my boys- its his birthday tommorow innit."

"line ups- smurkz i aint no loose sket."
"deena, its for ma boy," he sed.
then he said, "its gonna be about 6 man yeah, u dont mind do you."
I looked at him and said,"no i dont."
then he kissed my back and sed, "i beg u get on ur knees and suck my dick."
i did what he said and started suckin as he was listenin to look what the cat dragged in.

then my phone rang.
I got up, wiped my mouth and went to answer it.
"hello."
"deena fi dead." then they hung up.
"who was it," smurkz asked.
i lied and sed, "wrong number."
"get back to suckin," he sed.
i went back to suckin his dick.

"there's something you should know about chanel," he said.
i looked up and said "what."
Just as i asked what, Sorcha walked into the room.
"u kl," smurkz sed to her.
"yeah, we have to go," she sed, "come on deena."
I kissed my teeth,
"is dee dropping u lot back," smurkz asked.
sorcha said, "nah ive called a cab cos hes sleeping."
I got dressed and kissed smurkz on the cheek, "bell me tommorow yeah," ised.

he smacked my ass.
we left the house and as we waited outside for the cab sorcha said, "i have to tell u something."
we got into the cab and agreed that we'dgo back to sorchas yard and id sleep there.
"what did u wanna tell me?", i asked.

"I found a test result for herpes in the kitchen bin and the name of whose letter it was was torn off," she said.
"what are u saying," i asked.

"Either Smurkz or Dee has herpes and we've just finished fucking them- bareback."

THE SORCHA BEAT

2010-03-22T08:49:00.000-07:00

Want to know what Sorcha got up to BEFORE she met Deena and all the shit she got up to that she THINKS nobody knows about including how she REALLY met Natalie's dad and the secret she's been keeping from everyone about her step sister Rochelle, then get ready for The Sorcha Beat which starts this Friday.

SORCHA- THE SKET YOU LOVE TO HATE.

UPDATE: THE SORCHA BEAT UP NOW
http://deenasket-thesorchabeat.blogspot.com/2010/03/sorcha-beat-1.html

DEENA SKET- CHAPTER 30 EXTENDED

2010-03-21T15:46:00.000-07:00

"Who the fuck is this?".
"Dont watch that deena- jus know your dead."
then the line hung up.
sorcha looked at me bare shook, "who was it,"
"sorcha- can we go back to my nans house please- i dont wanna see smurkz today."
"cool cool- we'll get a cab."
sorcha called a cab and it came within ten minutes.
i was so shook all the way back, like i began to realise the shit i was in.
when we got to my nans house, me and sorcha went into the living room.
"somebody said they were gonna kill me," i sed, "they said im a dead sket."
sorcha looked at me, "was it a bre or chick,"
"a bre," i sed. i cld feel myself starting to have a panic attack,
i ran into the kitchen and poured myself some water.
"wheres ur uncle," sorcha asked.
"he must be out," i sed startin to relax.
i walked back into the front room.
"sorcha- i need to tell you somethin," i said.
she looked at me bare confused.
"chanel wants me to set up smurkz- she gave me money for it, but i cant do it."

her face lit up.
"chanel- as in his girl," she asked.
i nodded.
"did she say why."
i shook my head.
"we have to tell smurkz," she said.
"nah nah we cant," i said, "he'll hurt her."
"same way she wants to hurt him- i'm gonna call him,"
she picked up her blacberry and i stopped her, "what if we set HER up without telling him," i said.
"how do you mean," she said.
"she offered to send me more money when i said i wasnt sure, what if i asked for more and when she pays, i change my number and never talk to her again."
"And we keep the money."

Sorcha smiled so hard.
"how much did she give u so far," she asked.
"5 bills- i'll give u 250 and if we ask for 5 bills more ill give u another half," i sed.
"call her now," she sed, "tell her ur scared and need more."
"before i do that," i sed, "what about the person who called and said i was gonna die."
"change ur number- ive got a sim you can use- call chanel first."

i dialled chanels number.
"hello."
"hi babes," i sed,"its deena."
"everything good darling,", i put her on speaker.
"yeah yeah, but chanel- i was with smurkz today and he's not that on me anymore- i wanna suck his dick to change that but uno how u sed you would pay more if i was.."

"how much do u want," she said bare quick.
"6 bills more."
sorcha looked at me like wtf.
"alright,"
i was silent, nah nah this was bookie- she had already given me 500.
"ill give u 6 bills deena- just make sure you don't fuck around with me innit- i know things about you that you think nobody knows- send ur sort code and bank account number,"
i gave her my details and sed, "chanel- tell me what u wanna do to him."
there was a silence and then she said, "send me your home adress and ill send u a letter about something important which explains shit,"
i agreed and gave it to her.
"i have to go now," she said, "call me if the money doesnt come in time yeah babes."
"alright darling- bye."
i put the phone down and laughed so hard.
"shes actually gonna pay 600 more," i sed.
"im not suprised- i know she has dough, her dads some top shotter in East- but he's in pen now," sorcha said.
"and u owe her money," i sed.
"yeah but shes dumb with her dough- look how much shes given u to do something ur not even sure u can do."
"is she dangerous though?".
"yeah she is- she arranged for some chick to get raped cos the chick fucked her man," sorcha sed.
we chatted for about an hour, then the door bell rang.
sorcha looked at me.
i walked to the door and opened it slowly.
It was two police officers.

"Deena?", one of them asked.
"Yes," i said.
"this is Detective Carl and I'm detective rowe, can we come in?".
"yes."
they walked in and followed me into the front room.
"hi," sorcha said to them.
"we need to speak to you alone deena,if thats ok." detective rowe said.
"ill go upstairs,". she went upstairs.

"deena, we're investigating the attempted stabbing of Ms.Natalie Johnson who is a friend of yours- now one of our suspects Ryan Whitely says that you would be able to provide him with an alibi, he says you were with him around the time of the attempted stabbing, would you be prepared to confirm this."

I thought bare hard and then i said, "he's lying," i looked them dead in the eye and continued,"ryan wasnt with me that night."
i felt sick inside- i had lied and ryan was gonna get sent down because of it.
when the police came, sorcha walked down.
"what did they want."
"ryan and fumez have been arrested and they wanted to know if..."
then sorchas phone rang.
"dee!- u good... yeah yeah we're down.... kl.....we'll be there."
"what did he want," i askd.
"they want us to come link them- they're gonna come get us from the high road- in five minutes."
I looked at her, "sorcha, i dont wanna go- i just wanna relax here."
"deena, r u shook cos of that prank call, its obviously some wasteman with too much time on his hands- nobodys gonna hurt u deena."
then she hugged me. we left the house and i lockd the door behind me.
by the time we got to the high road, we saw dees car.
we jumped in the backseat.
"u alrite girlies," dee said.
"yeah yeah," sorcha said, "u kl smurkz."
smurkz nodded and said, "u lot eaten yet?",
"nah," we both said.
"alrite," dee said, "we need to sort something out first."
we drove for bare long until we reached some old dirty estate.
we all got out of the car. smurkz puthis arm around my waist as we walked into the lift.
"sixth floor yeah," dee asked smurkz. smurks nodded as he kissed me.
we got to the sixth floor and it stank, there were two crackheads cotchin outside the lift.
smurkz knocked on the door and some gassed up bre opened it.
smurkz spudded him as we walked inside. the flat was disgusting, i could smell weed everywhere.
then i heard a girl screamin.
"shes in there innit," dee said. the gassed up bre nodded.
i looked at sorcha.
she looked away from me.
then smurkz opened the bedroom door.
there was about 10 man around this one chick who had her head down. she was covered in piss and cum, they were... oh my gosh they were raping her.
and then she lifted her head.
"Chanel"

DEENA SKET CHAPTER 30

2010-03-21T10:07:00.000-07:00

"Natalie."

"Ya dun know."
She walked into the house and looked me up and down, she had dyed her hair blonde and was rockin some cherry red lipstick and some deep outfit.
"What do u want?", i asked her bare shook.
"Close the door",she said.
I shut the door. she walked into the front room and sat down and then looked at me, "You look good Deena."

"Natalie i beg u get out,"i sed.
"I need you to do something for me," she sed.
I sat down on the sofa opposite her.
"You're not here to fight," i said.
"That will be another time Deena- but now I need you to help me out with somethin- somethin to do with ryan."

I looked at her bare shook, she was actin bare kl, like i hadnt fucked her dad, fucked her rapists and taken her friend from her.
"Ryans been caught- him and fumez have been caught in Napa, attempted murder, my attempted murder and the feds are gonna ask u if ryan was with u the night fumez tried to shank me up- and ur gonna say no."

I looked at her, "natalie- he was with me- it was fumez- he's the one who tried to stab you- allow ryan."

"Deena dont take me a for a dick ed you know- i know ryan organised it- and I know you had nothing to do with it, even tho i set you up- oh jesse and faisani say hi and cant wait to see you agen."

I almost shat myself.
"If you give ryan an alibi then i'll tell the feds that i tried to set u up and that gives u a motive- if you tell the feds that you dont know where ryan was that night- they'll assume he was with fumez trying to shank me and ill say yeah he was with fumez, that way ryan and fumez go to pen and the both of us can get on with our lives."

I shook my head, "ryan didnt do it- fumez did."
"If ryan and fumez are gonna go pen for raping me, then they need to go pen for trying to kill me you fuckin bitch- deena think carefully- why are you gonna give ryan an alibi- i know what he did to you, i know he fucked u up which made you miscarriage he has about three other youts running around, dont bother with him, do what i say and everything will be cool."

"What if i dont," i sed.
She laughed and said, "deena- if you don't then the feds are going to assume you were an accomplice, and then you'll be put in pen and i know you deena you cant even watch csi without getting scared, what do you think them batty girls in pen would do to a sexy girl like you, your pussy would look like all the colors of the fucking rainbow."

She got up and said, "if the feds dont come to ask you anything- then cool, but if they do- you know what to say and if you tell that sket sorcha about this you're dumber than i thought, ."
then she whispered in my ear, "and i havent forgotten about what you and my dad did to sandra."
then my girl just lef.
I sat in the sofa, just thinkin. if i lied and told the feds ryan wasnt with me then he'd get nabbed and then he might come after me or get one of his boys to and how could i betray him when that SAME NIGHT he saved my life when natalie set me up to get fucked up by jesse and my own cousin faisani.

my phone rang, it was chanel.
"U alrite babes," she sed.
"yeah im gd- chanel i was thinkin about it- lemme just give u ur money back-i like smurkz too much, i cant set him up."
"nah nah deena- dont be fooled by him, i know his dick is the business but he's a wasteman, you need to help me, do you want more money?".
"how much more," i asked.
"two bills more- just take your time with him, even if it takes a year for him to completely trust you i'm willing to wait, just get him to trust you."

"what are you gonna do to him," i asked.
"deena, leave that shit to me, just make him tell you stuff innit, ill send as much money as possible, just do this innit," she sed bare desperate.
"where are you getting this money from," i asked.
"dont watch that innit just keep seeing him as much as possible ok?",
"ok," i sed, "i fucked him today."
"oh is it," she laughed," he made you cum innit."
we both laughed so hard, "i have to go now babes- but keep doing what you're doing, ill tell you what to do."
"alright," i said.

She was so cool. even though i felt deep about helping her set smurkz up maybe he deserved it, his cock was nice but i could tell he had some dark shit to him, when we fucked he looked at me like he wanted to kill me.
i went up to the laptop and put on some porn, i fink the site was tube8.
i took off my clothes and put on some sexy video about one brazilian chick getting banged out rawly by some black guy.
I started to think of little dee with his fingers in my pussy, whispering in my ear, licking my neck and turning me into a bitch.
I imagined his big hands gliding down my pussy and then tickling the clit and then kissing my ear as i grabbed hold of his dick.
i imagined me bending down and slipping his dick in my mouth and then him pushin my head deeper and deeper down until he came, and his cum splattered all over my mouth, so much so that the cum leaked out of my lips and went all down my chin.
then he wiped it off with his dick and fucked me.

then i went to bed.
I woke up the next morning and saw Uncle Jason standing in my room watching me.
"what the fuck," i said.
he was bashin his dick off.
"lets fuck again" he said.
"get out- wheres grandma," i said.
"gone to ethels house for the day- she said she might sleep there." he came closer, i jumped out of bed and picked up my fone, "if u come near me, ill call the police- we're not fucking, you're my uncle."

"didnt stop you the first time."
then he came near me and kissed me. i didnt stop him.
he grabbed my ass and started grinding his dick on me and then i pushed him away.
"fuck me," he said.
"jason- if you dont go away ill tell grandma u tried to rape me- who will she believe?".
he put on his troubles and called me a bitch then left the room.
i took my fone went to the bathroom and called sorcha.
"hello," i sed.
"hi darlin- what u on today," she said.
"Nothing, where are you, i can hear a bres voice."
"i went to some rave last night and went home with some sexy indian ting, little dick though."
"not all indian guys have little dicks," i laufed.
"this one does, his dick is so little that when he bus, it ran down his balls."
I burst out laughing.
"come see me," she sed.
"where," i asked.
"lets go and link some bres yeah- meet me at finchley station in an hour, i know to sexy iranian tings with nice dicks."
"im not in the mood for it today," i sed.
"deena, when you see these dicks it'll make you want to learn the Qu'ran."
"Cool- ill be there in about twohours, i need to get ready," i said.
"oh and deena- i beg u wear something different, you always rock that same blazer look, mix it up a bit yeah."
"cool."
she put the phone down.
i took off my pyjamas, got in the shower and got ready.
the back of my hair had almost full grown back but i was scared to straigten it in case it fell out so it was bare curly,so i just brushed a bit to make the curls loose and a bit long.
put on my make up and then put on my Lyle and scott jumper, my jeans and my black airoforces and left the house without saying bye to jason.

i wanted to go and see corey for a quick wok.
i hadnt seen him in ages and i missed him somuch- even though he stank of fried shit he was so sexy.
i called him up," u home,"i asked.
"yeah- mans not even on this college ting today, come see me."
"i will."

I got to his yard and when i got there, he was in nothin but a towel with the fattest boner, he actually smelt nice.
"shit- u look different, why did u leave college," he asked.
"got thrown out," i said,"i beg u shut up about college and fuck me."

thrown on the bed.
clothes off.
dick out.
legs spread.
dick in.
tongue in mouth.
dick grinding pussy.
fuck me fuck fuck me.
"oh shit."
i kissed my teeth.
"this doesnt usually happen."
"sure it dont."
I got up, how can he flop on me.
"deena wait."
i got up, got dressed.
"deena come back- this doesnt usually happen, i aint fucked in time, thats why."
"i have to go," i said.
"beg u dont be like this," he said.
"bye."
i left his house and started creasin as i got on the bus. fuckin flop- cumming in after three minutes. smurkz would never dissapoint me like this and i was hoping sorchas new links wouldnt either.
i caught the train and had to change twice to get to finchley station.
when i got there i had to wait about an hour for sorcha to come and when she came she looked so tired.
"you look sexy," i said hugging her.
"i like your hair," she sed, "ok lets go."
we walked through bare backstreets and then stopped when we got to some house.
she called the guy,"im outside your house."
"i can see you," i heard him say, "you're at the wrong house, i live three doors down."
then i saw the sexiest, wait, sexy isnt the word. he was fuckable, he was made to get his dick sucked. i got wet.
tall arab guy with a low cut beard, bleno with big arms rockin a white vest and shorts.
we went to his house, he hugged sorcha and nodded at me.
"where's your friend," sorcha asked.
"hes not here, " he said lookin at me.
"this is deena," sorcha said, "her dads iranian."
he looked me up and down and smiled, "you speak fardou?".
i shook my head bare nervous.
"what are we gonna do," sorcha said, "i wanted deena to meet your boy."
"he's in the mosque now innit,".
the house smelt of apple shisha.
i looked at his face, he was a proper man.
i looked down at his shorts.
i didnt business, i bent down, pulled down and his shorts and put the dick in my mouth.
it was sotonk, like it was about 8 incches but it was tonk with ahuge crown.
i was slobberin all over the dick, sorcha kissed him as i sucked his dick.
then she got on her knees and pulled the dick slowly out of my mouth and started to suck it.
i went to kiss him but he turned his head and pushed me back down. me and sorcha took turns sucking his dick. he was up against the wall and we were suckin him.
then he told me to get up.
i was so excited.
he took of my clothes and threw them to the floor. i was naked in front of him. sorcha kissed my pussy.
he picked me up and started to fuck me standing up as sorcha was licking his balls, his balls in her mouth his dick in my pussy.
the dick was warm, i placed my head on his big shoulders and grabbed his neck as i was whinin on his dick.
it felt nice, i looked into his eyes and he said, "your pussy feels nice."
i smiled, i could feel the heat going to my face as i could feel sorchas tongue lick his dick and my pussy at the same time, i needed to fart but if i did i would fart on her face so i held it in.
he bit my lip as he started to bang me harder, sorcha started licking his hairy thighs and size 14 feet as i cld feel myself about to cum.
he gave me five dirty bangs.
bam
bam
bam
bam
CUM.
my cum ran down his thighs.
i fell back onto the floor, it didnt even hurt.
my man was still hard, i actually thought he had cum too but obviously that iranian dick wasnt playing about.
he pulled sorcha by her hair upstairs.
she was laughing.
i followed them with my shaky legs.
we all were in his room.
he pushed her on the bed and said to me," eat her pussy."
i did wat he said and ate her pussy. he got behind me and started doggyng me.
i had to stop eating the pussy, cos his dick felt so nice.
he was bangin me and cos he was so hench every bang nearly pushed me off his dick. he slapped my ass as he fucked me.
i rested my head on sorchas tits as he fucked me,
she was laughin as he got harder and harder.
his hands were so big, they were chokin me as he fucked and fucked and then i felt... oh shit... imagine your entire pussy feeling ticklish. like the entire cooch feeling like its being tickled, every inch of it.
his dick was hot in me, owning my pussy, it was so deep inside that i could feel his V-line against my ass.
my pussy felt warm and hot and ticklish as he....
he came.
it was like a fountain unloading in me, i started having an orgasm, my toes curled as sorcha kissed me as he cleaned his dick with my pussy.
"i need to pray," he said, "you two need to leave,"
i looked at sorcha and she kissed her teeth.
i didnt wanna go but he told me to get dressed and he forced us both out.
we looked at each other.
"sorcha lets go back, it was so good," i sed.
"hes some any dick head," she sed, "come we go check smurkz."
"alright kl."
Just as we were walkin back to the mainroad.
it was my witheld number
i looked at it and didnt wanna answer but i did.
"deena," some bres voice..
"whose this."
"You're a dead sket."